The Bad Years

Well hello there!

violetcloud — Thu, 31 Jan 2013 05:30:02 GMT

What a trip! I haven't been back here in AGES!

I've missed all my friends here... is anyone still around? Give me a shout. Actually, these days I'm mostly on facebook. I remember back in the days I was so adamant about not being "one of those people who uses facebook," but I've become that person for sure. It's the best way to keep in touch with me - so if anyone's reading this and you want to reconnect, let's do it!

I can't possibly recap everything that's happened in my life since way back when, so here are the major changes:

1. I've got a wonderful job!
Say what? Yes, I have a great job as a college advisor for a retention program. My students come from poor, underprivileged, minority background. A.k.a. they're from the hood. They're a bit rough-and-tumble and can be very frustrating, but they're good kids at heart and I'm happy to help them.

I also teach a college course for these students called Orientation and Career Development. ..."OCD" I had no choice in the name. I'm not happy about it.

2. I lived in Manhattan for a year
...With assholes. But still better than my uncle's house! Everything was convenient and close and I was 3 blocks from Central Park and it was all pretty awesome. Except for the asshole roommates.

3. But in December I moved to THE BRONX!
Oh shit, I misspelled that. I meant DA BRONX.
I'm now in my own apartment with one of my best friends as my roommate! It's going well so far, but we're only a few blocks from Yankee Stadium... I'm afraid it'll be a nightmare during baseball season!
We plan on moving back to Manhattan at the end of our lease.

4. I don't know how many concerts I've been to in the last 2 years.
I've made it my life goal to live my life with as much fun and positivity and partying as possible. And I mean party in the Andrew W.K. sense, not the clubbing every night sense. To that end, I've put much effort into not being the Lindsay that began this journal - the lonely, depressed, anxiety-ridden young lady that let herself get in the way of her own happiness. I love that Lindsay dearly, and I miss her too. But I've worked through a lot of my inner bullshit and I'm better off for it.
This means being social, making friends, going out, and raging against the societal compulsion to have a normal, quiet life. This also means doing the things I always stopped myself from doing - or the things I couldn't do when I was younger: concerts, trips, foolish purchases. I still have a long way to go though!

But some things are still the same...

1. I'm still a geek and a nerd. (sci-fi, musicals, music in general, poetry, etc...)
2. I'm still very much into queer politics, gender liberationist theory, feminism, etc.
3. Still single. Fuck.
4. Still complain like there's no tomorrow. I'm convinced it's an art.

Anyway, I miss you all. Sanami, if you're still around, hit me up! I really miss you and I don't think I've thanked you enough for your friendship back in the day. I'd like to do that.

violetcloud — Sat, 17 Apr 2010 02:30:14 GMT

HOLY WOW. i havent been here in a while =/

WAIT HOLDUP

violetcloud — Sat, 02 Jan 2010 12:11:00 GMT

Audra McDonald and Will Swenson are dating??
THEYRE SO CUTE TOGETHERRRRRR

and no wonder she got involved with broadway impact so quickly LOL 2 degrees of separation.

DON'T TEXT!!

violetcloud — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 02:30:01 GMT

NO HOLIDAY OR BIRTHDAY TEXTING!
DO *NOT* TEXT ME AT ALL!!
I DON'T GET FREE TEXTING!!
NO HOLIDAY OR BIRTHDAY TEXTING!!
FROM NOW TO JANUARY 1st!!!

I love you all, but PLEASE i hate holiday texts so much. actually i got funny ones from ori and michelle on thanksgiving, i think? ...BUT ANYWAY no texting. omg please no texting.

(and i bet you i'll STILL get texts. -_- omg i should have put this up earlier)

CREOLE IS SO HARD TO READ WTF (and a random thing about patti lupone... move along!)

violetcloud — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 08:09:57 GMT

sorry for the caps-yelling. it's just really annoying trying to read creole. ITS ALL PHONETIC. it's like writing english in complete slang THEN phonetically. UGH. look at this shit (then i'll translate it in french):

[TOO LAZY FOR ACCENT MARKS AND CHECKING PRONOUN GENDERS. SORRY. DOWN WITH THE BINARY GENDER SYSTEM ANYWAY =P]
Creole (Kreyol):
"'BWAT LA'
Gade Haïti en direk kelke swa kote ou ye, depi ou gen internet.
Gade Foutbal, Nouvel, Video, L' eglise etc. dans salon lakay ou et sou Tele ou.. A la yon bel Bagay! "

French translation :
'Boite la'
regarde haiti en direct quelque soit cote vous etes, depuis vous avez l'internet. regarde le futbol, le nouvel, le video, l'eglise, etc. dans la salon a votre maison sous votre tele...
A la une belle chose!"

...seriously??? most of that's the same words! the only differences are the shortening/sounding off of some words "regarde/gade" as in "going to/gonna", "lakay/a la maison", and "bagay/chose"... oh and "gen/avez(avoir)" but i think gen is from gagner which could mean to save or gain someting, and avoir means to have, so i can see how those would be related. also, the articles and votre/notre etc arent used: it's more like "tele ou/television you(your)" instead of "your television"

ANYWAY, i think it's totally cool but it just makes it annoying as hell to read.

on the other hand, i should be reading and writing, and not random things about online haitian news/community networks...

totally appropriate icon btw. yeah. ok, not really. but kinda. whatevs.

in completely unrelated news, i'm just now beginning to see why some people don't like Patti Lupone. OMGSACRILEGE. what i mean is that sometimes her diction is kinda fuzzy... as in, she throws it out of the window in favor of pushing the ~~sometimes completely random~~ power notes and inflections she's famous for. but the listener is like "COME AGAIN??" ...for example, when she sings "Anything Goes"*. It's the first and only time I've heard it and gotten annoyed by it - probably because I'm so used to hearing this standard sung by more traditional singers? hm. likely. oh well, you still gotta love Patti! besides... *insert TAPDANCE INTERLUDE here* XD

*0:16-0:23 ...WHAT?
*2:22-2:27 SO '20s, love it!

BEST NYC MAYORAL CANDIDATE EVER

violetcloud — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 16:46:22 GMT

OH MAN, this year's candidates are AWESOME. EVERY one of them is a character, but THIS GUY, Jimmy McMillan is the BEST... and he looks like the black Hulk Hogan.

http://www.mcmillan09.org/ <--party's theme song is being played. awesoooome!!
http://rentistoodamnhigh.org/ <-- another song, omg, LOL

and yes, that's him singing!! LMAO (lyrics: http://www.mcmillan09.org/id19.html)

THIS GUY IS AMAZING!!!

"Jimmy McMillan a registered Democrat I created my own Political Party [Rent Is Too Damn High] because the Democratic Party not only moved to the Right and to the Left, they moved completely out of sight!"

