Don't forget to breathe...

182 dagar, 26 veckor, 6 månader.

2011-04-29T21:40:04Z

20110320-IMG_0799n, originally uploaded by Vangel.

Some news.

2010-02-25T00:41:07Z

So yes. Quiet here for over a week again. Why? Well lots has happened. We won the bidding. Andreas signed papers on friday. Met with the bank again on tuesday. Situation right now is that we will get the keys to the flat at the end of march!!!

It went very fast and I don't really think it's sunk in yet. But I'm so so so happy! We got it for a very good price and we'll be able to paint before we have to move from the this flat we're in now! So nice to not have to move and live in the mess of that!

Also, my future sister in law had her twins! So much excitement! They arrived on Andreas birthday, saturday the 20th. They named the boy Hugo and the girl Alma. They were both tiny and Huga had some trouble breathing at the beginning but he seems fine. We've been getting photos and little videos sent to us, but since they are in a nicu ward no one is allowed to visit them. They may get to go home before the weekend already since they seem so healthy and we're keeping our fingers crossed. I want to give Ellinor a hug (she was in labour for over 24 hours and the pregnancy has been hard on her the last 3 months!) and give the little ones a (tiny ;P) squeeze!

Things are happening fast and that's all good! We feel very good about everything. But I ghave a problem. My work-rehab thing is dragging on. I called the place again yesterday and the waiting list is not really moving. The estimated time they gave me at the beginning of autumn (that I would start around the new year) has been pushed up twice now. The woman I spoke to understood my situation when I explained and thought I should call around to the people involved in my case and see what my options are if I want change city.

And speaking to a person at the social insurance office it doesn't seem all that difficult, actually she sounded very positive and seemed pleased that I haven't gotten stuck in my sick leave like I've had a tendency to do before. And she totally understood that this situation is unsustainable for us both economically and personally. So I'm optimistic! I might be able to move in to the new flat sooner then I thought initially!

On the wedding front nothing new right now of course, too much other stuff happening!

(Harriet. Honey. I haven't said anything on /emgee. Just because I don't know what to say. I'm so sorry you have thing hanging over you, and you know we're all keeping everything crossed that all is fine. I love you.)

We're in the bidding.

2010-02-16T20:15:37Z

So quiet for a few days here. Yesterday was the one year anniversary of Andreas mum's death. We went up to his (still very pregnant) sister and had dinner with the whole family. It was rough in parts but also a few laughs.

And a little snag in the plans came up friday when we got another flat-viewing for monday. The family did understand of course, they seem almost as excited as Andreas and me that we're moving closer to them, but to me it still felt a lot like it was encroaching on their day.

Anyway, we went, we liked, we told the agent we'd sleep on it and then we spent much of last night talking about it. How we LOVED the location but that there is a bit to do in the flat (but nothing too big either) and that it was still only our second viewing.

We've decided to put a bid in. We have a mid-stopping point and we'll see how the bidding is progressing how many bidders are still there and so on, and then we'll see if we really want to pay the REAL stopping point we have.

It's a 3 bedroom flat, first floor (but you still have to get up a small stair) very white atm and we need to do some painting and fix some stuff here and there (unmatched doorhandles on the kitchen cabinets for example) but the white is a good canvas for us to do whatever we want with it but not having to do a lot of groundwork. So here's a couple of photos: (I've decided to imageshak them instead of linking to the ad it self.)

1, Livingroom, very white and boring as is, but good blank canvas. At the top left corner you see a door, that leads to the kitchen, but the photo is taken from another door leading to the hallway.
2, Livingroom taken from the kitchen doorway. You see the third doorway in the room, that leads to one of the bedrooms (the blue one) and a small second toilet.
3, Kitchen, also very white but I sort of love the white here! I can SO see Andreas father's paintings on the walls, one on each side! Doors leads to livingroom to the right, and a bedroom on the right (the white one with wooden floors).
4, Kitchen seen from the opposite angle from before. Some stuff to do here. You see the door leading out to the hallway that has white clinker floor tiles (I love that, so easy to clean!), the hallways is also white with white closets.
5, Bathroom, the big one. Remodelled -08, heated floors!
6, Bathroom from the other angle. Also there is water and electricity already done if we want to put in a washer!
7, The smallest bedroom leading from the kitchen. Clean and white.
8, Bedroom leading from the hallway, behind the wall with all the shelfs in livingroom. Don't particularly like the floor, but it looks better in person than in the photo at least. Lots of closets on the wall you can't see here.
9, Bedroom, the one you see a little of from the livingroom photo. Very blue. Needs fixing.
10, Balcony with evening sun!

