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GIF Archive.

2020-05-23T22:30:01Z

A collection of the best GIF's ever, in Cate's humble oppinion.

wearestarrdust @ 2017-01-11T03:52:00

2017-01-10T17:22:06Z

2017 Big List of Everything
All credit for this list goes to xfirefly9x

Books and the like (Goodreads)

Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children (pg. 80)

Television Shows (Trakt.tv | TV)

13 Reasons Why: 1x01
100, The: 1x01, 1x02
A Series of Unfortunate Events: 1x01, 1x02, 1x03, 1x04, 1x05, 1x06, 1x07, 1x08
Arrow: 1x01, 1x02, 1x03
Better Call Saul: 3x01, 3x02, 3x03, 3x04, 3x05, 3x06
Canada's Worst Driver: 8x01, 8x02, 8x03, 4x04, 8x05, 8x06, 8x07, 8x08, 9x01, 9x02, 9x03, 9x04, 9x05, 9x06, 9x07, 9x08
Coupling (UK): 1x01, 1x02, 1x03, 1x04
Crazyhead: 1x01, 1x02, 1x03, 1x04, 1x05, 1x06
Grimm: 1x01, 1x02, 1x03, 1x04, 1x05, 1x06, 1x07, 1x08, 1x09, 1x10, 1x11, 1x12, 1x13, 1x14, 1x15, 1x16, 1x17, 1x18, 1x19, 1x20, 1x21, 1x22, 2x01, 2x02, 2x03, 2x04, 2x05, 2x06, 2x07, 2x08, 2x09, 2x10, 2x11, 2x12, 2x13, 2x14, 2x15, 2x16, 2x17, 2x18, 2x19, 2x20, 2x21, 2x22, 3x01, 3x02, 3x03, 3x04, 3x05, 3x06, 3x07, 3x08, 3x09, 3x10, 3x11, 3x12, 3x13, 3x14, 3x15, 3x16, 3x17, 3x18, 3x19, 3x20, 3x21, 3x22
Him & Her: 1x01, 1x02, 1x03, 1x04, 1x05, 1x06, 2x01, 2x02, 2x03, 2x04, 2x05, 2x06, 2x07, 3x01, 3x02, 3x03, 3x04, 3x05, 3x06, 3x07, 4x01, 4x02, 4x03, 4x04, 4x05
iZombie: 1x09, 1x10, 1x11, 1x12, 1x13, 2x01, 2x02, 2x03, 2x04, 2x05, 2x06, 2x07, 2x08, 2x09, 2x10, 2x11, 2x12, 2x13, 2x14, 2x15, 2x16, 2x17, 2x18, 2x19, 3x01, 3x02, 3x03, 3x04, 3x05, 3x06
My Family: 1x01
Mr. Robot: 1x01
Preacher: 1x01
Pure: 1x01
Santa Clarita Diet: 1x01, 1x02, 1x03, 1x04, 1x05, 1x06, 1x07, 1x08, 1x09, 1x10
Schitt's Creek: 1x01, 1x02, 1x03, 1x04, 1x05, 1x06, 1x07, 1x08, 1x09, 1x10, 1x11, 1x12, 1x13, 2x01, 2x02, 2x03, 2x04, 2x05, 2x06, 2x07, 2x08, 2x09, 2x10, 2x11, 2x12, 2x13, 3x01, 3x02, 3x03, 3x04, 3x05, 3x06, 3x07, 3x08, 3x09, 3x10, 3x11, 3x12, 3x13
Sherlock: 4x01, 4x02, 4x03
Simpsons, The: 28x01, 28x02, 28x03, 28x04, 28x05, 28x06, 28x07, 28x08, 28x09, 28x10, 28x11
Very British Problems: 1x01, 1x02, 1x03
White Rabbit Project, The: 1x01, 1x02, 1x03, 1x04, 1x05, 1x06, 1x07, 1x09, 1x10
Wolf Creek: 1x01, 1x02

Movies (Trakt.tv | Movies)

Dark Summer (2015, USA) [7]
Death at a Funeral (2007, UK) [9]
Evil Dead (2013, USA) [7.5]
Final Girl 2015, USA) [8]
Haunter (2013, USA) [5]
Intruders (2015, USA) [7.5]
Nightmare on Elm Street, A (2010, USA) [7]
Severance (2006, UK) [8]

