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Female Submissive, 19, Geneva, Florida
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Transgender Submissive, 28, Seattle, Washington
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Male Submissive, 26, dublin
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About kittengirl8
Revamp? Having graduated from college in May, I feel as if much of my profile is now outdated. I have deleted most of it and will update it when I find something witty and clever to say.
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If you've made it to the end, you've already earned a cookie in my book (and cookies are good). I'm still young and new, still rough around the edges, and still the stubborn Texas girl I've been my whole life. Will I change? Certainly...
Change is inevitable.
Be well.
~kitten~
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Because you know what?
Why the fuck not.
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Wow, how long has it been? I'm surprised I have anyone looking at my profile, since the last time I touched it was to update my age, I think. And that was months ago.
Anyway, a little update for those who are still flipping through boring profiles like mine: I'm living at school, working on my bachelors degree. Last semester I managed a 4.0 with 12 credit hours, which I'm not going to lie, made me massively pleased. (Though few others were particularly pleased for me, which was depressing.) Taking 4 classes at the moment once again, none of which are particularly exciting... but that's life.
Going back and forth on bouts of depression, which is making me a bit worried, but I'm managing to hold myself together a bit, so I'm thinking this current overwhelming uggggh will be gone soon. Hoping, anyway.
For those who are wondering, the cookies are either chocolate chip or oreo. I'm nice and I share the good stuff.
~Me
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I am extremely happy today because I took my last final at community college! I'm graduating this week and will start in at my four-year this summer!
Yeah, I know, it's boring, but I am happy.
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In order to get the know the real me, you should know about the thought process that occurred about ten minutes ago.
Spring break will be nice!
Of course, I still have to work every day of the week except Sunday...
And I have those midterm essays to work on...
And Assignment three...
I'm actually getting up early for work tomorrow...
At least I won't have to drive 200+ miles next week for school and work!
Of course, Arlington isn't exactly close...
I wish baseball started earlier, so we could go to a game...
Mmmm....chocolate...
Spring break will be fun...
So, that was the gist of my past five minutes or so. Fun, aren't I? But, seriously, I have work in the morning, and I'm getting my haircut right after (yay!), so I'm off to bed.
My fellow students: Enjoy your spring break! Last year I kind of failed, none of THAT this year!
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I can't seem to meditate like I used to. I settled down earlier, and was trying to clear my mind and just relax, and I just couldn't do it - didn't even come close. I cannot seem to figure out why I'm suddenly having this problem. Surely it's not just because I have so much going on in my head, right? It's taken some time in the past, but I've always managed it eventually. I was settled, quiet, breathing softly for almost forty-five minutes with no success. Finally gave up when I couldn't get anywhere, and I decided I should try to study some.
Studying failed as well, actually... Gah.
Anyway, just wanted to complain about this frustration.
Hugs and kisses,
kitten
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It's completely normal to fall asleep around 7:00, right? Who knew falling asleep to Mr. President would be so easy? (Oh...wait...)
It's always fun trying to convince oneself to get back to being productive. "No... don't lie down... you'll just fall asleep again. You need to finish looking up such-and-such so you can finish your paper! WAKE UP YOU LAZY PERSON!"
Amazing, isn't it?
Yawns,
kitten
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Grrr, annoying pain in the ass internet stuffs.
Anywho. I had my first experience driving on icy roads today twice (to and from work). I wasn't amused. I was annoyed by many people laughing at those of us with ice because we have a "teeny" bit of ice and they have "feet" of snow. Hello... ice is significantly more difficult to deal with than snow! I know!
My classes were canceled yesterday, and yet I still did nothing productive. Lazy kitten. :( mrow. I have a very adorable kitty curled up with me, for those who were wondering. He is sooo sweet. :)
I'm going to write notes for my speech tomorrow then I'm going to go back to being lazy.
I know, you totally wish you were me. Kisses.
Loves,
kitten
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Professors are sadistic, aren't they? Think about it... they all pile on essays and projects due on the exact same day. It's insanity.
Also, it's exhausting and I want another nap
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I need more purple in my life. So, I settle with settng my texts as pretty colors.
As I type this I actually have my monster cat curled up with me, limiting the use of one of my hands, which always makes typing a bit more interesting.
Anyway, I'm going to revamp my profile, and I'm sure some people noticed I removed my main picture a while back. I wanted to make changes, and I wanted to think some stuff through, and that was the first place to start. My profile will be wiped and, save the journal (which I refuse to delete, because then there is really no point. People should see into the past of someone too!) completely changed. Don't be frightened. Embrace the changes. :)
Soon we can all cherish the pictures of this adorable Tigger vying for my attention at the moment.
Onto other things. The olympics are fun, except for the times when all that is on is boxing. Boring to the max, methinks. Hoping to see some of the women's individual finals tonight before I have to get to sleep in... 2 hours or so. Blast my schedule.
