EmeraldsPheonix

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I started the lifestyle in the fall of 2007 when I first started college. As I grew to what I am today I have went through many mentors and friends and so called Masters and Dominants that couldn't tame my wild spirit. When I moved to Kansas in 2009 to be with a wonderful Man and His slave I started to grow in my journey to discover myself. I was collared for the first time and lost that collar to a situation that showed that at that time I was not ready to become the slave I desired to be. I then in the fall of 2009 i met my chipmunks father who for almost 3 years worked on a hard road and helped me discover more about myself, but though the road has been hard and he had tamed me down out of my wild ways he became a different person than i married and started the relationship with and has caused me to fear and become unable to trust him like a person in a committed relatonship should be able to. I continue to grow and search myself inside daily trying to figure everything out and teust that when the blessed God and Goddess say that I have dound that person eveything will fit together. I have found that I am not designed for the harsh structure I first searched for, though I need it to an extent. I have found that I need a hand of guidance and control with the understanding that I will at times need to be free of my submissive role to be who I am on the inside with the urge to submit. I on the inside seek to have control of situations and of the way things are organized and done mean while also seek the submissive pleasure of pleasing the man that I love and hope to be collared and married to when the time is right instead of rushing like I did 3 years ago. I continue to grow and learn as I discover more about who I am and what is right for me.