Video Games (Steam, Origin, PS4, XBOX 360 etc)

Beholder 1 Hour 18 Minutes
Cooking Academy 2 hours
Dishonoured 20 Minutes
Elder Scrolls Online, The 175 Hours
Epic Battle Fantasy 4 24 Minutes
Evoland 1 Hour 48 Minutes
Forest, The 1 Hour 6 Minutes
Fifa 17 TBA
Massive Chalice 1 Hour 48 Minutes
Mini Metro 1 Hour 54 Minutes
Orwell: 42 Minutes
Project Highrise 28 Hours and 55 Minutes
Resident Evil 7: 4 Hours
Shadow Tactics 40 Minutes

Favourite Music of 2017 (iTunes, YouTube)

Against the Current
Avril Lavigne
AWOLNATION
Blackbriar
Celldweller
Dance with the Dead
Enigma
Globus
Linkin Park - Heavy
The Chainsmokers
Arch Enemy
Oceans - Paradise

wearestarrdust @ 2014-05-27T14:48:00

2014-10-25T05:12:41Z

Sanctuary Fanfiction Index (2)

General Sanctuary Fiction
Coming Soon.

Helen/Nikola (1)
>> I've Got You Under My Skin (PG. 367)
Set during the last scene of 4x09 "Chimera" (No spoilers)

Will/Kate
Coming Soon.

Helen/Declan
Coming Soon.

Will/Clara
Coming Soon.

Henry/Erika
Coming Soon.

Other Pairings
Coming Soon.

wearestarrdust @ 2014-10-25T15:10:00

2014-10-25T05:10:43Z

Title: I've got you under my skin
Fandom: Sanctuary
Characters: Helen/Nikola
Rating: PG
Word Count: 367
Summary: Set during the last scene of 4x09 "Chimera" (No spoilers)

She turned to face him. It was hot. He was staring at her and it almost made her uncomfortable. The brave Helen Magnus - brought down by a mere look. Her lips parted and her breath was shallow. Time seemed to have stopped, or at least slowed down more than one would imagine was humanly possible. Her tongue darted out across her teeth and along the bottom of her top lip. She bit her lip. He continued to stare and she felt a heat that had nothing to do with the temperature.

Her chest rose and fell as she took several shallow breaths, and he heard. “Why, Helen. I do seem to have an effect on you tonight.” He moved, ever so slightly towards her. His hand hovered beside her thigh, but did not touch it, and she thought she might cry out at any moment, urging him to do what he wished. His sense of restraint tore at her own, and it began to break. She shifted forward, ever so slightly, but the leather on the couch gave her away. Nikola tilted his head, “more wine?” A roguish grin crossed his face, but he held himself in check, much better than she seemed to be able to at this moment. “Please,” her mouth was dry and she bit on her lip once more to keep from making any noise. “Nikola,” his name spilled from her lips like honey and she caught her breath once more.

His eyes narrowed ever so slightly, and she couldn’t bear to look away. He passed her the wine and she held it tightly, her fingers tense on the fragile glass. “Don’t break that now Helen,” he was playing with her. She didn’t know what to say to him, and the tension was becoming unbearable. She needed to regain control. She looked away although it took a few moments to do so. She closed her eyes and took a breath. Raising the glass to her lips, her grip now more relaxed, she took a sip and placed the wine back onto the table. She looked back at him, a smile now on her face. “Oh, I won’t Nikola, I won’t.”

wearestarrdust @ 2014-10-25T15:04:00

2014-10-25T05:04:20Z

Title: Maybe there's hope
Fandom: The X Files
Characters: Scully, Mulder
Rating: PG
Word Count: 310
Summary: AU. Scully searches for Mulder. Centre's on the vital concept of hope.

Maybe there’s hope. It was all she could utter, the smallest of phrases, yet, with the largest of repercussions. A small hint in the darkness, a tiny flicker of light to wash away the fears and the frets: hope was such a concept, such a vital emotion that one could not survive without it. It was written on the walls and in the hearts of the men and women who fought and died on that day; and all the days to come. Wars waged not with swords or armour but with guns and ammo; with knowledge and information.

The sign lit up through the darkness and the musty street before her ushered her closer to her goal. He was there, and that was her hope. Bombed out buildings and signs of life once lived but now extinguished followed her and she walked with purpose as if trying to outrun them; to outrun everything they stood for. Such cataclysmic loss of life could not be ignored for long. The street was dark, and the fog was thick; but in the darkness that one sign lit up like that small beacon of hope she knew was inside her, and that must be inside him, too.

Her shoes clicked and clacked along the upturned sidewalk as she passed countless homes, lost to the war, the war of information. When she arrived at the door she found herself conflicted, and the small glimmer of hope she held onto so dearly wavered inside her; threatening to extinguish. A hand reached up to hold the cross that sat at her neck and a sigh could be heard from her lips. She raised a hand and knocked, hard and with purpose as the flame of hope grew once more. It was hope that drove her forward, and it was hope that would find him, dead or alive.

wearestarrdust @ 2014-05-17T14:46:00

2014-10-25T04:47:21Z

The Hunger Games Fanfiction Index (2)

General The Hunger Games Fiction (1)
>> It's never over (M. 415)
Written for Undefined, Prompt LEAH - Surrounded. Haymitch POV after winning the games.

Katniss/Peeta (1)
>> Touch (G. 417)
Written for Undefined, Prompt LEAH - Dreamland. Katniss fades into the black.

Gale/Joanna
Coming Soon.

Haymitch/Effie
Coming Soon.

Finnik/Annie
Coming Soon.

Other Pairings
Coming Soon.

wearestarrdust @ 2014-10-24T21:15:00

2014-10-24T11:15:46Z

Title: It's not over
Fandom: The Hunger Games
Characters: Haymitch
Prompt: LEAH - Surrounded
Rating: M
Word Count: 415
Written for: Undefined

Dead. They were all dead. Everyone that ever mattered to him was gone, cold and frozen like the mass grave their bodies were thrown in by the Capitol. Hadn't he just done what he was supposed to do? Survive. That was the point wasn't it? To win? If you could even call it winning. Killing others to increase his lifespan by a few hours, or even minutes. Going into the arena he had no great adamancy that he would ever be coming out again; accept of course by hovercraft.

When he'd killed that last tribute he thought it was over. He would go home - to his girlfriend, to his family - and he would attempt the long road back to normal, and he would forget all about the horrors of the arena. But how could he when President Snow had other ideas; ideas that involved the planned torture and slaughter of his whole family? The house was eerily quiet and he felt himself being driven to distraction by their absence.

He was being punished, because even as a victor - even after playing their game and surviving - they had to prove he was still under their control. They had to prove that they could still hurt him. Even after his family was gone, ever after everyone who'd ever been important had been snatched away from him without warning, they could still hurt him.

Now that he was a victor, he'd have to mentor the kids reaped from District 12 in the future. He was the only surviving District 12 victor, so unless there was another - and let's face it they were rare in the first place - this would be his job for the rest of his life. The tributes might be older than him or worse, younger. His age did nothing to shield him from the horrors or the arena, and it would do nothing to shield him from the horrors or watching someone you've come to care about - even just a little - slaughtered again and again and again.

He had to get out of here, he had to separate himself from the hurt. To suffocate the pain that threatened to overwhelm him at any moment. A tear rolled down his cheek and fell to the floor; the splash it made on the tiles seemed monumental. He picked up the bottle and walked out, leaving everything he'd ever loved behind. It wasn't over; it would never be over.

wearestarrdust @ 2014-10-24T10:27:00

2014-10-24T00:27:44Z

Title: A touch
Fandom: The Hunger Games
Characters: Katniss/Peeta
Prompt: LEAH - Dreamland
Rating: G
Word Count: 417
Written for: Undefined

A touch. Just one, and then it's over. I scramble to find the words; scramble to tell him how I feel. How I've always felt. He's staring at me, staring into my soul somehow, like no one else really can, like no one else ever has. Images flash before my eyes; the terror seems to leech my energy and I fall.

When I wake up, he's gone. I panic, searching for him in the darkness of my mind, in the darkness of the room beyond, but he's gone. The terror returns and I black out again. This time when I come too, I stand up; he's still not here. I call for him through the darkness, but I'm met with nothing but stillness.

Pausing to find myself, I move beyond the room and into the passageway. It's dark just like the bedroom was. Holding onto the wall for support, I shuffle forward, each step harder than the last.