GREAT ANSWERS:

Jimmy McMillan, Rent Is Too Damn High Party
What's your most attractive campaign promise?: Reduction in rent, and going after the landlords who boosted the rent prices after the attack of the World Trade Center, and the landlords who have violations that raised the rent and ignored the law that they should have abided by. And I’m going after them, that is my campaign promise. The rent will be reduced, no question about that.

Describe a typical McMillan voter: The voter who can’t afford breakfast, lunch, and dinner. When they open their refrigerator, when they open their wallet, there’s nothing there….Something that the typical McMillan voter would understand is that their children have no place to live in this city. There is no future here for them. If we can’t pay the rent today, they cannot pay it tomorrow.

What's your biggest gripe with Mayor Bloomberg?: None. He didn’t vote himself into office ….I have no beef with him. I wish him well, I wish him luck, congratulations to him for becoming a rich man and his personal business. Congratulations for him for using the techniques of Bernie Madoff to persuade the people to vote for him.

Now say something nice about Mayor Bloomberg: Michael Bloomberg is a good-looking man, like I said, and I told him that, in his face. Nice-looking man, just like me. Self-preservation is the key to life.

What's your motivation for running in a race that, let's face it, you probably won't win: I don’t look at it like that. I had a reporter who asked me that the other day, he said, “McMillan, you can’t win.” I said, “Well, why are you doing a story on me, you’re not going to be a good reporter.” So you have to think positive about yourself …. Jimmy McMillan feels that he is going to be the next mayor of the city of New York, and his approach is that he is going to be the next mayor of the city of New York. You’re talking to the next mayor of the city of New York, and his name is Jimmy McMillan.

New Yorkers, edumacate yourselves on same-sex marriage!!

violetcloud — Mon, 01 Jun 2009 22:54:34 GMT

PLEASE READ. SRSLY. TOOK ME HOURS.

OK, so I've been doing my research on the same-sex marriage bill that's been presented to the New York Senate. After actually reading it to get all the finer points, I think it's brilliant because it explicitly includes that "no member of the clergy may be compelled to perform any marriage ceremony" which is what the opposition keeps saying will eventually happen. They're trying to scare religious voters into thinking that their religion and their churches are being attacked. THIS IS CLEARLY UNTRUE.

Anyway, let's look at a few things I want all my fellow New Yorkers to do...

1. Before doing anything: READ THE BILL!
As it passed in the NY State Assembly 5/12 (gay bill in da House! *epic roof raising*)
As it's sitting on the table at the NY Senate!!

2. Next: FIND OUT HOW YOUR ASSEMBLY PERSON VOTED!
Click here to find out who it is (this will also give you your Senator for step 3)
Now, find out how they voted (where it says "votes")
Then feel proud if they said YES. Mine did! (Helene Weinstein)

3. Next: HOW ABOUT YOUR SENATOR?
Remember your senator's name, address, and number from #2? Great!
Find out how they stand here!

My senator, Kevin Parker, along with 18 others, introduced the bill at the request of Governor Paterson. It's also supported by the majority leader, so that's 20 we've got so far. That site will even show you which direction the undecided Senators are leaning.

Is yours on that list?

4. If your senator is "undecided" or "no" CALL THEM UP, WRITE TO THEM, or SIGN A PETITION to tell them to vote YES!
If you want to call, don't worry, you will most likely talk to a secretary, anyway. If they're a "no", ask why. Then ask if they believe in the CONSTITUTION. Ask if they believe in the SEPARATION OF CHURCH AND STATE. Remind them that there are 1,324 rights same-sex couples are DENIED. Tell them they are FORCED TO LIE ON GOVERNMENT DOCUMENTS when asked to check "Married or Single" because they're NOT single, they're in committed relationships that have as much emotional validity as an opposite-sex couple! This may seem like no-brainers, but they need to hear it and they need to know. More importantly, they need to know that their citizens feel this way!

5. AND Tell them to bring this to the floor THIS SESSION by voting YES. You know, they don't have to take a vote on this during the 09/10 session, they could just ignore it! Let's not let 'em! On my PTK trip to the state capital last year, we learned that there are many bills that just SIT THERE and don't get signed for whatever reason. Sometimes they're too controversial, seen as unimportant, or Senators don't want to upset their "constituents" by voting either way or voting too soon. They're PAWNS, believe me. WE have to move them.
CALL THEM and let them you that YOU are their constituents and YOU want them to uphold the constitution and the promise of democracy it brings to each citizen of this country BY GETTING THIS BILL SIGNED! Tell them (in a polite way): Don't leave this on the floor because we'll make even more noise next year, and the year after, and the following until it's done.
We're not going to disappear if they ignore the issue.

ALL EYES ARE ON NEW YORK. We're already late on this - let's live up to our reputation of being a more liberal, accepting, "freedom" state!!

*falls off soap box*

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Now I have several more arguments against conservative religious people's stance that it goes "against God's will" and yadda, yadda:

A) One of the most fundamental values of Christian doctrine states that all humans have free will by the grace of God (to my understanding, it's the same in Muslim and Jewish doctrine as well, but for obvious reasons, I cite Christian doctrine). According to their own beliefs, God gave us free will so that we may freely choose to follow his teachings as described in the bible and as preached by his son and the prophets. HOW CAN WE FREELY CHOOSE TO DO GOOD OR EVIL IF THE SECULAR LAW DECIDES FOR US? By barring this civil right for a segment of the population, you are taking away their GOD-GIVEN free will to choose how to live their lives.
Some might bring up arguments like "god gives us the free will to murder too! should we have a law that allows that?!" but that's different for the following reason: no one's safety is jeopardized in a consensual relationship. The banning of gay marriage is an attempt to take away the choice of being in a same-sex relationship -or at least make it less appealing- because it's a "lifestyle" that's frowned upon by their religion as well as their own personal values and prejudices. In short, they're trying to force their religious values on secular laws in order to govern your personal relations, whereas the laws of their religion say that every individual has the god-given right to make their own personal choices!! Oh, ho, ho, hypocrisy!

B) Can you walk into your church and get a divorce? NO, you can't. Why? BECAUSE MARRIAGE IS A CIVIL INSTITUTION, NOT A RELIGIOUS ONE**. Likewise, you must obtain a marriage license in order to be LEGALLY married. If civil law can only have jurisdiction over what is civil, then why are there laws governing marriage at all? Because it is a civil institution. Legally, it has nothing to do with your religion, and if it did that would be discriminatory, not to mention unconstitutional. Atheists and other non-Christians can get married. So, not only does the right to marriage need to be separated from religious ideals, but also the civil institution of marriage must be extended to ALL couples.

**I'm not ignoring that marriage is seen as a religious institution by many people, I'm saying that as citizens, it is first and foremost a civil institution.

