1. So today the plan was to make this bitchy post about how one of the work cats ripped my last good pair of tights the other day, which is mostly annoying because it’s the end of March now and thus probably too late in the season to pick up any replacements that would get me through these last few weeks until it’s warm enough that I’ll need to put away the sweaterdresses and start shaving my legs again every day. Then I scrolled down a few posts and realized I made it already. Last year.

:/

2. As a subset of my previously mentioned LJ Existential Crisis I went on a massive defriending spree and ditched a ton of communities that were clogging up my flist with things I no longer care about. Mostly Supernatural stuff and Smallville things and so many icons comms I really don’t need to be seeing fifty posts from on a daily basis. I did not intentionally defriend any actual humans, however, so please don’t hesitate let me know if I’ve made some horrible mistake. I promise I love you and want you back. :c

3. I also just realized today that I’m probably going to need to change my gorgeous new layout yet again, because the tiny icons on all the comment pages just break my heart and I can’t get past it guys, I can’t. I also suck a lot and lack the html skill to make them go back to normal any other way.

4. I’m still writing you all terrible, terrible fic. So slowly. ;_;

So while I was living under a rock I kind of missed the boat on remembering in time that I was planning on drudging up some brainpower to fight out a spot for Young Justice Animated on my mom’s TIVO. Now fandom has gone all ‘splodey with all this awesome fic and art and icons everywhere that I really wish I could comment on and guys I feel so left out. ;_; Help me remedy this terrible oversight why aren't youtube searches helping.

Also my virus protection expired like a week ago because I forgot to renew it and now my laptop is being eaten alive by Viagra ads. FML.

So believe me when I say that my plan way back in July was just to take that unannounced hiatus I’d been thinking about for a while and hope this bizarre feeling of stagnation would magically improve on its own. I’m sure you all can see how well that worked out as it’s……. now seven and a half months later. :c

I could write you guys pages on why this happened and how stressful and time-consuming my job is and how much having chronic mental health issues sucks, and all of those reasons and justifications would be valid. But really, it just comes down to me looking at my old posts in my old journal and kind of feeling embarrassed, after a while. Embarrassed by how much time I really spent writing about the same stuff over and over, writing about it badly, and never touching on anything that really felt important, even retrospectively.( Cut for a long explanation.Collapse )

TL;DR I’ve missed so much tell me all about your liiiiives. Or… rec me some fic or something. I am a terrible friend and know nothing.

So, way back in 1998, my family was transfered to a tiny, barren island in Alaska. For five years winter was nine months long, 320 days of rain wasn't at all an unusual prognosis, web pages took ten minutes to load, and twice a year my family was allowed a free trip off the island by Coast Guard C-130. Mostly so we wouldn't commit suicide, I guess.

So, for all those many months in between with nothing to buy and no place to go and nothing to even want, I saved the allowances my parents still dilligently provided. And every six months or so, I'd blow it all at Barnes & Noble in Anchorage, or Hawaii, or Massachusetts, or wherever it was that we happened to end up. Naturally, given that I pretty much always had to buy enough books to last me those many months, they’d pile up a bit on my bookshelf while I worked my way through them. This was appropriate, healthy, and satisfying. ( AJFLKAS.Collapse )

In happier news, YOU GUYS LOOKIT WHAT I FOUND AT HOT TOPIC THE OTHER DAY. ( LOOKIT LOOKITCollapse )

("You'll never how how it feels to get so close and be denied...")

Post ten thirteen of any pictures currently on your hard drive that you think are self-expressive.
- No captions. It must be like we're speaking with images and we have to interpret your visual language just like we have to interpret your words.
- They must already be on your hard drive - no google or flickr! They have to have been saved to your folders sometime in the past. They must be something you've saved there because it resonated with you for some reason.

Stolen from northern_star. ( Picspammy picspamCollapse )

aizjanika and I have started watching Farscape. It's definitely the brand of odd that I think I'm mostly able to appreciate, and I'm actually somewhat surprised at how much I'm enjoying it. Due to the way things ended between Stargate and I I've often wondered if the association in my head between Vala and Claudia Black would completely destroy my ability to enjoy anything ever with her in it, but oh god was I mistaken because Aeryn Sun is so fucking amazing. If every show on television aspired to have female characters as intrinsically powerful, flawed, and realistically human then I might actually be able to watch TV again without drugging myself first figuratively of course.

OH GOD I have to go to work now. D:

1. So, I found out a friend of mine from highschool is knocked up. I should be really happy for her, but somehow all I can think about is how sad it is that her life is now pretty much over. I'm so judgemental.

2. My cat just threw up on my bed. D:

3. I may or may not be writing Robin!Steph/Bruce identity faux!p0rn. kill me now.

4. I've gone back to scheduling my time by the minute and sleeping less than six hours a night. And look, I'M HERE, so it must be working. I'm also applying to grad school again, working full time, and trying in vain to get the hell out of my parents house by the end of the summer, so uh, don't be shocked if I randomly vanish again for a few weeks months. I still wuv you all.

5. Because I'm clearly in a mood today: You - pick a fandom, any fandom. I - will offer one (or several) unpopular fannish opinion(s).

Really, any fandom.

So, who is it that I have to kill to get my hands on a light, breezy sundress for the summer that isn't:

A) Skanky

B) Bunchy

C) Obviously designed for the sole purpose of hiding pregnancies

Really now. After spending an entire day combing thrift stores and the mall for some reasonably non-hideous, summer-in-the-god-awful-south clothes, I'm out thirty bucks and up exactly one wearable skirt. Yet again, absolutely nothing is cut for someone quite as small and skinny as me.

I did get a much-needed, long-overdue haircut while I was out, however. Pictures to come when I'm done with my period and am no longer in my pajamas.

Speaking of feminine TMI, I've been on birth control since February to help control the endometriosis, and it is actually... helping. Somewhat.( Cut for girly plumbing.Collapse )

Also my cat just threw up on my bed and I'm now debating whether putting myself through the emotional trauma of washing the sheets is actually worth the price of just buying some new ones later today.

…So, I gave in and read the last eight issues of Devin Grayson's run in one sitting. ( And it sort of took me a while to shut up about it. - Nightwing #71-117, plus excessive picspammageCollapse )

On that note, I’ve jumped into Jones as of today, and that means I really need someone to please hold my hand and tell me it’ll be over soon. D:

Also, I accidentally destroyed my parents $1800 dining room table today. I kind of wish I was living somewhere else, right now.

( From Nightwing #88Collapse )



In other news, in the last week I’ve torn both my fishnets and my last good pair of black tights on the way in to work, which is as sure a sign as any that it’s time to start going barelegged. And shaving every day.

D: