Some things I've put on another D/s site:
Mine:
princess - May 18 2009,
pet - January 12 2010
To describe myself isn't an easy thing to do, and the same could be said about someone other than myself trying to describe just what is Chrissy... A few things of myself but it doesn't limit who I am:
I am very open, like a book, but I can also be just as guarded as a journal with a padlock.
I am quite friendly, and easy to talk to. I tend to talk lots, ramble and such, but I listen when it's important.
I am a dreamer, and creative and romantic, and sexual, my zodiac sign (Pisces) says so, and I say so hehe.
I am funny in a not so funny way... Hmm explaining my humor is very difficult, but I tend to have ppl laugh more at me than with me, and I don't mind so long as I see a smile on someone's face, I've done my job.
I am sort of timid and quiet when meeting new people, but I warm up soon enough unless I get an off-vibe. Then it may take a bit more time to warm up.
I believe in respect and am very respectful. I address strangers as sir and miss, not in a D/s way but more as: "I don't know what the fuck your name is, but I'm trying to get your attention," I was simply brought up that way.
I have a dominant personality that people don't quite see right away... I tend to project submissive vibes but it's just a mix of my upbringing, the way I interact with people til I get comfy with them, and just cuz I'm weird like that.
FYI:
I don't expect to be addressed as Mistress, unless you are owned by me... In fact, it bothers me. I don't expect anything from you except politeness. Chrissy/Chryssie is fine, thanks.
Dominant, submissive, Switch? Sadist, masochist? Top, bottom? Mistress, slave? Sigh... labels annoy me.
What I am is difficult to label. I tend to, as a first impression, project a submissive vibe which is mostly because of my upbringing. I am quiet, shy, observant, soft spoken.... that is until I get to know my surroundings and the people in it. Once comfortable, I open like a can of worms.
I was told by my aunt when I came out to her about being in the lifestyle that the reason people are confused as to where to label me is because I was a dominant person, not domineering. I am passive, not submissive. That perfectly describes me!
My vanilla relationships have mainly consisted of me being the dominant person, and I've only really submitted(actual submission, not bottomed) to one person who, in the end, destroyed me, broke all sorts of limits, and nearly killed me. Which is why I'm afraid to go there again. Being in someone else's hands like that is pretty scary. Part of me craves the feeling of being controlled, other parts of me is uncomfortable with it. And I know there will be some know it all dominant or sub who will say something about me submitting once and challenging my position as a dominant now... and honestly, I've heard it all. But I know what I truly am, and so do my subs. I am a natural dominant... I just am the type to try all things once in life. I am very open minded.
I love the feeling of topping and bottoming equally. They each have their glamour. And inspire in me feelings like no other, in totally different sides of the scale, of course. This is why I greatly appreciate when my subs submit to me. To see that dedication and having understood what it means to get there is a beautiful thing. And I love them and will never abuse them, nor break their spirit. They keep my dominant side full of life. I've never felt so alive til the day my first sub submitted herself to me. But at times I want to feel that too.
A friend of mine made me realize something about myself though, that I've basically ignored/denied I was. So I've changed my label from Domme to Switch. Since it basically describes me a bit better. And I'm going to stop limiting myself to one side of the scale if I once loved being on the other side.
Although I don't see myself as submitting to someone ever again, I think I wouldn't mind bottoming. I see myself mostly being a forced rope bound masochistic bottom. Other forms of bottoming like bending over willingly and taking a flogging, no thank you... And I will NEVER kneel to someone, nor serve them! I just am a masochist.
I see myself as forced into bondage, blindfolded maybe, gagged no(as I have a true phobia of suffocation from a near death experience)... but I am very much into pain, in both aspects of it(dealing and receiving). I have a high tolerance of pain... as for kink play involving pain I haven't experienced it...yet, and I am very curious to explore.
I have received some vanilla sadistic sensual play, choking, gagging, clawing and hair pulling, but nothing like being bound and flogged, whipped, or something of the sort (lol other than the beatings my gramma dealt me when I misbehaved as a child lol).
It's probable I might be a wimp and not be able to take it... I'd like to think I could handle it, being I have a high tolerance... but I won't really know til I have tried it, right?
There is one thing though... and that is if I tried bottoming again, I'd need to be made sure I felt safe. Would need to be reassured. When I had submitted to the one person I had before, there were times I feared for my life, and not in a good way. And often after a play scene, the person would leave me spent and untouched, alone to cry and doubt myself..... That is NOT where I want to go when I bottom.
So it's a big thing to even consider bottoming again because of my fear. But I think to myself, there's got to be a nicer dominant person out there (like me, hehe), someone who wouldn't abuse me, heh. But just to clarify, I am not interested in submitting, just bottoming. I don't desire to call someone my Master or Miss. I'm not looking for someone to own me or whatever. Nor am I looking for someone to own, I already am Mistress and happy with the two I own and I love them dearly. I am just looking to experience and learn the bottom spectrum of the role's scale, along with topping. Would love to learn more about this lifestyle and all it brings. There's always something to learn.
Ok ... I should end this long entry...
Chrissy