C) Are Christian priests forced to marry Hindu couples? Jewish couples? Atheist couples? No. Likewise, they should not and would not be asked to marry homosexual couples. DUH. So right-wing conservative fundamentalists need to chill-the-fuck-out and stop making slippery-slope arguments that don't make no damned sense. Don't be intimidated by the bullshit arguments they throw: we CAN check the facts, we have, and they're wrong. NEXT.

D) New York State now recognizes same-sex marriages issued in other states and jurisdictions.
...SAY WHAT?
Let me restate that: if Adam and Steve got married in Canada, their marriage is now valid in New York, but if Ally and Eve want to wait until they can get married at home in New York, they're not a valid committed couple in their own home.
Yes, this is an important step forward; however, this clearly makes a fist-class/second-class dynamic by validating only some same-sex couples and not others. New York couples who have gone outside their home state to get married are valued more than couples who haven't. Let's ignore how unfair and unintentionally (?) class-biased that is for a moment and realize that not every couple CAN do that and not every couple WANTS to.
...Actually, let's go there with the class-bias thing: This law is essentially saying "we'll validate your committed relationship if you have the economic means and leisure of going outside of your home state to get married" ...that's fucked up. That's like saying we'll only recognize straight couples that can get hitched in Vegas. These days, even interstate travel (especially through long distances) is just not affordable for many people. And the cost of marriage licenses and getting transportation for your family and friends, etc will also add to the burden. Also, states like Massachusetts do not let residents of other states get married. This further limits the choices of same-sex couples when it comes to getting married elsewhere.
Besides, why should these couples be forced to go away from home to get married? If anything I'd want to get married in my town where I can share my joyful time with neighbors, family, and friends. I wouldn't want to be a foreigner in the place I get married. I don't want to have to make a pilgrimage to a Marriage Mecca whereas my straight neighbors are validated and respected by the laws of the same streets on which we live. It's just not fair. No one should have to leave their state, their home, their place of work and worship in order to receive a damned piece of paper signifying what should be a civil right!

And here comes another problem (and obvious solution):

E) Taxes, license fees, tourism revenue, etc. is going to other states when the money could stay here in NY and generate an estimated 2-something-million ANNUALLY (OK, so I forgot the actual figure stated, sue me. Just know that it's a significant amount). Let's not forget that most same-sex couple households are "double income, no kids", also known as "taxed like crazy" or "income tax revenue increase = $tate win$". But instead, we hear that it would cost wholesome, tax-paying (read the prejudice: "straight", "normal", "good") families lots of money, and then we'd have to cut funding for education! O.M.G.! NO, not the childrens!!!11!!!1one!! Bullshit. No one's cutting education in favor of gay marriage, relax. I think someone's been drinking 'reductio ad absurdum' flavored Haterade. These folks might as well say "gay marriage destroys our children's education!" but I guess putting it that way makes it sound as dumb as it is.

*sigh*

So the moral of the story is, opposing gay marriage is stupid no matter how you slice it. We should be educated about how to get this happening in our state. Pass it on to your friends and anyone who will listen (without beating you up or getting you kicked out =D).

I hope I helped bring some light on this issue and why I feel it's important. To be honest, I don't personally support the institution of marriage at all, but it means the world to many people, both gay and straight and everything in between. It's clear that despite my feelings about marriage, it is an important social institution that has deep social, economic, religious/spiritual, personal, interpersonal, and cultural meanings. So for all the reasons I stated above and for all those that I forgot, this should be available to ALL citizens of this so-purported "great country" (in quotations because it has yet to live up to its name if "free" is what's meant by "great", as it so often is).

p.s. Please comment if you find errors or falsehoods anywhere in this post! Thanks!

Mash Game: Predict Your Future at eSPIN-the-Bottle

violetcloud — Tue, 10 Mar 2009 04:34:04 GMT



		I will marry Justin Kirk.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in London in our fabulous Apartment.
		We will have 4 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Black bmw.
		I will spend my days as a writer, and live happily ever after.

NEW YORK 的にもオールオッケー!!

violetcloud — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 03:14:42 GMT

First, I have to say that I've always felt that T.M.Revolution has the best fan base in the world, but everything I ever thought was confirmed a hundred times over this weekend. You guys were AMAZING. While I helped at the booth, I met so many amazing fans; including tmrevolutionists, some people I met through winds-turbo, winds-turbo staff from Japan, and some I met for the first time, like Melissa, a pretty amazing fan and musician who will join the community soon. I was so happy that I kept grabbing at you all for hugs, sorry! In my excitement I forgot everything about personal space, seriously.

I wasn't sure what to write and what to leave out. Since I won’t bother writing different posts for my personal lj and tmrevolutionist, I’ll keep it honest while leaving out stuff to protect the guilty. I couldn’t sort out my feelings because sometimes I felt drained and stressed. But overall it was a great feeling to be there with you guys supporting T.M.R. the best I could and with an amazing group of people – sometime during the weekend the term “professional fan” was coined and I think that's hillarious.

Now, onto the good stuff... [WARNING: this was 14 pages as a Word document!]

FRIDAY

My unofficial duties started on Thursday night, but I won’t get into that – basically I got about 3 hours of sleep because I had to wake up at 6 to be at the convention center at 8:30am on Friday. There we set up the T.M.R. booth which included a short platform for 4 T.M.R. costumes: ignited (Size 8 ½ women’s custom Puma boots. Thank you very much.), 2 Under:Cover costumes (yes, the hot pants were there!), and Takanori’s a.b.s. Nephilim PV outfit with the plaid man-skirt and pants.

There was a monitor playing a specially made DVD giving an introduction and history of T.M.R and Takanori’s other projects. It was on a loop all weekend. I heard it in my head on the train home even... The booth also sold T.M.R. merchandise: T-shirts, pin badges, and stickers all with a specially designed logo by Takanori for this event!

Before the convention was even open to the public, I met the lovely Alexis, Melissa, who I mentioned before, and plenty of others who were already asking about the autograph tickets! We were really surprised… So we decided not to give away tickets or merchandise until it opened to the public at 3pm just to be fair to people without VIP passes or other exhibitors. It was also agreed that on Friday we would give 50 tickets and the rest on Saturday morning. By 2:50pm there was a line forming, and by 3:05pm I think the tickets were done for the day!!

The rest of the day passed rather smoothly. Between telling people to come back for tickets tomorrow and me running back and forth from the lobby to the booth on errands and giving passes to tmrevolutionist members as they arrived, I was pretty busy but glad to help. (But while I was off giving tmrevolutionist members their passes, Takanori and his entourage passed by the booth. -_-; It’s probably better that way because I’m sure I couldn’t have handled it as calmly as the other girls. I would have stared and smiled and looked goofy.)

