I want to line the pieces up...

OH MY GOD

2012-09-18T13:32:27Z

I am so ready for this game you guys have no idea. I have been playing the first one almost every night with my husband for weeks. Seriously, we played it so much we maxed out our characters (but then we couldn't face Crawmerax because he's a dickface).

Borderlands 2 is going to rock my face off, I already know.

I'm beginning to hate my job.

2012-08-23T17:52:24Z

I spend most of my days at work goofing off on the computer. Honestly, I don't understand why they pay full time staff to do this little work, when our busiest days are Mondays and Fridays. Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful to have a job with decent pay and benefits. But I wish I could get all my work done for the day and go home to do something more productive. I could be doing laundry, I could be cleaning my bathroom, or I could simply just read a book, but can't because I'm stuck here. You might tell me to just bring my book to work, but that gets me in trouble. I'd read e-books if my phone wouldn't have a heartattack and die (or if I had a tablet). I've read so much fanfiction in the last two weeks, but there's hardly anything good out there.

I have most of my supplies for my latest cosplay project. I'm missing the stuff for the vest. I just... forgot to buy anything for it. I guess I can just get it when I get the rest of my little supplies, like the beads and hair clips. I hope my little brother likes it. I'm just going to surprise him next weekend. And then I have another cosplay in my collection!

Maybe I'll spend the next two hours writing my own fanfiction. I haven't done that in a while.

Cosplay

2012-08-22T18:41:29Z

I never thought that I would cosplay a pokemon character. But this is it.

Dawn from the Diamond and Pearl series. My little brother is having a Pokemon themed birthday party, and when I asked him what his favorite character is (aside from Ash, obviously), this is who he said. I thought it would be really cute to show up to his birthday dressed as her. I'm having the hardest time finding a skirt. I don't mind that it won't be perfect since it's a costume to show up at a 9 year old's birthday. But I literally can't find any pink skirts. And I really don't want to make it, but I might end up having to.

Also, the only place I can find a blue wig in town is an adult store. The thought of cosplaying a ten year old with a wig from an adult store is really funny to me.

Other than cosplay fun times, life has been relatively great. You know, aside from the eviction in which I had to move all of my stuff in four days, with little time to contact the court to explain. But we're all settled back in his parents' basement, and Cameron is home, so all is well. Aside from work. Work is incredibly boring. I get to spend the next hour and a half pretending I have actual work to do when, in reality, I'm reading or writing or posting on forums. While these things are fun, I'd rather be doing ANYTHING ELSE.

My two-cents

2012-08-02T15:18:23Z

I'm guilty of eating at Chick-fil-a. I'm guilty of eating there in the past few months. But with all this controversy surrounding it, and everyone talking about it, I feel the need to voice my opinion. Take it as you will, but I'm not very confident when it comes to speaking out in public or protesting or what have you, but I'm going to use this entry as a chance to voice my thoughts.

I believe in the right to express one's opinion. Depending on what you say, there could be definite backlash for it. I'm not judging Chick-fil-a for their views or their right to express those views. What I have a serious problem with is the fact that they have donated over $5 Million to anti-gay groups in order to restrict people of their constitutional rights. That is what is wrong, and that is why I refuse to spend any more of my money there.

Maybe I was hoping that Bloomington was a bit more open minded. Maybe I was hoping that not a lot of people would show up yesterday to support them. But I was wrong, and all it does is show me that all anyone cares about in this presidential race is homosexuality. There are so many other issues in this country, but people don't support or care about those things. Our school system is falling apart at the seams but no, you'd rather spend your money on fatty foods to support a business that would rather see people suffer than advance our country on things that actually matter.

What this country needs more than anything is a stern slap in the face and some education on topics that matter and are important to the advancement of this nation. I'm tired of seeing the media filled with hate and ignorance and bigotry. Step off and go focus on something else. Or donate to a cause that is actually worth while.

OH MY GOSH

2012-08-02T13:27:13Z

I know, I said I wasn't going to post for a little while, but I'm at work with LITERALLY NOTHING TO DO. There's something about KH3D that I just realized. And maybe I knew it was going to happen, or understood that was going to happen. But it's still shocking all the same.

It's not really a spoiler since it doesn't involve the story so much as the way the game plays, but I'll put it under a spoiler link anyways.

I have played a total of 4 KH games now that don't involve Donald and Goofy as party characters. Granted, two of those games didn't have Sora as the main character, but still. I knew ahead of time that KH3D was incorporating a new twist on the fighting system that most of the handheld games have had (as in, incorporating all of the of the buttons instead of two). And I knew a brief rundown of the Dream Eaters, but I had no idea that they would make it THIS interactive. It really feels like NintendoDogs and Pokemon got together and had a baby, and that baby is the Dream Eaters.

Despite all of this, I really like how well the "link" ability works with the Dream Eaters. I love how they played off of Sora and Riku's capabilities (Sora fights with them and Riku takes their powers). I love the free-flow system. Interacting with the environment and enemies is really entertaining, though I'm not a big fan of switching between combat and stylus attacks. That part is kind of clunky for me, but maybe I'll get used to it the more I play.

I really didn't like the game at first. Switching between Riku and Sora in the middle of shit is really frustrating at times. especially when the switch happens in the middle of a story based combat (because then when it switches back you have to start all over). I'm glad they added the Drop-Me-Not items, but I haven't had a chance to use them because I really don't want to use up my attack slots for that.

I will be without kid and husband this weekend, so I'll be able to play KH3D until my fingers fall off. Cam will also be gone for two weeks with the National Guard. They are doing this thing called AT (I don't know what it stands for). But while he's gone I have to pack to move out. We have court for our eviction tomorrow, and we're going to be moving back in with his parents for the time being. It sucks, but at least we have somewhere to go. I just wish the complex would have worked with us like they said they would.

It's finally here!!!

2012-07-31T14:56:03Z

If I drop off the face of the earth for a week or so, it's because I'm busy with all of my free time playing KH3D!!! It's finally out today!!! Ahhhhhhh!!!!

I'm about ready to take my lunch break to pick up my copy of the game, but that leaves me with four dreadful hours of waiting to play, maybe even longer since Madeline is with us tonight. I can't deny a two year old just because I want to play a game, but dammit, I want to play it so bad it hurts.

Seriously. I have been DYING for this game for over a year now. I have a 3DS, thankfully, and I hope that the game is good. I've heard great things about it.

So, I take my leave. So long! I will see you guys on the other side~~~

"My friends are my power!"

2012-07-11T12:44:46Z

I beat Birth By Sleep last night. And while I enjoyed playing new characters with new techniques, there is one thing that really irks me. And maybe it's because there are still things to unlock, but I feel like it ends without clarifying WHAT HAPPENS TO THEM. I'll put the rest under a cut so I don't spoil anything for anyone.

So, I played the characters in order, Terra, Ventus, and Aqua. I understand that Terra is basically taken over by Xehanort because Xehanort's body had grown old. It then makes sense why in KH1, Ansem tried to take over Riku's body. Obviously, a younger body is better for his line of work, and it makes even more sense that it's Riku since Terra passed "the power" of the Keyblade to him.

Ventus makes more sense after beating Aqua's story, I understand that his heart is in limbo, but what happens when he wakes up? Where does that story go? And what does Aqua do? If she's still alive, are we going to see her in KH3D, or KH3?

I wonder about these things, especially after only seeing one of the Organization turned Nobody. I fought "Braig" but I know it was really Xigbar. What happens to the rest of them? I really want to know their story. KH 358/2 Days didn't explain anything before the Organization was formed.

Also, WHY DOES VANITAS LOOK LIKE DARK SORA???????
I guess the creators just wanted to tie things in to the original games, but shit. I get that they were like "Well, Sora was separated from his heart and created Roxas, so if we make Ventus look like Roxas, then when darkness is pulled from his heart, that character would obviously look like Sora." And maybe when Ven's heart was put in limbo, it traveled to Sora's since apparently that's where all separated hearts go (looking at you, Kairi...). Also, I didn't realize it was Haley Joel Osment as the voice until towards the end of Ven's story when he took off his mask. I was like "HOLY SHIT BALLS SORA!" Cameron laughed at me.

Speaking of the original three, there were two ADORABLE scenes. One with little Kairi, and one with Sora and Riku. Oh my gosh it was TOO CUTE!!!!

Anyway, my goal now is to 100% complete the game. The more trophies I unlock, the more videos I get to see. So... yeah.

Happy belated 4th of July~

2012-07-05T13:53:14Z

I had to walk in the parade yesterday for the county Democrats wearing a kind of unattractive Cathy Smith for Treasurer (though I did try to make it as attractive as I could). I swear, I sweat through my clothes three times over. The air was muggy and stagnant, so there was no way to really cool down. And the kids were so rude! I would give them candy and then they would be all, "I want that other kind," or they would try to grab a handful out of my bucket. One kid tried to run out in the street when I dropped something, so I tried to corral him the best that I could.

Later on Cam and I went to see The Amazing Spider-Man, and it was FANTASTIC. I would go see it again. Spoiler: Emma Stone is SO HOT as Gwen Stacy.

And then we did something we haven't done in FOREVER. We played video games for six or seven hours. I took a nap for about an hour and a half of it, but I got through Terra's story in BBS, and halfway through Radiant Garden in Ven's story (which is four and a half worlds). I really want to beat it before KH3D comes out but I also want to play Lollipop Chainsaw. Decisions, decisions. Hah! Side note: really getting confused with Ventus, because I keep accidentally calling him Roxas when I talk out loud about him.

A good friend of mine, pinkplaidprose texted me last night these words: "Dante or Yoko Kurama?" And I about died trying to pick. I think we are going to do DMC cosplays, which would be amazing! As long as I don't have to cosplay Virgil, I'm good. I might pick a chick from one of the games, but I really want to do one of the guys. I'm not really chesty enough for the girl characters. But we haven't OFFICIALLY decided what to do yet as Youmacon is several months away. We should decide soon, though~

I haven't done this in a while.

2012-06-25T12:52:55Z

So, I found a few LiveJournal Kingdom Hearts Questionnaire, so I figured I'd do them since it's my favorite series and fandom. Click the cut, there's just one but it's kinda long.

1. Your favorite KH guy?

Riku, but I could be just a little biased (I'm totes a Sora cosplayer)

2. Your favorite KH girl?

Olette, since she never got that much screen time. Also, I just realized there aren't a lot of KH girls...

3. Your least favorite KH guy? Why?

Lexeaus. But probably because he's just kind of... there.

4. Your least favorite KH girl? Why?

Namine. Never been a big fan.

5. Favorite World? (Includes both KH1 and KH2)

Twilight Town, hands down. There's a lot to do and see there.

6. Least Favorite World?

Agrabah. Every KH game I have played, I have always struggled with Agrabah.

7. Favorite Weapon? (Includes both KH1 and KH2)

Keyblade. Duh.

8. Least Favorite Weapon?

Vexen's shield. Shields are dumb.

9. Fav. Summon? (includes both KH1 and KH2)

Stitch. So adorable!!!

10. Fav. Form? (aka. Sora's Forms)

Final Form is the best, but I think my favorite by appearance is the Master Form.

11. Favorite Pairing? (includes yaoi coupling) Why?

SoraRiku, totally meant to be. The evidence is right there, you don't even have to look for it.

12. Least Fav. Pairing? (includes yaoi couples) Why?

Roxas/Namine, because AkuRoku is too cute.

13. Any cool crack pairings you've heard of? List 'em.

Cloud/Demyx

14. Weirdest Pairing(s) You've Ever Heard Of?

Sephiroth/Mickey, and yes, there is a weird fanfic of it.

15. Any "Kh-pet-peeves" you have?

People who get all up tight over nothing. Someone likes to pair Kairi and Sora? So what! You don't have to read or look at it.

16. Fav. Partner in KH? (includes both KH1 and KH2)

Riku. He makes fights cooler.

17. Do you believe in the Xemnas/Saix theory?

Totally one hundred percent.

18. Do you believe that Zexion is emo?

No, I think he just doesn't let his emotions come out to play.

19. Do you believe that Marluxia is gay?

Yes. Rose petals. Pink, girly flourishes of rose petals. Need I say more?

20. Do you believe that Kairi is the most annoying character in KH?

No, she's not bad. She's not in it that much, and she's really adorable.

21. If Roxas had to choose either Namine or Olette, who would you root for? Why?

Namine, but on the side he has flings with Axel.

22. What's your theory on KH: Birth by Sleep?

Theory? I know it's about the past Keyblade masters, that's about it.

23. Was Chain of Memories a waste of time?

Nope, it was actually really enjoyable. I loved it.

24. If you had the choice of meeting ONE (and ONLY ONE!) KH character, who would it be?

Riku, hands down (but you guys knew that already)

25. Which KH character do you relate to the most? Why?

Sora. He's bubbly and adorable.

26. What's the most embarrassing moment that ever happened to you that had something to do with KH?

A chick dressed as Riku at a convention came up to me (dressed as Sora) and full on made out with me. And, at the time, I had mono, and she was just this random person, and I couldn't stop her in time, so I didn't mention it.

27. Have you ever cosplayed as a KH character? If so, who? If not, who would you like to cosplay as?

Yes, Sora. He's my absolute favorite.

28. The Funniest Moment in all of KH would be...?

When Sora made the fishy face at Riku. "Like this."

29. The Hardest Enemy/Boss was...?

I always have a hard time with Riku in KH1, when he's been possessed by Ansem.

30. What was a good edition in KH2 that made it oh-so-addictive?

Reaction Commands. It made it easier to use skills. Having to scroll through a command list in KH1 was very difficult, and as a result, I never used them.

31. Hayner or Pence?

Hayner

32. Zexion or Marluxia?

Zexion

33. Riku or Roxas?

Riku

34. Roxas or Sora?

Sora

35. Axel or Demyx?

Axel

36. Kairi or Larxene?

Kairi

37. AkuRoku or SoRiku?

SoRiku

38. Namixas or Namiku?

39. Zemyx or AkuRoku?

Akuroku (Can't I have both?)

40. SoKai or SoRiku?

Soriku. There is no competition.

41. Sea Salt Ice Cream or Paopu Fruit?

Paopu Fruit

42. Cloud or Leon?

Leon.

43. CloTi of Clerith?

Cleon duh.

44. Simple and Clean or Passion?

Simple and Clean

45. List all the KH character you've fallen for. (This includes Final Fantasy charcter as well)

Riku, Axel

46. What crossovers would you like to see with KH?

Meh.

47. Does anyone in KH look like another character? List 'em all!

Axel and Reno are long lost brothers, swear to god.

48. Which new KH game can you absolutely NOT wait for?

Kingdom Hearts DDD!!!!!!!!!

49. Do you like KH1 or KH2 better? Why?

Hard to choose! I love the nostalgia KH1 gives me, but I enjoy playing KH2 more.

50. LAST QUESTION! What makes Kingdom Hearts one of the best games in the world!?

The depth of the story is pretty awesome, and I got really attached the all the characters.

Too excited

2012-06-20T19:42:07Z

So, I just pre-ordered a copy of Kingdom Hearts: Dream Drop Distance. And since ordering it, I have not been able to sit still. All I can think about is how AWESOME it is going to be to play a new KH game that, I don't know, actually continues the plot towards KH3. And there are still two games I need to beat before it comes out. Well, technically three, but I don't think I need to beat When the World Ends with You before DDD comes out.

Yes, I know what you're thinking. Haven't you had Birth By Sleep and Re: Coded for a while? Haven't you had plenty of time to get it done? Well, actually I haven't. For one, my PSP was stolen with my copy of Birth By Sleep in it (and the memory card with the saved game) almost two years ago. For two, I got really pissed off at Re:Coded and stopped playing it for like ten months.

Yesterday, I went to our local game store, Game World, and purchased a used PSP. For the past three days, all I have done at home is play Re:Coded. I think I'm almost done with it, but I could be wrong. Click the spoiler for my thoughts on it:

I just got to Hollow Bastion, after Maleficent and Pete ran off with a frozen cyber Riku, who is apparently created by Jiminy's journal to protect the memories therein, which is weird. But I'm not surprised, Square Enix. Not surprised. I was not pleased with the fact that Maleficent shattered my keyblade and I didn't even get a wooden sword this time. I mean, in KH1 when you first get to Hollow Bastion, you get your keyblade taken away, but at least you get a sword to defend yourself. No, I didn't even get that.

But I was thankful that Goofy and Donald came to my rescue. I think their commands are fun, and they're actually really good in this game. Donald doesn't die every five seconds, and Goofy actually does what he is supposed to do.

The only part of the game that really frustrates me is the "unique and different" boss battles. They are overly frustrating and unnecessarily difficult. I don't have the full range of controls I do in any of the other games, which makes it too challenging and less fun. Yes, I'm all for challenge, but come on. Sora continually running down a long road as the Trickster is throwing fire balls at you that you can barely dodge in time, and all you can do is shoot your own fire balls through the tip of your keyblade. Really, Square Enix? Really?

So, I'm super excited to see what they do with the Tron world this time in Dream Drop Distance. I saw a screen cap of some of the characters from Tron:Legacy, so I feel like it's going to be more awesome than the Tron world was in KH2.

I could go on and on, so I'll spare you. Getting ready to go home and play more KH!

I'm engaged!

2012-03-22T16:46:46Z

I haven't posted in a while. But I'm engaged!

Our wedding is May 1st and I'm super excited!!!

Desperate.

2011-07-14T02:39:01Z

I'm thinking about applying for a second part-time job.

Writer's Block: Look into my crystal ball

2011-07-13T21:16:30Z

I see myself married, maybe pregnant (probably not in five years, but we'll see), and living on base with Cameron somewhere. I might be in school or doing an online program by that time.

Writer's Block: Going the distance

2011-07-11T09:50:30Z

In my current relationship, I would without a doubt. Cameron is training to be an officer in the army, so when he gets his commission, we will have to move to a base he gets stationed at.

But it's ok, because army wives are very supportive and are going through the same thing I am going through. The community is so tight knit that we should be fine.

Vlogging from Georgia!

2011-07-09T02:32:22Z

One Shot AkuRoku: age

2011-07-08T20:56:21Z

Title: age
Author: vertical_orbit
Genre: Drama
Word Length: 1,883
Synopsis: "You don't look old enough to be here, kid." But he was, and the red head was too inviting for him to pass up.
Yaoi/Yuri/Pairings: Axel/Roxas

Roxas never did anything the normal way.

He spent the majority of his youth playing in the dirt outside than in front of the television. In junior high, he asked his best friend, a boy, to his first dance instead of a girl. In high school, he didn't graduate with the normal diploma. He found a full time job in a title search company for real estate instead of going to college.

In his office, he was the brightest among the heavy set women and men who were stuck in their dead end jobs that made them enough money to get by. He was helpful, cheerful, and did his best to make things right. He wasn't meant for a desk job, he was meant for something more. But his salary was enough to let him live on his own and still have money to do what he wanted.

What he wanted wasn't always what he ended up with.

Nevertheless, Roxas saved as much as he could. He had a car, but he didn’t drive it to work. His apartment was located only a few blocks away from downtown where his work happened to be, so he walked there and back every day during the week.

And so was the routine. He woke up early in the morning to get ready and eat breakfast, went to work, did the menial tasks that were required of him, walked home, made dinner, took a shower, went to sleep. And then he woke up a repeated the process over and over. And over. And over again.

While his friends were taking classes, staying up late studying for finals, he was waking up early and working to put himself through life. He wasn’t made for school.

Every so often someone would come into the office and ask him how old he was. He was too young for his position; he couldn’t possibly have a college degree. He told him he didn’t, and they were always amazed. “You aren’t a normal young person,” an older lady had told him once, and he shook his head, said “No, ‘mam, I’m not.”

Roxas was anything but normal, and strived to keep it that way.

He was walking home from work when he got the call.

"Hey, wanna go to the bars tonight?"

His cousin Sora, ever the cheerful, was planning a get together for the college students finishing finals. Roxas, being college aged and friends with all of them, was always invited out for the fun. Most of the time he tried to keep them out of trouble. Sora was really good at getting them in trouble.

"Sure. What time?"

X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X

Sora and his crew met at Roxas's apartment at 10 o'clock. Roxas was dressed to kill in his dark blue pinstripe button up and light jeans, a few rings on his fingers and a small chain necklace dangling from his neck. He left his collar unbuttoned a few, showing off a bit of his chest. If he was going to go out, he wanted to look good.

Riku, Sora's friend whom Roxas was sure Sora had "special relations" with, gave him the up and down gaze. "You look hot tonight."

Roxas fought back a blush, and quietly responded, "So do you." He greeted the others with a hug. Kairi and Selphie, who were dressed in tiny pink and yellow dresses respectively, giggled together as he hugged them, already a bit tipsy and smelling of vodka. He whispered a "good to see ya" in their ears. Tidus and Wakka high fived him when he greeted them.

"So!" Sora shouted from his kitchen, a bottle of hard liquor in one hand and a few shot glasses in another. "Who wants to do shots?"

The gang filed in to the kitchen as Sora poured rum into several shot glasses, getting some of the contents from the bottle all over the counter.

Riku grabbed the first one. "What are we toasting to?"

Roxas shrugged, grabbing his shot. "Who says we have to toast?"

"It's a shot, Roxas! Can't do shots without a toast!" Sora shouted, stumbled a little to keep his balance. "Let's toast to summer!"

"To summer!"

"To getting laid!" Riku added on right before they tossed their shots back.

