Coming to an End

Life can never be boring! And I wouldn’t expect it to be. What I also don’t expect at every turn is things being the opposite… all the time!

So I had taken a job in Clinton/Goderich with the intentions of moving there eventually. We even put an offer on a house. For the last two-and-a-half months it has been pretty unpleasant. My team is great! I don’t know what I’d do without my supervisor and my partner-in-crime (both of us have the same Lead title). It’s management. So I started looking both here and there not knowing where I would land.

Last Thursday I got a call about an interview… in Waterloo. It was scheduled for last Friday. I was very excited because this was a role I’ve been trying for in various places (and almost had one a year ago). It was scheduled for Friday at 5:30 and I raced home at the end of a very long week and got my laptop set up.

An hour later, my phone rang. I got the job!

So, starting on November 11, my title will be Director of Care at a retirement home in Waterloo. I’m coming home!

Of course other things have taken place as well but I’m very excited to be starting in my new role. I know I thought I’d finished my little memoir of nursing but I think this gives it a much better ending. If it has been turned down for distribution I might just go in and pull it down and add a few sections to it!

Still playing around with AI and some stories are coming out as workable and others, not so much. But I feel like my writing might just take off again!

Anyway, I’m madly writing the Christmas Movie blog now that there are new movies every Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. It’s been tough to stay on top of so here’s hoping I can do it!

I’m Writing Again!

It’s been a while again but my excuse has been work, trying to buy a house, trying to sell a house and having to… close the trailer. SIGH! Despite the fact I’m working along this gorgeous shoreline, closing the trailer was torture.

The last few weeks have been improved, at least a little bit and have been VERY busy! That started with my brother’s wedding. I had sooooooo much fun and felt like the real me that night! That’s hard to describe but it made me realize every day (on the brink of tears most days) that I somehow need to make changes. I don’t know exactly how to make that happen but I really do need to try, really hard. Being there that day, seeing my family, dancing like I used to including doing half a jive with LJ made me feel ALIVE! Alive like I haven’t felt in a long time.

I want to feel that every day. LJ said I looked amazing on the dance floor having so much fun kicking up my heels and he truly has no idea just how great I felt that weekend.

So the AI thing is paying off. The short stories I have managed to play with and feel good about is great and I’m coming along with the beginnings of the fourth book in the Mystery of the Past series. I’m just trying to flesh out where it’s going and how the new characters will be introduced and play a role in the book.

There’s one more thing… guess what? It’s TWO sleeps until CHRISTMAS MOVIES start! That means I will need to try to keep up with them all on my other blog!

Stay tuned for more…

I’m Sorry…

Life has been beyond hectic! I’m not even going to try to explain most things because it’s just crazy! My parents got moved in last weekend and are settling very quickly and the house looks great. Should have grass by the end of the week!

What have I been up to? Well, not writing! I’ll get to that in a minute! So as I had shared, the three doctors had decided to retire and found two doctors to take over. We’d met them, they said they weren’t planning on changing anything and said they wanted to be a great big happy family… well, team.

THEY LIED!!!!!

Exactly one week after they started, they called the eighth meeting (well, it felt like it anyway) and told us that we were now done at 4:00 every day. Ummm… that was a FOUR hour PER WEEK loss for me! EIGHT hours per pay! The grand total was going to cost me $5600 a year which would have put my annual income less than it had been when I started working there!

Luckily for me I had been applying to anything, anywhere just to get myself out of a position that I had a feeling wasn’t going to end well. I ended up getting an offer for a position with a company out of Clinton though I’m based out of Goderich… that’s right… the same beautiful town that has been my home away from home for the last too many years to mention! I’m titling it as temporary.

I have said more than once that I wish I could just go back to the office but unfortunately with the cut hours I was backed into a corner and had no choice. I’m going back and forth since so much is still at home. I’m spending lots of time at the trailer but the position is not what I thought so I’m also continuing to look. It’s one of those positions where I had high hopes but… I’ll leave it at that.

As for writing, with everything going on, I haven’t really been writing. I have my binder of what I want to write and I have thoughts in my head that I need to get back to writing so much so that, despite how much I despise AI, I actually looked for a free AI writer and used it for ideas! I entered in some of the information for the Mysteries of the Past series Book Four and it spit out some ideas for me… the one I found so far only allows for short stories.

Then I typed in something else I thought of, just an off-the-cuff idea that had come to me and it has come up with the most beautiful little story that I will probably end up developing first! I figure I can lengthen the 1048 words to at least a novella, or maybe some length that I’ve never written before!

So I guess AI isn’t all that bad if you use it for good… I have writer’s block so I’m using it to get unblocked. They are my ideas but I will put it into my own words! That I can handle!