Here's an extra, the floor plan, but it's not 100% correct.

Atm we have the winning bid, but the agent is calling us back tomorrow, we'll see :)

Update on the flat viewing.

2010-02-12T15:28:16Z

Yes. Update on the flat viewing. Not so impressed at all actually. As Haz commented on the photos from the ad it looked very light, airy and spacious but when we got there it felt tiny! The estate agent most have broke out the largest wide-angle lens she could find when she took those! Also the view sucked! In that last row of photos the one taken sort of off to the left side outside, there was a reason she took it looking out that way. If you turned and look straight a head all you could see was this big 7 floor building that looked really rough and dingy that was on the left hand side. Nope not impressed.

Also on the minus side it was a bit of a walk from the bus stop and as it is atm none of us have a license so buses and close by stops are sort of important. Andreas does plan on getting a license soon but yeah, we need to think about now not just later.

So today the agent called and asked if we were interested and Andreas said like it was and she told us that at least 2 or 3 new flats are coming up in the next few weeks that sounds more like what she thought was our thing. So looking forward to those.

We do already have another viewing on monday for this flat. It's a 3 bedroom which would be sort of a good thing if we want to have more than one kid and don't want to move again soon. But the bidding has already begun for that one and we know that many people that have 2 bedroom flats in that area are looking to buy bigger. But we've got nothing to lose by looking at it.

If the url's I link to disappears it's because the ads for the flats are taken down when they've been up for a while.

UPDATE: just took a look on the site of the flat we saw yesterday again and the atm the biding is up to 900 000 sek (about £75 500, up more than £16 000 over the asking price)! All I can think is WHAT!?? But yeah, someone at the viewing yesterday must have liked it! That mush in just one day of biding?

Excited for tomorrow!

2010-02-11T00:33:41Z

Quick post before bed. Andreas and I are going on our first flat-viewing tomorrow (today really, its 1.30am here now)! This (scroll down for photos) is the flat we're looking at! What do you guys think?

Explanation.

2010-02-09T00:35:00Z

Posting this as an explanation to why I came back to LJ. Don't know who still has me on their f-list (Well Haz of course, thank you for your comment :) ) if you're still here do leave me a comment, I'd love to know who'd read my updates! I posted the following as my user info:

So two years later I'm sort of back on LJ. I'm Writing this on Feb 8, 2010. Since I was active here so much has happened in my life. I moved, but that is less important since I'm about to move again in the next few months. I started working, and then got sick again, lost the job because of that (my then boss... yeah whole other story I wont go into here). I met a boy. And here comes the reason why I'm moving again soon and why I've decided to revive my LJ.

We got engaged! And we're buying a house or a flat, what ever we find that we like! Since these are quite big things happening I need somewhere to vent about it all. Wedding planning and house hunting/buying does do your head in sometimes but mostly it's just exciting!

As of right now we need to find a house or flat by end of May when I fiancées lease is out on his flat. I still have mine and technically we could live there but it would mean an almost 2 hour commute to work for him every morning. Also we want to live in Göteborg and not my city, and we would like to have something bigger than a one bedroom.

So here we go! :)

Yep a lot has happened. All I want to add to that is that I'm so so so happy with how my life is shaping out. I've started looking at going back to school to get my grades fixed as well, but that's later when we're all moved and I'm done with a work-related rehab thingy that I'm in queue for.

Cool Water/Blue Moon.

2010-02-07T12:49:49Z

Cool Water/Blue Moon., originally uploaded by Vangel.

Looong time since I used LJ. Well, I'm not sure I want to use my swedish blog for my wedding planning stuff so I was thinking of starting a new blog for that. But why when I have this one?

So these are purple or lilac roses. Cool Water och Blue Moon, the girl in the store selling them weren't totally sure(?!). These and white peyonies or lily of the valleys are what I've been thinking for my flowers. But not any big bouquet or anything, somewhere between this:
http://floret.ca/blog/wp-content/uploads/2009/06/pink_peony_wedding_bouquet.jpg
and this:
http://www.weddingflowersforyou.net/silk_rose_bouquets/Rose_Wedding_Bouquet1x-600.jpg

Let me know what you think?

Right from the beginning I've said I'd like our color to be purple or lilac. Or a mix. Andreas is all for that so yay!

(Posted via Flickr)

Long time no post.

2007-05-12T23:48:15Z

Post an ANONYMOUS comment with the following:

1. One secret.
2. One compliment.
3. One non-compliment.
4. Lyrics to a song.
5. How long we've been friends.
6. One wish you have.

