Silence
The sound...the sound...of silence.
Deep in my head I realize that not being hyper is a let down.
Mostly I just think the world is crumbling between my fingers.
That, however, is the depression...
I was reading my psych book today. It was the chapter all about personality. I've decided that all of the different schools of thought have got it wrong. I came up with my own theory that's somewhere between trait and behviorist psychology. Essentially, people are born with some traits (like personality basics), so as a baby these are the only filter on the world. What happens as people get older is that a second layer of experience and expectation is added. So, when things happen, they filter down through experiences and learning and pass onto the traits. A response originates at the basic trait level and is refiltered through previous experiences on its way out. It also goes through a barrier that I like to call the reality check. Here, things are reviewed, emotions re-examined, and then put through whatever channels of communication we have with reality. Whether we are screaming, crying, glowering, or jumping with glee it has to have gone through the reality check because we have no way to directly express to other people what we are feeling; there is no telepathy. Instead, we try to make our bodies and our actions speak for us. This can lead to misunderstanding. The reality check has intriguing effects...
No wonder I want to be a psych major, too.
...
I'm feeling fat. I should stop counting my stretch marks...they'll do what they do.
Deep in my head I realize that not being hyper is a let down.
Mostly I just think the world is crumbling between my fingers.
That, however, is the depression...
I was reading my psych book today. It was the chapter all about personality. I've decided that all of the different schools of thought have got it wrong. I came up with my own theory that's somewhere between trait and behviorist psychology. Essentially, people are born with some traits (like personality basics), so as a baby these are the only filter on the world. What happens as people get older is that a second layer of experience and expectation is added. So, when things happen, they filter down through experiences and learning and pass onto the traits. A response originates at the basic trait level and is refiltered through previous experiences on its way out. It also goes through a barrier that I like to call the reality check. Here, things are reviewed, emotions re-examined, and then put through whatever channels of communication we have with reality. Whether we are screaming, crying, glowering, or jumping with glee it has to have gone through the reality check because we have no way to directly express to other people what we are feeling; there is no telepathy. Instead, we try to make our bodies and our actions speak for us. This can lead to misunderstanding. The reality check has intriguing effects...
No wonder I want to be a psych major, too.
...
I'm feeling fat. I should stop counting my stretch marks...they'll do what they do.