I am BACK!!!!! I have been so busy working on the new house, playing with my friends, attending So Cal Shibari meetings, and working, of course.

If you only knew the utterly kinky things I have been exploring this summer....oh wow! Fabulous and naughty.

Now it is time to seek out fresh meat. I do not have any room for a personal sub at the moment. My female tenant is into the scene, but she is not my style. It just doesn't seem to work out well, from what I have seen.

No, I like variety. Some OTK spanking and heavy CBT on a nice sub sounds fun. If that  someone can actually suck toes, then I would be in bliss.

Sorry I haven't been around. Trying to get settled into the new house and working like a crazy woman.

I am going to work on the dungeon tomorrow. I may  have an old aquaintance sub coming over to work for me. We have never played before, but we know each other from social circles. To know someone twenty years and to have never played formally..how odd.

I am looking forward to playing this summer....the new house will be so much fun!

Bring your cock and your wallet, Mistress wants to buy a washer and dryer for her new house...and your tribute will help nicely.

I am in the process of buying my kinkdom. It would be lovely to have some new play mates to come help me prepare for the big move. The close of escrow is 3-18-11!!!!

My idea of a great Thankgiving...I take your credit card and spend $500..then I tie you up, shove a butt plug in your ass and feed you a Swanson Turkey dinner while I eat the Prime rib I slow roasted in the oven all day.

Next my lover comes over and fucks me silly as you watch in the corner....

After he leaves you get to do the dishes.

Gobble Gobble

I am ready to stuff someone's ass like a turkey...that sounds so wrong. LOL.

Last night I got the lovely surprise of being taken to the shooting range by my squeeze. He seemed stressed out, so the range was a very good place to go. I got to shoot a military issued rifle and I didn't miss a shot. Mostly torso and neck shots. I know what I want for Xmas..lol. Afterwards I treated for In & Out Burgers.

It turned out to be a vanilla evening, which I am just fine with. I was just happy he got to study for school while I slept like a baby. It was very sweet. While there was no play, I don't really care. We have packed enough hotness into the past few months to last the rest of the year.... He has a 9 am class, so he was up and out the door at 7 am.

I am trying to live in the "here and now" and not worry about our future. It will be what it will be.

This weekend I will work on picking out some college classes. I cannot wait to find out if my offer is accepted on the new house.

I knew life could be this good...I fucking knew it!!!!! No matter how bad things get, the Domme Goddess takes care of me. That is my story and I am sticking to it.

Making an offer on a house today. It is a very cute place. Has a lot of the privacy elements I am looking for.

Thank you Veteran's! You are loved! Happy Veteran's Day!

My subbie roommate and Young Buck have Birthdays a day apart. I want to do something special for them.

I wish I knew a cute, young, thin, sub girl to give to my lover. He has a very kind, but twisted mind. I would not mind if they consented to some heavy safe sex play, as long as I get to watch..lol. 


As for the subbie...I may just play with him and then when all is said and done, tie him up in a corner and make him watch the young one give me an orgasm.

I am not a selfish person.

Went to the "Hollywood Cantina" fundraiser for the San Diego MCRD Museum Historical Society on Sat. It was very fun to hang out with the old Marines. Swing music, nice food and good people.

Had a nice weekend in general. My live in sub is working out ok so far. I hate that winter hours are upon us though.

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To the few misguided fools who do not get why their idea of a BDSM relationship will not materialize, here is my personal philosophy.

??I am amazed at people who think that they can have "instant relationships" with other people. You can no more be someones personal sub before one meeting, then you can become someones life-long friend. It takes time and norturing. If you want something that feels real, then you need to act real.

Then to suggest that paying tribute for sessions is like paying for prostitution? Isnt prostitution paying for sexual acts? If you are only looking for sexual acts, you are lost and in the wrong scene. Being a Pro Domme is closer to being a therapist then a hooker...

I am sure some people cross lines in every profession, but the essence is not about sexual acts. Your tribute covers a safe environment, with skill and training....waredrobe, equipment, and someone worth worshipping. If your thinking is correct, all professionals who are paid for their time are whores...including you.

You pay a psychiatrist to listen to your (sexual) problems, pretend to be interested in your life (they are not), and issue you drugs to make you feel better. Does that make them a prostitute and a street drug dealer?  

If you use this thinking then just admit you are an idiot...because most people will never offer what it truly takes to be a personal sub. Maybe you are a "hard on" submissive...that is fine, but I make my own rules..not you. I do not need you to clean my house in trade, I have better plans for my play mates. You are trying to hold yourself to a standard you are not worthy of. You are not collared. 

