I was wondering what would be the most effective way to run away from home, so I spent time looking for plane tickets to Dublin. It's surprisingly cheap. In fact, I looked at flying out from chicago because I could go right from seeing granpa to leaving the country, but it's cheaper to get on the plane in seattle, ride it to chicago, and then leave the country. No joke. The other thing I'm contemplating is getting in my car and driving until I don't want to drive anymore. I think I want to go "home" to the east coast, but it won't be home when I finally get there and realize my life is still just as icky.

The last thing I followed through on was dartmouth. I think they broke me. I have dreams about killing the dean of first years. I hate them so much, but I still still still want it back... you fucked up my life, bastards, and I hope you die terribly and alone. And I hope that when I'm done doing whatever it is I'll do you will suffer from some multitude of bad press and monetary discomfort. Die. It's only fair.