LaBelleCocotte

Male Submissive, 29, singapore

Female Submissive, 54, Nanaimo. BC

Transgender Dominant, 78, Bangladesh

just had a message from a young attractive sub who i had arranged to meet tomorrow, telling me the photo wasnt of him and he was a fake, only coming on here when he felt horny... another one! i doubt there is one genuine sub on this site.

a poem to me from a worm, a special worm, but a worm none the less... "delicously dark in tower of lonely pleasure she waits and wonders and weeps and sighs her boy will com her boy will cum dark evening, lights below gagged and hooded, she exorcises Her need and he is become slave to Her passion mewling, buggered, kneeling, leashed happy"

i received the following well meaning text from a sub in california - "Dear Ms. LaBelleCocotte,You (rightly) complained: "when a young man contacts me and we spend days arranging to meet and then he disappears off the face of the earth the day before we are supposed to meet then i say to myself, how can he live with himself?"You are right that there is no acceptable?excuse for such male behavior, Madame. But there MAY be a (valid) reason why it happens: male fear of Superior FemDom Sexual Power over him. An honest man knows that when he visits a sexually Dominant Woman, he WILL fall under Her erotic control, and will be compelled to obey Her in whatever She may require. Plus, he knows She has the Female Power to also deeply humiliate his masculinity. While all these things have a pleasantly-erotic aspect for him, they also create some fear of such awesome, irresistable FemDom Power that can capture him.Just a thought for you to consider (as well as enjoyment of Your superior Female Power over men).In submissive male respect..." however, i say, why get in touch with me in the first place!!! and then the slut in question does get in touch and tells me there was an "emergency at work" and "please forgive me." SHITE!!!

when a young man contacts me and we spend days arranging to meet and then he disappears off the face of the earth the day before we are supposed to meet then i say to myself, how can he live with himself?

seems some of you wriggling worms actually read this rather skimpy journal of mine, so i will add an entry for yous. i dont do capital letters out of choice, not because i am thick. i dont do cyber. i dont do freebies. i dont do transatlantic domming. i am not looking for a live-in slave, from egypt, or anywhere else. i found a rather nice boy who turned out to be a time waster - shame! and he has a whole life of deceit in front of him. i had even got to the stage of offering him financial terms, which i had pondered over, when i could have been thinking of getting fisted by my man instead. now that really pisses me off. i found another who seems more genuine. and he likes to write. and he writes well.

i havent had any contact with anyone reasonably interesting to me recently. just the same old lines and offers and insults while the weather continues to slip and slide from sunny to rain. it is most unsettling.

so many voices crying out in the wet night, so much primal energy and beauty going to waste in this mad world of ours. people, alone in their dreams, needing the comfort, of even a stranger's, warm body. so much waste. so much loneliness. so much pain.

so often i feel half empty, in need of masculine strength and confidence to fill me up, to inspire me. there are men who have a need to express themselves through their sexuality, they need a woman, not an inferior, but an equal to open herself to them, to offer herself to them, who welcomes being invaded, torn apart and under control. not passively but aggressively, erotically. two people need to feed off each other to be whole, for a while at least.

lots has been happening. if you look into the abyss it looks back!

i described myself as a strange fruit to someone today; i am a strange and extraordinary person; here even the orchestra is beautiful! do you know what i am talking about worms? do you understand my references. do you notice that references has three "e'S"? why is my profile so "shy" as another described it? have i nothing to say?

i have been in bed now for two days. i was feeling down but then went for a drink with a Dom friend and the men sitting outside the pub wouldnt leave me alone, making comments about my hair, my tits, my tatoos, laughing and staring. one even came over and stood over me. they were constantly vying for my attention and wouldnt give up. we had to go and sit inside where it was too cold with the Ac. it was the last straw for me and eventually i went home and just lay down feeling unwell and depressed. it was so hot. people dont realize how much they take out of you. it is the same with the subs here always demanding, demanding, time wasting, time wasting. i had to cancel the meeting with my man that we had both been looking forward to. A night of eroticisme in the cool breeze in my flat up in the sky. i was totally devastated to let him down but i was totally wiped out. he was understanding. that is one of the reasons i love him. my strap-on awaits.

i got a message today that made me laugh. i said i looked sadistic "pure evil in fact." nothing could be further from the truth. some of you will feel let down by this admission, but i am a caring Domme always sensitive to my subs needs. it gives me no pleasure to feel that a sub could be in distress.

in this life one meets many strange people, many dishonest people. it saddens me when i believe someone to be honest and they turn out to be self serving and deceitful, it never fails to hurt me. one always gets over it but there is always a bit of pain left.

the weather is still hot and muggy but i like it. drinking too many diet cokes though. the caffeine affects me quite badly yet i keep wanting more. Sound familiar? wanting more of what does you harm?

