Angst
I have it.
My current war with myself is mostly centered on school. Things like actually attending or spending any time studying are a little more difficult than what I would term "usual". My Japanese class is easy to attend; the people are nice, and the experience is both fun and memorable. My other class I have trouble doing anything for. I'm not sure what all is twisted up in my perceptions about it, but it's not good, and I guarantee that what I experience and what actually happens are considerably out-of-joint.
I need to stop trying to do homework the-day-of and start actually completing assignments (and thinking about them) in a manner that makes them fit to turn in. I've requested a meeting with my thinky-dinky prof, and she said Thurs evening should work and that she would really like me to email some of my work on account of they only have one journal entry from me. My initial response to this was: Oh, shit, if I want to turn in any of my work I need to sanitize it first. And what they mean by work is just journal entries and notes on readings, which seems bloody wasteful of their time and mine, but they control the credits so I need to bend my neck.
Bend, neck, bend.
My current war with myself is mostly centered on school. Things like actually attending or spending any time studying are a little more difficult than what I would term "usual". My Japanese class is easy to attend; the people are nice, and the experience is both fun and memorable. My other class I have trouble doing anything for. I'm not sure what all is twisted up in my perceptions about it, but it's not good, and I guarantee that what I experience and what actually happens are considerably out-of-joint.
I need to stop trying to do homework the-day-of and start actually completing assignments (and thinking about them) in a manner that makes them fit to turn in. I've requested a meeting with my thinky-dinky prof, and she said Thurs evening should work and that she would really like me to email some of my work on account of they only have one journal entry from me. My initial response to this was: Oh, shit, if I want to turn in any of my work I need to sanitize it first. And what they mean by work is just journal entries and notes on readings, which seems bloody wasteful of their time and mine, but they control the credits so I need to bend my neck.
Bend, neck, bend.