LittleOrphanMe

My dear,
You are impossibly smart. You know your way around the English language and it shows. You're educated, not just from a university in Ireland, but from life as well. You recite poetry to me, though as an American, it sometimes goes over my head and I have to ask what it means. You say things to me in Gaelic and my heart flutters and knees buckle. When you  leave me, you say "Slainte," making it harder for me to say goodbye. You're unbelievably strong. Your arms wrapped around me make me feel incredibly safe, like nothing could hurt me because you're there to stop it. Your body, tall and solid, forms a wall for me to collapse upon when I need to. Your gentle blue eyes, filled with lust and hunger when they gaze upon my face, though they soften when I speak. You have an accent that unglues me.  Your delicious Irish brogue is intoxicating and I find my head spinning when you speak, especially when you use Gaelic words and refuse to tell me what you said.

You are charming, lovable, sweet, and sexy. The look on your face, as you soak in every gesture I make, studying me. You are the proper amount of dominance and gentleness for me. Your hand on my throat makes me feel safe and secure, not scared. I know that you could hurt me, if you wanted to, but you wouldn't dream of it. You challenge me, in every sense of the word, and I treasure that. I love that my intelligence doesn't have to hide to suit your ego, I love that you embrace it. I love that my being an alpha female doesn't intimidate you, you like that I can challenge you back. You appreciate that because I'm an alpha and I don't easily submit, that when I give that to you, it is sacred and precious. You don't shy away from my body. I try to hide it, but you enjoy my every curve and flaw. I feel beautiful around you and even when I'm not with you I still feel beautiful, because in your eyes, I am. Your hands, though strong and powerful, soften when they touch my skin. You are wonderful, in more ways than I can even say.

You feel like home to me. I feel so at peace in your presence, like I'm where I belong. Whether I'm curled up in your arms, on my knees in front of you, pinned against my wall with your hand on my throat, or sitting across from you at a Starbucks with my hand on your thigh, you are the respite from the world that I crave.

Unfortunately, I cannot have you. Life is cruel and we met when you were already settled in your life. If only we had met years ago, if only our paths had crossed at a better time. A time when we could have been together in all the ways I would love to have you.You are absolutely perfect. You are everything I could hope to encounter in a partner someday.  You are the benchmark and standard I will hold all future men to. They have so much to live up to, you set an impossible standard.

Always,

your cailín maith