I watched the Saddleback Civil Forum last night, and found it interesting. As previously noted by myself and other members of my familly in our everyday lives... Obama cannot articulate unless he really has an opinion on the subject. He's also great at not answering questions. A true gift...
McCain has multiple positions I don't approve of (though significantly less than Obama) but he was far superior at the Forum. He was much more relaxed and engaging. He seemed to enjoy being there, and answering the questions for everyone. He comes off as more intelligent than his Democratic opponent, and he was generally much better at answering the questions at hand. We did note a few times he wandered off without a crisp answer, but again, it was clearly less often than Obama.
I enjoyed it, though I didn't watch it as closely as I had intended. We have it recorded, so we'll all probably dissect it a few times before we delete it.
I can't wait for real debates though. The media is no longer fawning over Obama's every step, so I'm hoping they are discussing his poor performance last night. Unfortunately, I haven't gone searching for articles yet. (I should do that. Maybe Stewart and Colbert will talk about it this week? Hehe.)
Sorry, that was a bit longer than I really intended it to be. My bad... Anywho. :)
Classes will be starting up again soon, so I'm getting myself ready for all that good fun. I'm a teensy bit concerned about working and having school, but I think it should be fine, since I have a consistend 19.5 hours every week. Hopefully I'll build up a nice amount in my savings account while I study this year.
Hoping everyone else is well and that eventually this cat gets tired of being where he is. I hate moving them when they're this cute...
Where's my rain?!
Be well,
~kitten~
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Some things are best admired from afar.
Only... not in a stalker-ish way. That would bad.
I don't think chocolate is one of those things. :)
~kitten~
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So, today I attended my first (and most likely last) Catholic church. My main thought is... how is it at all teaching and increasing spiritual awareness? It's very much like I was expecting, repeating things and ritualistic. Though it was much more relaxed than what I was expecting. It was pretty boring, overall.
And Catholics must make great subs, right? With the whole kneeling thing. (Exacerbated my lower-back problem. Bastards.)
Other topics... Wow... just... wow. Really, I try to avoid the idiots of the world. The next guy to ask me if I am interested in poly better be overwhelmingly satisfied with the number of children they have already.
I have a small bruise on my arm, and for the past few minutes I've been trying to determine where it is from. No luck. Isn't life weird like that?
~kitten~
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I think we all need to take step back and... run spell check through our profiles. At the very least it would catch a few things, and it would free up my mind (cluttered with spelling errors) to laugh at people who fail to realize the difference in dominate and dominant. Really now... Really?
If you want, we can all participate in a moment of hilarity as we laugh at moi for being awake and yet incredibly exhausted at this moment in time. I'm definitely getting coke on my way to work. Stop at CVS or something and get candy to keep my whole training class awake. *grin*
Once I get my first paycheck I'm going to be able to relax so much more about my finances, and so on as they come in. I literally cannot afford to buy a semesters worth of books right now. Which is okay because my stupid-ass school still hasn't posted on our bookstore webpage WHAT BOOKS WE NEED. My brother was able to order his (and pay for them) back in orientation in June.
Annoying buggers... I tend to like things early, because it really helps me to know how much I'm going to have to spend. Wednesday I'll get my scholarship "officially" so that will relax me some too... Ah, to have money again.
And this, ladies and gentlemen, is why we should ALWAYS plan on the best computer you own dying randomly one night. Always.
It doesn't count as a rant if I bounce around like this, does it?
I'm tired. Need caffeine. And sugar. And some more caffeine for good measure. (Yet coffee doesn't sound appetizing at this moment in time, and I'm not sure if we have any good hot tea around... Maybe some sweet tea before I go...)
Don't mind me. I'm just going to nap on you.
~kitten~
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Technically, I have a job... ish. They're taking their time running all of their checks. You know, background, drug test, fingerprinting which didn't work twice so now they're doing something else that pushed my start date back at least a few days...
Yes, this is fun.
On the plus side, I finished one of my classes already. (More than three weeks early.) Oh yeah, go nerdy kitten. *dances*
~kitten
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It breaks my heart a little to see the Dallas Burn (well, technically "FC Dallas" but we'll overlook the name for the time being) doing so horribly this season. They're next to last, besting only San Jose of all teams! San Jose's always been a great team too, so... this is just screwed up. Sadness.
Soccer, people. Soccer.
~kitten~
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The mister adorable in my arms in my photos is 17 pounds.
I wonder if that's why it's uncomfortable when he curls up in my legs...
Dang heavy fuzzball that I can't help but love.
~kitten~
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Former profile:
I'm an intense workaholic when it comes to school. I strive for good grades, and it actually works out. Looks as if I'll be on the Dean's List for both of my freshman semesters.
I'm in my first year of college at a "local" (trust me, those quotation marks are pretty necessary) community college, basically saving money as I get the boring core classes out of the way. August of my Junior year (2009) I'll be transferring to a 4-year college, and will probably be in a different state. I mention all of this because it's important to know that... I am not going anywhere. I use a family car, I live at home... Travel is limited to the area, pretty much. I won't even consider relocating for many years. Don't think you're the exception to the rule. You really aren't.