Next,

If your ???only tribute is to offer me ( a total stranger) oral, then you are the one with issues. You are actually propositioning me. Think about it. I provide everything you cannot have..you want to occupy my time. I can get anyone I personally want to lick my asshole....vanilla or kinky and he or she will probably be much younger and cleaner then you! Woman do not see oral like men do...we can get it whenever we want.

Your trick is to make women want to play with you....

To break it down-

?Regardless of the agreement I do not want a sub that I cannot spend time with.  Nor do I want a pushy, gross, snivelling wimp. You need to have a life & be stable mentally and physically. Be a professional in your vanilla world.

If anything negative I have said describes you....take whatever you would consider a fair tribute and double it. Then donate that to charity, as I am not interested. You are a one-sided fool and you will never get to the level of play that you seek....because you waste womens time and you know it. I do not associate with "takers".

If you really are such a "catch", you will be caught.

My offer for the house was turned down. I have a feeling something better is coming my way.

My dear sub friend, Ben will be renting my guest room from me. He is a great person and understands that my lifestyle is what it is. Besides..he can go slither into his room if he gets jealous. LOLOLOL

10-24-10 is my B-day!!!! Whoo Hoo! Have had a great weekend so far!

For my bday come do a session with me! The tribute will go towards the new dungeon.

When someone really loves you, their love is unconditional. With that said, they also will not "co-sign" your bullshit behavior. But they will be around when you get your head out of your ass.

Please do not waste this precious life being an lazy, ungrateful, sloth. Winners do not have time to keep looking back to see if you are ever going to catch up.

I just got the cutest CB 6000 last night....lock up that cock.

If I bend you over and ram you really hard, do you promise to wimper? :)

I am having a slow time as far as play is concerned. Everyone is busy and on their own schedule.

I did get to molest a nice local Boy Toy last week. We have lightly played before. He seems to be a good sport, so I had him come over and vac the living room floor and stairs for me in his lacy panties...

Next, I had him dress so we could go out to the dungeon. While it was fairly late, I do repect myself enough to not get my neighbors involved in my personal life.

Once inside he was told to strip, as men are not allowed to wear clothes in my dungeon...my rules. He seemed nervous, but I think it was more excitement then anything. I proceeded to have him lay on the carpeted floor, as I had set up my ass worshipping chair. I smoothered him for a while, and he seemed to enjoy himself. His cock tattled on him by showing a nice hard on the whole time. I used the soles and heels of my thigh high black leather boots to tease his dick for a bit.

Once I was bored with that, I had him get into the leather swing, legs spread wide open and in the stur-up's. He had brought his bag of toys, one being a fairly small dildo. He was just in luck, as my leather strap on harness was near by.

I proceeded to get him ready for one of my special treatments, making men feel like used whores. I have to admit I was gentle on him to begin with. There is no use turning someone completely off to the process. In no time I was pounding away at his hardly used ass, calling him a slut and a whore. I made sure he played with his cock like a good slut...the harder I pounded the faster I told him to jerk off. He begged to cum, and I eventually let the poor guy release all over himself. I threw him a towel to clean himself up with....He thanked me over and over....and then went on his way.

Other then that, life is slow....I need to go shopping for new dungeon toys.

I am going out with my dear pet, Dr. Andy... We haven't seen each other in months. I thought he fell in love and forgot about me. Shrinks are funny.
I plan to have him worship my feet with his soft mouth after dinner..and I will piss in his mouth. Some day I will fuck Andy...but Dr's are fragile.

Baskin Robins is killing me with their ads...

What a hot, but nice weekend. I got some good play in last night as well as Friday.

Friday I had my professor sub come down from his new home in LA. I am so sad he moved so far away for work. We were playing twice a week at some point and I really got used to our arrangement.

I left work early friday and met him at 3:30 at my house. We had a lovely time alone in my studio. I had a need to be extra nice to him, since I missed him so. I decided he needed to be gagged with a butt plug as well as wear one. It took a while to ease that butt plug in, since it is fairly large. I know he was sweating bullets even though I had my AC on.

I had bought some red, self adhesive bandage from the tack and feed store a while ago. I used a roll of that to hold the butt plug firmly in his mouth. No more talking or crying out!

Next, I took more of the same red, self adhesive bandage to make a "Sumo" type diaper to hold the butt plug in place. He looked so sexy with his ass exposed, hand cuffed with leg irons to my new worshiping chair.

