Dsire4u


dsiretobond Dominant Couple, 45	dsire2serve Male Switch, 35, glastonbury, Connecticut	Dsire666 Female Submissive, 24, manhatten, New York

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	About Dsire4u Not quite ready to give up, but would find it a delicious sweetness at this point in my life. Love to be told what to do. Love to do it. Need to find someone who is not afraid of a bbw, who is passionate, who is intelligent, who has a high sex drive and is willing to play. Daddy Dom would be nice, but not absolutely necessary. Non smoker.

I decided to play perfect world for a few minutes.
In my perfect world, I would get a chance to actually meet and talk and get to know many, many doms.
In my perfect world, they would be so eager to teach me something about bdsm.
In my perfect world, they would actually like to experience a mind altering, soul sensation, unbelievably deep experience that they couldn't put it into words, they would just know they want it over and over and over.
In my perfect world, my dom would be steady, sure, honest, and so damn all male.
In my perfect world, my dom would want lots of sex, lots of giving me directions, lots of love, and lots of interesting, stimulating things to think about and do something about.
In my perfect bdsm world, I would feel oh so safe, yet oh so challenged.
In my perfect world, I couldn't wait to be with my dom and he wouldn't make me wait.
In my perfect world, my age and weight would be minor things, my dom would hardly notice.
In my perfect world, he would notice how much he loves me, wants to be with me, and enjoys my company in every way.
In my perfect world, my dom would understand that using me is good and he would understand why it is good.
In my perfect world, I wouldn't be writing this stuff.

I am in a holding pattern. I feel like I am somewhere between the shoreline and the ship. The water is warm and pleasant.

I had a few weeks with the intellectual perfect dom. I didn't get to explore the physical. The emotional was pretty good too. It kind of gave me some hope.

So, I just keep biding my time and knowing that there is someone of substance out there and there is someone who isn't afraid of really going all the way and just taking a chance on seeing just how mind blowing it can get if you are willing to risk it.

I know that he is out there.

Summer time...time to look, time to search, time to play, ah wonderful, wonderful summertime!

Why is everyone who is good, still looking?

Are expectations impossible?

I seek and crave, do you seek and crave?

Where does your mind take you? Do you want a submissive who is sweet and so submissive?

I want to know how far? Do you know?

A submissive, who is so submissive...is so adrift without someone in her life to dominate her.
I turn everything into something sexual. It is a hunger of sexuality, but not just that, it is the hunger to be submissive to someone.

I thought I finally met the right one. A classically trained Master. It didn't go far. Some are interested in collecting as many as they can. They must spend all their time running from sub to sub trying to keep them all happy and I bet most of them don't feel like they are getting enough time. As a submissive, I need someone that is willing to take charge and that involves time on their part. I am not demanding that they spend every waking moment with me. Gosh, we all live busy lives. But, you just can not not answer emails and keep a submissive dangling for days. This is cruel. Okay, some of you are outright about being cruel. I want someone who doesn't mind controlling me, but that means they have to have a little interest in me in order to control me. I am very willing to be submissive and to submit to the right one, but how can I submit when I am left alone?
There just has to be someone on this site who is looking for me because I know I am looking for you.

I am not sure everyone here is meshing. The posts of the women and the posts of the men seem really different, but I think in the long run, they want the same thing, they just express it in different words.

Lots of journal time now it seems.
I can come off as pretty googley esoteric sometimes. I need to keep my feet firmly planted and not let the fantasy take me away. The esoteric can get pretty dirty when she has a reason to.
My latest words of the day is inner peace along with outer fulfillment.

Introspection time. I have played with married men, but do not want to do that any more. I want someone of my own that might be curious what it means to be possessed by his submissive. I am not speaking of topping from the bottom, but the one who has such trust from his submissive, that he wants to please her because she pleases him so well.

You can't begin to know the adventuresome heart and shaky nervousness of the potential.

Where do fantasy and reality find the perfect mix?

Sometimes I feel so utterly wounded. I am afraid of losing the desire to desire.
I am the one.

You want to have a history with someone. You are tired of not feeling whole. You wish to be in control of one who gives you control freely, happily, and eagerly. You do not abuse her, but claim her. It is not a game. You are ready to have your wishes come true and to make hers come true. You know that you must make decisions for the both of you and what is right for the both of you. You will not be shy of the unknown. You will not fear someone who is not perfect. You will take a chance on her. You want something so deeply and she knows she is true. She knows she is worthy. She knows most can't go there with her. She is unique and ordinary. She has an old soul and a young heart. She is strong and vulnerable. She is so far more than a physical body, her essence is all female...all submissive...all softness. She is your home. She is your garden. She is your playground, your comfort, your passion. When you look at her, you see beauty, but you know the illusion she has to the world is not beautiful to most, but you still see beauty. Are you under her spell or is she under yours? Yes.

Ideal Person: You are He. You are the universe. You are the earth, the sun, the stars. You are not perfect, but you see the potential in someone. You tremble at the thought of finding her at last. You look at her and do not see what the world sees...or even what you might have seen yesterday. You are her Master. She does not have to bow at your feet physically because she is always bowed at your feet and you know it. You see her across a room and your eyes meet and you feel so much power surge through you. She is yours. You never doubt it. She trusts you completely and you trust her completely. BDSM is all and it is nothing. This is the life of what only a few get and all want but are too afraid to take. Instead, they want discrete encounters, spice to a bored marriage. In a bored marriage, the partners must be boring. That is not you. You will not ask all from her and give nothing. You will ask all from her and give all back.
You do not see a 51 yo, bbw...you see the chance of a lifetime and you are going to make that leap of exhilarating faith that is going to pay off so richly.
You, in all you domly manhood, do tremble at the strength and the possibility that awaits you. She will give you more than you ever deserved or wished for. You will find yourself giving more than you thought you could. In your youth, you may have focused on physical things, material things, and selfishly explored your desires. In your maturity, you have learned some truths that it is time to apply. It is time for you to become the next step..the next level, the next adventure. It is time and then some. Can a Master be afraid to go there. He should be. She does not expect that he finds everything easy. He thrives on the difficult and conquers it. He loves the feeling of victory over something he was unsure of. The harder the conflict, the more glorious the victory (Thomas Paine, Common Sense).
Do you dare go further and email this one? To say no closes a door forever. You will not get another chance most likely. You will be settling for the palest vanilla disguised and in an illusion of darkness. But...what if? Yes, but what if?

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