like the blade you stain ♥

unxdeadx @ 2005-10-24T14:31:00

2005-10-24T18:36:23Z

i made this pic a little while ago.
meaning to send it to roleen.
and i will still send it.
but i want to show the lj world that this is my best friend<3<3<3

i love roleen with all my heart.
shes the bestest friend ever.
i hope you do well in school.
& we have to get together more when you're in oshawa.
like this week.

i love you <3

heart; ♥

unxdeadx @ 2005-10-24T13:38:00

2005-10-24T18:06:16Z

so much shit has happened this week.
my uncle ended up passing away on october,19th 2005.
it was really hard on me & my family.
it was so unexpected.
i still cant believe hes gone.
but terri has been here for me & my family throughout the WHOLE thing.
she's been at my house since tuesday night.
and stayed until this morning, when i had to go to school.

the wake and service went well.
terri & josh came with me both days.
brittani, sarah and tj came out for the wake.
devin, erika & brian came to the funeral service.
thank you so much to everyone who was here for me<3
it meant so much to me & my family.

i brought my camera because my aunt wanted pictures of my uncle.
it was somewhat creepy, taking pictures of dead person.
but then afterwards we played with the camera.

i was hitting josh, cuz he made a paper airplane out of my mom's phonecard.

josh, trying to get his phone to work. poor thing. ha.

my camera fucked up. terri's going to die in seven days.

"oh no, im melting.."

brian & devin.

the funeral home lady.

terri & me in the car on the way home.

haha, hes driving.

just brian.

friday night after coming home from the funeral service.
terri, devin, josh, me, erika & brian started a game of monoply.
it was fun.
i definitely lost.
i think.
they kept stealing money from me. asscocks.
then my family came home. then they went out to dinner.
leaving my brother & sister.
so we played pictionary.
guys against girls.
guys won.
then we played disney scene it.
me & cj came in second place.
sweet fucking deal.
then once my family came back home.
we headed to josh's.
we drank.
i had a couple shots.
tonya and jenny came.
we smoke a joint.
then we went home.

saturday brian called me & told me shit josh said.
i told terri.
terri became very upset.
swore never to talk to josh again.
i knew that wouldnt happen. especially if i was in the middle.
which i was. hardcore.
josh took me out driving.
terri didnt talk to him, only me & him talked.
awkward.

sunday we went to mcdonalds. then i called josh.
to see if he wanted to drive with me.
we went to his house.
i told them they need to fucking talk.
only took an hour before terri would start talking to him.
but it all worked out in the end.
and it ended up being brians fault.
so fuck that eh?
but now im cold.

tonight i have a date with jessica black.
at tim hortons.
i cant even afford tim hortons right now.
my credit card should be in the mail.
im going to check the mail.

heart; ♥

unxdeadx @ 2005-10-23T17:34:00

2005-10-23T21:35:20Z

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fuck that eh?
hahahaha.
sweet deal.

unxdeadx @ 2005-10-17T15:27:00

2005-10-17T20:48:19Z

oh shit!! that pretty much sums up my weekend!

