See Helen

See Helen skip class.
Skip, Helen, skip.

And it's not that I have anything against the classes I'm taking, but more that I can't stand the idea of going anywhere near an obligation today. I've been in bed all morning, I listened to my roommate making breakfast for her and her sister and I found myself too drained to care about getting up and introducing myself. I listened to them leaving and all I thought was--useful that they locked the door, now if I fall back asleep it won't make any difference.

I'm tired. I feel all groggy, like I took a chill pill, but I didn't, which is confusing to me. It's because I've stayed in bed all morning, because I haven't gotten up and taken my pill yet, and because I don't want to go to class. I'm almost trying to convince myself I'm sick so I can justify this absurdity.

But when Matthew finishes in lab we're going to play video games, so I now have a reason to get up. He doesn't understand why I'm skipping class, and I can't explain it to him, so he just shrugged it off and said he should be finished by two.

I have a video game friend. He's also a science nerd friend. I wish I could make him an emotional friend, but I've found that takes more time than I (or we) currently have available to us.

At least I'm not in my car driving to the coast. That was the other thing I wanted to do. Perfectly crazy, but I still want it.