A pinprick section of light shoots into my eyes and I close them. The time without light causes it to blind me for a moment. I open them slowly, adjusting to the light as quickly as I can. I follow it. The floor seems to sift beneath my feet and I scramble to stay upright, but it's not enough. I smack my head on the wall, and feel the blood trickling down my face. I black out, again.

When I wake something is different, it's warmer, and I can make out the shapes that hold together the room I'm in. As more and more of the room comes into focus I see a face. He's here; his blue eyes are piercing, I hope they never change. I try to speak, but nothing comes out, my throat - I realise - is dry as a bone. I cough, looking around for water, and he reaches out to give me a glass.

"You're okay," he says with a smile, but behind his eyes and words I sense a shifting fear. I furrow my brows, wondering why he's concerned, why I'm here at all. "What happened?" Then I look down, he's not alone. A little tuft of dark brown hair sticks out from a blanket in his arms. I gasp as memories flood back into my mind so fast I have to control my breathing. The baby. "Is she okay?" I ask, desperate. "She's perfect." He says, and slips the child into my arms. I sigh; content, wishing my nightmares behind me.

wearestarrdust @ 2014-04-17T13:26:00

2014-04-17T03:26:28Z

Emily Van Camp for luck20in20

Ps. I know the code is broke, it makes me sad
but I'm feeling way to lazy right now to fix it.

co-star #01

famous #02

sitting #03

hug #04

cover #05

poster #06

one word #07

in black #08

eyes #09

sin (lust) #10

Cat #01

Cat #02

Cat #03

Cat #04

Cat #05

AC #01

AC #02

AC #03

AC #04

AC #05

ALT #01

ALT #02

wearestarrdust @ 2014-04-17T06:24:00

2014-04-16T20:24:58Z

So, I've been away a few days or a week or so. I had massive migraines and back pain the last week or so and had other things on my mind. My friends and I are working on a roleplay site to replace the one we lost, and we've been making good headway. I was also sleeping pretty ridiculously, but I'm up in the am today so maybe it will even out again now. Elder Scrolls Online also came out so I've been spending some time playing that of course. So, how is everyone going? I've been pretty productive the last few days got some housework done (still mountains to go as usual, but a dent is better than nothing) and yeah, so. Also, my washing machine is still putting holes in my clothes, I must work out why this is; I mean it's odd, because I'm sure it's the washing machine but at the same time it only seems to be my clothes. I do rather desperately need more clothes but it's hard to find clothes that fit me because I'm all weird shapes and stuff. It's a pain. I do have a gift voucher from my dad for my birthday so I might go and see if I can get some clothes with that (even though buying a new board game sounds infinitely more fun!)

wearestarrdust @ 2014-04-06T12:30:00

2014-04-06T02:30:50Z

Hi guys. I've not said much in a few days I don't think, I've been having some killer migraines actually which really suck.

I wanted to show you this video. It's hilarious, but most importantly it's by my brother-in-law. My brother-in-law is becoming pretty big on the you tube scene - he's a 2D animator and I just wanted to show you guys some of his work. If you like it, go to his you tube channel and subscribe he would love the support. He is a really great guy and very good at what he does. This video is one of his more simple cartoons but I think it's easily one of his most amusing. So without further adieu;

aliens_on_toast

wearestarrdust @ 2014-04-03T12:30:00

2014-04-03T02:30:27Z

Okay, another meme because yeah.

1. Have flisters pick any five icons (properly crediting them of course,) from my icons.
2. For each icon, you are to write a short drabble (short being key.)
3. Tag five people

Yeah, I wont tag anyone, but if you like it, do it.

So, yeah - pick five icons from my icons and I will write a short drabble (less than a few hundred words) using the icon as a prompt. Yay, have fun everyone.

More than one person can do this, I'm totally up for it.

wearestarrdust @ 2012-03-31T14:44:00

2014-03-31T04:45:00Z

Title: Memories.
Fandom: Eureka
Characters: Joe, Zane.
Prompt: #020. Cry.
Rating: PG
Warnings: None, really. Spoilers for season four because it's part of a series which has spoilers.
Word Count: 416
Written for20_FICS

It was like lead in her pocket.
It was weighing her down, in more way's than one.
What was the strange object she had received in the mail?
Henry would hopefully be able to give her some sort of idea about it.
That's where she was headed.
It wasn't long before she drove around the corner to the the familiar garage.
She went inside as soon as she pulled up.
She didn't want to waste any time.

