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I can't help it...at times I feel Weak. Not physically, but mentally. And I do fantasize about serving a Domme who lifts me up, who give me confidence in serving Her.  Who makes me feel like I’m worth something…Like I’m something special.

It's something that I've always been conflicted about, because I'm such a mentally strong person. There are those times where I just want to sit at Her feet, and feel Her rub my head and smile at me. And let me know everything is going to be OK...

I could really use that right about now.

Why is it so hard to find what I'm looking for?????  Wow...I had no idea it would be this difficult to find a Woman who would like to be treated like a Goddess.

I know now...

As much frustration as this site brings...I must say it feels good to be admired. https://www.collarspace.com/js/tiny_mce/plugins/emotions/img/smiley-laughing.gif" alt="Laughing" border="0" />

This site blows!!! I'm convinced...I'm not going to find what I'm looking for on here.

Which then brings up the question...Why the Hell am I still here!? https://www.collarspace.com/js/tiny_mce/plugins/emotions/img/smiley-yell.gif" alt="Yell" border="0" />

I love how bright and sunny it is today! Makes me smile as I sit here and fill out Job Applications online. https://www.collarspace.com/js/tiny_mce/plugins/emotions/img/smiley-laughing.gif" alt="Laughing" border="0" />

Don't you just love Job Hunting!

I'm starting feel like I want to be pleased. Nothing wrong with exploring.

I'm a Switch!

Well...Its Sunday and the Fall season is almost over.  I woke up feeling a bit under the weather. Then I saw I got an e-mail from a Domina I e-mailed a couple of weeks ago. She lives about 4 hours away. So, I wasn't sure if she was going to respond. But, she did. :)   I was happy to see she was interested. I responded to her message as quickly as I could. 

We shall see where it leads us.

You know...It's interesting. I've worked a full long day. I'm tired and I just got home. Why do I feel the need and desire to want to please someone?

I don't think I'll find that connection I'm looking for on here. I've found and chatted with some interesting women.  None of them are from my city. I guess friendship's are nice.

And I'm cool with that...

I'm starting to see if your on this site, and your genuinely looking for a connection.

Theres a huge chance you will get burned a couple of times. 

I'm currently attending my burns. But, I'm still here searching. Not giving up!

What I seek in a Domina?

First and foremost I’m looking a real woman, in every way.  I’m a fan of all women of all shapes and sizes. I’m open when it comes to race and ethnicity. I like quirkiness, intelligence, and honest, independent, good self-esteem, a sense of humor, a love for adventure, and the outdoors. Someone who loves to laugh, has a smart sadistic mind. I’m not looking for the fantasy, I’m more so looking for a genuine natural relationship between two people who know how to give and take.  I enjoy women, who are direct, and don’t mind giving discipline if they see a need. A woman who doesn’t have to yell, or tell me what to do 24/7. She lays down the rules and I respect it and abide by it. A woman who doesn’t need to command my submission all the time, but someone I choose to submit too. I’m not looking for someone who hates men and want to cause them physical and mental pain.  The woman I’m seeking will be sensual and sadistic. She will enjoy being pleased, and in return will enjoy pleasing me. I’m looking for someone who’s level headed.  Someone who likes a man to take care of her in every way he can. A woman who’s open minded. A woman who absolutely loves’ to have a man go down on her at least once a day. LoL…Thought I would throw that one in. 

When I find this Woman – Then I will have found my Domina.

I'm Open to Relocating for the right situation.

I do live in Chicago now, and love it.  I'll be living here at least for another year.From really searching on this site. It seems I'm finding some of the most beautiful Domina's. I'm not married to this city. I'm not finding what I seek here, and perhaps I could do some more careful searching.   I'm in a position in my life, where  I'm open and don't mind Relocating to be happy. As long as I can transfer my career there. I have no problem.  I love traveling. I enjoy those weekend get always. Perhaps I can get away to serve you.

There's the rub...

It would be nice to find someone who would like to Relocate to Chicago . :)

Man...It's difficult being a submissive male, and trying to find someone. II had much to offer any wonderful beautiful Domina. I just want someone to see how special I am. But, that could be very well part of the problem. Maybe my standards are too high.  I know what I have to offer, and I have much to offer any real Domina.

I've enjoyed being back on this site. Even though its tedious work weeding through all of the profiles. I know it will be worth it when I find that "special Lady"

What's important is that I'm starting to at least be more comfortable knowing what I truly desire.

The search continues...

Well...I must say I met someone wonderful last night. She's smart, funny, and a real Domme. We also have a lot in common. She lives in another state. I really couldn't get her out of my head last night.

We'll see how it all pans out.

The time is now... I'm very much open and ready to take that step forward and actually act on this curiosity.