The best part about it was that I was constantly meeting new people and people I’ve only talked to online or have only heard about through other people. You guys really impressed me. This was the first official T.M.R. event I was attending so I didn’t know what to expect – I’ve had some scary experiences with other band’s fans before, but this weekend I didn’t meet one person I didn’t like and I didn’t hear of one incident, argument, or... anything!! We always hear T.M.R. fans are a chipper group, but we really are o_o;! Everyone was all smiles and hugs and laughs.

As the day progressed, however, the more nervous I got. By the end of the day I learned some disturbing things about the autograph session – only NYCC programs will be signed (although turbo members can have other things signed... it’s unfair but understandable since they came all the way over here – but that’s a different issue). I know many people were SO excited about getting the autograph so I felt really bad. I knew we’d have to tell so many people that they can’t get their favorite TMR thing signed. A lot of things were getting to me. After the convention closed that night, I was so upset that I walked across Manhattan twice then back again because I realized the best train to get home was on the other side of the island. I was thinking and thinking then I realized I was being a selfish and stupid idiot – epiphany time – the point of the whole thing was to meet Takanori, shake his hand, thank him, and watch him perform. Sure a signed cd or book would’ve been cool but the point is the concert and the opportunity to meet him (Or so I told myself so I could sleep, lol). Also, he’s signing for 200 people in one hour! If that’s what it takes to give him an easier time because of his silly 3-events-in-a-day schedule, then so be it.

Well, things worked out for most people anyway, but I’ll get to that later…

SATURDAY

I got home really late because I walked until the trains started running on the late night schedule =/. With about 1 ½ hours sleep (because someone woke me with a 6:30 am call saying they arrived at the center but needed their ticket! Wow, Hardcore fans!!) I arrived for the big day at the Javits Center at about 9:15am. I was a bit early so I helped set up the goods and dress the mannequins again. I have a funny story about that:
So I’m holding the Under:Cover booty shorts clad mannequin and I'm really upset that it’s not agreeing with me (“stay on, damn you!”) then I stop and realize my hand is up the crotch of the pants... You know, I had trouble staying professional all weekend long but at that point I just gave up trying. I’m a stupid fangirl. I admit it.

After having a good giggle at that ~~and noting the amount of extra space the seamstress allowed for his manbaggage~~ we continued on to his other costumes. Let’s just say that “ignited-san”, as it was called (who started that? it was cute XD), was being difficult the whole weekend. I think it even attacked Sue D8;; wth!

The rush came at 10:00am when the con opened and we started out handing the rest of the autograph tickets. There was already a line at the booth starting by 9:50! But a little after we started handing them out, more tmrevolutionist people came! I ran to the lobby to handle that and by the time I came back THE LINE WRAPPED AROUND THE BOOTH. ...WHAT?! Then we had to start informing people of the rules for the autograph signing. =( Many people were upset but... well, I’ll get to that later, lol.

By maybe 10:30 the tickets were gone o_o;! Afterwards, there wasn’t as much activity at the booth and I kept getting called over to the lobby on errands or for revolutionist members. When I was at the booth, I would try introducing people to T.M.R. That task wasn’t really assigned to me but as I was just there policing people (“No touching! No flash photography!”) I might as well reel in the curious people walking by with “Hey! Are you familiar with T.M.Revolution? by the way no touching or flash photography He's one of the top artists in Japan and he'll be performing here tonight! ...Yes, HE.” I felt like I was back at school advertising our newspaper or honors society! LOL. Btw, eye contact and a smile work wonders.

The passers-by were really entertaining. We even started taking a tally of how many people were confused about his gender, and one burly black man commented that “she’s really cute”... we just let him walk away and stay secure in his sexuality...

-PANEL
By 11:45 I ran downstairs to the panel line which had grown really long. Luckily my peeps held my spot. I feel like a douche line-cutting, and I hate holding lines for others, but no one seemed to have a problem but me x_x;; I think. ANYWAY, *ahem*, we were seated, I finally turned off my phone as the lights went off, and the panel started with a video and introduction, then Takanori walked in. I was in second row aisle seat in front of him. This was the first time I saw him – as in, not on a tv screen or monitor. He looked so beautiful! I can’t remember what he was wearing except for a very silver shirt and a black jacket I believe. His hair was perfect and his nails were perfect.

The host Mr. Brian Nishi and Takanori talked a little, and then they showed another video, more talking, and another video but at least the videos were interesting. They were specially made for NYCC as introductions to his work as T.M.R. and his recent accomplishments outside of T.M.R., like “How to Succeed” and abingdon boys school, which got a lot of applause. There was a video with clips from all the PV singles. When “aoi hekireki” came up... man, I only wish I looked at his face! They even showed the part with the infamous rear end close-up too. Many people in the audience were like “whaaat? dude…”, “*giggles*”, or simply “...!”

I honestly can’t remember much of the panel other than the video preview of his upcoming movie “Corazon de Melon” and the Q & A part, and the fact that his English has improved greatly. The "Corazon" clip was SO CUTE. I simply have to see it. He plays a man that lives with his girlfriend and has an illness so he can’t work. It seems like a type of illness where he can’t really touch her... ? Because in one scene he's leaving home and just rubs her elbow – again my memory sucks and I should have had a notebook on me at all times, but whatever.

When the lights came back on he was hiding behind his perfectly manicured hands and his face was pink. So cute!! I hope his movie is really successful. Someone asked if it will be shown here – and he seemed really excited about that possibility! I know they show Japanese movies from time to time over here in New York and they have international film festivals too – I wonder if we can get something done. *strokes chin* hmmm... (we're working on it!)

Anyway, I got to ask a question during the panel, I asked my friend’s question thinking I’d have an opportunity to ask a second question, but I didn’t - everyone had a question, I was impressed! I should have asked mine: “Would you ever consider opening the official fan club TURBO to international members?”
Next time! But his answer to my friend’s question was really great: “My favorite part of my job is the singing and making music.” I was pleased by that answer – it tells me he still keeps it real. The feel-good, but possibly bullsh*t answer would have been “the fans,” so I’m almost glad he didn’t say that.

Kristen (littlenishikawa) also asked a question – “Would you ever consider performing in Florida? ...Please?” and he said “Sure! Invite me!” she said something to the effect of “You can stay with me!”, and then he asked for her number LOL! I nearly died and fell out of my chair – but I got worse when she actually started telling him her number!!

Another note about the panel, I'm sorry, I have to say it – I’m a bit annoyed with all the gundam fans. And by “gundam fans” I only mean those people who only care about T.M.R.’s anime songs or his involvement with Gundam. There’s nothing wrong with being a T.M.R. fan and a gundam fan but I’m almost positive that Takanori’s impression of American T.M.R. fans is that we love the anime theme songs more than his other songs. The interviewer guy, Mr. Brian Nishi at one point said “See? T.M.Revolution, Gundam, Gundam, T.M.Revolution – synonymous, really!”... um, NO.

