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Male Dominant, 44
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Female Switch, 34
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Male Dominant, 52, SW Ohio, Ohio
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About Arastella
First and foremost, we are poly. As in, polyamorous. Which means, we are open and we do welcome others in. They just must be respectful if they desire to get involved with us in a sexual way.
Since you have all been wondering, let me update you all. Yes, I am collared now, and I am not looking for a dominant. We got married on November 4th of this year, 2012. So, no, to dominants, I am not on the market, so please be respectful. My Master and husband is Draxxe on here, so please, if you wish to speak with me, write to Him first. All disrespectful messages will either be ignored or responded to just as disrespectfully. So expect to either not hear from me, or get an earful.
Now we ARE seeking another girl to bring into our relationship long term. I will update soon enough with details on what specifically we're looking for, but do know that ultimately, we want to have a big family, and yes that includes more slaves. Ideally, a triad. A pack. We both live with a pack mentality, so try to understand that type of lifestyle.
Not to worry, I am not the jealous type by any means. My only rule is that anyone who gets involved with us is serious, and not simply here to take Him away from me..... I JUST might turn into an uber bitch if you try that one. So.... don't. It's not worth the headache.
Beyond that, I always welcome new friends, and if you want to shoot me a line, feel free to do so. :)
I seek a relationship of compassion, understanding, honesty and trust. I seek a man (yes man, not a boy) who is strong and confident within his own capabilities, yet not arrogant or self obsorbed. I believe that in a relationship of this magnitude, it is NOT all about what the Master/Dom wants/needs, but a balance of what He needs, what she needs, and establishing a balance therein. I look to be completely controlled but never initially. I need to establish a sense of trust in that person first. I look for someone I love and adore so deeply that my entire being longs to serve them. I am not a submissive because I was born that way and have to serve someone, though I do believe I will never be fully satisfied in any relationship where I do not feel so strongly about that person that I long to submit my entire self to them. But I will not accept "you are a sub, you submit to whoever tells you to". I wish to be emotionally and mentally bound to that person because I DO need that control. Even in public I would need some semblance of control, even if that is just walking behind them with my head down and my arms behind my back. I look for someone who doesn't want to mold me to their liking because I am already what I will be and I will not change for anyone. I need someone who will appreciate and love me for ME and never want me to change. |
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So, another update. I know guys, I'm sorry, I'm terrible at updating this thing in a timely manner. I have since healed and worked out my relationship with my Sir, we have been officially together since shortly after that last journal, actually. We had to work out a lot of things, and we've gotten to a place of love, understanding, open honest communication, and true submission. The biggest issue we had was my fault. I've been fighting the true slave inside of me, mostly due to fears. He saw the slave in me a long time ago, and a lot of our fights blew up because He saw it and I was busy telling Him He was wrong.
I've since accepted and embraced this part of myself. I've found a new love of myself in the process, and my mind is at peace. I love Him with every fiber of my being, and I've never been happier. We are engaged now, and will be married next summer. I am so overjoyed. Now, we are looking for another slave to bring into our home and into our hearts. Our dream is to have another sister for me, and another slave for Him. Ultimately, ideally, we will both fall madly in love with her, maybe even stand at the alter with her. Sure, it won't be "legal", but that wouldn't be the point. Now, would it? :) |
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SO many things have happened. Still starved for another play, naturally. Was in a "relationship" for a short time, which since has ended, and apparently it was a joke. More than that, the man had me so confused that I doubted everything I ever thought. I since learned he was psychologically abusive and manipulative. Then I realized that a man who stood by my side for almost a year now has stolen me. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to act. I am so conflicted, it is ridiculous. My mind is in chaos about so many things. I don't know what to think, how to feel, how to act, who to trust..... I am frightened, so very frightened. |
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Last weekend of my play starting tonight.? Soooo excited!!
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So I'm finally about to be in another play.? I am SO psyched.? It's been too long since I've tasted the stage, it's almost like I'm having withdrawals.? I miss it.? And I am wearing a training collar now.? Hilly ish such a happy kitten right now.? All is good in her world. =^_^=
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No, I am not collared, no I am not involved with anyone right at this moment.? But there are two things in my life right now that are as close to my heart as anyone has ever managed to get.? My leather family, three people who have been there for me when everyone else disappeared, have accepted all of me and still continue to love and adore me.? They've taught me so much and helped me grow not only as a submissive but as a person.? And there is one man in my heart.? I don't think he'll ever leave my heart, no matter what happens.? He will always have a special little place in my heart. Unless one day he asks for more of it.? And if that day comes, I will hand it over without hesitation.? Maybe one day he will have all of me.
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The play was such a blast!!? I had a total of 78 people come to the play just to see me, in a 54 seat house.? Wow.? And gosh, Carnelle was such a fun character to play, it was so exciting.? As my grandmother said, "When the light hits you, the world loves you.", and she was so right.? I felt so on top of the world.? Thanks to all who sent me messages of good luck and congradulations.? It's nice to see people who notice and support, it makes me smile big. :)
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Gosh it's been a while since I've written in here.? Hmm.? Okay well the BIGGEST update is that I'm going to be the starring lead in a play called The Miss Firecracker Contest, starting September 10th and running through till the 26th.? This is such a fun and wacky role, and I am absolutely PSYCHED to come see it!? This is the first lead I've ever had.? My dream of being a theatre actress is finally starting to take hold and goodness it makes me shiver with delight to think about it.
Actually, if ya want any detailed information on the play, such as dates, times, address, directions, and ticket prices, just go to www.actorstheatreofneworleans.com and click on Next Production... or current, if it's going on when ya check out the site.
Rehearsals have me BUSY BUSY BUSY and stressed as hell though.? My time is extremely limited and will be till the play is over.? So friends, just keep that in mind.?