“Henry,” she called inside.
“Henry, are you here?” As she stepped into the garage she hoped like hell he was in.
“Jo?” The voice was unmistakable.
“Henry!” Jo called, relieved.
Henry emerged a moment later, dirty as ever and Jo couldn't help but smile.
“Hi Jo, what can I do for you?” Ever the gentleman.
Jo wasted no time in explaining to Henry all about the package she had received in the mail.
He listened in silence and when she had finished he spoke, “may I see it?”
She gave it to him and even without it in her possession it seemed to weigh her down.
She couldn't wait to find out what it was.

It was not long before Henry had an answer for Jo.
As she stepped back into the garage the look on Henry's face was serious.
Her heart skipped a beat as she approached him.
“I think you need to see for yourself.” Was all he said.
He motioned to the object and to a small button on the side.
She nodded, and he left her in peace.
She took a deep breath and pushed the button.

Images lept onto an invisible canvas in front of her.
It was her, she was walking down the street, and then...
Zane. He crept up behind her, scaring her.
She turned around and he kissed her passionately.
It showed her all the best parts of her relationship with Zane.
Up until the moment he asked her to marry him.

Jo began to cry as she watched the images move before her.
Who would do this to her? Who would torture her with these images.
The film ended with a picture of her and Zane, smiling and happy.
She wiped the tears from her eyes and placed the object back into her pocket.
Henry had gone by the time she left the garage and she was grateful she did not have to see him.
She drove back to the office in tears.

wearestarrdust @ 2012-03-31T14:43:00

2014-03-31T04:43:15Z

Title: The Edge.
Fandom: Eureka
Characters: Joe, Zane.
Prompt: #005. Edge.
Rating: PG
Warnings: See the rest of this four parter.
Word Count: 522
Written for 20_FICS

It was a long drive back to the office.
She cried the whole way.
Her heart was breaking once more.
It was such a cruel joke.
Sending her a device which replayed all the best part's of her relationship with Zane.
She would never have that again.
Her Zane didn't exist.
She would never marry him.
She would never be with him again.

As she walked back into her office she was still crying.
However, she stopped very quickly when she noticed that there was someone in her office.
She took a few steps forward, and stoped.
It was Zane.
“What are you doing in my office?” She asked, the hurt she felt obvious in her voice.
To be honest, having him around all the time and not being able to be with him was the hardest thing she ever had to do.
He waited a moment before he answered her, “I was wondering if you got my package.”
Her heart skipped quite a few beats, he had sent the package!

“Why would you send me that?” She asked.
She spoke again before he had a chance to answer, “I don't understand.”
He motioned for her to take a seat.
“Well, Jo. It started when you gave me my grandmother's ring. I was thinking to myself, how on earth did she end up with this? So, I dig a little digging. Turns out in the not so distant past you and a few other's took a trip to the past, and on the way back ended up a little lost. Don't ask how I found this out you don't want to know. The point is, on finding this out I was curious.
I invented a device, not unlike the one I sent to you. Actually, I take that back. The credit goes to Grace. Do you remember the device she created to share memories with Henry? Well, I altered it. I created a device to remove your memories without your knowledge. So I could see the, study them, and you wouldn't know. Of course, you can image my surprise to find your memories about me. In your alternate universe we were together. We were so close that I was going to marry you. I gave you my grandmother's ring. Of course, you never did accept, but no matter...” he trailed off.
This gave Jo a chance to assess the situation. Of course she had no idea what on earth was going on.
The whole thing was shooting through her mind at a mile a minute and she didn't even know what she should be yelling at him for first.

However, he spoke again. “Jo, I felt something watching those images. I felt a connection between us. One that has existed, and I feel should exist again.” He walked towards her, and Jo felt her heart rate rise. He stood in front of her, almost touching her. The whole thing was like a dream and Jo barely had anytime to respond before he was kissing her. She was standing on the edge, but would he catch her?

wearestarrdust @ 2012-03-31T14:32:00

2014-03-31T04:32:25Z

Title: Walk Away.
Fandom: Eureka
Characters: Allison, Jack.
Prompt: #010. Away
Rating: M
Warnings: None.
Word Count: 191
Written for 20_FICS

