Hello, I am a Dominant from the central Pennsylvania area. I am currently in Lititz Working full time until I can get settled on an apartment and area I am comfortable living in.
I just recently returned from Butler, Pa where I was mentored in the BDSM life style. I honestly would consider myself experienced now. I have a couple years experience, as well as a hundred of so scenes under my belt. Unlike most people my age, I do know what I am doing, though the old Gard would disagree. I have kind of picked and plucked what I believe in as far as the old style and protocols but have a new age view to the entire affair.
I do side work for a non-profit record label Scrub Club Records. They are a group of Hip-hop and Nerdcore rappers. Honestly they are amazing fun and it has become part of my life.
I am a nerd through and through, I may not look like it nor fall into the stereo-typical setting. I mean, I am a metal worker, and have worked construction and factory jobs. Most nerd tend to be cubical workers and are socially awkward.
Which brings me to my next point, I am a very social creature! I love meeting people and talking even if your not interested I would still love to chat!
a little bit about my kinky side. I am a sadist. I love to see my partner in pain, as long as it is caused by me, and within and certain degree.
I am a huge fan of crops and whips, I do not own a whip any longer, it fell apart over time. Handcuffs are a close third and nothing can beat the use of the hands.
I am really big into giving and receiving oral, if that is something you dislike, something somewhere else better make up for the loss of my favorite thing.
Outside of the kink,again, I really enjoy going out on the town seeing movies eating out ect. I think pretty much everything everyone likes. I love to dance, sing , play video games, talk. ( I am a nerd at heart want to win serious brownie points talk geek with me.)
Just a little additional information, I am dominant in most everything I do. you will notice that I am pretty straight forward in a conversation, and a little bit pushy all at the same time. Do not expect me to be this way the first couple of times we see each other, I like to show that I have a more gentle side, before letting you see what I am about.
As far as contacting me, feel free to do so, I am an open book and will freely share my knowledge with you. If you would like to receive mentoring and practical training. feel free to ask me and we will take it into consideration. ( This is not just for your my subbies, Dominants if you need shown the ropes...)
It is more of a warning than anything. I am looking for friendships, and ultimately a relationship.
I am looking for someone similar to me, I would love a nerdy/geeky girl into some of the same stuff. I am good judge of compatibility and being able to see the long term, so do not be hurt if I can't see myself in a relationship with you.
I am not saying that friends with benefits is completely out of the question. However if we get involved in that type of thing, and I feel we are actually compatible, you can expect me to want more from it, and after a while if I can not have it. I will walk away from the situation, and we will go back to just being friends strictly, Though sometimes exceptions can be made depending on how close of a friend you are. I know that seems harsh but I know what I want.
So been a little bit since I updated the journal. So I Attended the York munch last Saturday.
It was a blast being around so many like minded people. It was not awkward at all, because everyone pretty much has the same secret haha.
So from now on, I do not meet people except for rare occasions, outside of a munch. There really is no point in wasting time talking to you on the internet.
Want to find a local munch near you ect. Check out Just take out the spacers.
It's a social networking site for kinky people, and is not as much a meat factory as this site is. Really good place to make friend ect.
That is about it, I will check my profile here once in a while. Pretty much unless you want to be friends I am done looking for on this site.
Oh, I dont even know how to do this entry. Basically I am feeling the call to Dom every day now. I just crave it I love it and the life style. I want it to become part of my daily life.
I have a problem, almost a curse, I find it hard when faced with a girl I want to date, and Dom. I cannot seem to make the two flow together seamlessly, other than in the bedroom. It is like the vanilla part of me wants to be sweet and romantic. While the Dom, and sadist inside craves nothing more than to see her beg at my feet for more. Such a difficult task, and I know not a way to cope with it.
Haha, A bit of Epic Nerd news. I am making a EP based entirely off of War3 Sc1&2 and D2. You can catch the intro track in my next audio update. :D
Shit, ladies if you going to have such a stand off attitude, why bother joining a community. I think you guys might be as guilty as the fake dom's you cry about. I think most of you only want to think and talk about submitting, but when it comes down to actually meeting each other so you can get to know one another, you back down. So I am calling you out girls, I think most of you are fake.
Not everyones out to get you lol.
Anyhow, I think is a better site for this kind of thing. At least when predators turn up, you don't get banned for reporting their names.