I love to write, I'm a politically-minded person; I hate talking on the phone (though I enjoy talking in general). I truly hate most dogs, but I love most cats!
I don't smoke and have no interest in drinking. (Me = easily addicted.) If you at any time want to tell me I'm crazy for either of these, show yourself the door. You'll just piss me off. I have no interest in smokers, but I don't care if you want to drink - as long as you do it responsibly.
Best to everyone in their search!
~kitten~
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As a general rule, I don't reccomend tossing and turning in bed until 2 in the morning.
Even if Johnny Depp is involved in some way.
~kitten~
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Necessity doesn't require this, but something continues to compel me. Call me crazy. (Which I wouldn't deny anyway.)
Yesterday I was more than a bit rude to someone I really respect and like, and I wanted to give one more apology. I'm not going to lie, though, and say that it definitely won't happen again. Neither of us would really believe it. However, I do promise to try my best, and to contain myself as necessary. I'm sorry for my behavior.
Mwah.
~kitten~
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In just 4 or 5 hours my semester will be done. With a significantly higher GPA than expected. I'm assuming it's just a typo O_o Because as of right now, I have A's in all 4 classes that have been completed. (Last test is at noon today.)
I'm pretty sure it's official, I am a nerd. And damn it feels nice to be one!
Or is it geek? What means what?
In other, non-related news, demon cat woke me up at 7 this morning (on the dot) with his incessant howling. Why? I just don't know. But I'm dying his fur pink if anyone cares.
~kitten, who really needs sleep~
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Does anyone else think this sedation dental work is an evil ploy?
"Leave with almost no memory" of the event/whatever.
Oh yeah, that sounds like a trustworthy situation.
~kitten~
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Yes, that's right, I'm still alive! Exciting news, no?
I've gotten a bit on the busy side once more, and I was in Houston again (Wednesday evening-this morning) so that took up some time. I have two essays due on Wednesdays, and one of them is insane in the inclusions required of the teacher. It's just insane.
The other one is partially done so far, but I'm still pushing through an outline on the insane one. 'Tis life. Further, I have a test I need to take in the next few days, and the only really convenient time is tomorrow... which means I'm studying my cute little ass off. :p
Finals are the week after this, so... fingers crossed that I survive, okay?
I'm taking 9 hours this summer (one class in two weeks, the other two will span a couple of months).
I'm hoping I'll survive my self-imposed craziness.
Ah well. Mwah to my favorites.
~kitten~
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After falling asleep around 1 in the morning (I was talking to people and there was a short storm before that, so I couldn't sleep) I realize... I'm doomed. I woke up about half an hour ago (6AM) and Wednesday is my long day.
I'm just hoping it doesn't storm on my drive to or from school. It would also be perfectly okay with me if the potential tornadoes running rampant in the area... yeah, if that could leave the forecast...
I love rain. It's great for when I'm trying to write (like now - I have writer's block with an essay due Sunday). However, I'm not fond of strong storms like this. The car I mostly drive got such horrible hail damage last week (we got so much hail here it looked like it snowed outside). Upwards of $3000 in damages. Ouch...
Ohh... I bet it's the weather that has messed with my eyes (allergies/sinuses). My glasses don't make me happy.
~kitten~
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Have I been stuttering recently? Did my profile magically change without me realizing or authorizing?? I haven't the slightest interest in dominating a male submissive. The next person asking for this will find out just how sadistic my little mind is when I'm pissed off.
Go get sterilized. If you can't tell that your attentions aren't wanted, I think it's best if we aren't burdened with a child as stupid as you.
Yes, I'm a bitch. I think it comes from sheer exhaustion from the mere stupidity of the messages I receive from unwanted idiots.
I'm nice to those who aren't idiots in their initial contact to me. No, seriously. I am.
Goodnight, and have a pleasant tomorrow.
~kitten~
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I love watching musicals, things like Music Man, the Pajama Game, and Hello Dolly! Last night the Sound of Music was on. Me, in my odd little depression, watched to try and make myself happier.
Backfired. Now I have "Do, a deer, a female deer. Ra a drop of golden sun" etc in my head. Even worse, I don't excatly know the words, but I know how it goes more than I used to.
*wanders around, singing the song to herself* Do I look crazy to you?
"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But then, one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer; not to love is to suffer; to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy, one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness." ~Woody Allen
Heh. :)
~kitten~
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Hm... Have I eaten yet today??? That's what I thought...
Will I get out of this mood any time soon??? 0 for 2, huh?
What a fun Spring Break this will be.
~kitten~
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Taking time out of my rather hectic week to say that Spring Break needs to come early for me. It really does.