Walk away.
Just walk away.
He should have just walked away.
Even now he didn't know why he did it.
A year later and he still mused on it.
Still didn't know why.
Perhaps it was meant to be this way.
Or was that just an excuse.
How had it even happened?
Unfortunately he remembered everything.
Every detail.
He could still remember the look on her face.
The pain she felt was evident.
He tried to validate his actions.
She had deserved it.
Really she had.
If she had done done what she did, or said what she said.
It was her fault.
But really, if he was honest with himself, she had done nothing.
He was in the wrong, not her.
He lost her because of his own stupid actions.
He lost everything.
Her, his daughter, his son.
His whole family.
It was his fault and he deserved his punishment.
It didn't make it any easier, however.
It didn't make the night's any warmer.
And it didn't make him any less lonely.
And as he laid back down on his jail cell mattress
he knew she had gone away forever.

wearestarrdust @ 2012-03-31T14:11:00

2014-03-31T04:12:32Z

Title: The Package.
Fandom: Eureka
Characters: Joe, Zane.
Prompt: #002. Mystery.
Rating: G
Warnings: Spoilers for season four.
Word Count: 143
Written for 20_FICS

It was still there.
It glared at her as she walked into her office the next morning.
She glared back at it.
It wasn't long after she sat down that she conceded to it.
She pulled it towards her,
she felt it through the packaging but it gave her no clues.
She turned it over a few times in her hands, but it gave her nothing.
Slowly, ever so slowly, she opened it.

She looked down at the item in the package,
she blinked.
She blinked again.
What was it?
Perhaps it was a scientific device.
She studied it for the longest time.
As she suspected, it had no name.
No one had signed it.
Whoever it sent it for the moment was a mystery.
She grabbed her coat from behind her, grabbed the object
and left the office in search of Henry.

wearestarrdust @ 2012-03-31T14:05:00

2014-03-31T04:06:51Z

Title: The Secret
Fandom: Eureka
Characters: Joe, Zane.
Prompt: #003. Secret.
Rating: G
Warnings: Spoilers for season four.
Word Count: 290
Written for 20_FICS

The package sat on the desk.
It had been there all morning.
She had been thinking about it all day.
Constantly.
Who was it from?
What was it?
It bothered her, and yet she hadn't opened it yet.
The reason for this was probably because of Zane.
Last week, because of her hallucination Zane
she had said some things to the real Zane which she shouldn't have.
She gave him back his grandmother's ring.
Of course, Zane had no idea why on earth she had it.
It was, well, awkward.
You see, she had a secret.
They all did, the five of them.
They had been to the past.
They had been to future, but it was the wrong one.
In fact, the whole mess with Zane was driving her crazy.
She missed him, she missed her old Zane.
She loved him more than anything.
More than she could possibly discribe.
He was gone, and she knew it.
This new Zane might look like the old Zane,
but he wasn't.
Maybe he could grow to become her new Zane.
He'd have to break it off with Zoe first.
This relationship just didn't make sense to her.
The old Zane would never have gone out with Zoe.
She wished she could talk to him, tell him what happened.
Tell him everything about them.
Who they were, who they had been, who they would be again.
Who she wished they were.
She had told him that day that she was over him, that he could date Zoe all he liked.
What a lie.
She knew it was a lie, she said it in order to make it true.
It didn't work.
She left the office, the package could wait until morning.

wearestarrdust @ 2012-03-31T14:04:00

2014-03-31T04:04:42Z

Title: The Road.
Fandom: Eureka
Characters: Allison Blake, Nathan Stark
Prompt: #015. Light
Rating: PG
Warnings: Massive spoilers for end of season three.
Word Count: 222
Written for 20_FICS

Tonight, I don't fear the end of the road.
Coz I keep going, till we run out of road again.

It had been a week,
only a week since the accident.
The accident that caused the death of her first love.
Her was the father of her son,
the love of her life.
Fate had been cruel,
in so many ways.
Allison didn't understand why he had been taken from her.
Why now?
And on their wedding day.
Nothing could be worse.
It gave her little comfort that it had been an act of self sacrifice on his part.
Damn it, someone else should have died.

Her only comfort, in fact, had been his spirit.
She felt it, felt him.
Every night he had been with her since his death.
Holding her, letting her know it would be okay.
She cried every night.
Every single night.
Without fail.
Perhaps until it happens to you, you can really never understand what it's like to loose your partner.
No words can describe how horrible it is.
The gut-wrenching feeling of wanting to die.
To pull your own heart out to stop the pain.

