KeptDoll

30 Days of Kink

Day 5: Day 5: What was your first kinky sexual experience?  If you haven’t had one yet, talk about what you hope to have happen.

Hmm. I suppose my first and only time being intimate with a woman could be considered kinky. When I was 17 I made friends with an absolutely beautiful girl. Creamy skin, green eyes, red hair, pretty curves. It started when we were eating lunch at a park. Somehow the topic came around to hickies and she was absolutely astounded that I had never had one. She announced she would fix that and suddenly pushed me into the grass, held me down, and began suckling on my neck. I struggled a bit, but it was pretty clear to me that I was actually enjoying it.

She must have noticed, too, because days later when we were in private, she kissed me. Through that summer, though we didn't really discuss it, we were together. It stayed pretty innocent, there was nothing beyond touching and kissing, but it was fun and eye opening for me.

However, my first experience with a Dom was after I had met the man who is now my Master. Our friendship quickly grew very flirty, and he made it pretty clear he'd like me to be his, but I was still under this ridiculous notion that it was wrong and anti-feminist of me to submit to someone like that. Still, I secretly wanted what he offered and I liked to see how far I could push him. 

We've always have a very teasing, humorous relationship.

One night, we were discussing D/s, and as usual I was teasing. I'm not sure exactly what I said, but in response he calmly told me to kneel for him. I resisted though, teasing more until suddenly I was pulled over his lap and receiving spankings. I was nervous, but I wasn't scared and I didn't struggle for long. I had to give up my notion that I shouldn't like it because I couldn't help asking for more.

What resulted was that his evil man somehow tricked me into slavery! Kidding, Master! I love you! <3

30 Days of Kink

Day 4: Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hint at your kinks?

Several, but none that are very unusual. When playing games that required a captive or something similar, I always volunteered enthusiastically. I always liked to make half hearted escape attempts, with no intention of actually leaving. I remember just wanting to see how firm my captor would be. There was also a lot of playing "pet" as well. I enjoyed pretending to be someone's cat.

I spent a lot of time making up and writing stories as a child. A common theme throughout most was captivity and eventual, but innocent submission to the captor or captors. 

As for when I grew older? I've explained that a little already. <3

Day 3: How did you discover you were kinky?

I've always known I was a little different. As I started exploring my sexuality as I grew up, I would chose and stay in relationships longer with dominant partners. I always loved it when they would get a little rough and domineering with me. I wanted more, but I didn't dare ask for it. I thought it wasn't normal, that it was wrong to want those things.

How silly of me!

As I stated in my first entry, my Master really introduced the D/s dynamic to me. It was with him that I felt safe to explore that side of myself. Now I'm quite happy I did.

Day 2: List your kinks.

They're not terribly interesting, and Master won't be in the least surprised by these. :p

Service. I know, weird, but I honestly get great erotic enjoyment in doing things for my Master. Serving him tea, filing his nails, tidying for him.

Domination/being owned/submission. I think this is kind of obvious. Almost everyone here enjoys either being dominated and/or dominating someone else. I enjoy being told what to do, I enjoy being held down and "forced." It's as simple as that.

Words. And it's not just talking dirty, though I love that, too. It's the intelligent use of language and vocabulary. Master is veeeeeeeeeery good at this. :3

Costume. Another weird one, but not uncommon. I adore dressing up for my Master. Fashion design and coordination are as important in my vanilla life as they are in my kinky life. I have a lot of fun coordinating an outfit with a collar or a achieving a specific look. When he orders me to wear something in particular, it's even better!

Bondage. Be it mental or corporeal, it's just too much damn fun being made helpless in that way! 

Masochism. I don't like a lot of pain, but I enjoy a good spanking/cropping/flogging very much. A good part of it is vicariously enjoying my Master's delight in it. The best part is when I feel the aftermath throughout the day. It's a lovely reminder of him.

Humiliation. I know this one is subjective. No two people have the same definition for this kink. I enjoy it when Master makes me blush and pushes my boundaries, and nothing gets me in that "subspace" faster than groveling at his feet.

So I decided I'll do this '30 Days of Kink" meme because I know it'll make Master smile.

Day 1: Dom, sub, switch?  What parts of BDSM interest you?  Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.

Well, I'm not interesting, but here goes. I'm a sub. Definitely. And I'm not really one of those submissives who is strong willed and super con. I'm pretty submissive all around, but I don't let anyone walk on my Master's property. I'm just eager to please others and avoid conflict (though that goes right out the window when playing video games, then I'm a bitch).

I always liked the idea of a strong, assured partner and now that I think back, even as a child I naturally befriended strong and confident, but kind people. I still surround myself with friends who have those traits, and it was in a very vanilla setting I met the man who is my Master now. 

Suffice to say he gently introduced to me that he was into the 'lifestyle' and I asked a lot of questions because I'd been curious about it for some time. The more we talked about it, the more it seemed to make sense to me. Something really clicked. Before long I was converted and taken to the dark side! >:D

The parts of BDSM that interest me are probably very light and fluffy to most. A little pain is definitely fun, but I can only take so much. I love to be restrained, but I've found that gags aren't my favorite, though they can be fun. It's just too hard not to talk to Master and be asking questions or begging him during play! Words are very important for both of us.

I wouldn't really say my Master and I have high protocol. We have many rituals we observe that are important to us though. I wear a collar and leash when we are alone, and a choker when we are out. I kneel. I am polite and speak to him in a certain way, but I never have to worry about holding back any wry remarks or jokes. Master likes a lively, cheerful pet.

For Master and I, BDSM is much more of a mental connection rather than a physical one (but I love the physical, unfunfunf!). I get a great deal of pleasure out of doing simple things for him and following his wishes. Mostly I love the idea of coming home from a world where things hardly ever go as expected, and do some very simple things that are guaranteed to make someone I love very happy. And it works every time, without fail. Wonderful, controlled, consistent happiness.

Getting that smile and a 'good girl' makes my whole day.