I heard from people who saw the setlist that “CHASE/THE THRILL” and “Light My Fire” were also on the set list but were opted out in favor of more “American friendly” anime theme songs because of the time limit. Don’t get me wrong, I love all his songs, but I’d rather him feel free to sing anything and not feel obligated to sing the anime songs. And it doesn’t help that people STILL insist asking him dumb gundam questions like “how far does your involvement go with Gundam go?”, “do you have any say in [blahblah] aspect of Gundam?”, “when’s the next Gundam coming out? Will you do the theme for that?”
What part of “voice actor” and “performed the theme song” don’t you understand? He doesn’t make Gundam, ok?

After the Q&A part, he had to leave – but not before some random comic guy came on stage to give him flowers (for future reference, please remember the “comic guy”!). Then he said his final message to his U.S. fans... which of course, I don’t remember D8; …anyway, he left and turned to wave again from behind the curtain.

-AUTOGRAPH SESSION
Right after was the T.M.R. autograph session. I got to the booth and Jocy, Sue, and I headed over to the autograph line. I saw many people had brought other things to get signed and I started feeling nervous. By the time we were close to the ‘finish line’ some guy said he got his CD signed and the lady snatched it and gave it back to him... but he was more than happy to autograph it. "WORD?" I said. Then I heard that only TURBO members could get other things signed (and I was wearing my turbo card on my necklace fortunately enough). I was... Relieved, pissed, happy, angry? I don’t know. SO MANY people had things to sign but weren’t able to – but many others just went ahead and did it. I was proud that people stood up to “the man” and got their stuff signed anyway, but what about those that followed the rules? That’s completely unfair and that’s what I was trying to tell staff the night before but I felt like I was burdening them with it.

The book I wanted signed was still at the booth and there was no time to get it =/ but Jocy being the sweetheart she is offered me one of her official Under:Cover posters that she had handy and LET ME HAVE IT. Wow... I felt lucky, but really guilty =/

Anyway, so I got up to Ai-san who was translating and collecting tickets and she introduced Jocy, Sue, and I as those who were working on the booth – but I was a little behind Sue, so I don’t know if he thought I was with them or not. To make me feel better I’m assuming he did. Then it was my turn and I don’t remember what I said in order… Something like: “Thank you, I love you, Good luck, blahblah”, he said IN ENGLISH: “No, thank you! I remember you from panel. Wow, turbo? [and I held up my card dangling from my neck and nodded] thank you!” and then he grabbed my hand *_*; and shook it. And I grabbed back with my other hand – yes, the two-handed shake that you only do to people you really care about. His hands were so soft and warm and beautiful. His nails were amazing. He looked me in the eye and I melted but kept moving. I remembered to grab my poster and didn't even realize that he signed it until afterwards.

I was one of the last people on line with a ticket – but I heard that even after the ticketed people were done, the other people would not leave, LOL. And of course he wouldn’t leave either so he signed their stuff for them too. He’s so sweet. And I heard stories of people offering him the program to get signed but he pushed it aside to sign the cooler item they brought; for instance, Melissa had an original T.M.R. vinyl record from back in the day – Takanori flipped out, pushed the program aside, had a flashback I’m sure, and signed it for her. I think the rules for the autograph session should have been stated MUCH sooner or not at all. It’s not fair to spring that up on people. ~~I wonder if the reason for that was just to make turbo members from Japan feel like they were getting their money’s worth?~~ *ahem*...

-DANCE SESSION
So, I went back to the booth! There I met with Teresa and Kira - I was so glad to see them, even through all the confusion and crazy crowds passing by the booth!

I honestly can’t remember what else happened from then to 5pm when other Winds-Turbo staff led by German fan Romy came to the booth to meet for the dance session. After about a half hour of confusion we went to the lobby – about 30 of us holding hands on our way out of the Exhibitors alley, LOL! We got strange looks. Then we went downstairs to a nice clearing in front of the Starbucks area for our dance session. I was surprised more people didn’t know the dances – or maybe they were shy… In any case, Mari and I became “professors” and helped Romy teach the dances. We went through “High Pressure,” “Hot Limit,” and “Wild Rush”. I think we did “aoi hekireki” too… wow, talk about complicated moves! By far that was the hardest! (…that’s a joke; the only move is making the “shikaku” shape with your fingers, like in the PV.)

Afterward, I sat down with my adopted family Teresa and Kira and ~~Kristen~~ Davita (I find it funny that David is over 6 feet while “Davita” is under 5, LOL!). Teresa offered me a tuna onigiri and I realized that I hadn’t eaten since that bran muffin at 8am on the train O_O! Romy told me to eat earlier but I was too nervous. I was NOT physically prepared for a T.M.R. concert. I just worked on calming down and waiting for more information on how/when we would be seated. I didn’t want to give our group members inaccurate or premature information so I just told everyone to relax and have fun chatting with each other until 8pm where we would meet again, check our group attendee number, and be seated for the concert.

8pm came and there was a lot of tension! I don’t know how many phone calls I made until then trying to get all our group members and find out what happened to the no-shows and people who never called me. I made an official count, checked it twice, and again by Stevie (thanks!!). I called back and forth between “headquarters”, lol, and they relayed my messages and finally, at about 8:20-ish, Romy pulled me over and told me let’s go! We got the green light to just get on the general admission line and that when we got to the theatre doors we would be greeted by W-T staff and seated in our section.

I made one final count, and then we held hands again (buddy system!) and walked down to the line.

By the way, Jacob Javits center is about 5 blocks long. The line went from one side of the building to another! By the time we reached the end of the line we were in some dark corner somewhere in an unknown hallway!! GO T.M.R.!! 5 minutes later, the line started moving... fast!

When we finally got into the IGN theatre to be seated, Winds-Turbo staff was there for us and directed us to the taped off seating right behind several rows of official turbo members. Really good seats! But there was a problem... not enough seats!! I counted everyone several times to make sure I gave them the right number, WTH? Did people sneak in? I didn’t see anyone! My fellow booth-workers saved me a seat, but I wasn't going to sit until all my peoples had a seat - and I felt really bad for putting more stress on the W-T staff after everything they’ve done for us, but they came through again offering empty VIP seats to the right side and I directed the rest of the tmrevolutionist members there. I was still so nervous and I felt like something was wrong and I was a bit disoriented, and I got another phone call but ignored it 'cause I couldn't think. But then some staff or volunteer or someone (?! I can’t even remember who, I wasn't paying attention to anything) just told me to “SIT”, I think Jocy came over saying there were some seats?... but it was OK in the end because even though it wasn’t in the center, we had very good seats – I was second row-aisle seat (again?!) to the right. I kept looking back and checking our people to see if someone snuck in - I wanted us all to be together like in my dream =/. I started counting empty seats up next to us, but they were quickly filled leaving only one seat by the time I called the girls a few rows behind...

