sapphire

random icons - raven/apple ft. ashlynn

2015-11-08T23:47:27Z

random icons - ever after high/monster high

2015-11-08T23:45:17Z

write_x_always @ 2015-11-01T17:33:00

2015-11-01T17:33:46Z

Happy Birthday :)

one hollstein icon

2015-07-30T22:20:19Z

write_x_always @ 2015-07-28T20:04:00

2015-07-28T19:04:08Z

I am so excited!

raven reyes icons

2015-07-28T00:29:32Z

my first batch of icons! i hope you like them!

and i hope to god he was worth it

2015-07-24T00:19:52Z

Title: and i hope to god he was worth it
Fandom: Once Upon a Time
Pairings/Characters: (Assumedly unrequited) Emma Swan/Regina Mills, Robin Hood/Regina Mills
Warnings: Jelously, pinning, murderous thoughts, murder mention.
Summary: You're in the Author's mansion, you, Henry, Regina and him.

You're in the Author's mansion, you, Henry, Regina and him.

Robin Hood, who is according to some magic pixie-dust, is Regina's True Love.

(Honestly, you think the whole 'pixie dust soulmates' thing is complete and utter bullshit, not that you'd ever tell her.)

You glance up, and -

He's got his arms snaked around her waist, and just the mere thought of him being with her, touching her, makes you so angry you are terrified that your dark magic will spill out again, with much more severe consequences than a hole in the wall at the Sheriff's Station.

(You killed Cruella, you're a murderer, and some deep, dark part of you that you can feel rising closer to the surface with every waking moment, knows that you would do the same to him in a heartbeat.)

Regina looks so fucking happy.

It's not that you don't want her to be happy, because you do, it's just -

Why him?

Why did it have to be Robin Hood off all people who was her happy ending?

Robin, who tried to shoot her.

Robin, who abandoned her.

Robin, who clearly saw no issue with fucking her as Marian lay in a coma.

Robin, who was having a baby with Zelena, the god-damn Wicked Witch of the West!

You say nothing, though, because she's smile so much more nowadays, and you've never been good a voicing your feelings anyway.

Instead, you hide your face in a book, and bite your tongue so hard it bleeds.

only bad people live to see their likeness set in stone (what does that make me?)

2015-07-24T00:14:17Z

Title: only bad people live to see their likeness set in stone (what does that make me?)

Fandom: Carmilla

Pairings/Characters: Carmilla Karnstein, Laura Hollis, Matska Belmonde, Past - Laura/Carmilla

Notes: "No Heroics" fucked me up. This was written immediatley after that episode was aired - after I stopped crying, obviously.

Summary: "No." You say, and paradise burns. - Carmilla centric.

"No." You say, and paradise burns.

//

You will not betray Mattie.

Laura doesn't understand.

//

Mattie is your sister.

She was the one who explained your new world after you were turned.

She was the only one who tried to protect you from Mother, and when she couldn't - which was more times than you'd care to admit - she was the one who bandaged your wounds.

It's not your fault, kitty, Mother's always been like this.

//

Laura doesn't understand how few you can trust in this world.

Ell is dead. Mother is dead. Will is dead.

You thought you could trust Laura, but maybe you were wrong.

(You hate your heart. It always finds a way of betraying you.)

//

"Romantic ideal? Because I think you're better than your long history of murdering and callously discarding people?"

Monster. You think. She thinks I'm a monster.

"Is that what you think of me?" Your head is spinning, tears are pricking at the backs of your eyes.

Who are you kidding?

Monster has been scrawled onto your soul since the night you were murdered. Since your first resurrection.

It's part of who you are.

No-one can change that, not even her.

//

"If you really loved me then you'd stay."

Aren't you listening Laura?

I can't stay.

//

"I'm done."

You don't look back.

//

Crying alone is hard, but you're used to it at this point.

//

Fin.

mcufemslash tables!

2015-07-23T23:45:03Z

so, i've recently joined mcufemslash and here are the tables i will be completing.

Prompt Table A

01.	Christmas	02.	Forget	03.	Ending	04.	Real	05.	Thoughts
06.	Said	07.	Beach	08.	Show	09.	Attempt	10.	Alone
11.	Take Me	12.	Secrets	13.	Slide	14.	Fashion	15.	Figures
16.	Puzzle	17.	Silence	18.	Peaches	19.	Progress	20.	Empty
21.	Crazy	22.	Train	23.	Portrait	24.	Queen	25.	Soul
26.	Shame	27.	Cough	28.	Better Off	29.	Pride	30.	Blue

Prompt Table B

01.	Apples to Oranges	02.	Breathing	03.	Just Enough
04.	Heartbreaker	05.	Independent	06.	Something Else
07.	Phone Call	08.	Confessions	09.	White Lie
10.	Bang Bang	11.	For Worse	12.	Endless