Rum was Roxas's alcohol of choice, especially Malibu, which is what Sora chose off of his shelf. He loved the feeling as it went down his throat, settling in to his stomach with a light warm sensation.

They did another round of shots before leaving the apartment and heading off to the bars. Roxas lived in an apartment in downtown Traverse Town, only a block away from the strip of bars down Fantastia Lane. The bar scene that night was wild. College students were giving it their last go around before most of them left for the summer. The Blue Rhapsody, a night club famous for it's drinks and djs, was the first bar they decided to hit when Riku hooked and arm around Sora's and all but dragged him in.

Tidus ran up to the bar and ordered a round of Jager Bombs for the group, and then chugged a whole cup of beer before dancing up on Selphie. Roxas, not much of a drinker, sat at the bar with one drink in his hand and casually sipped on it. He kept an eye on his friends in the crowd dancing.

Kairi nudged him with her elbow. "So, have you met anybody?"

The question threw Roxas for a loop, not quite sure why she asked that. "Um..." he paused, unsure of what to say. He didn't want to say anything suspicious. “Not recently.”

"That's too bad."

"What's too bad?"

She took a swig of her drink, pineapple and malibu rum, and swayed a little. "Too bad for you. That you don't like women."

"How did you--"

"Please." She put her hand over his mouth and leaned in, whispering, "It's so fucking obvious." When she released him, she wrapped an arm around his waist and pulled him close. "You're too cute."

Roxas hadn't known Kairi for very long, but she was a cute drunk. And while he might now be attracted to her, that didn't stop him from wanting to dance. "Come on," he said as he grabbed her hand and pulled her out onto the dance floor.

They danced together for a while, laughing and smiling. They watched Wakka hit on a girl at the bar and get a drink poured on him, and they watched as Riku grabbed Sora and led him into the back of the club. It wasn't until Kairi ran into a guy she knew that he left the dance floor for another drink at the bar.

"Give me a Redbull and vodka." He told the bartender, slumping down on a barstool. "Extra vodka."

“You don’t look old enough to be here, kid.”

Roxas heard the man speak as he saw a hand placed on the bar in front of him, could feel the warmth of his breath on his face. He turned to look up at the man. Deep green eyes met his, and for a moment Roxas couldn’t move. He took in the man, fire engine red hair spiked back and triangles tattooed under his eyes. The man had one hand on the bar (he was wearing fishnet gloves) and another on the back of the stool that Roxas was sitting on, cornering him against the bar table.

“E-excuse me?”

“How old are you?”

“21.”

The man smirked, backing off of Roxas and taking a seat next to him. “21, huh? Better than the alternative.”

The bartender brought Roxas his Redbull and vodka, and before Roxas had pulled out his wallet, the red head had already placed a five down on the counter. “Keep the change,” he said and winked, the bartender rolled his eyes in response.

Roxas, unsure of what to say other than a quick “thanks,” took a big gulp of the tangy drink, felt the alcohol burn all the way down.

“I’m Axel.” He said, offering out his hand.

Roxas, shyly, shook Axel’s hand. “I’m Roxas.”

“Nice name. Like the ring of it.” Axel held on to Roxas’s hand a fraction longer than normal, smiling. “You live around here?"

“Yeah. Right around the block.”

“You go to school here?”

He shook his head. “Work full time.”

“Ah, nice, I like it.” He watched Roxas take another drink, smirking. “You should finish that so we can go dance.”

Roxas was taken back at the brash move made by this “Axel.” He took another full swig and killed the drink as Axel grabbed his hand and all but dragged him out onto the floor. He could feel the alcohol finally kicking in, metabolizing in his blood stream. The shots combined with the vodka and Redbull made his head twirl, the lights of the club blurring together. He saw red, lots of red, twined his fingers in Axel’s hair as his body moved to the beat. Axel wrapped two arms around Roxas’s waist, pulled him close, leaned down and kissed his neck, kissed his face. Roxas let it happen, didn’t stop it, needed more. He grasped Axel’s tank top and pulled him down, kissed him hard.

“Hey now,” Axel said against Roxas’s lips, their faces touching as they continued to grind their bodies together to the music. “You’re pretty cute.”

“Shut up.”

X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X

Roxas woke up to the sunlight shining through his blinds on the window. He rolled over, glared at it, and pulled the blankets over his head. He had a pounding headache and wasn’t sure how he got home, or why he was naked.

He mustered up the courage after a few minutes to move out of bed. He saw the clothes he had been wearing at the bars all over the floor, his pants right next to the bed.

Someone had been home with him, he knew that much. Was it the red head? He couldn’t remember hanging out with anyone else at the bar other than Kairi. And he certainly wouldn’t have brought her home, even in his drunken state. Not to mention she would have still been there, what with how clingy she tended to be. Didn’t she run off with someone anyway?

Roxas continued to wrack his brain, trying to figure out what he had done last night as he made his way to his bathroom. He splashed warm water on his face and brushed his teeth. Alcohol breath was not appealing in the slightest, left a nasty layer of film in his mouth.

He went back into his room to find his phone, and saw a note on his bedside table next to a glass of water and Tylenol. There was a phone number and the name of a restaurant scribbled after a note addressed to him.

Roxas,

You should stop by my work today and grab a bite to eat.

Also, you’ll be needing those pills. You drank a lot last night.

--Axel

Roxas downed the pills with a big gulp of water. He figured he’d try to meet up with this guy, see where it goes. No harm in that.

After all, Roxas never did anything the normal way.

Love love love

2011-07-05T16:21:26Z

I updated Emotions at War, you can find it here.

I go to Georgia on Thursday or Friday. I am so excited to see Cameron! I spoke with him on the phone yesterday and almost cried. I love him so much, he is everything I need.

Alphabet Prompt table 1

2011-06-28T12:39:14Z

Axel and Roxas fic challenge

01. A	age	10. J	jail	19. S	sky
02. B	bliss	11. K	knight	20. T	toy
03. C	coy	12. L	lay	21. U	urge
04. D	dawn	13. M	mum	22. V	vie
05. E	end	14. N	now	23.W	wine
06. F	fame	15. O	oops	24. X	x
07. G	grin	16. P	pen	25. Y	you
08. H	hell	17. Q	queer	26. Z	zest
09. I	inn	18. R	rich

Doing the a_to_z_prompts challenge. I didn't actually request it or anything, just using the tables.

I. Hate. Remembering. Dreams.

2011-05-30T14:06:54Z

I don't remember my dreams very often, so when I do... I like to write about them. So I can remember them.

It started off really normal. I was with my friend Bastion at a grocery store (like a Walmart that has a grocery section), and I think we were in Avon buying stuff for Steve and Tobi. We turned a corner, and at the end of the section there was this guy staring at us. He was dressed as a character from what I think is mortal combat. And he was walking towards us slowly, and had a real weapon out and ready to strike.

I looked at Bastion, and he told me to run. So, we ran back out of the aisle, and ran into a crowd of people dressed like characters from video games, tv shows, movies, etc. This is when I noticed that there were people screaming and running around frantically. We saw them run into this room, so we followed them. It was this closet that stretched out really long, and people were huddled together and crying.

The "monsters" started to beat on the door, but couldn't break it down and eventually left.

When we left and went back to the Beck's, we found out via the television that there was an outbreak of some kind of infection, almost like the zombie virus, and that we should barricade our homes and wait for the call that it was all ok.

I can't really describe the amount of fear I woke up in, but it was really bad.....

It's time for another meme!

2011-04-01T17:15:13Z

1. Make a list of 5 things that are in reach:
SmartWater water bottle, Wonder Woman figurine, DayQuil, Coach Purse, HTC Incredible phone

2. What is your favorite holiday?
Probably Christmas.

3. What is one item of clothing you wish you could always wear?
My cute skirts, but it's been too cold!

4. What do you plan to do after this meme?
Do some work on coding government employees into our property tax system.

5. What are you listening to right now?
Scott Pilgrim soundtrack, specifically Black Sheep.

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
I was about to say my boyfriend, but that's actually a lie. I hugged Allie about an hour ago.

7. What random song just popped in your head now?
If I'm listening to a song, I don't think a random one can pop into my head...... so Black Sheep still.

8. What did you do today?
I fell down the stairs, ate breakfast, did some coding, ate lunch with my best friend, and I'm still at work.

9. What was the last text message you received you actually liked?
I think the last text message was from Amber about baby stuff. So, I kinda like knowing what I'm doing.

10. What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Facebook, Livejournal, Geekologie, and some meme websites.

11. What is your next big planned purchase?
Besides rent? Probably at the end of the summer when we pay for our couch/chair set AND our super fancy washer/dryer set.

12. Late riser or early bird?
Well, seeing as I have to be at work by 8am, I'd say I'm an early riser.

13. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
If all goes well with Cameron, I suppose I'll be married and living in a house at a base somewhere, probably in South Carolina.

14. Which languages do you want to learn?
I would love to finish learning Japanese, and actually try to learn French. I gave up on the class I took in high school.

15. What are you doing this weekend?
Babysitting! Though, I don't know if it's babysitting if you might end up as the stepparent someday. So.....

16. Are there any movies in the theater you'd like to see at the moment?
Sucker Punch! Limitless, Source Code

17. What's the one thing you need the most now?
As weird as it is to say, I have most everything I need. Really, I just need more money.

18. Are you a creeper?
I don't think so........ I have been before. But not all the time.

19. What was the last thing you ate?
Teriyaki chicken and fried rice at Z&C!

20. Do you like POTATOES?
Yes.....?

Writer's Block: Into the night

2011-03-02T15:23:33Z

Playing video games with the boyfriend.

Writer's Block: Food glorious food

2011-02-28T15:59:47Z

I don't like food enough to want an unlimited supply of something.

inb4 eating disorder. No, I don't have an eating disorder. If I absolutely had to have something, I would probably say filet mignons, just because it's my favorite type of steak.

Emotions at War - Chapter One

2011-02-17T14:45:50Z

Title: Emotions at War
Chapter: 1/?
Author: vertical_orbit
Genre: Romance, Drama
Word Length: 2,169
Synopsis: It’s hard enough to be away from the one you love. But it’s even harder to watch them leave for war without being able to stop them. And Roxas will have to live with that.
Rating: Rated R for adult themes such as drinking or light sexual content. Might go up in later chapters, not for sure.
Yaoi/Yuri/Pairings: Axel/Roxas main, Sora/Riku side, others to come.

Megan wants you to know: Take everything I say about the army with a grain of salt. I don’t really know too much, and I’m going off what people tell me. My boyfriend is doing this whole thing, so it’s been a learning process. If you find something that sticks out as wrong to you, please tell me so I can go back and fix it! Actually, if anything is wrong at all, tell me. I don’t have a beta reader and I don’t catch everything when I read through it.
ALSO DON’T BE CONFUSED BY CHAPTER ONE’S TITLE. It’ll make sense, trust me. Just go with it!
Other things Megan wants you to know: Separate what I’ve written here from what is usually true in society. It’s fiction, so I’ve kinda stretched the truth a little far. None of it is way out there as far as fiction is concerned, but mostly with army things. Like I said, still learning.
Everything else: This was written to a 90’s alternative/grunge radio station on Pandora. Also, I don’t own Kingdom Hearts, and please review if you like!

Chapter One

The End

Indiana University had a program for students that wanted to join the army. It’s referred to as ROTC, which stands for Reserve Officer Training Corps. Roxas can't remember the day Axel told him he was considering on joining. He also couldn't remember the day Axel told him that he was going to do it. Roxas didn't think anything of it. Sure, Axel was busier than usual. He had to get up early some days for training. He had to stay late some days for lab. And to make it easier on him, Roxas made sure that his gear was always clean and ironed.

He had to admit that the uniform turned him on, at least a little bit.

Axel came home from his usual day at university, tired and sore from having to get up early that morning, and slumped down on the couch in their living room. They lived together in a one bedroom apartment that had a small kitchen and dining area to the right of the entrance and to the left was a decent sized living room. They had saved up for a large wide screen television, which Axel promptly turned on to the Discovery channel when he got home. Past the living room was the hallway with a door to the laundry room and bathroom on the right, and the door on the left led to their bedroom.

Roxas came out of the bedroom when he heard Axel come in, walked over, and leaned down to kiss him on the head.

"What's for dinner tonight?" Axel asked as he grabbed Roxas's arm and pulled the boy down on his lap. He buried his head in Roxas's chest.

"I thought maybe we could go out tonight. Some of our friends are getting together at the bars later."

Axel sighed in content. "That would be nice. We'll eat first, then hang out? I kinda want some 'me and you' time."

Roxas laughed. "You get me all the time."

"But that doesn't mean I don't want it!" Axel tossed Roxas down on the couch, and proceeded to sprawl out over him. "I want you all the time. Everyday."

All Roxas could do was smile.

They laid together for a few minutes, cuddled up on the couch as Cash Cab played on the TV. It was one of their favorite shows to watch together, and whenever a question was asked, they would race to be the first to answer. "In the Hans Christian Andersen story, what tiny item did the Princess feel through a stack of mattresses?" Ben Bailey asked a group of what looked like sorority girls.

Roxas shouted first before Axel could even get a chance. "A pea!"

"You jerk!"

They laughed. On the show, one of the girls answered, "Um... I think we're gonna go with a needle?" And then there was the usual pause that Ben Bailey likes to trick people with, and said, "Ooh, sorry girls! The correct answer is a pea. She felt a pea through the mattresses." And then there was a collective moan from the sorority girls in the back seat.

Axel sat up and got off the couch. "Well, I'm going to take a shower. Be ready to go in half an hour?"

Roxas smiled. "Sure."

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Axel had dressed in a nice black button down collar shirt. He wore a loose green tie and it accentuated his eyes, and Roxas loved that. Roxas wore something similar, but in blue with the sleeves rolled up and the shirt left unbuttoned, a wife beater underneath it. He made sure to have his hemp bracelet with three tiny green beads, and Axel wore his but with blue beads. They decided to dress casual formal, both wearing khaki pants and tennis shoes.

Axel was driving, and didn't tell Roxas what restaurant they were driving to. It wasn't a surprise, but Roxas asked him to pick, and Axel didn't want to tell yet. The whole way, Roxas kept asking. And Axel just told him, "Why don't you wait and see?"

Finally, Roxas gave up and turned on the radio to B97. Black Eyed Peas were playing, and Roxas cranked the volume up as loud as it could go. Windows rolled down, bobbing his head to the synthesized tunes. Axel wasn't a huge fan, but he wasn't going to stop Roxas from having fun. The sight of his smile brought a smile to him. It made him warm inside.

Third street was one of the most popular roads in Bloomington and connected downtown to the west side. When they got to the intersection that led to a road with popular dinner spots, Roxas knew where they were going. "Texas Roadhouse! No way. You read my mind."

Axel waggled his eyebrows. "I know you, babe. I know everything about you."

When they finally arrived, there was a bit of a wait. Roxas couldn't ignore some of the strange looks from the older couples. Axel just smirked and made it worse by causing a small scene in the waiting area as he playfully kissed his boyfriend. Roxas was blushing bright red. An older man sitting near them scoffed and mumbled something about queers, but Axel ignored it and whispered to Roxas to let it go, too.

The hostest called Axel's name after a new minutes and led them to their table. Roxas immediately devoured a roll with tons of cinnamon butter. Axel watched him with a stupid grin on his face.

Roxas looked up at him and cocked his head with slight confusion written on his face. "What, do I have butter on my cheek?"

Axel had to laugh at that. "No silly...." He paused, still smiling like an idiot. "I love you."

Cheesy grin, and Roxas replied, "I love you too" with a mouth full of bread.

After drink orders came and food orders were put in, Roxas spoke up. "Why haven't you introduced me to any of your army friends?" Genuine hurt showed on his face.

Axel looked down at the table, not sure what to say or how to say it. "You know how the repealed the 'don't ask, don't tell' policy?" He asked, and Roxas nodded his head. "Well, that doesn't mean I can be open about it. I mean..." He bit his lip, paused for a moment. "I mean, I will catch serious flack from my platoon if they found out."

"Yeah but--"

"Let's say they found out and we were called up for duty. We're fighting in a war now. Do you think that most of them would save me if I were to get shot or wounded? You think they'd fight to the death with me? You think they'd stay on my side...?"

Roxas looked away from him. He didn't say anything for a few minutes. With a sigh, he said, "I'm sorry I brought it up."

Axel reached across the table and grabbed his hand, giving it a small squeeze. "Don't worry about it."

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Axel and Roxas were the first of the crew to arrive at the bars. Brother’s was one of the only bars in Bloomington that didn't charge cover on the weekends, and that's where the gang had arranged to meet. Axel took the first seat available at the bar and ordered a beer. Roxas sat down next to him and ordered a rum and coke.

"You took my seat," someone said from behind him, and Roxas turned around with a huge grin.

"Hey, Riku!" He said right as Sora popped out from behind him. "And Sora, naturally."

The four boys moved to a booth to wait for the others. Axel sat on the outside across from Riku. Drinks were served, and within minutes Sora was giggling to himself about everything.

"So..." Riku began as he took a sip of his drink, "...how's it goin', Ax? Haven't seen you in a bit."

Axel smirked. "School's rough. I've been busier lately. The army thing takes a lot of my time."

"I'm sure. How are you handling that, Roxas?"

Roxas shrugged and sipped on his rum and coke. He leaned his head against Axel's shoulder. "Fine."

Sora squinted his eyes as if trying to focus on something particular about Axel, and shouted, "Are they gonna make you cut your hair?"

Axel nodded. "Eventually, yeah. I usually just slick it back. But when they call me up for duty, I'll probably shave it all off."

"You will look awful bald." A new voice said from behind him.

"Thanks, Zexion. You're so sweet."

Zexion swung his head to the side to move his bangs, typical trait of someone with his hair cut, and said, "That's why I'm here."

More of their friends showed up within the hour. Sora was still drunk by the time they decided to walk down Kirkwood and go to Nick's, a popular Hoosier bar, to play a fun game of Sink the Biz, which consisted of Axel winning the game and Sora giving up to puke in the bathroom about half way through. Kairi and Namine didn't want to participate in the game since it was the dirtiest drinking game besides beer pong in the history of drinking games. They stood at the bar and tried to pick up guys to take home for the evening.

Axel suddenly caught the attention of two people he knew from ROTC, and rushed away from the table. "Hey guys, what's up?"

Roxas watched as Axel got up from the table mid-sentence to walk over to the blonde and black haired guys that were drinking a few feet away. He assumed that the men were part of his platoon, since the only friends Roxas didn't know were the ones in the army. He would later learn that the black haired one was Zack (the leader of Axel's platoon) and the blonde haired went by Cloud, one of Axel many friends. And then he frowned, and realized he wouldn't be able to go over and meet them. That would be a little odd, and he didn't want to make things hard for Axel.

But Riku realized what was going on, and leaned across the table to tell him it was all ok. "Don't worry about it. He's not excluding you. He's thinking about you."

Roxas nodded. "But it still doesn't make me feel good."

"I know."

And that was that.

When Roxas looked back over, Axel had pulled his phone out of his pocket and excused himself from the conversation, waving goodbye as he started to head off into the other room. And then he stopped, a look of understanding and sadness on his face. When he hung up the phone and turned to look at Roxas, and that's when Roxas's world fell apart.

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He was going off to war.

Roxas watched as he packed up his gear. He'd grown accustomed to seeing it lying around his apartment, usually thrown off in a heat of pleasure, crumpled up on the floor. During the day, Roxas would iron it, because a wrinkled uniform would get him in trouble. But now it would be gone, and Roxas would have to realize that. Everything was different now.

He sat down on the bed, watching the floor. He listened to Axel pace back and forth, making sure he had everything he needed. And Roxas spoke, "When do you think you'll be back?"

A sigh as he stopped. "I don't know."

"Axel..."

Roxas looked up then, and Axel was walking towards him. He knelt down, cupped Roxas's cheek in his hand and rubbed lightly with his thumb. "You knew what was going to happen."

But Roxas didn't want to believe that it would happen, not now, not ever. No one wants their lover to go off to fight in a war. It's a horror everyday. You watch the news, read the newspaper, and worry every time you get word that someone else was killed during a horrible battle. Roxas was afraid.

"I just..." His voice broke, and he tried to hold back the tears.

Axel wrapped his arms around the boy, held him tight, didn't want to let go. "I'll be back, babe. This isn't forever."

"But what if--"

"No. I have something I really want to come back to." Axel smirked, and pulled back to look Roxas in the eye. "Something I don't want to lose. I know that makes me a romantic sap, but hey," he paused, and used his thumb to wipe away the tears that broke free, "it's the truth."

Axel kissed him, just a light kiss, and stood up to continue packing his things.

Four years seemed like a long time, now.

They packed everything in the car, and Roxas drove Axel to the airport an hour from their little apartment in southern Indiana. Axel leaned over to give him a kiss when they arrived. Roxas watched as Axel got out of the car. Roxas watched as Axel walked away. And Roxas cried when Axel turned around to wave good bye. What he wouldn't know is that Axel cried that day, too.

Writer's Block: Snacks, don't fail me now

2011-02-15T16:48:52Z

Twizzlers. The pull-and-peel kind. I don't know why, but they're freaking delicious.

Writer's Block: Over the top

2011-02-11T13:56:34Z

JUSTIN BEIBER.
Gosh, he's just like everyone else.
But people (tweens, if you can call them people) have turned him into this bigger deal.
And it's like....... how is he better than everyone else on the market?
I don't get it.