I am now a wonderfully happy slave - totally owned by Morgan_stern (of Informed Consent).
Very rarely on here but so very happy to be where I am mentally and emotionally :-) I am here to meet new friends and to continue learning and growing.
I have been with my husband, who is a wonderful man, for 18 years but I know he can not ever be my Dominant. I have struggled with this issue for the past 4 years. The mental understanding/aspect is just not there for him and that is paramount to me. My husband is not aware that I have a Sir outside of my marriage.
I only discovered my submissive nature a little over 4 years ago but have learned so much about myself during that time.
I am bipolar. There are many who claim they understand what that entails and that it is not an issue in being my Dominant - I beg to differ. It MUST be an issue. There are ways in which to train and discipline a submissive that could have dire consequences if the bipolar is not taken fully into consideration.
Mild episodes of bipolar can make me appear bratty or moody at times, due to feeling insecure. The insecurity can be from lack of communication from my Sir or lack of understanding of my Sir's emotions at that time. Ignoring the behaviour and ignoring me as a punishment is not constructive at all as it would lead to further insecurities leading to more bratty behaviour and an ever increasing circle.
I do not feel that I need to be micro-managed but I do require strict routine, rules, boundaries and discipline (I use the word discipline in its true form, not punishment) and guidance.
I am an honest and trustworthy person who wishes to give as much as she can to her Sir. I will ask many questions if it helps me to be a better submissive.
Do not ever ask me though to 'play' without my Sir either being present or for his permission in the first place to be granted. Thank you