Finally, I put down my bag and said to myself what's done is done. If I stress any more I wont enjoy the concert. I didn't get to sit next to my girls but I was lucky enough to be able to sit with my 2 other good friends who really helped ground me in all the confusion of the day. I can’t thank you enough Teresa!

That's when I noticed they were filming the crowd and it was showing up on the screen! Some people held up signs and drawings and photos of Takanori. When someone held up a topless shot of skinny little Takanori from way back when, I remembered I had the Under:Cover book with me! I opened up to the page with the new and improved sexy, topless, "yes-i've-been-working-out" Takanori, somehow got the courage and balance to stand on top of my seat and hold it up... and the most hilarious thing happened, I saw dozens of other fans standing up and trying to get the cameraman's attention by pointing at me, LOL. It was pretty funny. Eventually sexy, topless, "yes-i've-been-working-out" Takanori was on the screen and I don't think I'll ever have a fangirl moment quite like that again. Or, I hope not! I felt so embarrassed because maybe 5 minutes later an announcement was made about standing on seats XD;;... I hope staff people didn’t recognize me (but how could they not – what other short black girl with orange shirt, orange cap, and light grey jeans helped work the booth x__x;;? damn)

-CONCERT
A while later, after a lot of uncoordinated chanting of "Turbo, Turbo!!" and "T.M.R., T.M.R.!!", the lights went down and the guys came out! I was wondering all weekend who would be part of the support band. I knew SUNAO would be there 'cause him and Takanori stick to each other like glue, and I knew Shibasaki-san would be there. I wasn't sure about Ikuo and Jun-ji. But Ikuo was the first one I saw and I was so happy - then Shibasaki came out, then the drummer - not Jun-ji but someone named “Saipan Joe” according to SUNAO’s blog. It was his first T.M.R. support participation and I think he did a good job! ...and then SUNAO came out and that's when I finally felt it, like it was really happening (I had always sworn to myself that I would get a seat near Sunao’s side because he’s greatness incarnate, but I was actually by Shibasaki and Ikuo which wasn't bad at all. They rocked hard!). Then Takanori came out in his all black outfit, long coat, and leather boots. He looked so cool and happy!

After that, I can't remember the sequence of events, but music started and I just lost it. I gave them all my energy - as much as possible, then more. There were only 2 slow-tempo songs during the entire concert, so you can imagine how tired we were - but we didn't stop, not once, because he didn't stop. His energy is so infectious and he really knows how to pump up the crowd. I think he's a natural performer that can not only feel the crowd but can make the crowd feel him. Every smile, every spin, every clap of his hand on his bicep resonates, and you know he feels us too. I finally understood what is meant by “We Make Revolution.” T.M.Revolution really is ALL of us because we give as much to him as he gives to us - and we give as much to each other too.

Anyway, there are some things I managed to remember:

The band ROCKED! SUNAO’s smile ♥… that man was beaming the entire time. He clearly lives to be on stage – he was really feeling the music and pumping up the crowd a lot. Shibasaki is so cool. I don’t think he was shy but he wasn't pumping up the crowd. Instead, he concentrated on his excellent playing. At one point he looked back at me probably because I was being obnoxious and waving, so I blushed. He's so attractive! I barely saw Ikuo because he was in the back =(, but I did observe his snazzy dance moves from time to time, especially during “zips”. And honestly I didn’t really look at the drummer XD;;… I kept my eyes on my man Takanori most of the time!

Takanori was amazing. He looked amazing too, in all black, the real “New Yorker uniform”, lol – but he could have worn anything, I’m just glad he didn’t come out looking like the Statue of Liberty. He did a lot of MCs, mostly in English! And I understood every word (even if they were wrong. we’ve gone from “is that English he’s speaking??” to “I ~~mostly~~ understand what he’s saying!!”). And his pronunciation has REALLY improved. “Aw-jum” has turned into “Awesum!” and “Rabu” to “Love”, I was really impressed. And his vocabulary has increased too. There was: “I love you!”, “this song is dedicated to you!!”, “Make some noise!!”, “I love New York!”, “Scream!”, “You’re the best!”, “I'm back! I hope the Yankees make a comeback too! I hope so!” (or something like that, he was talking about that for a while), "I dedicate this song to you! you! you!", “I saved the best for last!”, “I’ll be back!”, “See you next year!”, and other stuff I forgot.

He did all his signature moves: the spins, the microphone stand twirls, the bicep-clap, the "take-a-photo-and-put-it-in-Arena37C-magazine" pose, the pointing, the hip-swerve and the hip-pump, the oops-i-spilt-water-all-over-myself!, the sip-'n'-spray (that didn’t quite reach the audience, but that’s ok), and the "i-touch-myself-in-public-you-should-try-it". Unfortunately, the stage wasn’t wide enough for his usual marathon run, but he still gave each side equal love. Even the stage guard got some love, although I’m not sure if he noticed O_o;;.

I also remember a little ♥ moment with SUNAO which made me happy, and a bit of ♥ with Shibasaki too.

I made eye contact with him several times and he pointed at me – bu then again you can’t miss a short black girl in the front wearing bright orange (represent!)... Especially when some people to the left in the front row were DEAD. Remember that “comic guy,” well, him and a friend and some other guy to his right were in the front row, VIP's. They looked catatonic. Apparently the same thing was going on on the left side with the press people until fans ran up the aisles x_x (security was useless since they were busy enjoying the concert too, LOL; but I’m glad the audience was showing enthusiasm, and no one was hurt!) but us tmrevolutionists, winds-turbo members, and turbo members kept the party kicking! Before I new it, I looked behind me and saw people pressed up against the VIP line o__o! There were even some people that came up from the sides and got to the front – most of them were quickly pulled aside and out of our way though.

Anyway, one of the best parts was when Takanori came over to our side during the final chorus of “High Pressure”, saw me dancing the HP dance, then did the “kime chatte” wave with me! He let us sing the “Takanori no…” part, and of course he changed the “Hot Limit” lyric to “New York deki ni mo ALL OK!” The encore songs just felt really amazingly good.

Thank you to Jocy who posted the set list last night. The songs were pretty amazing, it had shockers like “crosswise” and “mugen no kokou”. Then there was “Meteor” which he dedicated to us and “Resonance” which was amazing. I couldn’t get out of my head until yesterday because I was playing other T.M.R. songs all day. My only disappointment was not hearing “Light My Fire” or “CHASE/THE THRILL”, but it’s... ALL OK!

The band left and came back after uncoordinated “encore” and “T.M.R.” changing again. They wore the concert t-shirt, the guys in pink- blue and Takanori in pink-green (I had the blue and yellow one, though! Shoot!)