Trope & AU Table A

01.	Alpha/Beta/Omega	02.	Baby/Kidfic	03.	Coffee Shop
04.	Fake Married/Dating	05.	Fandom Fusion	06.	Roadtrip
07.	Sex Worker(s)	08.	Soulmate Marks	09.	Wingfic
10.	Yearning/Oblivious	11.	You Gotta Get Laid	12.	Zombie Apocalypse

Trope & AU Table B

01.	Apocalypse or Post-Apocalypse	02.	Confessions Under the Influence
03.	Drunk/Accidental/Forced Marriage	04.	Everyone Thinks They're Dating
05.	Highschool/College AU	06.	Huddling for Warmth
07.	Neighbors/Roommates/Dormmates	08.	Playing Truth or Dare or Strip Poker
09.	Tied Up Together or Stuck in Closet	10.	Werewolves and/or Vampires

when i watch a tv show

2015-06-16T19:38:39Z

If I watch a TV show, I usually do a running commentary including phrases such as:

“Don’t do that you morons!”

“They’re gonna die. I call it.”

“What could go wrong? EVERYTHING!”

“They’re gonna hook up, I call it.”

“Well, that escalated quickly”

“Oh, you have a motorcycle? Then you’re gonna die!”

*claps* “Ladies and Gentlemen, we have a special kind of jackass over here!”

Among other things.

Also, if a character says something related to a song, I’ll sing it.

I hope this isn’t just me.

one of the things i really love about ouat is that rumple literally named his son "bae"

2015-06-16T19:35:28Z

*rumple storms into Granny's*

rumple: "where's bae?"

emma: "belle's at the library."

rumple: "no, where's bae?"

emma: "i told you, belle is at the library."

rumple: "where. is. bae?"

emma: "i literally just told you, belle is at the library!"

*rumple sighs and stomps out the door.*

random story

2015-06-16T19:33:00Z

so when i was 12, i went to a catholic school. and one day, this kid asked me “are you heterosexual?”

and i, being a sheltered naive 12 year, didn’t know what that meant.

the kid was an asshole who made fun of people a lot, so i assumed this was some crude joke.

so i said “no.” and went back to my work.

and his eyes kind of went all wide and he was like “ArE YoU a HoMoSeXuAL?????????????”

and i, still assuming this was a joke said “yeah.”

and then he just sorta laughed nervously, and i carried went on working.

that’s it. i literally have no idea why i’m telling you this.

write_x_always @ 2015-06-15T18:14:00

2015-06-15T17:14:21Z

Banner by the incredible salmon_pink

Femslash100's drabble cycle 6 is so much fun :D You guys should join it <3

write_x_always @ 2015-05-31T22:19:00

2015-05-31T21:19:19Z

so i'm a member of femslash100 and have sighned up for drabble cycle 11.

here is the table of prompts:

1.	altered states	2.	begging	3.	blindfolds	4.	clothing	5.	edging
6.	pain	7.	queening	8.	restrained	9.	roleplay	10.	voyeurism

our first kiss went like this

2015-04-06T21:06:34Z

Author: write_x_always

Fandom: Legend of Korra

Title: our first kiss went like this

Pairings/Characters: Korra, Asami, Korra/Asami.

Setting: Around the end of season one, but before Korra gets her bending back.

Summary: "You'll be okay, you know." Asami's words are simple, cliche even, but what do you say to someone who has just lost everything?

-x-

Asami, eventually, finds Korra in the snow. As she sits down next to her, Asami shivers, she still isn't used to the cold. She wonders if she ever will be.

Vaguely, Asami wonders what it must have been like for Korra, growing up here. Isolated, alone, without anyone her own age.

"You'll be okay, you know." Asami's words are simple, cliche even, but what do you say to someone who has just lost everything?

"No. I won't. I'm not the avatar anymore. Now I have nothing." Korra stares at the crisp, clean snow-covered ground. Her ponytail hangs limply.

"I can't bend. Are you saying that all non-benders are worthless?"

"Of course not, but-" Korra protests.

"Then, how can you think that of yourself? Besides, you can still air-bend. You have Tenzin. You've got Bolin and Mako."

"I know. But what about you?" Korra's voice is shy, concerned even. Which surprises Asami. She never thought Korra cared that much about her.

Asami puts her hand on Korra's shoulder.

"Korra, you'll always have me around. I promise." Asami hopes this is one promise she can keep.

Korra kisses her then. It's rushed, hasty and unplanned. Yet, despite the cold, Korra's lips are warm and soft on hers.

Korra suddenly seems to realise what she has just done and jumps back in shock, "I… I'm sorry… I-I."

Asami cuts her off, "Do you have any idea how long I've wanted you to do that?"

"But what about you and Mako?"

"I ended things with Mako. We weren't working out." Asami confesses.

