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	LOOK. I USED TO HAVE A PROFILE ON HERE; MY SN WAS "HOTPINKSUB." I got tired of ppl, and their BS, so I deleted it. THEN I recently found out that "SOMEONE" STOLE my pics, EXACT writing on old profile, as WELL as all of my pictures! IF THAT GIRL/DUDE MESSAGES YOU, *IT IS NOT ME** _At first, I was VERY pissed! But now, since there really isn't anything that I can do about IT, i am taking it AS A COMPLIMENT. IT IS A COMPLIMENT THAT SOME WHORE LIKED MY PICS ENOUGH TO WANNA BE ME** AND I LAUGH KNOWING THAT SHE CAN NEVER MEET ANYONE FROM HERE AS ME, BECAUSE SHE DOESNT LOOK LIKE, AND NEVER WILL BE ME!! HAHAHA THANKS FOR THE EGO-BOOST WHORE! well, IM real. If you don't believe it I dont really care! I'm only back on here NOW to see what is out there. If we talk, and we "click"/have a lot in common, I will then & only then consider meeting, (after talking for long enough for me to feel you are real/sincere). GHETTO COUNTRY, SOUTHERN ACCENT THICKER THAN MOST I, MYSELF KNOW SOME PPL I KNOW CANT EVEN UNDERSTAND HAHAHHAHAH :D "oh, here we gooo agaain lol" I desire REAL ppl, that HAVE RESPECT FOR OTHERS --NO MATTER WHAT THEY SEE THEMSELVES AS (DOM, "GODS GIFT TO WOMEN," OR WHATEVER). IF YOU DON'T HAVE RESPECT FOR ME I DAMN SURE WON'T HAVE RESPECT FOR YOU. KEEP IT REAL WITH ME, OR NOT* I WILL ALWAYS KEEP IT "REAL" WITH YOU. Short background history on myself: Single white female; single parent (child and his safety is my TOP priority) in school; had a rough life, maybe thats why i feel like i am a "SUB" in certain aspects, though I flip-flop on that back and forth. I sometimes like to LOSE control, but other times, losing control PISSES me off! I currently smoke (AM TRYING TO QUIT, but I have to do that for myself, not JUST to please you, ok?) and DRINK and do NOT tell or ask me to STOP. I am IRISH, FRENCH, and cherokee indian. I love RAP & reggae music (CALYPSO ALSO). I also listen to every other type of music, even stuff Ive never heard I am interested in LEARNING NEW MUSIC, as well as NEW things in general. "SELF-BETTERMENT" is very intriguing and important to me. I am kind of a procrastinator, and I find it hard to step out of my own "realm of comfort." I have many MANY interests, Im not just a PIECE OF ASS, so dont treat me like I am. I am also VERY into health in all aspects (MIND AND BODY). I have OCD, i HAVE to keep an immaculately clean house before i can even BEGIN to concentrate on moving on to the next task at hand. Im not a 5-star chef,lol, but I LOVE to cook, and learning NEW RECIPES AND MAKING THEM is one of my passions. I love FINE ASS BITCHES, and men who have their SHIT TOGETHER!!! MALES: DO NOT MESSAGE ME TRYING TO START SOMETHING HERE IF YOU LIVE WITH YOUR MAMA, DONT HAVE A JOB/CAREER, OR YOUR OWN CRIB. <<------THAT IS A DEAL BREAKER FOR ME. I DONT HAVE THE TIME OR PATIENCE TO WAIT FOR SOME YOUNG BUCK TO GET HIS ACT TOGETHER. THANKS FOR UNDERSTANDING. OH, ALSO, a man or women with A SENSE OF HUMOR IS A HUGE HUGE HUGE + PLUS + FOR ME. I believe that laughter is very important, and good for your HEART AND SOUL :) If someone can make me LAUGH OR SMILE when I am mad/upset, they are VERY special to me!! OH, AND PLEASE*** IF I OFFEND YOU IN ANY SORT OF WAY, ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS CLICK THE "NEXT" BUTTON, AND FORGET ABOUT ME. YOU ARE ONLY WASTING YOUR TIME AND MINE BY SENDING ME HATEFUL CHILDISH MESSAGES. COME ON NOW YALL!!!! oh, and on a smaller note if i do or say something wrong or disrespectful, PLEASE PLEASE DO* correct my ass! I wont be mad about it (unless im drunk lolz) BUT no matter how much it MAY make me mad at first, I DO REALIZE that I AM HUMAN, and I MAKE MISTAKES JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, EVEN YOU WHO IS CORRECTING ME! HERE IS SOMETHING I FOUND ON A FRIENDS PAGE THAT DESCRIBES MY DESIRES PRETTY FULLY: There is something about being pushed up against a wall, face first Cheek resting on rough DRYWALL Breath caught in your throat Listening to the growling in your ear And trying to remember your own name There's something about being Pushed up against a wall Your back flat up against it Staring straight into eyes that see through you Swallowing hard Waiting for your heart to start beating again There's something about Being made to crawl across the floor To a seated Man, staring into your eyes Not letting you not look at Him Not letting you stumble Drawing you to Him without a word Trembling, a whimper caught in your throat There's something about Being pulled up by your hair Feeling that hand slink up your neck Into your tresses, close to the scalp Grabbing, gripping it , guttural sounds emitting from His lips The pain not nearly as strong as the urge To cry or bite a hole through your bottom lip There's something about Being bitten Especially on the back of the neck or breast Feeling His teeth so close to piercing you Wondering, as you cry out, if He will, this time Wondering, if you're going to bleed for your Submission There's something about Being bent over the back of a chair, without warning Without pretense, without question Having your pants dropped, cool air hitting hot skin Your cheeks blushing, with the same color of your backside As He warms it with the striking of the palm of His