Kaiel

After reading My last journal entry, hubby-sub said, " he would never trade places with ANYONE...." Luckily, he doesn't have to! :)?

it's funny that new-sub speaks of how much anticipation he has during the day as he waits to hear from Me because during a recent? conversation My hubby shared that he use to feel the same way...anxious and excited as he waited to hear from Me or see My name pop-up in his inbox, during O/our courting period. Now, the hubby-sub is experiencing jealousy and angst because someone is getting to feel that "first kiss" feeling. new-sub says he'd trade places with My hubby-sub in a second...because although the "first kiss" feeling is wonderful and exciting, the LTR and TPE is what new-sub desires more than anything. ?hubby-sub shared that he knows that he will never have that "just met" feeling again, but what he does have is the feeling that he is the "luckiest man in the world? to be married to Me and owned by Me". ?hubby-sub knows that he is Mine forever and I love him, more than even I can comprehend.? new-sub knows that there is a natural connection and communication between U/us is effortless. Me, I don't know where this is going, but I going to enjoy the ride. :)

the new photos were taken as a Christmas gift for My hubby... it was a fun photo session! Hope you enjoy the pics as much as he did!?

Happy New Years!?

I am having horrible computer issues, so I will be taking a while to reply to emails. Hopefully, this will be resolved in the next day or so. Be well, Mistress Kaiel

Happy Holidays!! Here's hoping Santa grants all your wishes!!

So many things going on... I am about 3 weeks away from marrying my boy and couldn't be happier. I am still looking for a houseboy... although applicants are few and far between and even those are not serious or not what I seek... I imagine he or she must be out there... After the wedding, I plan to re-engage heavily in the lifestyle... are you ready? ;)

please know I am not going to waste My time, chatting, texting, calling and getting to know you if you can't handle My demands and live up to simple standards early on. If this is your "MO" (whomever) you are please don't waste My time or yours. My needs are specific and I am serious as shit about what I want and how I expect you to be (online and in REAL LIFE) Yes, it's a novel idea, but I only seek REAL TIME, REAL LIFE relationships. So revisit My profile, do as I ask in My profile or I WILL NOT REPLY to your emails.? **obviously another BS interaction has prompted this! **

added a new pic, waiting for approval... may take a lifetime ;)

Damn, I need to update My profile and put a new pic here! I guess I have been MIA for quite a bit, but I will be hanging around from time to time getting reacquainted. Look forward to an updated profile soon!

I know several of you have tried to contact Me via email, unfortunately? I haven't been logging on here much due to My busy busy schedule... I will be finishing up in the next couple of weeks and will be more active online, then. Be patient!! Mistress Kaiel :)

I have been MIA, due to My overwhelming studies and pursuits. I will be communicating online again in the near future.

Happy New Year's Eve!!!

Merry Christmas!!! **I hope Santa still visited you, even if you were naughty?!

ohh just noticed they haven't approved the halloween one. Ummm... maybe soon.

Well the new photo is up! :) I also added one from halloween just because it's fun and who doesn't like to "play dress up".

I am currently uploading new photos, please be patient.

Happy Halloween!!!....mwahahahaha!!!