Somewhere in amongst all this I celebrated my 50th birthday, had Halloween with dress-up and trick or treating at the trailer and my brother has also moved!

I will do my best to try to keep you all better posted with what is happening, where I am and especially how I’m making out with my writing.

All I have is excuses!

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Hi Everyone!

I always feel so bad when I look back and see that I’ve only been writing once a month! IF THAT! I started a blog because it was extremely important for me to not only share about my writing but also the path I was on… that long and winding road that is sometimes the divide between real life and and writing. What I wish life would be like as a full-time writer and what it actually looks like.

When I look back over all these years it’s amazing that I’ve written what I have. Sixteen novels have gone out and three non-fiction books now. I’ve only sold hundreds of books but it still feels great when someone tells you how much they loved reading one of my novels. And I’ve had a few people tell me they like how I write and tell the story. THAT makes me the happiest!

I love telling stories but, as any of you who are writers know, it’s life that gets in the way of that happening!

And life has certainly been going back at a pace I’ve never experienced before! Many people I talk to have been feeling the same way… we’re already at the middle of July!

Aside from the book coming out a month ago there is, of course, other news! So at the end of May the docs announced that they are retiring. All three of them! At the same time… July 31st. They found two doctors to take over the three practices. The new doctors are installing computers which will be an added bonus but I’m skeptical because, as we all know, I’ve been down this path before! How did that end?

As always, I’m looking… and I continue to look.

Additionally, my parents are moving. The house is for sale and they have bought a brand new home… in our beloved town of Goderich! They are taking a plunge and getting out of what used to be home but just doesn’t feel so much like that anymore with constant applications to the cities for more and more and more high-rise buildings when we don’t have the infrastructure because they’ve narrowed all the streets to allow for bike lanes. The world is a far cry from when I was a kid and everyone had respect for each other. I know I’m preaching to the choir for anyone older than I am. As much as I hate the idea of them moving away, I’m thrilled for them. They deserve it. I’m also a LOT jealous because I had my moment almost a year ago and had I reversed my wording in emails, I would already be living here (it’s the weekend, of course I’m at the trailer!).

I think, lastly, I just have to write an update on my hand… it’s still swollen every day. My rheumatologist appointment Monday was interesting. They rarely go by blood work because it takes so long for the markers to actually appear. Now, I knew that for the actual Rheumatoid marker but I wasn’t aware of that with the inflammation markers. Anyway, he said I don’t have Rheumatoid arthritis which was a relief because, lets face it, don’t I already have enough going on? But at the same time, he doesn’t know what is causing my hand to be swollen constantly. So he wants a series of pictures from the bad days when I have no knuckles and he’s going to see me again in nine months. He said if nothing Rheumatoid pops by then I’m not likely going to face that in my future! So a lot of good news but I still don’t know now!

Anyway, my friends and readers, it’s time for me to finally wrap this up! I will say that I don’t want it to go this long again and I hope to actually stick to that! I don’t want to keep carrying the guilty feeling of not writing on my writing blog! This is the most writing I’ve done since the Tales Out of Nursing came out which has now been a month! Too much going on and I think I’m also stuck. Maybe making my idea binder was as bad as I thought it was a good idea at the time. I don’t know. But I feel stuck!

I might just force myself to do a daily entry for two weeks like I’ve done before to see if I can maintain that just to get back into some writing again so stay tuned!

Welcome to the world!

For starters, I can’t believe I haven’t written in seven weeks.

Since then the trailer has opened and I’ve spent every weekend there since. I’ve gone through three rounds of edits on Tales Out of Nursing AND…

I published it last night! Welcome to the world Tales Out of Nursing… Stories and Lessons from 30 Years on the Front Lines

After so much time and writing and adding stories up to the last round of edits it has finally been born… there were moments, I have to admit, when I didn’t know if I’d ever get it together the way I pictured it. I went through a phase asking myself if I even wanted to finish it but I like to commemorate milestones and despite having a love-hate relationship with nursing for a large percentage of those years it has also shaped my life so I might as well celebrate it!

I’ve ordered a proof copy so we’ll wait and see what it looks like before I hit the live button!

Of course, as I saw this finish lining approaching, I started to wonder what I would move on to and I’m not certain yet… I think another non-fiction book right now would drain me the rest of the way so I think I will set to work adding a 17th book to my collection… how does that sound?

Anyway, on the personal front… I see the rheumatologist on July 8 so we’ll see what’s up with my hands! Hopefully.

Radio Show!

Hi again!

So I didn’t think this was going to happen so fast but it’s been a little while in the making. Last Monday I finally caught up with the host of Promenade, a radio show here in Waterloo Region. There were a few bumps along the way of us trying to make our appointed times but we finally managed and it went really well!