And I think you know who I mean.

2006-09-10T11:06:13Z

If there is one or more people on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

<3

Puppylove.

2006-04-12T18:39:56Z

vonca @ 2006-02-20T00:31:00

2006-02-19T23:32:02Z

I know the site is in swedish but I just have to post about Nathalie, I've loved her voice since Swedish Idol 2004, and now she's released her second single and the album comes out in march. Go check the site out please! Her version of 'A song for mama' is beautiful!

vonca @ 2005-12-24T11:27:00

2005-12-24T10:26:44Z

Merry Christmas everyone!

I'm just off to my mum's to be with my family, eat and watch the Disney christmasthingy on tv (tradition here in sweden almost everyone does that on christmas eve).

Well everyone's doing it.

2005-12-16T17:06:01Z

The Great Lyric Quiz
1.) On your current playlist, hit shuffle and pick the first 2o songs on the list that you randomly chose.
2.) Write down one (or two [or] four) lines of the song. Try to avoid putting the song title in the line.
3.) Have your friends comment and see if they know the songs. (NO CHEATING!)
4.) When someone guesses correctly, strike out the line and list the correct name of the song next to it.

1 You taught me everything
And everything you've given me
I always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life.
A Song for Mama - Boyz II Men rhiannon_666

2 Take my hand and walk with me
let me show you what I'm feeling
What's going on inside of me.

3 There's no time for us
There's no place for us
What is this thing that builds our dreams yet slips away
from us.
Who wants to live forever - Queen blanche_

4 ~~But I’ll never forget the way you feel right now, oh no, no way~~
I Would Do Anything For Love (But I Won't Do That) - Meat Loaf rhiannon_666

5 Jag brukar alltid va mig själv
trots att det brinner.
Men när du säger jag har fel
i det jag minner.

6 It was a dusty old night and I`m the first to admit it
I`m sure I upset someone but my memory has chosen to omit it.
One Way Ticket - The Darkness rhiannon_666

7 Who are you now
Are you still the same
or did change somehow

8 I hang on my computer
Obsessed with late night mails
I press return to sender
And sweep the holy grail

9 I swapped my innocence for pride
Crushed the end within my stride
Said I'm strong now I know that I'm a leaver

10 I'm only lonely when the music is over

11 Did I dissapoint you
or let you down.
Goodbye my lover - James Blunt justhaz

12 For all your life you'd care about
people you don't really care about.

13 I woke today in London,
as the plane was touching down.
All I could think about was monday.
Landing in London - 3 Doors Down ccg1785

14 My mistakes will make me strong
I'm standing out into the great unknown.

15 You'll remember me when the west wind moves
among the fields of barley.
Fields of gold - Sting or Eva Cassidy blanche_

16 And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now.
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls blanche_

17 On a cobweb afternoon
In a room full of emptiness
Like A Stone - Audioslave rhiannon_666

18 Please come now
I think I'm falling
Holding on to all I think is safe
One last breath - Creed ccg1785

19 Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell on Joeys head.
Photograph - Nickelback rhiannon_666

20 I'm busy throwing hints that he keeps missing
Don't have to think about it
Push The button - Sugababes rhiannon_666

Breast cancer.

2005-11-03T11:48:59Z

Post this on your LJ

It only takes a minute....Actually, not EVEN a minute! The Breast Cancer site is having trouble getting enough people to click on their site daily to meet their quota of donating at least one free mammogram a day to an underprivileged woman.

It takes less than a minute to go to their site and click on "donating a mammogram" for free (pink window in the middle).

This doesn't cost you a thing. Their corporate sponsors/advertisers use the number of daily visits to donate mammogram in exchange for advertising.

Here's the web site! Pass it along to people you know.

http://www.thebreastcancersite.com

;)

2005-09-23T17:56:12Z

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Haha...

vonca @ 2005-08-13T08:56:00

2005-08-13T06:54:04Z

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I
wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong.

No words left.

2005-07-22T19:35:58Z

Daniel.

2005-07-21T13:39:09Z

I guess I shouldn't post about him just yet, but I just can't not So tomorrow, first real date. And I'm nervous as hell! We have been e-mailing now for a while and there is definitely feelings there. I'm just not sure about meeting someone like this, over the internet. It feels... I don't know, silly?

He's sweet though. He texted me almost every night in Paris. I just don't know...

Just read about the new explosion(s) in London. Oh no... not again.

No no no.