Ultimately however, your wasting your time online, best way to meet people is to expose yourself. When everyone knows what your about it makes you much more approachable.
Heh i guess a new lesson learned is everyone has different Dom styles, and your Dom style may make other Dominants feel, uneasy, with themselves.
Had a amazing weekend!
Real bored tonight anyone want to chat?
Will there ever be sexual freedom in America, When will it be accepted by all that almost every human is sexual in nature? When will the world finally be able to stop hiding behind their masks and living two separate lives and it intermingles into one?
I know it is all pipe dreams, but I feel that everyone is being wronged, particularly in my country, where sexuality is repressed in certain ways by religion ( and government to a degree).
Hoping to get to the TNG Pitt munch before my time here expires. The situation at current is the place I have been staying and training was rented. Apparently the landlord had been using the money for other debts and not the mortgages on her rental property's. Got a notice on the door from the bank and not sure how much time is left until they decide to foreclose on the place.
Either way I feel it is about time for me to return home I have learned a lot while I was out here. I am a lot better equipped then I was before my training.
Looking forward to getting back to good old York. It has been difficult to do without friends and family for so long.
A responce:
Yes I will continue to live the life I am.
Yes I am happy with what I am doing.
No I will not change my profile because it bothers you.
No I did not mean any disrespect to you.
I will however embrace what I am doing and will Indulge in things you can only dream of.
Even if it meant spending the rest of my life spitting venom and embracing all the cold.
Sorry.....Anon
Oh Cheesecake, our tainted romance will last forever, for you are the most delicious dessert dish in the world.
Hog tieing, Not for those whom shoulders have been previously damaged at some point in their lives.... Noted...
Not much has changed in the past few months. Looking at trying to get to this months TNG Pitt munch.
Got to say I have talked to a few sub's from the area, and they seem to be nice enough people. So that is a plus.
I have not actually met any of them as of yet, so other than two of them they remain unknown for being real or not.
I am finding that a lot of the submissive women on here... are not... They are just kinky and are looking for love in all the wrong places.
The snow has been brutal.
Also looking forward to seeing family and friends. Who knows maybe I wont come back out here haha.
Thats all i have for now.
Hurray for finding a local whip smith lol. I can not wait having a four foot leather whip tailored to my needs :)
Haha why when i talk about BDSM to a vanilla i feel like Willy Wonka giving a tour of the chocolate factory, and you always know one of the girls on the tour are gonna want to try something. HAHA
Is it to much to ask to have a clean home if your the only person working out of three?
Today my play partner and best friend in the BDSM scene Purblind decided to create a couples profile, because we are both on the same page.
We are both seeking to further our experiences and break out into the community. Along with seeking some sexual exploration that requires others involvement.
If this works out this should be quiet an experience. I am looking forward to seeing what this will bring.
I find myself bored tonight. Want to chat for a bit, hit me up on AIM @ BDSMBlackOps1988
So, what is a Dom to do when they become uncomfortable with the amount of pain that a sub requests....
Things are rough in pitt, on my nights without training i find myself sitting staring off into space... I need to get out for a bit but I do not know anyone in the area, this is really starting to wear on me.
set up shop with my mistress's gonna be out here in pitt for a while.
Preparation and packing for an extended stay with fellow Dom's In Pitt. Gonna get my finances together and learn what I can...
december 20th 2009
I just woke up... and there is a whole lot of snow outside >.< and not a shovel to be found.
Anyone a fan of nerdcore? If you are Deafinition And MCLoki just released the midnight and wasted EP. It's pretty good.
Is returning home to york, pa in a couple of days and is very excited.
I just can not wait to see my family and friends. WOOT!!!
So as of tonight my training end untill after the new year. Which means I am back to being a standard Dom again. (Thank goodness I am not much for being a sub all the time.)
Looking for someone to hang out with talk to over the holiday in the area. Send me and e-mail and we will do lunch.
Sub entry:
I can not seem to get audio entry to work correctly. If anyone has any information or tips.
I am using a logitech usb headset.
December 14th 2009,
After a play session last night, my pain tolerance has increased substantially. I was hit with my own whip, which left a nice welt, and caused me to actually tear up. Sad I know...
It is interesting to get to see things from the sub's point of view, for lack of a better term I would say each time I play I become more venomous to my next submissive.