[friday]
we left at 6pm after we got all our stuff.
we had to get alcohol, chips, drinks to mix our alcohol & some tim hortons.
after that we were on the road.
we stopped in kingston to go pee!
we saw a lady with a crazy leopard suit.
then we bought this toothbrush for a dollar for josh for his birthday.
he definitely didnt want it. stupid head. ha kidding.
then we kept driving.
we had to stop to get gas. i pumped the gas. i went over 3 cents.
so me & terri went in to pay, and then terri had to pee.
and terri went to the bathroom, & opened the door.
well what does she see?
a guy with his pants down.
yeah so we ran outta there so fast.
josh thought we didnt pay the guy for gas.
ha.
so we kept driving, and we got some harveys.
then it was off to montreal.
we got there on the first try. no gettin lost.
so we got to the hotel @ like ten thirty pm.
we started drinking. as we started drinking we decided to make up hotel rules.
1. no stinky bathrooms.
2.no deletion (from camera)
3.no tooting.
4.no sex.
5.no blowing noses. (josh)
6.no refusal of drinks.
also we were getting ready as we drank.
yeah not a very good combination.
seeing as though terri like hated me when i did her makeup.
cuz josh said it looked like she was going to the circus.
but it look just perfect.
so we drank & drank & drank.
then we went to the bars.
well some guy standing on the street tried to recruit us to this bar.
we said that we were in a band & that we had just played with alexisonfire.
our band name is LongStory.
the guy was like oh yeah alexis is a cool guy.
we were like who the band or the guy? because we were pretty sure that george is the lead singer.
the guy didnt know what the fuck he was talking about. dummy.
there was no cover charge, so we thought why not?
just before that josh had found a five dollar bill on the road. it was wet
since it was raining.
well we got there, & we had to go down the stairs.
well it had been raining all night.
so i definitely slipped down the stairs onto my ass.
it was wet.
it was funny tho.
the bar sucked tho. was not even worth falling down the stairs for.
it was like your dead uncles basement. people chillin' down there.
but we bought a drink.
it sucked too.
so we left.
we then found another bar.
it also sucked.
so we went pee. it was gross.
so we left.
then we found this bar with people dancing.
we stayed. got some drinks.
now, im really fucking drunk.
i cant even stand.
terri & i got malested by pakis. not cool.
but i guess i was so drunk that they took me home.
and we crossed this really big intersection in the middle of it.
while cars drove past us.
they were like dragging me, i couldnt even walk.
we got back to the hotel, and i wanted to drink more, but they wouldnt let me.
they hid alll the alcohol.
then supposedly i tried to run out of the hotel room back to the bars.
and josh had me in a headlock dragging me back to the room.
clearly they were lying. ha. joking.
im prettty sure i was fucked.
but there was this BIG bug on the window. and it was really scaring me.
but then terri killed it for me. so i came back to the bed. but i was scared to sleep near the window.
while i was in the bathroom cuz of the scary bug & i was "mad" so said terri, josh tried to open the bag of popcorn stuff we had, and it went kaboom.
it was ALL of over the floor.

terri & josh, first pic of the trip. yay.

josh, i dont kno what he's doing.

josh & me, our first shot of the weekend.

josh drinking some concoction.

josh & terri

terri lying in bed waiting for some sweet bumsex. ha.

me, drinking my vex.

terri

josh

me & terri, very hott.

josh, terri & me. so cute. i love this pic <3

i dont kno what the fuck is up with this pic. i look retarded & so does josh. haha.

"FUCK YOU. ha."