In high school and earlier, no one really needs a Spring Break. I mean, really. After all, last year my Spring Break involved a tournament; the year before I think there was either a tournament or a lot of research; the same the year before. So... yeah. Nothing, right?
This year I'm sleeping 4 days solid. Constant exhaustion doesn't really work in my favor, it seems. Even worse, I think I'm sleeping enough hours, I'm just not getting enough sleep (make sense?).
Perhaps some meditation is in order. I never seem to do that anymore.
Kisses, hugs, lots of chocolate, and a comfy bed to sleep in to all!
~kitten~
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Okay, feeling better now (mostly). However work made my legs so sore...
Curses! Owwie.. *wanders off slowly*
~kitten~
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This is one of the times it refuses to end, to leave me be in peace, let me see the sun again.
There is always the one factor that makes it worse. I always, without fail, push people away when I'm depressed. And I've pretty much grown accustomed to it. Probably a bad thing...
Off to return to ball-state, perhaps tomorrow I will see the sun.
~kitten>
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Reality has no place in...
(finish this sentence)
my mind?
public schools?
religion?
~kitten~
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*sneezes*
Why do I always manage to hurt my shoulder? What did I do to it? What?! Owwie. :(
Heh, sorry, I needed a moment there. I was watching the data coming in on Tuesday night (Super Tuesday, people, keep up) and felt rather proud of myself. Especially with guessing California. Anyway, our primary isn't until March, so I have time to be annoyed over how Texas allocates the delegates. (If I understand, if a candidate gets 50% or more votes, they get all the delegates, if no one gets 50%, then any candidate with 20% of the votes get their delegates "proportionally allocated." Anyone want to correct me? Please do.)
Update: My arm still hurts.
Sorry, kitten will admit, she isn't color blind. It's a "flaw". Whatever. Obviously no one else is. (Oh my god! Some kids fought, hung nooses, the whites got suspended, and the blacks... oh my god they got suspended and charged for crimes because they beat the shit out of someone (or someones?) else! Call in the black support system! This is a gross injustice against blacks EVERYWHERE!)
Um, sorry. *cough* Moving on... Just to let people know, I have friends of pretty much every color. (Aw, I miss J; she was awesome. She was born in South Korea. And M... she was born in Israel. Wow, I've had some interesting friends. I was born in Texas. Heh.)
Update: My arm still hurts. And actually, it's my shoulder. Why am I saying arm?>
kitten wanted chocolate. Cold chocolate, since she's warm, and we didn't have any ice cream or anything. So I had chocolate milk. Yum. I actually have chocolate I keep on hand for the silly chocolate cravings...
Apparently our oven caught on fire and broke this evening. I wasn't there to see, I was upstairs. But... We really need to stop having ranges catch on fire. It's a nuisance.
I'm tired. Maybe I should head to bed...
~kitten~
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I can't possibly be the only person that wants it to be February 15th now, can I? Am I the only one who sees Valentine's Day as nothing more than a marketing ploy to bring companies more revenue and distress single people? Really, think about it!
Actually, I just really hate having commercials for stupid Valentine's Day products and/or services on the radio, TV, and the internet. It's just so frustrating. (I get this way around Christmas too, by the way.)
To be honest, I'd rather be given chocolate any time I see you *wink* rather than just on Valentine's Day.
Well, maybe not every time, but let's be realistic. Who doesn't want a happy girl? And what, other than maybe sex, is better than chocolate?
Exactly.
There were two men's shirts at Wal-Mart that made me smile. One had a shackle and said "Sorry, I'm taken" and it was amusing, but not as good as "Almost as good as chocolate."
Anyway, that's kitten's reason for being annoyed today. Stupid Valentine's Day commercials...
Oh, and Groundhogs Day is even more useless and stupid than Valentine's Day. Just, you know, FYI.
~kitten~
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*Some edits: I changed it just because I wanted something different. I'm wondering if I'll get less interested parties now. Hm... I need to change up some spelling/grammatical errors. They'll bug me if I leave them all too long.
My hip hurts, and I don't know why. *sadface*
I don't wanna go to school tomorrow, I want to stay home and bake cookies with yoouuu.* Kisses, all.
My old profile, for those that wanted to know what it used to say:
Finally put up a simple picture. Aren't we all so proud of kitten? Yes, i know...
Still not looking, and nope, it's not because I found someone - it's because I think I just stopped caring.
To be a submissive, (in my own, humble opinion), is to be strong. It takes immense stength to give up control to someone in such an intimate way.
That is why i am strong. Because not only do i want to give up that control, i know i need to.
Since i am in college, i am definitely NOT willing to relocate until i have received my bachelor's degree. i will be going away for college starting in August 2009, until then, i live at home. Education is very important to me, and i hope that the Sirs and Misses all understand that, and recognize the important of intellect within me.
~kitten~
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I've decided to be my opinionated self and talk about labels today. Everyone settled in? Got your cookies (oh, cookies... yum...)? Excellent.
