Alice893

I had someone accuse me of being fake! Well I wouldn't have me in my military outfit and me dressed up on my pics if I wasn't real. I am a true person I don't see how you can be a fake person but lol I don't get that. I am not just someone that just messages people I just haven't found the person for me yet. I hope I don't end up being alone all the time. I hope this clears up all doubts of me.

I changed my profile to sub I am wanting to have someone that will take there time and train me in a slow loving way to be a sub woman that is post op.

I am thinking of changing my name it Joan instead of Alice I need peoples thoughts on the matter and I need middle names with the one you think fits better. Please help!!!

Well I am almost out of my estrogen I don't have the money to get any I would love it if I had a person get it for me I am not asking people to do it as a rule but I would love it if someone would spend money on me for a change. I am not shore if I want to stay switch or go dom or sub now I am at an cross road right now and I hope I find what I need. 

Its odd I noticed that since I started to take estrogen I am getting horny more often Is that a normal thing for anyone else? Maybe it is do to the fact that my estrogen lvls are starting to go up and my body is reacting to it but I have only just started taking it so I don't think it is as quick as that. If you have any comments feel free to tell me.

Finally found a good computer that I can use and get on here alot faster then my phone did. Now I can respond both on my phone and computer. 

Well I still don't have a working computer and I don't know if I will have one anytime soon... I have a feeling that I lost my love he has not spoke to me in a while I am starting to get a little lonely here now...

So I had a appointment for my va mental health and they agree that I am a woman in mans skin... I have gender identity disorder they said if they where aloud legally prescribe me with hormones so I have to wait to get a doctor just for it... if my mom had better health I would tell my family about what I am and dress full time but she is at risk of a heart attack so I am going to just wait to tell them... I hope I get what I need soon... 

Wow I am so happy my dream is going to come true I am going to be married to a good man who wants to make me his bride and everything I am looking for... He is even into alot of the things I am into so I hope this never falls out on me...

Wow its not the easy to find someone that will make me there wife that they do dirty things to that asks to be fucked hard and fast in the ass and then once you get off and are done we go to sleep with your cum in her ass... Someone that in turn for me being a house wife and fuck toy in turn will pay for the things that I will and do need to be the woman of there dreams... I am not opposed to breasts implants and I will be willing to get your name tattooed on me maybe after I get my pussy you out your name on it to yourself and then fuck me in it for the first time making me your woman for life... I hope to god that my dream comes true.

I have been trying to find a way to make money... It is hard to do when you are a trans I can't get a job in the town I work in as a man let alone as a trans woman... I am thinking of going into prostitution but the bad thing about that is that if I get caught I can get put into jell.... I am at a loss I don't have the money to pay for the things I need to for me to start my life full time as a woman... I can't get a job... I am not making enough with my va check and I don't think I will be able to get me family to fund me in this choice I am now at a loss and I am thinking of doing stupid things here I don't want to that is why I wright here and hope I hear of a option that helps me before I do things I probably should not do and some things I know I should not do... I hope to keep in touch with you all again soon. 

I have been asked to prove that I was in the navy and to show how I used to look before I started this walk down this path so here you all go I little of my past.

Here is a dream of mine I want to have a agreed rape happen with ten or more guys taking me and making me take load after load of cum up my ass and then making me walk home with the cum dripping out of my used ass and running out of my skirt down my legs.

Changed profile to switch so that I can get who I dream to be threw better.

Happy valentines day to me... I thought I was going to talk to my love of my life today I was going to send him a message telling him when and how we are going to talk using our voices but he dumped me and now I feel sad... But on a better note I know now you can't trust men to know what it is like to be truly in love... they don't know how women feel about this type of thing all they want is sex and they want it for free to...

Happy to say VA agreed that I identify as the other sex and I need to work on things so I'm heading in the right direction yay. I am happy that I was found to have gender dysphoria that means that I will probably get the things done that need to be done to make me happy I just wonder if I will have va help

I am looking into getting castrated and I would like someone that has done it to there sissy or a trans that had it done to tell me about it please. I want to get my body ready for being without testosterone before srs and I know I will not be able to get it for a wile so castration will make me save money in the long run with hormones I now this much so if you will please help me with info I will be happy to talk about it.

I hope to god someone that is post op will send me a message telling me some things about what it is like to be a woman that went threw it all.

I was wondering if there is any post op transsexual women out there that will like to talk to me about what it is all about what I can expect and what it is like after the operation?

I am happy to say my breasts are getting bigger. My master/love will also be happy about that one. I hope they don't stop growing until I get to a good size because if I don't I think I will get fat transfer breast augmentation to get a size or two bigger.

I AM SO HAPPY I MAY HAVE JUST FOUND THE BEST THING TO HAPPEN TO ME SINCE THE MILITARY... I hope that things work out for me.

On a bright side of things yesterday I told my VA doctor about me wanting to be a woman and he said there is some things that they can help me with I hope to god things go threw better then my love life tends to... I am glad he didn't say anything that was mean to me... I have the best hopes for this I won't be happy unless I am the woman I dream of...

Well things didn't go as I planned on. Not only did I miss understand what was said with the man that I loved but I ended up leaving him for something stupid. Then I thought I have found someone that I would be happy with but she didn't like me... I am alone again I hope you forgive me my love and let me back into your life...

Just to let anyone in the west la area know. I will be down there on the 23rd of this month to have a doctor appointment and I am looking to get meet anyone who is wanting to meet me then. I am also willing to try a session with you to see if we are a match also. I am willing to just drive up dressed as the woman I dream of being and with my new v-string vagina on and have you fuck my ass through it before anything if you want then we will sit and talk or talk first I just think that it would be a good chance to get to know a dom fast that way. I can even bring my bikini with me if you want the one in the pic.

I am so happy I can't wait to be who I dream of. I have to say my breasts are growing nicely but they are still in the a cup size. They should be starting into the small b-cup soon I hope I dream of being a b-cup or bigger. If I don't reach that I may get a boob job done.

Well I have found the one I think I may be changing my whole profile soon thank you all for talking to me

Well I was told by a friend of mine that he thinks my mom knows about me taking my pills and I have a feeling that she does. I hope she will be fine with my choice in the end I pray that I don't lose the love of my family. I wish I had a Dom that was mine that I was with right now to help me threw this. I am so scared that I will end up alone and without someone that will take care of me. I dread the idea of me never living life as a woman who is happy. I am afraid of what I may do if I reach womanhood and still am not happy with my life. I am unstable but at the same time I am always thinking about my safety so I will still be safe about who I let into my life I hope to god that I can be me soon.

Dear god please let me wake up in the body of a woman! I wish I was able to just switch bodies with a woman that wants to be a man instead of having to wait for the amount of time it will take to make me a woman also instead of being an incomplete woman that can't have children.

Well I am on the hunt again to find the owner or owners that will make me a happy woman. I am wanting to serve but I will never be willing to be a slave if you want 24/7 tpe then I will have to ask you to leave me alone and also I will not be just a stupid slut ether don't think that I am a bimbo for loving sex!

Well I am happy to say that my breast are now looking almost 100% female now. No more triangle male fat boob look that I had going on when I am topless. Now when I am even out of a bra I look fem my body is even taking a fem shape now I can ware a corset all day long and feel comfortable in it to I am so happy.

Well I posted new pics today I hope you all enjoy them

Well my breast growth is great the only thing I have to worry about now is rather I am going to get kicked out of my moms house for what I am doing to myself I still have not told her. I don't get enough to pay for the price it will cost me to live on my own. I hope I find someone that I can belong to soon that will give me a place soon withing this state preferred