Darkness

Memories of painful times
Sharp like arrow heads
Dragging across your skin
Leaving fine lines of
Emptiness.
Doubling over within myself
Crying until there's nothing else
But sorrow.
And the deep, dark, blood-red color of my eyes
Reflected in the mirror
Is leaking out in bright, red tears
My heart is filled with terror.
I tried to walk the path before me
And every time I stood I tried again
Hoping again that the road would roll before me
Up and down, but always there
Not slipping and sliding into ravines of fear.

I try every time,
But oh the pain,
I try every time,
I go insane,
I try every time,
Can you tell me why again?

I keep having flashbacks about being removed from dartmouth. I remember everything so vividly and it's horrible. I pray for forgetfulness. I've never really prayed before. I feel like someone is taking my insides and ripping them out. Piece by piece, organ by organ. Pain permeates my brain.