I've seen around here a lot of critism of labels, and I wanted to touch on a few of them - both in the Dom area, and the sub area.
For Dominants, it's a bit annoying to notice so often, be it on the forums, or people's rants in their journals, or wherever, that some people (both Doms and subs) are very rude with their labeling. Why do some people care so much if some guys refer to themselves as "Master"? What is it to if that Dominant takes on that title? Why do people feel so holier-than-thou to say "You aren't good enough/not experienced enough/not whatever enough to be called a Master yet. You are just a Dominant."? And does this annoy anyone else, at all? My take on this is: If the guy says he's experienced/good enough/what-have-you, or just prefers Master to Dominant, who is it hurting? The mere title... what is it hurting? After all, who is more likely to trust someone immediately without knowing them, just because of a title? Exactly.
Now, onto the titles of the submissive around here. I got a few too many comments when I switched my profile to "submissive" from "slave". Why? Because, apparently, some people thought I was downgrading myself, thought I was scared of submission, thought... Well, who really knows what they were thinking? I don't really care what a sub calls themselves - they're still people until they request you treat them otherwise (if they do, of course). Moral of this story? Don't be an ass. Treat others as you want to be treated, genii, and you might get more responses.
Now that I've covered what I wanted to cover in this lesson... Let it be known for the blind ones out there: At no point will I be Dominating a male. To be honest, male submissives give me the heeby geebies - I don't know why. I don't care to know why. Don't ask it of me, and I won't be forced to block you and have the very serious desire to do unpleasant bodily harm. I'm a submissive girl to males, and the very occasional female, and switch (in theory) for females ONLY. Don't ask, darling. Just don't ask.
Wow. I certainly can rant, can't I? What can I say, I'm frustrated with people on here, and elsewhere in the silly world. (One must wonder why I'm writing this when I could be working on my many English assignments...)
Anyway, let's look at some happier thoughts for now. I did put up my picture, and apparently, some women are jealous of my pink lips. I don't wear lipstick (or very rarely) and I certainly wasnt wearing any in the photo on my profile. Actually, I rarely wear makeup, except recently I've been in foundation to make me look less red... Either way, the women who commented really made my day! I'm still slightly body-conscious (but better than many women my age, let's be honest), and it's never a bad thing to be told you look beautiful. Thanks to all the M/men and W/women who have told me so. You've all really made my week more bareable. Kisses and hugs to you all!
I'll be changing m profile some time this weekend. Something that looks better... Suggestions? Heh.
Ending thought: It's pretty depressing to be bored of class before it starts. Or homework before you're doing it. Now that is preparation for the future.
Hoping everyone is planning on having an exciting weekend filled with love, laughter, and... lust? I don't know, it's all good.
~kitten~
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In Texas, we're bundled up in coats, hats, gloves, because it's averaging about 45 during the day where I am.
In football news - they're wearing short sleeves in temperatures significantly below zero.
The reason I point this out? I hate people that pretend to be strong, like say... football players, at the risk of their own health. I'm not impressed. In fact, I think substantially less of people who engage in such foolishness.
At some point in time (up to 72 hours, right?) my picture will actually appear on my profile. Whether or not I'll keep it up there entirely depends on how much I care at a time. I decided I didn't care too much - so you've got Ft. Worth/Dallas, and a picture. It's like Christmas around here, right?
~kitten~
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This is a very weird kitten you're all reading about. This past weekend she and some members of her family went to Houston solely to judge a tournament for part of two days. Then we went to Austin to get rid of one member of her family. Then, we decided to go BACK to Houston the following morning. (And that drive was fun - blown out tire on the highway again. Ah, life is such a joy.)
Classes began yesterday, and so I'm once again hard at work beating my head against the wall. One class I have a strong feeling I'm definitely not going to like. However, I'm taking two classes that are combined together to make a class with a topic "Let's Talk About Sex[.]" And we were drawing quotes and discussing them as a class. I was lucky enough to get "Don't knock masturbation, it's sex with someone I love" by Woody Allen. Kind professors pointed out that we pick quotes based on our personalities.
My response? "I won't deny it. Who in this classroom could deny it and be believed?" I think I'm going to enjoy this class.
Now I'm working hard on reading and starting what I need to start for my online classes. Aren't I such a dull? Hm...
Fingers crossed that I never have a latex allergy - I think I might, and THAT would be miserable. (But it's kind of common in my family, from what I understand.) Let's just say I'm glad I "tested" on myself last night.
What? I'm 18, we're supposed to be insatiable!
More later (you know, when I'm putting off a different subject).
~kitten~
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So, kitten put in her "two weeks notice" at work a few days ago, and will be finishing out me schedule. This means my last day of work at the theater will be on this coming Thursday. So, I'm going to go see some free movies before I no longer have that ability. :) Heh. Too bad I don't have any good friends around here to go with...
Ah well.