Now it was time to "decompress" from a long week and very stressful day. I used my new black leather flogger to massage his body and leave stinging welts on his ass. Of course, I was not going to forget to use my slapper on his lily white ass. His ass now had lovely pink marks from both toys. I think I made him cry a couple of times....he was happy.

Around 6 pm we wrapped it up since he had to get home to his kids. It was a great time had by all.

I had some work projects I had brought home, so I worked on them for a couple of hours. While doing that...Andy came on-line. I was very hungry and in the mood for some companionship, so Andy came up from his place.

We went to a local sushi place, Japanese Cafe. I like the chef, David. He is a cute, young Chinese guy. They probably think I am a hooker or a slut because I take a lot of different men there and I always order all of the oysters they have. LOL!

Andy and I had a lovely dinner. Nice conversation with the typical funny patient stories....I like the patient that thinks Jennifer Lopez is his mother. If you have to be delusional, think big! It was a nice relaxing time.

Next we came back to my place and talked. He did get on my nerves when he tried to tell me that I need to quit smoking. Yeah, yeah....well one fucking thing at a time. Of all the things I have over come in one year, I don't need to add that to my list quite yet. I had to change the mood quickly or else the evening would have been short.

He had never really seen my dungeon since it had been completed, even though he helped with 35% of it. I turned on the AC and TV and decided to relax on my rose colored couch. I love that couch. It reminds me of a old school bordello from the wild west. I slipped on my new long, red leather skirt and rested.

After some mild foot worship and watching one of my old fetish films, I decided to show Andy my new ass worshiping chair. He eagerly slid under the chair like a starving man. Who was I to be rude and not let him show me his talents?

I know he wanted to be licking on bare pussy, but honestly...it felt really good to be worshiped through that damned skirt!Plus, he needs to work his way back into my good graces. I put my clover clamps on his nipples. While sitting there I decided to show his cock how badly he had hurt me in the past. Hahaha.(whine, whine, bitch, moan).

I laid into him with my wide tipped riding crop. Smack, smack on his balls and the head of his cock. He screamed and cried loudly. This didn't make me too happy because I didn't want my neighbors to complain. I warned him to muffle his cries by burying his face into my crotch.

Smack, smack on his ass....paddle,paddle. I was enjoying that very much. He cried out how much he "adored" me. LOL. Men are such liars. If he "adored" me he wouldn't give me such heart ache. That is another story...hahahahaha. the night winded down...all was well. We sat and talked till 4 am.

Saturday was hotter than Hell. Fuck! I felt like shit due to the heat. I cleaned up the house and then laid on the couch. I did get some work done on my projects for Monday. I text-ed my manager all morning. It was hilarious! He text-ed me some office gossip and I told him I beat two men with Masters degree's yesterday in my dungeon. He was only shocked at the having a dungeon comment. Men are men. Gotta love it.

My sister, Zizi came down from Santa Monica with her boyfriend, Mark. We went to a late lunch at Famous Dave's Bar-B-Que. I really like that place. I got to see her new Mini Cooper. Cute car...for circus clowns. I have two large dogs, thanks to her...and there is no way in Hell they would fit in that Match
Box car!

The shit she does for peoples admiration! Like buying a Louis Vuitton purse for $1500. Too bad she only had $40 dollars in it after that....I 'd rather have a $40 dollar purse and the $1500 in the bank. BUT she thinks I am tacky and stupid. Younger sisters are so sweet! I showed her my dungeon and I know she was not impressed. She thinks we are fucking sickos. HAHAHAHA.

ANY WAY!

I had a few new subs call me yesterday, but I really was sick from the heat. After lunch I laid on the couch spraying myself with a water bottle. I would have just gone into the dungeon and turned on the AC, but I don't have cable out there yet.

Kris had her buddies come up from La Jolla. We finished putting the top on my new whipping horse..and decided to play. Kris took her new "boy toy" and restrained him on the suspension bar. I decided to go over and cut the nipples out of his shirt and play with them. Then I cut and ripped his boxers so they looked like chaps. Kris did her thing with him for a while before she laid him on the floor for some cupping, candle wax, and light needle play. They are experimenting.

I went on to bother DJ.

Little, tiny DJ..... 19 years old and small enough to put in your pocket. I put him on my new whipping horse and restrained him tightly. Not only did I use ropes, but I also used giant z-ties. It was awesome. He is a heavy player, but he is also extremely tickle-ish. I used this to my advantage.