I have scared away yet another one. I guess I will tell the short version :). he had all the makings of a good submissive, great manners, followed My rules, did what I asked...W/we had been communicating via online, text and phone for a while and met for the first time a couple of weeks ago...W/we did not play that first night.. But W/we had a great time. O/our second meeting was last week, W/we met for dinner and he had booked the hotel room of My choosing. A waterfront room with a balcony. When W/we returned to the room, I blindfolded , handcuffed and shackled him to the chair on the balcony. I poured hot wax on him... and nippled a bit at all his parts... he complained... "I was hurting him"... I kept going however and he complained again. Eventually, in fury I stopped... unhandcuffed him, wrote his new safe word on the mirror in lipstick "whine" and I went to sleep. Angry!! The next morning he apologized and said he overreacted, I certainly agreed...I thought I would give him another chance. That chance came last night. W/we met for dinner and went to My favorite place to dance. W/we chatted all night... I danced and danced. W/we had a really great time. Again, W/we returned to the hotel room, he got naked .... and I began flogging him... I used a small rubber flogger and yes, it does have quite a bite to it... However, it is not brutal by any means... I believe he took three lashes before... yelling out he couldn't handle it. :( Again... it was dramatic and over the top!! I stopped flogging him and got in the bed, making him sleep on the floor... This morning, he stated,"he was sorry, that I was too much for him". I laughed....I suggested to him that he change his profile here on CM and indicate that he couldn't handle, spankings, whips, floggers, canes... anything that would offer any sensation of pain. I highly recommended that he return to the vanilla world and find a dominating woman that would pretend to "top" him... Someone that would give him the control he desired, but that owned furry handcuffs not the real deal.... I am too much for him!

Dayummm, I just worked on updating My profile to express My "new desires and positions" and it didn't save :( I guess I will work on it again tomorrow.

My how quickly things seem to change. My pet after 2 years has now been suspended from service due to health issues. he will remain with Me as My partner but will no longer be engaging in bdsm activites until he is better. So, I imagine My need to add another has increased!!! As noted in My profile I am still seeking a single, attractive, successful, intelligent slave to add to My stable. Now, I am possibly in the market for another. Same rules apply... please email details about yourself and attach a pic. I understand the need to email your wants and dislikes but truly My goal is to mold you into I would like? you to be. So, if that is not an option for you... then know I am not the right Dominant for you. Ahhh, the journey continues....

just wanted to give those in the neighboring areas, that from August 25th-Oct 21st the Renn Fest is in My area, its a great fun time for all U/us kinky folks... **nothing like dressing up in chainmail and kink clothes** in broad daylight and shocking the vanilla folks if you have questions and want to know more about it, shoot Me an email...

Ahhh, vacation. I love it. Unfortunately, one of My boys is having back surgery today. (no, not because of Me:). I am not sure what his recovery will be like or his service to Me will be, but he and I have been together for a long time, so I am sure W/we will be fine. On a better note, tomorrow I go away with My other boy. B&B bound (pun intended) again. I can't wait... I am sure it will be romantic and full of love. Sadistic and pleasurable. Ummmm... ok, better stop now. hehehehehe

Another thought, if you are so sad that you must take anothers pic... you must be horrid... Anyway... this is Me (the pic will be back up)... and I have others... to prove it... hehehe...

I recently posted a pic to My profile and was informed by a sub, that someone else was sending it on CM as themself....it is not...

I think I will start a list of all the posers and players I run into here on CM... ummmm..

I am so f*cking tired of posers, liars, players, deceitful ass subs, so called slaves. I am tired of wasting My time communicating with someone only to find that they are not totally sane or honest. I am not sure what they gain from the lies... but I do know that the internet allows you to create a false identity and be who ever you would like to be, even if only for a brief moment. It is quite sad because in this quest I am sincere and honest. I do not misrepresent Myself or lie... ummm, maybe I should!!! **I would like to mention that this is not in reference to My current boys. they are wonderful.

Another birthday entry... Thank you My pet for welcoming Me home with open arms and beautiful flowers and birthday cake!!! I promise to take you away.... with Me.. next time...

Happy Birthday to Me !!! I just got back from having a wonderful time at a B&B with My boy... It was a great time... being naked on the dock and gagging him with his bathrope belt... cbt was an added touch and created birthday memories I am sure I won't forget. O/our time together in the jacuzzi tub was great and watching you shackled ... umm umm good. I can't wait to be near you again... **thank you My boy for the wonderful time and birthday gifts. you are nothing but a joy...