"So, now you're available?" Korra says playfully.

"It seems so."

"Would you ever like to, I dunno, have dinner with me?"

"I'd love to." Asami smiles, a real smile, one that lights up her entire face.

Somehow, Korra knows their first kiss will not be their last.

dance with me (this woman is my destiny)

2015-04-06T20:56:51Z

Author: write_x_always

Fandom: Carmilla

Title: dance with me (this woman is my destiny)

Pairings/Characters: Laura Hollis, Carmilla Karnstien, Laura/Carmilla.

Warnings: Mentions of alcohol, Murder.

Summary: She's just far too curious, and maybe a little bit drunk, but so's Carmilla, and that makes it a bit better. Right?

Notes: Writen before episode 28.

-x-

To be honest, Laura isn't really sure why she asks it.

She's just far too curious, and maybe a little bit drunk, but so's Carmilla, and that makes it a bit better. Right?

They are lying side by side on Carmilla's bed – it's not either's choice, of course, but Laura's is occupied - when, for whatever reason, Laura leans over to her centuries old, Vampire roommate and asks,"What was your childhood like?"

To her surprise, Carmilla actually answers her.

"It was... interesting. I, unlike most other children, was lucky. I was mostly well fed, decently clothed, cared for. Honestly, the balls were my favorite."

"Balls? Like, puffy dresses?" Laura tries to imagine the dark, broody, Carmilla in some pink, frilly frock. She giggles a little.

"Yes." Carmilla snaps back, defensively.

"Okay, okay. So, what, exactly, did you like about these balls?"

"Some of the people, they were, well, pleasant, you know? And it was nice to have company aside from my family. But, I remember the best part of the night was the dancing." Carmilla's eyes distant, head tilted up to gaze at the glow in the dark stars tacked to the celling.

"Dancing? I didn't know you could dance." Laura says, thoughtfully.

"You never asked." Carmilla says lazily.

Laura sits up, suddenly.

"What is it?" Carmilla asks, franticly.

Laura bites her lip. "Carmilla, could you, I dunno, teach me how to dance?"

"Won't believe it until you see it, huh?" Carmilla's sitting up too, and Laura thinks she detects a slight grin on the Vampire's red lips.

"Something like that." Laura pushes herself up, and takes Carmilla's hand.

Carmilla doesn't protest.

Laura leads her to the space between their two beds.

"It won't work, unless I lead." Carmilla whispers.

"Okay." Laura replies.

They can't put on any music, so, instead Carmilla sings softly.

"And you can sing, too? How did I not know this?" Laura asks more to herself than anyone else.

"There's a lot you don't know about me, cupcake." Carmilla replies.

Together, they dance, just as Carmilla did, once upon a time, when she was only a little girl who picked pretty flowers and laughed in the bright sunshine. Before daggers, death, a Vampire's sharp fangs, Mother, and the lost love she couldn't save.

Carmilla puts her arms around Laura's waist. Laura puts her hands on her shoulders.

That's how they are, for a while, two girls swaying to beat of their hearts.

Carmilla gazes at Laura, then.

Laura smiles, her cute, adorable smile, that lights up her eyes.

And, well, Carmilla can't help herself.

The kiss is short and sweet, and ohsolovely, and to Carmilla's delight, Laura doesn't pull away.

"Laura, I love with you." Carmilla confesses, once their lips finally part.

"Carmilla..." Laura is stunned.

'She doesn't love you back, you fool. No one could ever love you.' A voice somewhere, in the darkest part of Carmilla, screams.

Just as Carmilla is about to turn away, Laura laces their fingers together.

"I love you, too." Laura whispers.

This time, it's Laura who kisses her, lovingly, passionately, and it is beautiful.

They are happy.

For now, at least.

i'm not as fine as i seem

2015-04-06T20:46:09Z

Author: write_x_always

Title: i'm not as fine as i seem

Fandom: Shingeki no Kyojin | Attack on Titan

Warnings: Swearing, Suicidal Thoughts, Abusive Parents, Murder.

Pairing/Characters: Historia Reiss|Christa Lenz , Ymir, Historia Reiss/Ymir.

Summary: You are fifteen, your an adult, a soldier.

You've got far more important things to worry about than the way Ymir looks at you.

(Like your reputation, and keeping your real identity a secret, and, oh, did I forget to mention the giant man-eating monsters baying for your blood? Yeah, those too.)

-x-

i'm not as fine as i seem

You've never been a child, not really, anyway.

You're an accident, an inconvenience, an abomination.

You're, quite simply, never meant to exist.

Yet, Fate seems to have your life already fucked up for you.

You spend your childhood isolated in an old farmhouse, with a Mother who can't bare to look you in the eyes, and a Father whom you've not yet had the misfortune of meting, and you are lonely.