hand The tears you cry not cooling you The tears you cry because He has found you There's something about Being slapped across the face Not backhanded, but smacked to bring about A change in behavior A change in attitude To make that lovely wail come from deep in your chest You long to make it, as He longs to hear it There's something about Those words He uses Those names He calls you Those phrases meant to elicit a response And you do respond All of you responds And your body betrays you, always There's something about Being thrown down and taken Not against your will For your will is to be there To please, to submit, to offer, to relinquish And you cry out for breath, for more, for Him And you know you are home There's something about Being drug in the shower Forced to your knees Hissed at for silence Growled at to be still And awaiting the flow That you know Marks You as HIS There's something about Kneeling quietly beside Him Your body bruised, reddened, coated, tired Your mind silent, for once ~ for a time Your head bowed, your eyes closed Your lips quivering as His fingers touch you Your submission, unquestioned Your Peace at Hand ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ A confused sub came before a wise Master who adored her. She felt that to submit to him would mean she would open her heart to unbearable pain should he ever leave her. She hungered for him and needed him, but was ready to walk away in panic. The gentle Master knelt her before him and started a tale of love and devotion. As she looked up at him his arms began to widen and open like a large tree stretches its branches to the sky. At that moment the Master appeared rooted to the floor and his impressive size towered above her like a giant tree. Then he began to speak. I'm here for you, now and always no matter how far time and space takes us. Whether you walk away from me today or you stay and serve me I will not turn from you. I am as patient as time itself; I will take not from you unless you give freely and completely of yourself, but I give onto you regardless -- for my love is unconditional. Like the olive tree that can both feed you and shade you, I am there seemingly eternal to your short life on this earth. If you need my fruit to feed your hunger I will give you all the fruit you need. If your skin grows dry and loses its luster, the oil from my fruit will restore it and make it glisten. When you need comfort my leaves will gently caress your face with the slightest breeze. When you need discipline my branches will correct you when the wind blows strong. If you just need my shade to protect you from the sun, my branches will shade and protect you. If you need warmth at night my fallen branches will fuel the fire to keep you warm and safe. If you need a refreshing breeze my leaves will fan you and cool you. You are my gardener. When you submit to me, you tend that which keeps me vibrant and full of life. When you kneel under me and till the soil, you give breath to my roots. When you water me, my sap flows strong through me raising my limping Branches. When you soil yourself collecting fertilizer with your bare hands, you strengthen and humble me with your devotion. Although my life will go on, life would not be the same without you. Your dedication and unconditional care for me keeps me vibrant and nurtures my very core. The sustenance and protection I give you seems little reward for your servitude. Still the gardener serves the tree from her heart and the tree gives to her heart all that he can! I am planted firmly on the ground and cannot follow you if you walk away from me. . But be assured I will survive. One hundred years later and two of your lifetimes; I will still be there, waiting for you in the same spot to offer you all that I do now. Stay with me and be my gardener. You cannot get lost in me for we are complementary to each other. I am your devotion, and you give meaning to my existence. Apart we live life and survive; together we bloom eternally! As the Master finished his last words the sub cried herself to sleep at his feet. That night, he stood planted there like the Olive tree offering her his unconditional love and protection as she slept. As she would tend to him with her devotion the next day and everyday MY LIMITS (that are KNOWN to me, as I AM VERY NEW to the kink found on CM): *1. CHILDREN:* I do not judge people, but IF YOU LIKE fucking little kids GET THE FUCK off my page. That is the SICKEST thing you could ever like, for YOU as an individual, and DO NOT forget how you are hurting a child and permanently scarring them for LIFE! that is my MAIN BASE limit that will NEVER change no matter what!!!!!! 2 .scat/shit play...... I will never ever do that! Anything to do with doo doo I am NOT NOR WILL EVER BE DOWN! 3. Any type of body mods. (besides some nice TIG OL' BITTIES haha) 4. NO type of PERMANENT DISFUREMENT to my body, in any kind of way!! 5. fucking animals **** I can't think of any more at this very moment, but when I DO, I will update this with the quickness ;) ******** LAST PROFILE UPDATE 6-22-11 @ 3:30 PM** oh...AND SORRY, IM NOT GOING TO POST ANY REAL "FREAK NASTY SHIT (PICS)" ON HERE ANYMORE 'CAUSE HOS BE STEALING!!!! If you pique my interest, I have MANY MANY pics to share, face and body! :)

