DementdPixie


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	I have just moved to the Austin area . Time to make a new start of things, a new life and a new outlook. Most of my profile is written with the Dominant side of my personality in mind. I am finding that I not only enjoy, but need a firm guiding hand as well. I am embracing the fact that I am a switch, no longer will I fight that side of me that needs and wants to serve. Know well, though, that I am no pushover nor a doormat. It will take a special man to bring out that side of my personality and truly put me on my knees. Call me a princess if you must, but I am worth that and more. If you do write to me, please make sure that what I receive is well-thought-out, well-written. One-liners will receive the attention they deserve: none. So I suppose it is time to update this again. I am still rather new to Austin but growing to love it more each new day here. I have found that guiding hand that I sought in my wonderful Daddy. Even though I know I likely drive him insane at times, he is always good to me. I am so very happy with the way that life is unfolding at the moment and looking forward to all the new discoveries that are happening. I am enjoying diving into the scene here and making lots of really good friends. Life has been so very interesting as of late. Finally learning to relax and surrender is not as easy as it may sound, but I believe I am beginning to take the first steps on that road. I love spending time with friends and making new ones! Girls night for me has been a wonderful thing, I have learned much about myself from spending time with so many amazing women. Thank you Daddy for letting me host all the girls every week, grins I know it is such a burden to have naked women wandering around the backyard. For all those that message wanting to chat....if that is code for anything beyond chatting, I am not interested. I am completely happy and in love with my Daddy and am not going to do anything to jeopardize that. So if you want to proposition me, or "meet up", save your time, you will just be hearing how much I love Daddy and how unavailable I am.

Officially under consideration. Please respect that. Friends are still welcome as always but anything further is not appropriate at this time.

......sleep is a good thing, at least that is what they keep telling me. Ever get so wrapped up in all that is going on that sleep just seems to get in the way of what is going on? Til you hit the wall that is, then it is that thing that steals your consciousness and makes the giggling stop >,>

Enlightenment

Light is Dawning
Rictus eases
Stuporous satisfaction
Soul blooming
In the emerging glow

{DementdPixie May Day 2008}

Discovery

Head spinning
Pulse racing
Caught in the grip
Torn SomeWhere between
Terror and Ecstacy
Warring inside
Soul screaming
Agonizing Pleasure
Euphoric Epiphany

{DementdPixie May Day 2008}

I had a huge wake up call today. I found out someone I know decided that everything was too much and that person made a nearly irrevocable decision.....lucky for them the universe decided otherwise. The way I found out was by a text message while I was at work and unable to leave or do anything to help or support those in the aftermath. It was one of the most helpless moments I remember in a very long time. I sit here tonight thinking of how everything would have changed had things played out differently. It terrifies me how fleeting life and happiness seems to be, and how most people seem to take for granted the joys surrounding them even in the most desparate situations. I wonder if that person knows that every smile I see on their face lights up my day, or how they make a comment about me and it warms me. I have decided tonight that waiting to tell someone how you feel or how important that person is to me is not worth it. Always remember tomorrow may never come. Don't wait to tell that person how much they mean to you it may just be the very thing they need to hear. Just knowing that you touch another is sometimes enough to hold the darkness at bay. I have also been thinking that maybe life is too short to waste on things unimportant. To steal a phrase "Don't sweat the small stuff and it is all small stuff." So if you are that person that is maybe thinking about making a similiar decision remember you touch someone's life and suicide is a permanant solution to a temporary problem. It will get better. I know this is not at all lifestyle related but it is something that is on my mind very much and thought I would share.

Well the muse seems to have struck once again though I don't know that this entry will be as well recieved as some others. I honestly don't mind that though, it is meant to be food for thought and not pleasing. I am not here to write pretty words that lull to complancency. I believe complancey is death.

Now on to my topic, brattiness, why do so many feel the need to be it and so many others the need to embrace it?

I am of the school of thought that brattiness is a very bad thing, something to be avoided at all costs. Playful and humor are good, things in my mind that should be encouraged and fostered. Plain brattiness is something that will earn nothing but my contempt and ultimately leads me to completely erase a person from my mind.

Furthermore, I will not force someone to submit to me. I do not understand that concept. Why would a person want a constant source of struggle and strife in their lives? Is life not hard enough already?   I can not imagine living my life that way. I much prefer a boy that wants to be at my feet, someone I don't constantly have to force into doing my will. Perhaps it is because I don't believe in these things that makes brattiness so abhorent to me.

I want my life to be peaceful and calm and anyone that submits to me is going to have to understand this. I find that when you invite struggle into your life it seems the universe listens and provides so much more than what you might be bargaining for.   I much prefer to invite peace and harmony into my life.

