Honestly

So I have a strained relationship with my brother that runs somewhere along the lines of "you're a person I have to know, and we just get along better when there's a mediator in the room (that mediator specifically not being your wife, because my relationship with her is even more strained)". And I hate that we're like this, because we used to get along much better. There was then that space of time where you were a college boy and our parents basically made it so I couldn't go near you. Towards the end of that we got really close again, and we really did love each other, or so I thought. Now, I have no idea what's going on, because it feels like your wife has made it so you don't need to be loved by other people, made it so you believe yourself whole (and maybe you are) without any further human interaction. And let's face it, further human interaction has a cost in time, energy, and effort that I know (really know) isn't worth it sometimes.

But I want you to know that I miss you, and that while I don't know how to fix this, while I don't know if it even is something that needs fixing, I love you, biggest brother.