2005-07-11T22:43:46Z

I'm starting to panic! I'm not half-finished with my packing, one of my cats won't come home, and I should have gone to sleep over 2 hours ago. =( I'm stressed out, tired and worried.

I'm trying to think "I'm going to Paris tomorrow, I'm going to Paris tomorrow, I'm going to Paris tomorrow".

The packing and lack of sleep is one thing, that I can cope with. But Lilla being missing the night before I'm going away for six days is REALLY freaking me out. This is not the way I want to feel before going to Paris!

vonca @ 2005-07-10T14:55:00

2005-07-10T13:00:24Z

Things feels weird. Good-weird. But still weird.

From tettee
Seven things in your room:
1. computer.
2. bed.
3. tv.
4. couch.
5. stereo.
6. phone.
7. lots and lots of photos of my friends and family.

Seven things you say most:
1. Åh, bajs. (oh, poo)
2. Mammas små grisar! (mommies little pigs, to my cats)
3. helvete!! (hell)
4. Vonca är tlöööt (vonca is tired, in a sing-song child-language)
5. jeeesus.
6. faaaan!!! (daaaamn)
7. really. (I use that word way too much)

Seven things you cannot live without:
1. my family
2. my friends
3. music.
4. internet.
5. chocolate.
6. my mp3-player.
7. my camera

Seven things you want to do before you die:
1. go to Venice.
2. attend the course Litterär Gestaltning.
3. be published.
4. get married. (mhm)
5. buy a house by the sea.
6. tell my father some stuff. :(
7. tell a family friend some stuff. :(

Seven other things:
1. Do You Smoke?: never!
2. Do drugs? never!
3. Read the newspaper? yes.
4. Pray? no.
5. Have a Job? Not atm no.
6. Attend Church? no, not very often.
7. Wish on stars? yeah, if I get the chance, why not?

Have you ever:
1. Gone skinny dipping? no, actually not.
2. Had surgery? yes.
3. Swam in the dark: nope.
4. Gone to a Bonfire? yes.
5. Ran away from home? yes, when I was younger. Haha.
6. Played strip poker? yes.
7. Pulled an all nighter? several times.

Seven things in last 24 hours:
1. Have you Cried?: yes.
2. Sang? yes.
3. Been kissed? no.
4. Felt stupid? yes.
5. Talked to an ex? no.
6. Missed someone? yes!!
7. Hugged someone? yes.

And this heat is killing me! I'm slowly melting away! How am I supposed to get the washing done today?

It's insane!

2005-07-08T06:07:14Z

I just haven't been able to post before now. Everytime I started writing something I just froze. It's all just insane. I guess it feels closer now this time then 4 years ago. And even though I sat glued to the tv then too, this time I felt more connected and more affected. I have friends over there. They are all okay, thank god.

It makes me so angry too. What people do to each other, for what ever reason religious, money, or just to scare people. Why? I guess I'm not the only one wondering why today. I think of the victim's families, and the injured.

And I can't help but feel a bit selfish. I'm going on tuesday. To Paris. And of course I'll worry. I'm the sort of person who worries about anything and everything, even when nothing has happened. This time I'll be a wreck. I know it's selfish to think like this, but I can't help it. I feel terrible.

I haven't been able to sleep at all tonight. I don't sleep very good in normal circumstances, and now it's way to hot, I'm starting to get pre-travel-gitters, and this news ontop of all that just made it totally impossible.

Hope you, your family and friends are okay.

Oh my god...

2005-06-22T12:42:45Z

I'm going to Paris in july! My mum is taking my sister, her boyfriend and me! Any suggestions on what to do and see?

I love them!

2004-11-05T15:37:32Z

I'm obsessing.

Please "save target as":
Lilla 1, Lilla 2, Lilla and Stumpan playing.

I have some new pic's too, but should I really bore you with them?

Can you resist this?

2004-11-02T15:17:52Z

and

is what I've been busy with the last couple of days. The kittens are mine! Right now they are homeless, but as soon as I get my apartment they'll move in with me! They live under my grandmother's house, and we feed them two times a day. I've named the mother very simple, Mamma, swedish word for mum. The grey streaky(?) one I've named Stumpan, (tiny tot) and the little darkbrown one Lilla (little), so far, but that's just until I know what sex they are, then I'll see if I want to change their names. Aren't they cute? The puppy is my sisters friend, Anna's. His name is Lukas, and he's seven weeks old. Such a cutie... I'm in love!

What else would I be?

2004-07-01T01:42:00Z

I'm Sounds Of Silence!

Which Simon and Garfunkel album are you?

Of course!!!