Now training is something I love, don't get me wrong.   I adore teaching and showing someone a new way. Willingness though is something I have learned the hard way can not be taught or simulated.

In closing brats and SAM's be warned I don't tolerate it so don't try, and if you do know that you will disappear from my sight completely, it is not worth it to me. There are too many willing and eager to serve and have the opportunity.

I have been sitting here today thinking about alot of things. One thing that has been on my mind quite a bit lately is that some sub/slaves seem to forget that Dommes are people too. With all the messy emotional baggage that everyone else has. We have wants and needs and desires too that encompass many things, not only lifestyle related. We have bad days too. Sometimes *gasp* we need to hear that we are needed and wanted as something other than the person who doles out punishment and orders. I truly cherish the messages I get from some just asking how I am and if I am having a good day. It may seem silly to some, but knowing that other person truly cares about you, as a person, is a wonderful thing in my eyes.
I will be the first to admit that I am not perfect and that I have things that I need to work on as well. Can anyone really claim perfection? Therefore how can any of us look down our noses at anyone else? I am in this lifestyle because I love it, I love the deviant turns my mind takes and I love to see true tears on the face of my slave. BUT I also enjoy having a conversation that has nothing to do with the lifestyle I enjoy talking about art and movies and general silliness. While I realize that in some people's opinion my playful nature might seem to be something other than what it is, it is part of me that I love and would do nothing to change.

Posting from a group I am involved with but I thought I would pass it along.

1. POOR-ME SUB:This "sub" always has something going wrong in her life. Of course,it is never her fault.. she is always being played upon and victimized by others. If only she found the *perfect* dom/me, her life would be problem-free and forever-blissful. Favorite IM to and: "Will you be my domme,maam? I am just a helpless little subbie." Favorite IMto receive: "Just do what I say, slave!"2. JUST-DO-ME SUB:This "sub" just wants to be beaten. It doesn't really matter by who,or what..as long as he (I use "he" here because these are typicallymale) can feel the lash. Frequently misbehaving on purpose, this sub can drive a dom/me *crazy*. Favorite IM to send: "I have been naughty and need to be punished. Spank me now, Mistress!" Favorite IM toreceive: "You are a bad sub and need to be punished!Bendover!"3. BARBIE-SUB:This "sub" just likes the way she looks in leather fashions. She is afraid of the whip, and has never seen a clamp in her life. Her favorite store is "Dream Dresser", and her whole paycheck is spent there each week. Favorite IM to send: "Would you like to know what I am wearing, sir?" Favorite IM to receive: "What are you wearing?"4. HE-HURT-ME SUB:This "sub", without any negotiations, talk of limits or safewords,rushes out to a country cabin to to play with a dom/me she met 2 days ago online. After letting him tie her up and whip her, she decides heis a menace to society, and can't wait to tell all her "sub" friends he is a "BAD dom/me". Favorite IM to send: "Sub sis, I need to pass on a warning to you!" Favorite IM to receive: "My poor sub sis, you have got to warn everyone about this creep!"5. I-JUST-NEED-A-MAN/WOMAN SUB:This "sub", after exhausting all her singles bar and healthclub meeting places, decides that the D/s world would be a good place to meet a*man*. she really has no interest in D/s, she just needs someone tospend the rest of her life with. She is a close relative of POOR-ME SUB. Amazingly, when she "gets her dom", she suddenly looses interest in any type of sex. Favorite IM to send: "Sir, will you take care of me forever?" Favorite IM to receive: "I have always dreamed of having a large family."6. NO-ONE-CAN-TOP-ME SUB:This "sub" longs to submit, yet claims no dom is strong enough to top her. Some say she is really just a domme in disguise. Favorite IM to send: "Think you are strong enough to put me in my place, jerk?"Favorite IM to receive: "No, Mistress, I am really just a weak and helpless slave. ::falling to the floor and kissing your boots::7. SUBMISSION IS THE GREATEST GIFT Submissive:This submissive has stars in her eyes and naivety in her heart. She swoons at the mere thought of a dom, any dom, asking her to pass the salt. She writes her dom's name in the corner of her notebook with little hearts and flowers around it. She declares that there is no better way to love than through submission, and that d/s is a "better" and "higher" manner of loving than anything a silly old vanilla person might do. She lives on an emotional roller-coaster,sentimental enough to cry when seeing a long-distance phone company commercial. Favorite IM to send: "You are all of life to me, there is nothing about life worthwhile without you." Favorite IM toreceive: "I am everything you'll ever want or need, and I'll protect you from everything."
please note that you can put in either male or female any of the above descriptions.

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