dyonizos

Currently back in chastity training to satisfy a Domme

New Year!!! i did NOT forget the "Happy" at first because this year did not start in this way: i dissapointed Mistress.

I had a party for the NYE and i unlocked myself because i knew i would drink a lot and maybe things would happen.

I told to Mistress today and She was NOT happy at all when She learnt i did not ask for Her permission before doing it... and she is right.

She told me later that the only thing She was thinking about was my punishment for having disappointed Her.

I do not know yet if She has found my punishment but i hope i would handle it.

I have so much to do to fix it!

I feel ashamed in this period, whil i should feel proud of being Her....

I am now locked into my CB3000 since last sunday.

I am happy because in that way, Mistress owns Her dick on 24/7 and it makes me feel more and more Hers.

The week started really good and, for the first day off what i could call "locked day at work" i was really excited about being locked in front of my coworkers without being noticed.

But on the other hand, i really need to cum and, yesterday, when i was toying my asshole with my plug, i came to the edge of cumming. Of course i stopped it because only Mistress controls Her dick (for the record, it is almost 15 days since last time i came).

I told Her the story and She was proud of me so i was happy to be Hers (once more!! ;-) ).

But later that day, i confessed Mistress that i have not practiced the pose She taught me for the last few days and She was NO happy.

She told me that She first wanted to let me cum today but, after what i told Her, She changed Her mind and decided to forbid me of cumming.

I begged Her to let me cum but She told me the only way i could cum would be into my cage, and i had to find a punishment.

I proposed Her to keep my plug for the night but She told me She loved the idea of no plug for a week so i changed my mind and told Her i will think about another punishment because i want to respect Her will.

Finally, i did not find another punishment, so i told my Mistress i would respect Her choice of not letting me cum.

i will be locked for another period and i must admit i really wonder how many days Mistress will keep me in that way.

On the other hand, i know the next time i will cum, i may be unlock and hard so i am quite happy :).

I have received my CB300 yesterday and wore it for the night. It is so comfortable!! I did not feel painful when I woke up (compared to the BON4) so i put it off just for my shower because I was locked with the steel lock.

I am now back into my cd and told my Mistress Her dick is now locked permanently. She asked me if it was my goal and I answered Her that, to my mind, Her dick shouldn't be hard if Mistress doesn't want and She understood it.

thinking of Mistress while i'm plugged and locked...

In my previous post, I told I was going to wear my cd for 14 hours.

So I come here to tell about the night I spent!!

First of all, the night was easier than I thought: I woke up once or twice because of hard-on but I managed to get soft quite quickly during the night. But about 7:30, this one was the most difficult of them: I was so hard that it made me feel painful so bad!! fortunatly, I just had to wait until 8 in order to unlock myself so I waited until, and I finally took off my cd. The fact is I was so hard just after getting free that I was not able to sleep again before 8:30!!

I am quite proud of myself because the more I wear it, the longer I can handle it :).

Today, i will wear my chastity device for about 14 hours, which is a huge time for me, considering the fact i only wore it twice before ( i am quite new in this world and Mistress is training me), and it was only for the night ( even if the second time i woke up with the pain, but i already talked about it in a previous post).

So: yesterday, i was really tired and fell asleep without notice so i did not put my cd on. When i told this to Mistress, She was not angry about it ( i am lucky i belong to a very comprehensive Mistress :) !!!) but She was decided to make me pay a little bit for this foolishness, so She ordered me to wear my cd for 14 hours. It was 6pm when She told me to wear it so i'm locked from this moment. For now i did not feel any pain and i hope i won't feel during my night, in order to please Mistress, and also because i really want to be able to handle it on a long term in the future, to be Her full time.

Last night i was allowed by Mistress to sleep without my chastity device (Thank You Mistress). The fact is the night before, i woke up in the middle of the night with a painful erection while i was locked. i managed to get soft but it came again and again... for about an hour before i can finally manage to get back to sleep.

i told Mistress about the night and She was proud of me for having tried to keep me locked despite of the pain.

Lats night, She asked me if i thought i need a night off my chastity device and i answer Yes (that was more like "Yes Mistress" ^^) and then She allowed me to sleep unlocked in order to get some rest.

i know i will wear it next night so i just want to say: Thank You Mistress for this night! :)

Last night I was so happy to be back to my Mistress that I decided to symbolize this : last week I bought a chastity device, hoping I would wear it in the future even if I did not know when it would come). I decided to wear it and take pics from my locked cock for my Mistress and then I sent to Her, explaining that it meaned a lot to me to show Her I was ready to wear a chastity device for Her in the future (after a training of course… I am aware of it!!).

I hoped to please Her with the pics but, what I did NOT hope was the fact She was so happy to see me wearing it that She ordered me to keep it during all night. I must admit that I was not prepared for this, because the fact of wearing the device was still keeping me hard when She ordered it.

I was so afraid of feeling pain or getting too much uncomfortable (or just being able to sleep!!) during the night that I would have been forced to unlock myself. I told Her about my thought and then She said to me: “Well no matter what happens, it has to stay on until before work.”

When I read those words, I thought I would never be able to sleep if something happened that night. I was so afraid of it but, at the same time, so proud to see Mistress so happy at the point She ordered me to keep longer than I thought (remember: my first goal was to keep pictures with the device for Her and nothing more!!).

Anyway, an order is an order and I had to keep it all night “NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS”. When I leaved Her to try to sleep I could not help myself thinking about my cock locked, and thinking of it just kept me hard. I tried to sleep for half an hour but did not manage to…. But I finally was sleeping the next half hour.

Surprisingly, I did not wake up once during all night but… when I woke up…*Hello!! This is your morning hard-on knocking!! Muahahah…* would illustrate perfectly what I felt while opening my eyes. My cock was so hard (I do not know if it was because of the device or just because I was excited before falling asleep but it was harder than almost all other mornings) that I felt the pain… I remembered that Mistress wanted me to free myself only before work so I run under the shower, in order to get free as soon as possible (free from the device but mostly from the pain).

When I took off the device, I was so happy but so sad at the same time: happy to get free but sad because I would have loved to keep it everytime for Mistress. Why do not I keep myself locked everytime for Her? Unfortunately, the device is too big to be worn under clothes without being seen (I bought the device in order to try it so I did not buy the most expensive of course).

I will work myself again and again to wear it in the way Mistress orders me and I hope that, in the future, the only time I will take it off would be to please Mistress and shave myself.

Today is a good day : my old Domme took me back under Her will with a commitment: always tell Her if I have problems.

Story between Her and me stopped about a month ago, after some cams shows I performed to Her.

I just stopped giving news, because I had to deal with some problems and did not want to talk about. It lasted a month.

I came back to Her last week-end to give some news and to apologize about my attitude.

She was not angry but I felt I hurt Her during this month. It made me feel so bad: before that month I was totally Her, my body owned to her and I was so proud of it!.... I felt ashame when I came back.

Anyway, we decide that we would have our own relationships: She would have Her slaves and I would have another Domme.

So we started to chat freely together and, step by step, it appeared that I was still under Her will.

Finally, after a serious discussion (which included the commitment) She decided to take me back (was so glad to hear it…).

I do not know if my problems will disappear soon or not but there is one thing I know: She will always know about my feelings.