Other than that, still just being a good lil college student, taking three classes and once the play is over, I will begin enjoying some more Hilly time.?
Getting over a tough break up but slowly healing and looking hopefully toward the future.? I think I really do see the light at the end of the tunnel now.
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Hmmm, seems a lot of updates are needed since the last one I put up.? Alright then.? Well I have been under the protection of the House of D.? For those who do not understand, no I am not collared to that House, they are, in a way, my guardians.? Very close friends whom I trust with all my being.? I have a lot of history with them so you may have to go through Lord D's approval, or at the very least, he would advise me as He is very good at seeing people's true colors.? This is my effort to weed out those who are not true here, those who's hearts are not in it.? Just a warning.
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So, after a lot of tears and heartache, things have indeed ended. Badly. I'm not going to go into detail because that is simply not important and not the business of everyone and their mother. What I will say is I am crushed. Things began wonderfully, but quickly and fiercly simmered out. Now we are both hurting, now that the yelling fit is done. I hurt. But I'm a fighter, and a survivor, and as always, I will get through this too. I promise. Thank you to those who have given their support and encouragement. |
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Oh goodness, so once again, I had another amazing evening.? I got to meet His two absolutely adorable kids and I have this feeling we got VERY close last night.? I spent a lovely portion of the night in His arms and I felt so at peace for the first time in a VERY long time.? I will be seeing Him again today and I am just so very excited.? I went to a party last night and all my friends said I had a glow about me they had never seen.? I just smiled and told them I had an amazing couple of days.... with a sexy beast. XD
Now I am just sorting out in my head just how this happened, just how there seems to be a connection so quickly, so strongly.? I have a lot of hope for the future with this one.? I think I may becoming a believer in fate.
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Ahh, so last night was soooome interesting.? Went to good ol' Taboo Night, as I do whenever they have one.? I go to bring in new recruits for NOBLE, and do my best to support Wolf's club.? Well, I met someone in person finally who I met on here.? I was shocked just to find someone genuine who I had a real connection with that I could actually find on here.? Didn't actually find him, some weird chick wrote me.? Long story.? Anyway, so we socialized and chatted for a good while, as we watched lovely young ladies dance and take their clothes off for us all.? Always a nice little plus.? Then we got to talking much deeper, more than just the initial small talk.? And it went from deep conversation to digging inside the head of Hilly.? Yep.? Ya'll already know, right?? Certain information, when extracted, makes Hilly blush.? Yeah I was red in the face most of the rest of the night.? Then, after saying goodbye to Wolf (poor guy works Himself to death), Aslmel (dunno if I'm ok to use names or not right now) played with me.? I don't think I've experienced a scene like that in a very long time.? He put in a lot of energy, attention, and focus, just into our scene and it brought me to a lovely place in my head.? And suddenly, my inhibitions washed away, I felt totally at ease, my mind quiet, and here I'm hearing they are booking a hotel room and the crazy idea pops into my head to request to join them.? So what do I do?? I follow my instincts.? And they didn't steer me wrong.? I am just beyond happy and excited and shocked and in awe and... well I've been sitting and constantly seeing the kiss in my head and melting and.... ok Hilly shutting up and you people know nothing... nothing at all... I said nothing... *runs off and hides*
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Sooo, it's the Hilly's birthday today. Yep that's right! I'm 22 as of 12:08pm when I decided to grace you all with my presence. Wonder if I should apololgize for that or not.... hah! Oh I knoooow, I'm just kiddin
So I've got a birthday dinner tonight then a play party this weekend, then ANOTHER play party next weekend!! Hilly is excited!! *hops up and down*
Ok I'm done, I swear. Anyway, I am looking forward to having my dearest friends spending this time with me. This is, afterall, one of the best years of my life. Woot!!
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Since everyone's been asking over and over, the play went great.? It was loads of fun, a great experience, and all my friends came to see it and loved it too.? I had a lot of fun.? Oh, and I turn 21 tomorrow.? WOOHOO GO ME!!? K, I don't have anything else to say so sianarah for now. ?
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So opening night for my play is tomorrow.? I'm so excited.? God, I absolutely LOVE acting.? It's such a complete release of emotions and feelings.? It's wonderful.? It makes me feel free, just for a little while, my life disappears and I become someone different.? But here's the weird thing.? Usually all that I've just said is valid and true.? Usually its a wonderful feeling, escaping my life and becoming someone else.? But... today, it wasn't.? Like, today, something inside me DIDN'T want to escape my life.? I almost felt like if I became someone else and left behind my own life, my heart would be wripped to shreds and I'd never be happy again, never smile again.? It was so weird.? What does this mean?? Does it mean that, subconsciously, I'm actually quite pleased with my life?? If that's the case, then this is good.... right?? Feels right at least...
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Ahh gods.? The pressures of mixed emotions, racing minds, consistent and continuous over-analyzing of absolutely EVERYTHING in my life.? It's not easy to have a mind such as mine.? Always confused, always wanting to figure out MORE.? I'm battling with emotions in my head.? It's like, I like it... but at the same time, it scares me.? Tis the mind of a submissive I suppose.? Most, as I'm sure most subbies will agree, are constantly running, constantly analyzing the situation, trying to make it better, trying to fix it, always in a confusion of sorts.? Do I know what it is that I want?? Or don't I?? Or do I know but I think I don't know?? Or do I NOT know but think I do?? See what I mean?? Wish me luck in my confusion, lol.
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Okay, MAAAAAJOR update.? For those of you who are viewing my journal.? Mistress was a JOKE.? She gone.? And I was kidding myself thinkin I was a lesbian. Heh.? So, to stop the confusion, I deeply apologize for those who thought I was taken and had their hopes downed.? I AM uncollared.
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