Living Love

So I've found this thing online that taught me about Living Love, and told me essentially what R-Man was saying, that pain is necessary but suffering isn't. It was a philosophy that basically said that you're doing a lot of damage to yourself by beating yourself up when you don't get what you want, what you're addicted to. So I've developed this theory of disassociation when it comes to my family's dragons. I'm separating myself. It's actually quite nice to be able to say it's not my problem because it's only bothering me due to proximity. This is also leading to a general separation of me from my parents, but that was already happening and is quite helpful to my sanity, so I'm not objecting very much. Basically I'm learning to tell myself to stop reacting to things that aren't actually directed at me in an attempt to hurt me. Later I suspect I'll even be able to get over things that were supposed to pain me emotionally; practice makes perfect, after all. It's all good for me, because I'm learning to cope with life and all the crap it throws at me. When I can handle this I'll be better prepared to deal with the coming complications. P-Lady says it makes you stronger. She couldn't talk it away, but I can work through it and learn things and be tougher in the next round life is going to put me through. I sure hope so, because this time was way to hard for the present/past me.

I'm going to take the AP Tests. Am I insane? I can't even get distributive credits for them. But, whatever, it'll be satisfying when I finish them.

I wish school would just disappear for like a week. Wait, Spring Break... excellent! Must see if I can visit my brother again. Oh, I get to go there tomorrow, for most of the weekend; and I even get to go play in a giant beading/jewelry store. My brother and sister-in-law love me! TRINKETS! YAY!

I have one more thing to say: “‘I agree that ghosts only come to sick people; but that only proves that ghosts cannot appear to anyone but sick people, not that they themselves do not exist.’” --C+P

Goodnight, cold, moonlit night!