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So where to start , I havent been on in a while...Well im 34 weeks pregnant now and due very soon, going through adoption. Havent been out much lately to do the thing that makes me happy, singing karaoke. My back and body hurt too bad and my poor feet are all chubby and swollen.
Where am I on the whole dominant/submissive/slave thing? Id like to say Im still submissive but all the doms I have talked to make me realize that I may be wrong , with the way they all feel the need to tell me exactly what to do constantly, and in the first introductorary message. I mean ive really gotten messages saying "I will be your daddy and I will keep you tied up 24/7 and only untie you for you to please me and I will raise your son as I see fit and blah blah on top of it all they usually are not attractive to me and never even bother to ask if that would be something im interested in. Im sure there are some girls out there like that but Im surely not gonna be a slave to a sweaty fat fuck (excuse my language) whom I do not love and am not happy to serve and noone will raise my son as they see fit thats ridiculous especially seeing as he was cut out of my stomach lol anyways sorry for rambling on :D
Heres my dilemma ...I love to have a boss, so to speak, relationship wise I feel that the man should definitly make all the final decisions and run things for the most part. I love to do things for the man Im with, like cooking, cleaning, sort of wifey kinda things and I will say it makes me happy to serve him his meals without him having to move from his seat and to fetch things when he needs them, take off his shoes and socks after work, run his bath/shower water, maybe get in with him and clean his body, and have his clothes waiting for him afterwards. It gives me a feeling of being needed by him.
Also sexually I love to be spanked, choked, called names, and ordered around all that good stuff. However I am not into flogging , canes , having my breast tied until purple and unnessasary pain , not saying its a bad thing for people who enjoy it , but to me it seems something that is done just to watch a sub squirm when in all reality you can accomplish the same thing by just forcing anal or refusing your cock until she begs or spanking her pussy .
My point is , I guess, Im not sure if im considered a submissive because I dont want all of those things I just want a faithful honest relationship that is still sweet and loving and romantic along with the expectations and obeying where I can be a good girl and please my dom/daddy with simple things like keeping a lovely home and being ready for any sexual interaction he wants and simple womanly chores that make me happy to do and feel needed and make him happy to have such a good girl ... I feel like that was a long explanation of where im at in all this but I just think its something a man should know before pursuing me , Im not here to waste anyones time. |