Anyway, I'm searching for a new job, but since I'm taking 16 hours next semester, I'm not sure how I'm going to work and get good grades. I'm... not good. Not quite smart enough to split my time perfectly.
Okay, happy thoughts now. I have chocolate. But it's almost gone. I do like chocolate.
I have work at 1, so I guess I can do something productive until then. Or maybe just something fun.
Hmm... Now I'm contemplating if I want to just give up my quest (as I have indicated in my profile) or amp it up. They're both such lovely choices... Ideas, Y/y'all?
Rambling is fun when you're bored. I? highly reccomend it.
~kitten~
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Yesterday was the first day i ever left work early, because i was soo sick. Last night my temperature reached over 100 - that wasn't pleasant. Luckily, my fever is gone, so i should be able to work tonight.
Unluckily, i still managed to get the irritation/rash from work, but i have no clue now what it's from. Since i didn't work concessions yesterday, i'm kind of clueless - maybe it's the soap? Any ideas? My hands and feet are just messes. Absolutely horrid. I hate it.
Ah well.
I'll be working 8:15-4 Christmas day, and my brother is 4-close, so... i think my family is doing Christmas on Christmas Eve. 'Tis what happens when we all get older, i suppose.
i hope everyone is having a fabulous December, and that we all get at least a FEW days off!
~kitten~
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i saw this one profile yesterday... it made me sad, and see the certain person as a very sad person indeed. And NO, i'm not going to say who or why (it wasn't even necessarily on here). Just did... *sigh*
Working on your feet for 10 hours (with only a single 15/20-minute break) in one day is demonic to a certain degree. i hurt. And itch, because i think i'm allergic to something we sell...
Anyway, finished the semester Wednesday evening, so this week (Friday-Thursday) i'm scheduled for 42 hours, so that'll be fun. i don't think i get paid enough, though. Not too smile that much. Plus, i put a little cut in my shoe, and i still have a bruise on my thigh from where a coke syrup box hit me. (And yes that is where the bruise is from, you loveable pervs.)
i've decided on my question of the day. (And yes, i do actually do a question of the day. i had a notebook..lost it last week, that is just filled with random questions - some serious, some not - for every day of the year. Just one of those fun things to make me and whomever i share it with, think.)
So, anyway, today's question(s):
Part 1.) Why are virgins more highly valued, yet less desired (beside the most obvious reason...)
Part 2.) (Stems from a conversation i was having last night, hm, go figure.) Have you ever had sex/played with, a virgin, without knowing it until after the fact?
Finally, Part 3.) Do you act differently with virgin than with non-virgins?
And yes, i made my friend answer these questions. *evil laugh**cough**shines halo*
~kitten~
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So, apparently, this weekened was just destined to be a bit odd all around.
Thursday i studied for a total of no less than 8 hours. Yeah.
Friday i helped my theater count, sort, and organize stock for 5 hours. Thus resulting in incredibly sore arms and shoulders, and what-have-you.? I then proceeded to study for another 4 hours.
Saturday i worked for about three and a half hours, my arms still a bit sore (even after soaking in a bath Friday night for 40 minutes, and using the heating pad for a really long time). There were too many employees with too little things to do. I really hate that. I also so about 30 minutes of a town parade (not my town), and studied for about...5 hours? Something like that... give or take an hour, i suppose. Plus, i wrote a speech (my "final" essentially) in about 20 minutes. Go me! Yeah, it was happy.
Sunday hasn't happened yet, but i have a feeling i'm going to want to die quickly and take math down with me.
Math sucks. Yep. Heh...
Oh, and on that research paper... Final grade? 71/70. Oh yeah, go me. Though i do still think it sucked. :)
On my "final" in psych, i only need to get a 34/100 to get an A. (Because the points are cumulative.) None of you cared, but i certainly enjoyed saying it.
"Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do, will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, will never... never forget it." ~Curtis Judalet
So, if you find your love, cherish it, and never forget just what you have. Never take it for granted. That's why gets you screwed over.
~kitten~
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So, what have i learned the past two weeks?
1.) Chop off legs. It will be much less painful than working.
2.) Finding quotes when you don't know what you want to quote isn't very easy. It's not easy when you are looking for something in particular, either.
3.) Love sucks. It just does.
4.) Okay, not really, that one was a lie.
5.) Apparently, i am orally fixated. That would explain the nail biting. And the gum chewing. And the sucker... sucking. Intriguing.
6.) Jeans are never easy to find when you go looking for them.
7.) Female sizes are screwy. Of course, i knew this already, but the fact still remains.
And finally...
8.) i am so screwed. O_O Figure that one out! Ha.
~kitten~
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Finished my paper! Woot! It's just over 5 pages, it's written like crap, probably makes little sense because my professor never w as very clear on what exactly she wanted... But it's done! And it's done early! But now...i should probably work on the rest of my homework. *sigh*
Thus is life.
Muwah.