Yet his presence gave her hope.
She must be strong, she couldn't give up.
Not only for herself, but for her son.
For her town, for her company.
And for her daughter, yet to be born.

For their sake, and her own.
She would keep going,
until she ran out of road again.

wearestarrdust @ 2012-03-31T14:00:00

2014-03-31T04:02:48Z

Title: Forever.
Fandom: Eureka
Characters: Allison Blake, Nathan Stark
Prompt: #014. Forgotten.
Rating: G
Word Count: 424
Written for 20_FICS

I'll keep loving you, forever.
Because I swore I would.

It had been a long day for Allison.
As the head of Global Dynamics she had much to deal with.
Today, however was turning out to be a record.
Or perhaps it was just another day in Eureka.
Fargo of course had been causing problem's down in Section Five.
Sheriff Carter had come in three time's already because of it.
Larry was trying to kiss her ass as usual,
and of course then there was Nathan.
She had noticed that he had not been into work yet this morning.
Honestly, with everything on her plate this morning she hadn't given it much thought.
She was entirely to grateful when the clock conceded to mark the tenth hour.
“I'm going for my morning coffee now.”
She left without another word, because she was sure the next word would be,
“Ms. Blake, we have a situation.”
Not this morning, not now.
Almost the moment she walked out of the great Global Dynamics doors she felt instantly more calm.
Honestly, there had been a few minutes this morning where she could have killed Fargo.
Perhaps this wasn't unusual.
As she walked the streets of Eureka, she took a deep breath and let her mind wander to Nathan for the first time in weeks.
Honestly, she still meant what she had said when they fought.
It wouldn't be right for her to take it back, because it wouldn't solve anything.
She needed him, always.
He needed to spend more time with her, pay more attention to her.
And to their son.
It was what she needed from him.
She couldn't live without him, but she couldn't deal with him right now ether.
Sure, Nathan had kind of apologised, but it had immediately been followed by him trying to excuse his actions.
That's not really an apology.
However, her thoughts came to an end the moment she approached Cafe Diem and saw him standing their, outside, presumably waiting for someone.
She weighed her options and decided to proceed as planned.
It wasn't long before she was beside him on the path.
She looked at him, wondering if it was her that he was waiting for.
“I'm sorry.” He said, and with baited breath she waited to see if he would say anything more.
He didn't.
Allison's heart leapt in her chest. It was like nothing else.
He handed her a rose, and she took it with thanks.
The argument wasn't forgotten, but they had started again and that was the important thing.
They had started again.

wearestarrdust @ 2012-03-31T13:59:00

2014-03-31T03:59:54Z

Title: Without you
Fandom: Eureka
Characters: Allison Blake, Nathan Stark
Prompt: #009. Discover
Rating: G
Warnings: None
Word Count: 270
Written for 20_FICS

I'm sorry I misleaded you, pretty lady.
I'm sorry I mistreated you, pretty lady.
I'm sorry that I hurt you, pretty lady.
Now all I need to know is,
can you take me back?
Because I can't live without you.

It had been months since they last spoke.
It was difficult to work because of it.
He had apologised several times,
but to no avail.
It was eating him, honestly.
He wasn't really an emotional man,
but this was hard.
Even for him.
He couldn't live without her,
and he had just recently discovered this.
In fact, around the same time they had that fight.
As he mused on the fight itself, he realised it had been a stupid fight to begin with.
Why did fight's like these have a way of tearing people apart.
For no God-damn reason whatsoever in most cases.
Of course, the fight had begun over something entirely trivial but had blown up
into a full scale finger pointing exercise.
Allison had accused him of many things,
most of which he denied at the time, but should not have.
Of not being around to raise their son,
of not supporting her, of not being attentive enough.
The same argument they had before they divorced.

In the early hours of the morning
as he lay awake staring at his ceiling he had decided that this morning
he would end this fight. He couldn't live without her, and she needed to know.