On another note. I would like to share something very interesting that happened last night. I was in the subs for Dommes chatroom when approached by a sub for a PM. I agreed and during the course of the conversation, I realized this sub seemed familiar. Well, I asked him to send a pic and low and behold I had chatted with him before at length. However, at that time, this sub expressed fears about his submission and then "poof" he was gone. I didn't hear anything back from him until last night when he appeared with a new profile name. Very deceptive little bugger. At any rate, after receiving his pic I realized I knew him from O/our previous chats and confronted him... asking why would he present himself as someone new? he didn't have very good reasons to do so and I expressed My disgust with his actions. I also informed him that I would post about him in My journal. I have not shared his name because he is truly not that relevant...*I will say he is not from the states....I just thought I'd send a warning to all the other Dommes'. Buyer beware of those who disappear and return to eagerly pursue you... Shady Shady... Mistress Kaiel

I would like to share that some patience has paid off and I am have been fortunate enough to add another boy (subtosome) to My stable. he is honest, sincere, submissive, obediant and loving. he is open and accepting of My rules and My role in his life and I am very happy to have him...

So it is crazy how some subs think!! Tonight two subs contacted Me after previously stating that they were "not sure" or "could not be what I desired..." they contacted Me to let Me know I had been on their minds and they wanted to try to engage in My wishes... OK... ummmm !! very interesting. I think it is laughable that a sub could think it is up to them to decide when it is appropriate to engage in things I desire. Like I'm sitting here holding My breathe, in need. I am not... so, I post this to let them know. you want to give into My needs and My desires... it starts with punishment & I am a sadist!! Take what I dish out and W/we will see... hehehehehe

I have decided to take it slow and easy. I have had several interactions with subs/slaves who appear to fit what I seek and after the encounter I find that they are not who or how they say they are. I will not take time to go into detail about the recent "failure"... but will share that I am becoming tired of players and posers... Don't get Me wrong some of the interactions have been enjoyable however, the progression I desire in a new bdsm relationship has not existed. So, I take this time to reitterate I am not a "one night stand" kinda player. I am seeking a long term bdsm relationship... please keep that in mind before contacting Me... Mistress Kaiel

The Date W/we met at a local sushi place and immediately I could see his nervousness. The conversation flowed easily and W/we were very comfortable with each other, right away. During dinner he asked,"Ma'am may I...."he was respectful and talked with his head bowed. I was intrigued. Later during dinner he asked, "Ma'am may I touch your feet, feel you skin?" I said, "yes". he did and exhaled....deeply. he was aroused. W/we talked about the what if's and My expectations. W/we talked about his submission and he showed doubt and fear. I reassured him...After dinner W/we went to listen to some live music. I had him sit, I stood close to him. he leaned in to smell Me, his hands stayed on his lap... still. his eyes lowered. I kissed him on his eyelids...whispering how gentle I could be. his breath quickened and he said,"yes Ma'am". The sexual chemistry was undeniable...I too felt My breath quicken thinking of what was eventually to come...W/we left the bar, him following closely beside Me, head bowed... voice quivering...I insisted that he not drive home because it was 2 1/2 hours away and it was late. he said,"yes Ma'am"...he was to follow Me, stay in a hotel and today W/we would continue to pursue O/our relationship. However, that did not happen.... after allowing him to go and get in his car to follow Me. Something changed, I don't know if fear grabbed a hold of him or if he is a poser or player and his intentions were not true...today....8 hours later he won't reply to My text, won't answer My questions, won't answer the phone. he thinks he's hiding from Me. I want him to know it's not Me you are hiding from, it's you...this journal entry lets Me allow the fury to go and I am moving on.....BYEEEE.. **so he did reply and he did email and he did call, again for days... trying to make it up to Me. I almost thought of re-considering... trying to re-engage in something. but, I knew he lacked loyalty, honesty and any kind of commitment. "the proof is in the pudding"--->? today I got an IM from him (I want to say his name so badly ;). that stated,"i can't do this, i can't focus on my business and focus on pleasing You. sorry to waste your time". so I hope this person reads My journal and realizes, it's ok. you weren't the one for Me anyway, because if you were ..... you wouldn't have left an IM when you knew I was out!!! coward!!!

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