~kitten~
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In about an hour I'm flipping of the internet on my laptop if I don't get another page or two written on this paper. Doesn't that sound like a good idea? Maybe...
So, note to self: Staying up until 3 is a good thing. Just...not regularly... I slept in until 10:30 or so, which I hadn't really planned on doing, but again, I'm just going to go with it. Can't change what happened. I still think I can get everything done this weekend. After all, I don't work on Sunday. I know in the afternoon I'll probably go with my parents to take my oldest brother back to the bus station so he can head back to college... Hm.
I need to write. I'll go do that, I think...
In case I never mentioned it, I chose to compete for the third year in a row in the National Novel Writing Month challenge. I won quickly without even knowing it! I had created a seperate document for out-of-order scenes and forgotten about it. When I combined them last night I had almost 50,000 words in the out-of-order document alone. *faint* So, yay. *smiles*
Okay, okay, no more stalling. Off to be a good girl and actually do my homework. Wish me luck!
~kitten~
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I am not a people person for those of Y/you whom hadn't yet determined that. I like the quiet, enjoying my music. I don't want to hear someone else's music thumping around me. It makes my head hurt, frustrates me, and generally makes me want to cry.
I am truly pathetic.
But hey, at least I can admit it.
I don't hate unexpected noises - I can handle them, I just don't like loud continous noises that someone else controls and is voluntarily fucking with MY eardrums. Turn down the music people, I don't care. Even if it's my radio station, I don't care.
Yep. Pathetic, psychotic me. Be warned A/all. I am NOT a people person. Or a dog person *runs from the tiny dog*. I like to be curled up reading with a baseball game on the background (perferablly with the Yankees losing, thanks). I'm claustrophobic; hate being around more than a few people that I don't know because I'm paranoid; I hate fires, even when they're controlled; I can't stand a lot of bass (or whatever it is that makes the car shake) in music; I like country and pop - rap is stupid, and techno sounds like a computer threw up; I am not clinically depressed, but trust me - I should be; I have odd mood swings that are dependent on A) the amount of attention I'm given, B) the noise level around me, C) what i've done in the past five-twenty minutes, and finally, D) the amount of chocolate I have at my disposal.
Now, have I gotten rid of some of you people? Seriously, we're all screwed up. I get headaches at EVERYTHING, so some of that shit up there actually makes sense, with that context. That and I'm just screwed up.
I also don't normally swear. In fact, I usually try to avoid it at all costs. This kind of indicates that I'm not in the best of moods. That and the constant "BRMUP" thumping/grinding noise coming from either the stereo or a computer downstairs.
Anyway... Now that I'm done with that, let's get onto something less interesting: Writing this dang paper. It's due on the 28th, I've got my articles, I've got the summaries done. Now I need to compare/contrast them. And I don't know how.
Has anyone had to compare/contrast scholarly (psychological) articles before? Any help will be appreciated. :)
Calming down some. That's good. Very good. Should eat some chocolate...
~kitten~
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Allow me to sum up my feelings from yesterday:
*yawns*
Feelings from today?
Holy crap we're being overrun.
Isn't Texas fun, ladies and gentlemen? I was definitely the minority today at the mall. Very, very much the minority. It made me just a little uncomfortable.
And also, I'm odd, aren't I? I honestly don't think I want to have my own children... Adoption, maybe, but I think I would kill myself if I had a baby. Seriously...
I'm truly a horrible person. *shakes her head*
Note: Okay, this is only how I've felt for the past, erm...5 years... It may change in the future. I do want a family, but god... *shrugs*
~kitten~
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Two days in a row now. Yes. Two days.
I have slept in. And it felt really good. (Slept in until 9:30 yesterday and 8:45 or so today.) Yay! Right? Well, I was excited abut it...
Anyway, not that I've gotten to sleep in, it's time to face reality: I should be working 6-11 tonight (uh, yay?) ushering, and then I have to get up early tomorrow to drive an hour to judge a tournament (well, this is a bit of a yay, because I want to judge, but darnint, I have to get up before 8 again!).
My hair frustrates me. And my nose. At work it's supposed to be off my face and shoulders. For those of you not privy to my picture, my hair rests just above/at my shoulders, so all I need to do is put it in a ponytail, right? NOPE. No, because bobby pins HATE me. As such ,my hair goes into little pigtails, which probably make me look younger than I am. Which sucks just a bit, because I'm one of the oldest people in my training group (of 30). I think there are only a few of us in college/18+. Wow. Yeah.
Anyway, I spent quite a while yesterday simply kneeling. Especially after I completely pissed off my former Master (who is pretty much my closest friend - He knows pretty much everything about me by now) and decided, "Uh... Time to remember my place, I think..."
But, this little logical solution ended not so okay when I went to bed around 11:30. Silly ankle. My ankle is weak or *something* because I've sprained it a million times. Now I spend most of my days wearing a snazzy little ankle brace-thingy to help it not get sprained again. My ankle hurts, for those of you who don't know where this is going.
