dekanymph1

We are strong, W/we are a couple for life. The bond is total and i give it all to whom i am. i serve Master John now for life. We couple, do not interfere rather seek a pleasing life in friendship only. i will never respond without Master permission as i am His slave now and so happy. 

Kneeling silent on the floor waiting for Master to open the door, never knowing what He has planed, all I want is to hold  His strong hand. Eyes to the floor counting the stones wondering how long I’ll be here alone. Listening to every single sound knows she best not move around. Footsteps heavy on the floor her mind races to the door, a turn of the knob, her body forsaking kneeling for Him His for the taking.

Soon with a click and a key to confine her, she feels His eyes all round Her, exposed and naked spread wide and open. Her ass high and milky before it is wanted..With a sting to her thigh and a hand on her bottom, spread wide to take Him and give all that’s wanted. The pain and pleasure controlling Her will binds her hands so she is still.

Desires so strong with a diminished will, knows His will take Her it is His will. Sweating and dripping still on the floor she wants so to beg Him to Take His private whore..

No Man before Him no desire to look, she is now Master’s open book, Control she gave Him  now none of her own, needing to serve Him it’s what she lives for. Sent to her room to kneel in a corner time to reflect on what is before her, I purrs’ in the darkness her mind full of Him, she prays He will take her as it is His will.

i am so greatful to the Doms i have grown to respect,i have found what i seek,He is Kind and loving,nuturing and direct,He seeks love for life as i do.I am not afraid and my walls fell quickly when we spoke.Yes it happened fast and unexpected.No He is no player.in time i will go to be with Him forever.though i am not there yet i have consented to be His,not as property but as a woman with the heart of a slave.at this time i may not speak to other Doms as i wish to work on my relationship with Him.and soon He will lock a collar around my neck just as He has my heart.i thank God for this most presious gift of everlasting life long love with the respect and desire only offered to Him from the heart of His slave.and YES a Master can and does love His slave if He is real how can it be any other way.how could she be her best if not for love and honoring Him..i wil dance in the sunset with Him and kneel for Him alone..,,this slave does not take orders from any other and will service only One,,My Master...

life seems to be leveling out i am looking at things in a new light i am not sorry i spent 9 months with Him they where wonderful  and i beleive that it was my destany to have had that time and experance  i have not seen or heard from Him thus having the time to heal,Though know that the hardest part was that he cared so little he never even tryed to contact or see me again i no longer look for Him but i know He will never forget me,i wish Him well,

Work helps me to regain my compossure it is welcomed.

My son will be here tomorrow Night from NH and i am so very excited to have the strong arms of my son,we are very close friends and i am lucky He sees me as the best mom in the world.my daughter and i get along so well ,she is a good woman and im proud to be her mother.

my submissive side is content,at ease,and i have learned so much in the last month.im lucky to have had many on line with words of encouragement and kindnes.

though dramatic as it was for me.i am greatful.

i know the life i am living was ment to be just that,my life,now all this girl needs is someone to share it with,,that is a comfort we all reach to the stars for.i would do nothing differantly for i am real and honest.if this life i live is to much for someone then He is not for me,,

learning slowly as i go,unsure im not being played but very careful could not bear to go thru this again,,Honesty,,why is that so hard for people,do they not know it is not just about them but about all involved,it is morning and with the sun will soon come the heat,a day at work and then to the pool i think to do some taning,,i swim will feel so nice after work,,my son will be here on tuesday im so excited to see Him and He has done this on His own i am proud to call Him my son,,smiles,,he will be the best medicain i could have,,my birthday is comming and sadly i fear i will spend it alone,but then for now i am my own best comapny,im lucky to be alive and greatful for the life i have even when it is hard,times are getting less and less hard i have my family helping me to heal and to get through this sergary,,some people arestrong enough and love me enough to be here for me no matter how hard it gets,,i thank the good lord for that,,a new day and a new life,,just for me,,so lucky i am,,so very lucky

today i came back online,i will not cover my head nore will i die from this,i will move on now and be greatful i did not go furture and end up in the cold..i wish Him well in life even though He hurt me,,i pray He know how badly and maybe it will prevent Him from hurting another slave or sub.i am excited to be back with a new head on my shoulders and even  more knowledge of what to watch for.i am not a sub,i am a slave and i will be only as good as the Master who ownes me,,not all will fit that bill infact just one will,,and im happy to say i have lots of time,and will enjoy life alittle,,,i will be just fine,im not looking for Him anymore,around ever corner,im not afraid of Him nor will i run,,He did that,guess like many say He was not a strong enough Man,not for a real slave anyway,,good luck to you salvager,and good luck to all the others you will hurt with your lack of heart.and experance....

Today was full up ups and downs ,time heals all wounds im told,,i know deep down it is true,i just dont see how.i have never hurt like this before and i pray i never do again,i can not understand it,we where so perfict together if he really wanted me why did He not just order me to move in as He said He would.i was His for life.I miss Him im hurt and i was so angry but i love Him and do not know how to turn it off,life is so unfair.i did not ask for my life. I did not ask for Him He came to me, i told Him everything about me and my life,i did not hold anything back He knew all and assuered me it did not matter i was His now..god help me through this,

He told me if it got to hard he would take me out of here ,,he left me instead, im so lost ,,so deep in depression.i will never understand this..guess i never will...

I piece of me is with Him, lost and hurt in a one sided love. He said forever that i was born to be His, I will not lie life and finances got hard and with it my demise He let me go for things i could not change, for things i did not ask for, how does one move on when all she was she gave to one, and that one for almost a yr took what she offered, she was to be with Him in His Home and before it happened ,well i was slave now i am broken and lost ,not sure i will ever be the same girl,a slave gives all to her one, when this happens do they not understand the damage that can be done, god help me thru this hurt and i miss Him im so alone in this world I have no way to vent or talk to and i hurt so deeply I wish Him well in spite of myself, but i harbor the hate of the pain caused by unintentional position..