I tickled, spanked, whipped and tickled more. Then I got into a mood and donned a pair of latex gloves. I took out my tube of lube and decided to violate his little asshole. He moaned and groaned as I penetrated him with my tiny finger. In and out until he was relaxed. Then I massaged his prostrate for a few minutes. I didn't want to be too mean, since I want the chance to play this way again in the future.

In the end, (no pun intended) fun was had by all. I even let DJ put some suction cups on my nipples to see how they felt. Intersting....now I want some badly from the Crypt.

I was in bed by 4 am.

Today I have a new sub I am meeting for coffee around 12. I hope we decide to play! Then my friend, Tom finally got back to me about doing session.... I hope it is a busy day. It will also help to make ends meet.

Life is good!

Play safe and from love!

What a weekend!

I had the chance to get a sub into my dungeon that I had meet several months ago. He and I had become friends some time around Feb-March, If I am not mistaken. We semi-played once, but that wasn't what I would consider good timing.

Well, Saturday had not been a good day for me in general. My two sessions of the day had to re-schedule, leaving me very disappointed. I had become so used to things running smoothly, that this really was a bummer. Not to mention my weekend session slave just lost his job and was being forced back to Spain.

I was still in a very playful mood and decided to see if this old friend was up for a "one on one" session.

We had played the day before for Kris's b-day, but that was all of us just having fun. I had more devilish ideas for him if I got him alone. One way or another I was going to have an orgasm....what made it even more fun is that he is a virgin saving himself for marriage.

I decided to start him off by having him give me a body massage with heated oil. We had done this many times, so it was nothing new. I made sure to have him rub my body from my toes to my shoulders...back side then front...hehehe.  I knew this would get him going and it did.

Next I strapped him into my bondage chair with his hands behind his back and his dick fully exposed. I had such fun licking his sensitive nipples and watching his cock jump as I did so. I proceeded to tease him as I rubbed my well oiled body on his, wearing only black lace panties and high heel mules.

Next I blind folded him and had him worship different parts of my body. I have a very high bar stool that is tall enough for me to put my ass nearly right in his face. I made him use his tongue..I know he now wishes he used a flavored oil. LOL. 

When satisfied I proceeded to put my small, pink three legged back massager over his cock, pressing the legs on the chair seat...like a vibrating cage. I know he was wondering "what in the hell is she doing?" since he later told me so. LOL.

Once I had the massager into position...I sat down resting my clit on the large, smooth top... with my back facing him. I leaned back, resting my body on him as I slowly grind-ed back and forth. His breathing became heavy as I could feel his breath on my shoulder. He was totally helpless and probably felt like a human vibrator. This was a huge turn on and I had a lovely such a sweet orgasm.......

Aren't friends great?

The other night I decided to have my former Sous Chef bring her boyfriend over for some play. What a mistake!

It all started out fine. We had him naked, cuffed in, and the music was playing. She blind folded him and we teased him while spanking and whipping him. His nipples were sucked and clamped, his legs spread with a parachute strap on his well stretched nuts.

So I am turned on, he is very turned on, his girl is kissing him and sucking his cock on and off...all is going well. Then he decides to gently rub my leg as I am behind him. I am cool and feeling it. Then he tries to put his hand down the back of my pants...I moved away..laughing. I tell her he is being naughty...she fucking explodes!!!!

Nuclear WAR!

Fuck me, it is an argument and all goes south. I don't understand and am confused at this point. The scene is blown by her.

The next several hours are spent counseling the two of them separately. It comes down to a previous three-some that went wrong. Like I had anything to do with that? It also had to do with her poor body image and how hot she thinks I am. My fault?

Then I later find out they were sneaking drinks..great, alcohol was added to the fire behind my back.

I was confused since she is always trying to get me in bed. Now you wonder why I never get laid.

Today we met a very wierd sub. My "spider senses" warned me to leave the meeting immediately, and we did. Something wasn't right.

I just hope I don't see him on the news as some serial killer or something. I have never felt that way before. Hope I never do again.

There is a special sense you get about people when you watch them so closely. I hope all of the Dommes out there pay attention to it.

On a lighter note, I am meeting a newbie sub tomorrow. He is 22 and a BDSM virgin. Got to love it! He is lucky to get someone like me to pop his "cherry" into the scene, so to speak. I see sore nipples and a bruised ass in his future..but from a loving domme. Lucky boy!