-POST CONCERT
After the concert my brain died. I didn’t understand what was being said to me, and only partially because I couldn’t hear – those damn speakers were right next to me. I was drained. We hugged – I especially remember hugging Mari for a long time, some people cried, we had some sort of conversation (I think I was talking but I have no clue about what), took photos by the stage with my friends from school who I hope don’t think I’m a nerd after watching me rock out to T.M.R. with all the para-para moves, and then were ushered out of the theatre. Then everyone was chanting “T.M.R.” again and again! It was so great! It seemed like everyone enjoyed the concert, everyone got a good sweat going, Hahah! We once again said goodbye to our Japanese friends from W-T and many people in our group left. Then our group – now maybe 12, went to McDonalds to replenish ourselves. I couldn’t finish my Angus burger, but I drank a lot. As soon as I sat down I realized I couldn’t get up again! This is what T.M.R. does to you! Takes ALL your energy!!

We tried to talk about how sad we were that it was over but everyone understood and we didn’t need to say it. We talked about some memories from the concert still a bit stunned that they were now just memories… It was already over? It felt kind of anti-climactic actually.

Once we were done with our meal, another series of goodbyes =( - a final goodbye to our co-mod Gilly. Then, thank goodness, we said bye to this spastic guy that was at the concert too – I’m not sure if it was because I was delirious, but he didn’t seem to be making sense at all and I can remember asking him over and over again if he was high or drunk. We also said bye to a nice lady that wasn’t at the concert, but she said she enjoyed our company because we were so happy and good spirited and we brought her back to the good times of her youth – she just found out that her favorite aunt had just died =/… You see, We Make Revolution too! I hope she’s feeling a little better wherever she is.

After making sure Laura met up with her mom, she gave us remaining few a ride. I got off at 42nd street and instead of going to the subway like a sane person at 12:40 am, I went to stalk around the new Kinokuniya location across from Bryant Park – where the radio session would be recorded on Sunday.

Satisfied, I made my way home, realized I lost my metrocard, and finally got home at 3am.

SUNDAY

I woke up late on Sunday so I arrived at the booth at general admission time. I helped out a bit, talked to people, introduced T.M.R. to some folks, but it was very difficult. It was “Kids’ Day” at the con which meant everyone was there with their big families looking for freebees – of which we had none and it also meant that there were a lot of conservative parents there. I couldn’t count how many people gave weird looks to his costumes and were like “That’s a man?! Ughh!” Fortunately, I was able to escape a little after 1pm with Laura to go to Kinokuniya for the Radio show recording at 3 o’clock.

We arrived at Kinokuniya by bus and met Danielle at the steps of Bryant Park, by the time we realized it was going on upstairs there was already a line, maybe 20 people were ahead of us already. Shortly, Kryzi, Mari, and company came too because the line was getting long. Then a hoard of Japanese fans came and seemed to be really surprised that so many of us had lines up already, LOL! The girls right behind us smiled but some others that came in later looked disappointed – it’s understandable, but hey, we rock that hard.

We were handed questionnaires about TMR and we got interviewed by… someone. I didn’t even bother to ask where she was from. She was interviewing a lot of people and I was upset that some “gundam/anime-only” fans didn’t have a clue about T.M.R., couldn’t name their favorite song (‘cause they didn’t know the names of the songs!), but were all “yeah we love TMR!”… so I asked for us to be interviewed too. Then as we looked at some of the questionnaires other fans filled out (those same people left their sheets on the clipboard instead of handing them in). I read some of their rude questions for Takanori… I was appalled and showed the rest of our group and I took it out of the pile discretely. =/ It really wasn’t my place to do that, but I felt embarrassed that an American “fan” would write that.

Another part of the questionnaire had a song request, stupid me thought he might perform a song acoustic and I enthusiastically ~~commanded~~ asked people to write down “Light My Fire” like the idiot I am. Oh well… Anyway he didn’t perform it, it was just a random question they put there to tease us.

-RADIO SESSION
Aaanyway, soon we were let into the corner where the radio session would be held! Once we were ~~uncomfortably~~ seated (actually because our group was next to the wall, we got to stand – a completely unobstructed view of our man!) we saw other revolutionists in front on the other side (about 11 of us in total! you guys rocked). A few short minutes later, Takanori was announced and he made his entrance. There was so much cheering! Then we finally saw him again and the first thing I noticed were:

Sparkling Silver Pants. Wow. I was almost blinded, but that didn’t stop me looking at his legs and other bits. Tight and sparkly man-pants are a blessing. (I think he has a pair in every color – gold/tan from the boys-only live, black from I don’t remember when, and now silver. I’ll bet he’s got a pink one too.) He was wearing knee high boots as well, and a jacket and his gold ring. He looked perfect, like he had three weeks of rest and didn’t perform a concert last night. The rest of us looked like trash… How does he do it? (Actually, he answered that later…)

It was Mr. Brian Nishi interviewing and translating again! I like that guy.

Honestly, the radio session was my favorite part of the weekend right up there with the concert. I’m surprised I remember so much now – but of course not in order, so here is a list of information my feeble brain was strong enough to retain:

- This is about Takanori’s 10th time visiting New York City!!

- He visited Peter Luger’s in BROOKLYN and had a burger! *faint* he was on the same island I live on. Apparently a Japanese baseball player named Matsui was just in there earlier and the owner of the restaurant kept saying his name, but Takanori didn’t understand and thought he was talking about Matsuzaka, a type of Japanese beef – he was like “They sell that beef here?? O_o;” haha, silly Takanori. (We should have a meet-up dinner there – it’s not hard to get to and it’s in a nice neighborhood if you ignore the hipsters).

- He said that 4 years was way TOO LONG and 1 hour was way TOO SHORT. He wants us to make it possible for him to return. Mr. Ishi said that it was because of his loyal fan base here that he was invited to perform. ^_~ we know! By loyal he means persistent, and by fan base he means us! He encouraged us to be more vocal and strong and bring him back the same way we brought him to New York Comic Con.

- He looked so nervous sometimes, for instance, when they played both the A side and B side of “resonance” he didn’t know where to look or what to do, so he started singing the lyrics to himself, watching a video of himself in booty-shorts on the monitor, waving back at people, and adjusting himself in his seat. He tried not to make eye contact with people. Now I think I can believe him when he says he’s actually shy sometimes, but he turns it off so easily. T.M.Revolution really is like an alter ego! I think it gives him courage and energy too.

- Speaking of energy, someone asked where he gets so much energy before a live, and he responded that it was from us! Like before the concert on Saturday, we were chanting “T.M.R., T.M.R.” and it charges him with energy.

- His favorite anime is Gundam and he said if when he was a child someone told him that he would be involved with it as a voice actor or as the theme song performer he would have peed his pants – when this part was translated, he did a “wetting himself” motion by opening his legs and with his hands made a waving gesture from his crotch to the floor and I couldn’t stop laughing!!

- What inspires his music? Everyday life, his fans, and big experiences like being in New York. So everything and anything can inspire him.

