My father is a drunk and I am emotionally erratic and dependent.

If I had a years' supply of adderall and a bigger reason I think I might be able to finish college.

I'm moving back home because I can't even pretend that I'm functional.

I have an eval tomorrow where I'm going to look Ian in the eye and say nothing much more than that I'm sorry.

If I don't find some medication soon I likely won't recover from this particular knee-smashing collapse.