eventually got to the gym. i have to admit it was worth it. people keep telling me that but it is taking its time to sink in. listening to Radio Head. Got it second hand. i love it. THE BENDS. great passionate stuff. got it in a very old record shop in which the geezers that run it know EVERYTHING about music, evryone in birmingham must have been in that shop, and actually people come from all round the world to that shop with its musty carpets. i also got Blondie and Edith Piaf. I know someone who likes RadioHead. He is passionate too. i love his passion and his intelligence not to mention his mouth and his cock. I am getting messages from a different class of slut lately. a better class. Sluts who are into worship. i need to be worshiped.

i have been meeting some interesting sluts on here recently. unfortunately one of them is in canada. he is a pure delight to look at. and saw fit to compliment me which i like worms. the other two are in birmingham and bristol. listening to some house/techno music from a roof party across the way. superb. it is a lovely saturday evening just after a storm. lush.

so weary of looking for the right sub. i just hope the right one comes along. i found myself a maid who lasted 3 weeks. he was just fine and dandy but with four children and a marriage falling apart he couldnt last. the last text i received from him said, i am fed up and tired! well no fucking wonder. the last thing he needed was a strict, humiliating Mistress. yes he had dreamed of such a thing but the reality is always so different from the fantasy. that is why all you wannabes stick to fantasizing, right! give me a break someone. all i want is to be taken on holiday, for meals and clothes, to clubs and parties, mollicoddled and pampered, humoured and indulged. come on worms turn!

had a very pleasant time eating and chatting. as usual the question of tribute had to be broached. i made myself as clear on the subject as i could. i expect tribute from regular subs, which is not the same as me being paid for an hour's pro domming. it is a very subtle subject and some folk dont get the distinction between being paid to provide a service and being given a tribute out of respect. he seemed to get it. it doesnt stop me being friends with someone because they buy me things or give me an envelope with some cash in it. i expect tribute because i like to feel empowered by it. it feels sexy. it doesnt stop me enjoying myself, it adds to it. i love BDSM. i am both a lifestyle Domme and a Pro Domme. The Professional side is the lesser part of things. i see very few men and those i do see actually like to pay for their time with me. there are men like that. it is civilized and respectful and yes, we do still have fun. i do not work to a timetable, it is never boring and my clients are important to me but i am being paid for providing a service which they appreciate. our relationship tends to remain within those boundaries of understanding. we dont go to clubs or for meals or shopping as a tributing sub and i, who were also friends would.

i was right, he doesnt want to continue though we got on well enough when we met. i felt the same... i overlooked his evident lack of training? regarding opening the door for me, waiting till, i was seated before he seated, taking my coat from me etc but i was not too happy with him, since the first thing he wanted to do when we exitted the pub was to light up a fag. i am somewhat of an anti-smoker. the point is, whether we were to explore BDSM together or not, he did not do the decent thing by me by escorting me home (two minutes up the road) or enquiring as to whether i got home safely or thanking me for my company or worst of all, by letting me know of his feelings regarding the meeting. this leads me to view the wider picture...these matters are all basic tenets of BDSM etiquette and anyone claiming to have some experience in this lifestyle should have a modicum of knowledge of this etiquette. time and again i come across these subs who are looking for a free service and who have no idea of loyalty or humility or gratitude. a true sub thinks only of his Mistresses pleasure. his raison d'etre is to serve. never does he think what is in it for himself. this is what separates him from the crowd of exhibitionists and narcissists. this is why subs such as they, are thin on the ground. my search continues. i am to meet another sub tomorrow. he is searching for a Mistress and a friend. i am always a friend to my subs but sometimes i admire those Dommes who remain aloof, who demand total respect and subservience at all times, whose mask never wears thin to allow that innocent wee smile of friendship out or that wee streak of compassion to glow. no! these Mistresses command allegience from on high. their confidence never falters, their tyranny never wavers. they look down on lowly subs as the ungrateful lumps of shit and spunk that they really are, and never, ever, succumb to pity or passion. These Mistresses are the Ice Goddesses whose belief in the superiority of Women keeps them upright and steady on their golden plinths.

well what a surprize! he hasnt answered my texts so i presume he doesnt want to continue. i am always suspicious of the ones who send a lot of texts earlier on. looks like he was happy to meet up but not to communicate after that though he stated he did want to meet again.i wonder why the silence though. another, who i was meant to meet tomorrow has just sent me a message saying he has been in the "real world" so cant meet up after all. get this straight. this is the real world. it is a form of communication to arrange meetings. you are not above common courtesy because you are online. the games that are played on these sites make me sick to the core. i am fed up meeting arse holes.

he almost didnt make it due to working late but did come in the end, we have some common interests and will probably meet again to go to a club and perhaps i will tie him up and leave him in my coat cupboard overnight.

tonight i meet with the first on my shortlist.

whittled sluts down to a shortlist - those who can drive me around, take me to clubs, like domestic service, sissification and giving tribute. a two or three are even attractive!

i have been inundated with messages, as i am new here, but i dont feel anyone is serious. a few sluts have caught my eye and a few have annoyed me and a couple have insulted me, but no-one in particular has come up with the goods. its a pleasant site here and a couple of old friends have dropped by to say hello.

my first evening on collarme, will see what the future holds here. will i find the maid that i so long for?

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