But that's okay. Because I kind of needed some pain to jolt me back to reality. And reality here I am! Not necessarily to stay, though. That would be boring.
Math isn't so bad, actually. Class on Wednesday made me so happy I wanted to just laugh. I was the only one who had actually managed to figure out the last problem (the one I took forever on!). Go me, go me. Yay kitten! *coughs* Plus, we've only got two test left (including the final) so *exhales* almost done...
Further, I've already figured out my schedule for next semester (4 classes again). I'm excited about most of it... A bit frightened, but hey, anxiety makes you do well, as long as it's at the right levels.
Okay, no more rambling for the kitten, she's off to study for her test on Monday. Be well y'all.
~kitten~
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So, today was...interesting... For the first time I decided to not go to a class. Weird for girl. Very. She spent the first 15/20 minutes of the drive home (which lasts about 60 minutes) wondering if maybe she should have gone after all. *sigh*
So, for those who've noticed, I am using every variation of "me, my, girl, she, I, i" humanly possible? Why? Because girl damn well feels like it.
Yes, this is girl in a... "mood". She doesn't know why she's in a mood. Kneeling for a bit might help, so i may do that for a little while. But, hey, if it doesn't work, girl will just piss off someone enough to punish her. How fun.
~kitten~
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And now, the day is mostly done. girl got back from work sooner than expected, so now, her whole schedule is a bit off. Don't you hate when that happens??? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?
girl was thinking earlier, trying to decide if she qualified as a switch or not. Why, you may ask, would she fall under the title switch? Well, she has a pet... sort of. A sweet slave, macy, submits to girl online (when she's actually on), but it's pretty informal between us, and ultimately, girl's say isn't the word of a Mistress, merely a higher slave.?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ??
That barely makes sense even in girl's head. Heh.????? So, today, girl spent over an hour on a single math problem (that had 10 sub-questions, but still). Even now she isn't sure she got it right.
Moral? Math + me = depressed kitten.
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So, girl realizes that the first day someone is new, they're like "fresh meat", right? *smiles* Well, yes, yesterday was girl's first day on here as a registered user - wow, that's all she has to say - wow. For those of you who have sent messages critizing girl on a few things, she wants to make a general statement here:
1.) girl was NOT trained to refer to herself as "girl" that was something she personally has chosen to do in order to reinforce her own submissive. she does this because she gets out of line far to often for her own comfort, and this helps. Plus, it serves as an initial warning for when girl is misbehaving, when she starts referring to herself differently, Y/you can tell something is probably wrong.
2.) College, an education, is very important to girl. Some of Y/you are very nice in Y/your encouragement of this, and girl is very grateful. However, others seem to think that because girl considers herself a slave, she is a mere doormate.
girl is not.
she has a mind, she considers herself fairly intellectual, and very spunky when she wants to be! girl intends to have a career after graduation. If You do not approve of Your slave working, then obviously, girl is not compatible with Your style of Domination.
Please do not contact her, as she has enough problems without having to deal with thinking she is a bad slave for wanting a career.
And finally,
3.) Yes, girl is opinionated, loves politics, and enjoys being able to simply talk to her Master, or even just F/friends about whatever... Not everything has to be about sex, right? Life is everything! Life is to be enjoyed with those you love. And personally, girl cannot handle people with barely half a brain to their name. she likes intellectually stimulating conversations, and fun political debates.
Again, if Y/you cannot handle that, we probably aren't compatible.
See, girl talks a lot! But girl is also very shy, and has the tendency to be quite quiet if there is more than one person around.
Final tidbit about kitten: At this moment in time you will A/all notice that girl has not put a city into her profile. she'll get to that if and when she feels more comfortable. For now, let it be known that she lives in north Texas.
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girl finally made her own collarme profile. Happy days, right? Perhaps she will remember to update it every once in a while.
girl is not officially Owned, for she is solely with a kind Master who believes that W/we shant be more than online (and as such, He does not love girl). girl is happy to stay online for now, but knows that she must be a real slave eventually, with her own Master who will love her enough to want to keep her.
girl continues to find it interesting how different Masters are from one another, in their training styles specifically. girl is considered by some to be very well-trained, but by others standards she is merely a beginner. Fun, right? :)
A slave is never fully trained. Training lasts forever, just as all learning and knowledges is infinite.
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Female Submissive, 37, Dallas, Texas
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Female Switch, 40, singapore
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Female Submissive, 37, manhattan, New York
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Female Submissive, 18, Houston, Texas
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Female Submissive, 28, San Jose, California
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Female Switch, 23, London
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Female Submissive, 27, miami, Florida
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Female Submissive, 31, abilene, Texas
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Female Submissive, 35, Minot, North Dakota
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Transgender Switch, 33, Berkeley, California
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Female Submissive, 45
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Female Submissive, 23, Houston, Texas
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