Connor's not doing his work at school, so his mom called me three times last week explaining that she didn't want him on the phone during the week, and he knows he's not allowed to be.

Yesterday, I was on the phone with him and he asked for me to call him while he's at his mom's house...and I said no, because I didn't wanna just seem like I was disregaurding everything his mom said.I think he's upset with me. But I have no idea, because he can't use phone or internet until Wednesday when he's at his dad's.

So I've been stressing since last night trying to figure out if he's mad, upset, sad,etc at me...

And I just can't take everyone's problems. I don't mind hearing why one person's upset because I really care. But then my other friends are piling their problems on me and there's nothing I can do to help.
So I'm so fucking overwhelmed right now I don't know what to do.
I just don't know what to do...I just want to cry because once I do that, I'm done with all my bad emotions, but it's gotten so bad that I can't even do that...so I feel trapped.

I feel helpless. Because all I can do is pass out cookies to my sad friends and say "I'm sorry" and that really gets to me.
And what bugs me the most is that I feel like no one fucking cares...Whenever I'm upset about something and I tell my story to my friends, it's like "Oh. I'm sorry. But atleast blahblahblah didn't happen to you" and they talk about their problems...

I just wish that I felt like people were as good a friend to me as I am to them..

I'd really like to just lean on someone's shoulder and just let all this shitty stuff out..but the only person I trust with that is Connor...and he's the only person I can't get to..