I am learning a lot about what they want and like and how I can give it to them. I am also becoming quiet good with the toys at hand.
My tactics for mental bondage have turned around almost three sixty, and have only become more potent.
I can say with confidence when I am done training here, I would easily be able to do this as a profession. That is not what I am looking for in the long wrong.
I am going to be looking for a partner whom can enjoy going through life with me, while enjoying the kinky side of things the vanilla world has come to cringe at.
-sheldon
December 14th's entry,
Not much to say other than I got whipped.
December 9th 2009's entry.
After a very very late night Dom session with Mistress, ( who from now on will be called Mistress Death). I had fallen asleep in bed next to her after she had done the same.
Come the next morning I was awoken by way of beating. ( which was very bad because I am super disoriented when I wake up and could not help but try to protect myself with my hands, which earned me a much worse beating.)
Afterward I was well aware that I am still property and will be treated no different.
I was then spoken to about the pervious night. It was mostly about what I performed well in and poorly in.
One particular comment really bothered me because I do not want to think of the BDSM community as a whole, but it seems to be the running story.
I was told that what separates me from all her previous Dom experiences was the fact that I did not just beat the hell out of her.....
OK for one IF you are one of these piece of shit assholes who think being a Dominant is just about beating your slave till your arm is tired. PLEASE proceed to shut down your computer, walk to your closet, pull out your pistol and unload one into the back of your throat.
I may be somewhat new to the Domming fields, but I already know that Doming is not as much about you as it is your submissive/slave. It just happens to be something I enjoy giving.
I have talked to several sub's on this site now, whom have met up with someone on here. Only to find out post meeting, mid play that they are fakes!!! Men, and women that were using this site to find sex, and thought to get it all they had to do was beat to daylights out of these sub's and pretend it is domination.
So to cut this rant short, if you can't even follow safe words or gestures, or do not even know what they mean. GTFO.
I am not sure if my last audio entry worked. If anyone can hear it please let me know.
December 8th 2009,
Today was very different. I did not end up spending the night in bondage as I was getting used to.
I was treated as an equal from the moment I woke up this morning. It in a way dazed me I felt as if It were leading up to an inevitable crash.
I was requested to Dom my Mistress last night which I had mixed feelings about since it broke training so early but I complied.
I do not think I performed as poorly as I expected to. Though her pain tolerance was much, much higher than anticipated. After a few minuets of adjustment she squirmed just as all my other sub's have, and I started to enjoy myself.
I did not know her well enough how ever to get inside her head, which I am known for doing when I Dom. Nothing I could say seemed to effect her more than a slight whimper.
This was new because usually I know my sub well enough mentally to be able to torture their minds, as well as their body. I know now what I have to do to get to her. The issue is I am not all that certain I can be that venomous at a moments notice, like I was given today.
I will post more later tonight as I reorganize my thoughts.
December 6th 2009.
I am having difficulty with training at this point. I think it is because I am Dominate by nature, it is making it very hard to stay in subspace.
I cannot seem to let go of all control I have. My mistress slapped me several times the other night. To my dismay I got angrier and angrier each time I was slapped as opposed to what it was meant to do and make me laps into subspace.
I hope someone out there is reading this and can give me some tips or help. I am not sure what I can do about it.
My mistress's has said if I cannot get my act together in the next couple of days she will break me another way. She also promises I will not enjoy it even a little bit.
So to all other sub's out there I could use a hand.
(ps please dont mail me if you are not living the life style the way it is meant to be.)
Sub entry to December 4th 2009,
I also realized how lucky I am for the training I am receiving. I have two mistress's which one has 30 years of BDSM experience and the other which has 20 years experience. I am also staying with another sub male which helps to accelerate my training, as well a an EX-dom whom actually does not know that much about the life style >.>
At least I am not going to have to pay for the training because they are friends. ^^ woot for saving 10k.
December 4th 2009,
I have been in pitt for a week now. I am just starting my training. I realized after just a couple of days that I was not the best dom.
I learned quickly that in order to be a good dominate you have to first be a trained submissive. You cannot ask anyone to take anything you have not experienced to the fullest.
With that in mind I have started full submissive training and have drafted the first contract for a full time submissive.
I plan to have it ready for final signing on the second of 2009.
I am happy that I am being trained properly and am well on my way to earning my training collar. I will keep updating hopefully this information will help others down the road.