So, at a little past ten he stood outside Cafe Diem,
waiting for her to come down to pick up her morning coffee.
It wasn't long before he saw her, and she looked beautiful.
She approached him with caution, and he looked at her
with remorse in his eyes, and said a simple “I'm sorry.”
He handed her a red rose, and waited for her response.

wearestarrdust @ 2012-03-31T13:09:00

2014-03-31T03:09:45Z

Title: February Song
Fandom: Eureka
Characters: Allison Blake/Nathan Stark
Prompt: #017 - Voice.
Rating: PG
Warnings: SPOILERS for season three.
Word Count: 105
Written for 20_fics

Allison was standing at his grave trying to keep the downpour of emotion from overwhelming her completely. It was hard.

Nathan had been dead less than a week, and after receiving the necklace and the hologram he had left her she seemed to feel more emotional that she did before.

Life was difficult for Allison at the moment, her fiance had died on the day of their wedding because he was busy saving the world.

Say what you want about Nathan Stark but Allison knew him for the man he really was, and he loved her.

He always had, and she had always loved him.

wearestarrdust @ 2012-03-31T12:50:00

2014-03-31T02:50:44Z

Title: Brave New World (Continuation of 'The Last of Us')
Fandom: Eureka
Characters: General, but implied Jack.
Prompt: #004 - New World.
Rating: PG-13 for adult themes
Word Count: 138
Written for 20_FICS

It's been weeks since the accident
and we have been able to isolate the cause.
It sickens us now, how simple it would have been to save the lives of hundreds.

It's couldn't have been that simple, and it most definitely could not have been avoided.
Of that we are sure.
Even so; reasons, excuses, and lies fill my head everyday
yet none satisfy my need for redemption.

The new head of Global Dynamics has seen to it that the problem will never happen again,
but it's of little comfort to me now.

The only comfort I find is in the community, in those who still stand.
In our new world, our brave new world. It's been tough but the spirit of the community here in Eureka is strong, as it always has been and always will be.

wearestarrdust @ 2012-03-31T12:39:00

2014-03-31T02:42:06Z

Title: The Last of Us (Continuation of 'One')
Fandom: Eureka
Characters: General, but implied Jack.
Prompt: #001 - Ashes.
Rating: PG-13 for adult themes
Word Count: 134
Written for 10_FICS

Then from the ashes a few did arise,
those we had thought long passed.
We worked into the night,
rebuilding what we once had,
giving it our best and constantly praying that it would be enough.

Those who remained came together,
and no blame was assigned.
It would do no good to point fingers now.

A referendum was held and I was voted 'mayor',
these people still seek my leadership
even though i destroyed their lives and killed their friends and family.

The repairs are coming along now,
and a mass funeral was held in honor of those lost.
Yet, there are still people missing,
and not a day goes by that we don't hope and pray that they are sound safely.
Science has failed us, it cannot bring the dead back to life.

wearestarrdust @ 2012-03-31T12:37:00

2014-03-31T02:37:17Z

Title: One
Fandom: Eureka
Characters: General, but implied Jack.
Prompt: #011 - One.
Rating: PG-13 for adult themes
Word Count: 101
Written for 10_FICS

All it took was one mistake,
to destroy our town.
All it took was one little error,
to kill our friends and family.
All it took was one little number,
one incorrect calculation,
to shatter our hopes and dreams, our futures.
You know what?
It was all our fault
- but there had been nothing we could have done to stop it.

It happened so quickly,
we couldn't have known,
that out one little slip
would take everything away.
It had, and now we are searching for survivors
every night and every day, and maybe, just maybe it will get better.
One day.

wearestarrdust @ 2012-03-31T12:30:00

2014-03-31T02:30:13Z

Title: Broken Promises
Fandom: Eureka.
Characters: Nathan Stark, Allison Blake, Jack Carter.
Prompt: #18 - Promise, Table 3
Rating: PG for adult themes
Warnings: Spoilers for season three, and a bit AU also.
Word Count: 141
Written for 20_FICS

I made him a promise that day, on the day of his death.
I promised him I would take care of you, and I've failed him.
It's not like we ever got along while you both were alive, but in his dead it ended.
Our childish bickering, which now seems so stupid.
I wish we had gotten along better, for you.
Eureka isn't the same without you, and perhaps if things had worked out differently you would still be alive.
Perhaps he would be too, who knows.
Henry said that we shouldn't try to mess with the past, and he seemed very sure.
I'm not sure why.
Today, I stand at your grave which is next to his, and I'm here for one reason only.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry I broke my promise, I pay for it each and every day.