ADDITION:

I'm all about honesty. Though im not currently romantically involved with anyone on this site, i feel it only fair for me to divulge that I am seeing someone at the moment, whom i am very fond of and i hope to be with forever. Though certain circumstances do not seem to be in my favor at this point and it doesnt look like i will be getting what i want. Sadly.

LORD. Either this site is malfunctioning or im drunk. Honestly, I think it is BOTH. Ha.

Anyways, cant update my page. It just wont save. Well, heres some of what I was writing.

*****UPDATE nov.2011***

OK
This is the NEW JAM.
I respect a GOOD PERSONALITY. Plain and simple. THe spirt of the 70's, bred and captivated in the 90's, conforming to only peace, comfort, and love. Get to know one another, love for our faults and our bests. I wish to find my "other half;" some one who is like me, who completes me, like NO OTHER. (I miss you WHEN YOU ARE WITH ME, ever been that kind of close? Pure amazement),
Make me laugh when I cry, CRY WHEN I Laugh.
My shoulder to cry on, my crevice to fit. Learning and loving each other, with a good, solid staring foundation. thats the best i can tell you at this moment.

totally twisted way too early.. i do not feel like redoing the rest of my profile at the moment. work, school, kid, social life=tired. Plus im also trying to learn some other things to enhance my life. I get on here rarely and im sorry if i do not answer promplty, BUT TILL THEN.

*end of update*

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pleasure and pain.

thats the jam.

LORD OH LORD send me a sexy lesbian bitch who is very extreme and doesnt have any sexual desire to be with children or minors and wants to take me to new extremes AMEN.....

I feel like im caught in my own little whirl-wind. A lot has been changing for me in my life, as well as emotionally. So many thoughts... I want to progress FORWARD, learn everything I can, try everything I can, at least once. I have been depriving myself of SO much.

Drinking now. BLAST BY COLT 45, havent tried it? DO SO. IDK whats in this shit, but every time it makes me horny as a bitch. OMG. ..... O-M-G thats all i have to say for now is O M G

So much has been going on lately....

Updating profile soon.

Please excuse delayed responses.

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