So it’s actually going to air tomorrow night already which was a bit of a shock to me.

So it will be on, as you can see, at 8:00 pm Eastern time on 98.5 FM. For those who aren’t close by you can also stream via ckwr.com

We are just talking about my writing, how I got here considering I’m a nurse by day and a few other tidbits!

Give it a listen!

Question…

I’m trying to work hard on editing Tales out of Nursing but seem to be falling short. Between work, pain and fatigue, and packing for the trailer that opens in 11 days I am not getting as far as I’d like to!

Now here’s a question though… because I’m telling some true stories I can’t, obviously, use real names. So, as readers, what do you prefer to read? Initials? Or names? I can change names like Katie to Kim (or any other name though I’m not always that good at choosing names) or refer to the person as K. Or P., etc.

I can’t wait to get this book edited and start the process of putting it out there. Though it’s kind of sad to watch 30 years of life pass me by!

I just wanted to put this out there but now it’s bedtime!

Guess what I’m up to?

It’s been a while since I posted last and though I have thought about posting, actually doing it has been an entirely different story. The reason for that has been mostly due to a lack of time, a lack of words and a connection to my last post.

In my last post I had just found out about slightly worse arthritis in my hands, bones in my wrist that have narrowed slightly in the last year and arthritis in four of seven vertebrae in my neck. What I didn’t talk about much, at the time, was the difficulties I have had just sitting upright without resting my head/neck and the pain that causes. That means that computer work has become a bit of an issue as well not only for my neck but also my hands and typing.

Three weeks after I saw the doctor (two weeks after my last post) I went to work on Monday morning with a very sore left hand… the majority of my issues had been in my right thumb at the base near the wrist. This pain was all the knuckles across the base of my fingers. Of course, as I do, I carried on with my day as best I could. Late in the day I actually looked at my hand and realized that my first two knuckles at the base of my first two fingers were non-existent. There was so much swelling that setting my hand down flat made them disappear.

Tomorrow will be four weeks since that started and it hasn’t let up. I went to the doctor again this past Tuesday and he ordered more blood tests.

In the interim, before I hear from him, I have made a new friend in Poland who, like me, is a huge Phantom of the Opera fan and was interested in reading my 2007 novel, Let the Dream Begin. I didn’t realize initially that I hadn’t published it on Amazon so I told her that I would do that. Then I couldn’t find the 5×8 formatted copy in my files anywhere so I had to alter it and do all the edits. Then I got to the end and realized that I had missed something so I finally took the time to write what I felt was missing. Today I spent the afternoon working and not only have I now created the new, updated novel on Amazon but I also recreated a brand new copy on Lulu!

Let me know what you think:

My neck is now killing me having done extra time at the computer today but I feel great that I was able to accomplish this! I’ll keep you posted!

Family Day!

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Well, it’s almost over but I vowed I was going to get a post up. Today I had the chance to sleep in but that didn’t work very well. I want to say it was a lazy day but it wasn’t. It was a physically lazy day but my brain feels tired from overworking. I’ve also been sick since Thursday night… we won’t discuss the source!

The first thing I did this morning was sit down with my three working notebooks and went through them as I sat with a stack of blank lined 3-hole paper in front of me. I was going to flesh out the four projects that I know I’ve had in my mind for these last months. I decided to dive in to each notebook and pulled the pages out while heading fresh lined paper with the title of the project and then putting the pulled pages in behind.

It turns out I was wrong with the four outstanding projects. It’s SIX! I barely have time for four projects and now there are two more than I thought! That doesn’t include all the articles I’d like to write!

After I did that I was planning on maybe fleshing out each of the ideas a bit more but I then got into my Tales out of Nursing project that is currently in editing stages and edited a bunch of those pages instead.

Now I’m very tired. I’m feeling better today than I was yesterday but today I felt stuffier than I did yesterday. But you know what it’s like trying to sleep with that extra stuffiness.

Back to work in the morning and I’m definitely not prepared. When I have an extra day like today I just want it to continue. I want the ability to keep it all going. I certainly don’t get a lot of time like this to jump in with both feet and immerse myself in my writing while watching movies that I’ve seen over and over before with the cats asleep next to me.

Of course writing that much today has had an impact on my hands as well. I visited my doctor this week and had some x-rays done. I have a little bit more deterioration in my right hand compared to last year. This year we also had a look at my neck and I have arthritis C2-C5 with some narrowing at two of those joints. Guess that explains all the pain I’ve had in my neck for the last few years. The one good thing is I now know I’m not making it up and I know it’s soft tissue.

This news hasn’t necessarily been taken well, as you can imagine. Well, how would you feel if given the same? Anyway, as my right hand aches, it’s time for me to wish you all well again and I hope to get back into a bit of a routine.

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