- Then they asked Jessica’s question which was “What do you do to keep so beautiful?” LOL. He thought about this for a moment and apologized because he doesn’t have a straight answer - he just wakes up and *whoosh* he’s that beautiful. LOL, I think someone responded that they want to be able to do that and then he said just to wake up and “be”. How sweet!

- Someone else asked about his nails too. And he was so excited he started showing off his nails and he just went on and on about how he invites his nail designer friend over to his house to do his nails… then he stopped himself, apologized and took it back saying “actually, I just wake up and they’re that way” – we all laughed. He mentioned that he got many compliments and looks about his nails during the autograph session when they shook his hand and he seemed pleased.

- Mr. Brian Nishi was trying to ask a question but his intro to the question was too long, and Takanori just started pointing his microphone to him as if to say “fine, keep going, I mean, this radio show’s not about ME or anything!”

- At one point Mr. Brian Nishi messed up in the middle of saying “T.M.Revolution” and Takanori was faux-offended and shouted “WHAT??” in English. Then Mr. Ishi tried again. Takanori had this look on his face like “you betta’ reco’nize, fool!”

- Two guys from the podcast show “GeekNights” came to ask him some questions. They asked about gundam and if he would ever consider going on their show, and I believe they asked what’s the difference between American and Japanese fans… he had a really difficult time trying to answer this question actually, because he didn’t want to upset either group – he answered that we have a lot of similarities actually but he didn’t go any further with that because his Japanese fans “will be getting little jealous that he’s been doing concerts here before Japan.”

- My favorite question was “What is your advice to aspiring musicians” and his answer made me tear up because it’s exactly what I needed to hear. He said (major paraphrasing): “For Musicians …and artists in general, you always have to keep hope. If you always keep hope and never give up things in life will just fall in place. And if you’re thinking your work isn’t being recognized, you have to keep on going because eventually you will be recognized – Before I new it, I’m performing overseas for you in New York city. People will listen and pay attention, just don’t give up hope!”

- At the end, Takanori took a lot of pictures with the group – I tried to squeeze in but I doubt I’m in there, lol. I’ll be on the lookout for them though! They will most likely be posted here or here. *crosses fingers*

The radio session was recorded for Japan's Tokyo FM station and JFN affiliates and will be aired on Saturday midnight in the Tokyo area. If you’re in Japan, please record it! I’d love to have an accurate account of what happened and not just my mind playing influence on my memory. And plus, it was so damned funny. I really love that man.

After he left, they played the B-side to “resonance” I believe it’s called “Soul’s crossing” and it sounds just as fast-paced as “resonance”. The songs were on a loop so I didn’t want to leave. Also, I wanted to get pictures of the “stage” and Mr. Ishi – and we did. We talked to him for a while about the fan base mobilizing and how stupid we were that we couldn’t work cameras long enough to take one good picture of us. I also pimped tmrevolutionist to him… afterwards I was like “wth did I just do?!”

So then we were on our way out when I was pulled over by staff to help with something…

After returning to the booth the girls told me how horrible it had been during the day. Apparently it was illiterate people’s day because people kept trying to touch the costumes despite the signs and despite everyone saying so. Also it was kids day so I’m sure every child wanted to touch the fur and velvet on the U:C costumes.

At 5pm, the con was officially over and we took 2 hours packing up! We were thanked greatly for our hard work during the weekend. We were all so tired and just needed a bed. Everyone had a moment on the mountain of bean bag chairs at the next booth and we called it a day. After cabs picked up Japanese staff and we said our final goodbyes, Mari, Laura and I walked to the Karaoke Box!

-KARAOKE PARTY!
We got to Duet 35 Karaoke at about 7:50 and met with other Japanese Winds-Turbo staff. There we met with Jessica and Lara. We got settled into our room which was very nice and big, I’ve never been in that room before.

Romy introduced all the Japanese members and we introduced ourselves (Romy translated everything the entire evening, sorry Romy-san!). Then we started typing in our songs. I don’t remember all the songs we did, but we started with a lot of T.M.Revolution songs of course! Lara and I did “CHASE/THE THRILL” which was a lot of fun. Mari did at least 3 or 4 other songs in Japanese and everyone was impressed and thought she was so cute! (she is!)
We did a lot of group performances like Jackson 5’s “A. B. C.” and “Bohemian Rhapsody” which was way too long, lol. After those, I’m convinced they think we’re crazy. And fans got up and did “Hot Limit” together – I can’t believe I messed up on the first dance move, though, wth! I “yo! Say!”-ed my neck.

I remember some Gackt goings on too – I was faux-upset because they had the Gackt videos on the screen but no TMR videos… that is, until “Aoi Hekireki” came up! I get such a kick out of that video! ♥ It must be the bejeweled jumpsuit...

At about 10 pm we prepared to leave – but the Japanese fans had a surprise for us! They gave us all gifts! How sweet of them… I had no words for their generosity. They even gave limited edition goods for an anime “Gurren Lagann”. (If you see that anime, please give us feedback to send to them, OK? A w-t staff member works for that animation company.)

They just kept giving gift after gift and we didn’t have anything for them but ♥ love. We exchanged many, many hugs and pledged to meet each other half-way the next time we came together. We promised to practice our Japanese and English. We finally left after much confusion because I can’t add properly or explain tax! -_- but it’s OK – everyone had fun.

After yet another quick goodbye to everyone and a McDonald’s run, it was only Mari, Spencer and I left – When I made my final, final, final goodbye of the weekend to Mari I just cried.

This was one of the most fun weekends I’ve ever had and I’m so glad to have met everyone. I’ve been talking with many of you on lj and through email and chats, but nothing beats this weekend. That final goodbye made me realize I didn’t have a chance to hang out with you guys as much as I wanted… but we will have more opportunities in the future because we’ll make this happen again!!

So, you see, I should be on cloud 9 right now (“9”, lol). The thing is... as of April 19th, I've seen the three bands I've been totally living for (and now I can admit that TMR is #1 on that list). Right after the concert and again on Sunday after karaoke... I felt like it was all over, but it took me a day or two to realize my new goals.
1. I'm going to learn Japanese - I wanted to understand his words directly and I wanted to communicate with the Japanese fans but I couldn't, also, Takanori is studying English to communicate with us better so I want to meet him half way.
2. I also want to help T.M.R. come back to perform in the US again - I think this is one of his goals and I want to help him reach his dreams.
3. And finally, I will go to see him perform in Japan!!

Thanks for reading!

[EDIT] Interviewer guy = Mr. Brian Nishi (yes, i used his full name everytime i mentioned it here, lol. he's cool!)

Walken on the universe!!

violetcloud — Wed, 26 Sep 2007 00:53:07 GMT

view from outside my morning classes.

violetcloud — Tue, 28 Aug 2007 23:26:44 GMT

the view outside of my morning classes.