Sometimes, you wonder why Mummy dearest didn't dispatch of you the moment you were born. Perhaps, she could have flung you over the wall and let you smash on the cobblestones below.

(Sometimes, you wish she had.)

-x-

Aged ten, you watch, helpless, as your Mother is murdered, her last words: "If only you'd never been born."

As her body falls hard on the road, you know you'll be executed too.

(Soon your suffering will end.)

You take a breath, because it might be your last, and stare grimly up at dear old Dad, expecting to feel the sharp metal on your throat any second.

Only, you don't.

Instead, you get a new name, and with it, you take on a new identity.

Krista Lenz will be kind, Krista Lenz will be sweet, Krista Lenz will be everything you are not.

Except, Krista Lenz will die.

And those who knew Krista Lenz will mourn Krista Lenz. They will not despise Krista Lenz for living.

You'll make damn sure of it.

-x-

Krista Lenz is beautiful, charming, kind.

Indeed, she is everything you made her out to be.

The majority of her fellow trainees like her, and they enjoy her company.

Well, most of them.

There's a tall woman who you think looks far too old to be a trainee, who reprimands her for performing an act of kindness.

"What the hell do you think your doing?!" The woman hisses, glaring at you, then at the girl in your lap.

"I'm giving them food." Your voice is colder than you intended.

The woman rolls her (pretty) brown eyes. "And what made you think that was a good idea?"

"Because, if I don't help them, who will?"

The woman gives an exasperated sigh, and helps you as you scoope the poor girl off of your lap. "I will. It means they'll owe me a favour."

It's only as the pair of them are trudging their way back to the dorms, half carrying and half dragging the girl between them, when the woman asks you for your name.

"My name is Krista Lenz." You like how easily this new name (new lie) rolls off of your tongue.

The woman smirks, and you wonder what she's thinking.

"I'm Ymir."

-x-

You begin to see a lot of Ymir over the coming months.

You fight together in hand to hand combat.

(You win only a handful of times, but you'll never let Ymir live it down.)

She sits beside you as you learn of a Titans' fatal flaw.

(Her eyes are so wide and her fists are clenched. You place a comforting hand on her shoulder, and, for once, she doesn't brush you away.)

You don't really notice at first, but over time, you begin to relax a bit more when your with Ymir, and you start to become less of Krista Lenz, and more of the girl you once were.

(Ymir's different from the others, though, because she sees straight through your shiny smiles, and it's only a matter of time before she discovers who you truly are.)

-x-

It all happens so fast.

You and Ymir are trudging through the snowy mountains, and it's fucking freezing.

You know this is it, this is how you are going to die.

But you don't want to drag her down with you.

You advise (demand) her to leave.

Suddenly, Ymir begins to bring up things she really shouldn't know, and then your cover is blown, and you just want to die, like you should've done all those years ago.

Ymir is yelling about something, but you can't hear her over the sound of your own heartbeat, and before you can stop yourself you scream.

"What would you have done in my situation?! If anyone finds out the truth about me, I'm dead. This is the only way!" You don't cry, not yet, with the anger you've pent up for years sizzling through your veins. "Besides, I'd rather die on my own terms, fighting to keep our world a safer place!"

"If you really think being chewed up by some Titan is gonna keep our world safer, your delusional." Ymir isn't yelling, not anymore, voice dropped into a harsh whisper.

"You still haven't answered my question." You counter furiously.

"Honestly? I have no idea." Ymir admits.

Ymir learns a lot about you that night, and you learn something about her, too and in the end, maybe it's for the better.

(You still don't tell her your real name. You hope you never have to.)

-x-

You are fifteen, your an adult, a soldier.

You've got far more important things to worry about than the way Ymir looks at you.

(Like your reputation, and keeping your real identity a secret, and, oh, did I forget to mention the giant man-eating monsters baying for your blood? Yeah, those too.)

Only, once in a while, Ymir will look at you in a certain way, that you can't quite define.

-x-

Honestly, you aren't quite sure you can define how you feel about her, either.

You know that you like hanging out with her, you like training with her, and you especially like it when your hands accidentally brush against one another and you get butterflies in your stomach.

You wonder, if this is what it feels like when your in love.

(You hope it's nothing, because everyone you love always ends up dead.)

-x-

On their graduation day, Ymir's the one who kisses you first.

Your a bit taken aback, of course, and you aren't quite sure what to do with your hands, but you kiss her back, regardless.

You close you eyes, and allow yourself to live in this moment, and wish with all your might that you could stay here forever.

(You can't, obviously, because people like you don't get wishes.)

Ymir loves you, and you love her, and together, you wait for the world to end.

But you don't mind as much, as long as she's with you.

Ymir is your hope, your courage, your bravery.

And your gonna need all of it and more, in the days ahead.

(Because nothing lasts forever, and you know that better than anyone.)

Fin.