[saturday]
we got up, and it felt like 457 busses hit me.
so terri & me went to go get tylonal. & terri bought a nasty ass cookie, so i gave it to josh.
so we all showered. seperatly.
then after that josh had to clean up his mess he made. with the popcorn.
then we went out for breakfast.
actually it was more lunch since it was like 2pm.
we got this poutine at some restuarant that they had been to before.
it was pretty good but really filling, and i was also sick.
i also ordered a blue hawaiian, which was amazing.
terri ordered a vodka & sprite, which was perfect. just like josh.
so we went to the SAQ (liquor store, montreal style), and bought some blue caraco (sp?).
because it was in the blue hawaiian drink.
we then drove around everywhere. old montreal, the hilltop thingy. where you could see all of montreal.
it was very beautiful.
we also went to the mall and bought a curling iron so i could curl terri's hair.
and lipgloss.
then we also bought some fruit.
lemons, oranges & limes.
then some pineapple juice, tropical passion juice & apple juice.
then some MORE chips plus salsa. which was NEVEr eaten.
& contact solution (for josh)
we drove around like every street looking for a value village.
& we found one.
ON SUNDAY.
the day after we needed it.
also a salvation army. on sunday.
then we drove around looking for some place to buy a knife cuz we had boughten fruit for our drinks.
we couldnt find a place to buy a knife anywhere.
so we went back to the hotel & got changed into our fancy clothes.
to go out for dinner.
terri needed a safety pin for her coat thingy.
we called down to the front desk.
heres the conversation.
me: hi, i was wondering if i could get some safety pins brought up to 443.
front desk dude: face cloths?
me: no, safety pins.
fdd: oh, to clip paper together?
me: no, saftey pins. to clip clothes together.
fdd: oh uh, hold on. ill send someone to your room.
yeah an hour later, a man brought us a sewing kit.
with the smallest fucking safety pin in the world.
not even fit for a midget.
so we went out.
we couldnt find anywhere to park, so we parked in this parking place. cost 7$. pfft. for under an hour.
then we went to nickle's. yes, just nickle's.
wasnt too bad.
considering we stole a nice sharp knife from nickle's. sweet freaking deal.
but we parked so far away from it, and it was freezing.
also there was a hockey game, which made the streets of montreal even more crowded.
it was awesome tho. the leafs won.
so after eating at nickle's, we went back to our hotel.
because me & terri were wearing high heels, we stayed at the restaurant & made josh get the car.
while we were standing there, some guys were hitting on us.
ha.
so we went back to the hotel & drank some more.
i got so drunk again.
& this time terri got more drunk.
cool beans.
we went to some bars again, but ended up at the same bar.
just because people were dancing.
and there wasnt bad music.
again we were malested by paki's.
ha.
but again we saved each other.
josh wasnt malested by any paki guys.
but at the restaurant we went to that morning, the guy was checking him out.
we ask the guy at this hotel for a map & some good bars.
he was looking josh up & down.
it was hilarious.
so after the bar ended we went home aka hotel home.
terri wanted to drink.
i couldnt drink anymore.
i probably would have died.
& thought she had put coke in it.
and i definitely hate coke.
we passed out.

josh cleaning up his popcorn mess.

terri with her new lipgloss.

josh driving.

some dude on a sign, hes so cute.

our drink table<3

terri drinking her apple juice.

me & terri at nickle's.

josh eating his fork at nickle's!

a beautiful drink josh made.

me josh & terri, looking very hott;)

terri looking very sexy with the stirstick.

yeah, go josh!!

me & josh.

me & terri

[sunday]
we were actually out on time.
terri didnt need to be pregnant, with a brain tumor, kidney failure & a sprained ankle.
even tho we had the story all put together, would have been funny.
then we went to moe's for breakfast.
very expensive.
it definitely set us back.
but we thought we had enough money.
so we drove the the casino.
played a couple of slots.
then played a game of Keno.
definitely didnt win.
lol.
so we went to go put gas in and josh went to use his debit. definitely wasnt enough money in there.
but he had a 20 dollar bill.
so he checked his account.
yeah he had 9$ in there.
definitely not enough for us to get home in.
but i had a cheque from my grandma.
so i cashed it.
so we now had 29$ for gas.
yeah, not enough to get us home.
well the first 20 we put in was wasted driving in circles around montreal trying to leave.
good thing we got the map.
cuz first thing we started to get onto the highway, but then josh realized that he was going east, not west.
so we had to get off and find our way to the west highway.
well we drove around the same streets like 138 times.
then was stopped by some walkers. i think it was some walk for cancer or something.
but everyone was walking. in their sharp bright yellow casino de montreal ponchos.
unless they decided today was a day to walk. i dont know.
then while we were driving we saw some guys ass. again.
we had our share of nasty ass's today. ha.
so we found our way to highway.
well we put the remaining 29$ in there.
it got us to brockville.
well we had NO more money.
so we ended up putting back on our dressy clothes.
& we went door to door asking people to help donate to my dying nephew with a brain tumor.
we got 15$ outta that.
then we went to mcdonalds & said that we were there ealier and we had burnt burgers.
so we got three free meals, AND money back for the "food" we ordered.
so we got 30$ in brockville.
it got us home!
yay!
we got home at like 12:30am!!
but, i wouldnt trade this trip for anything.
it was amazing.
i fucking heart terri & josh. they're the best.

terri's ass. sweet fucking deal;)

our hotel room, kinda messy, but yeah. what do you expect? ha.

terri reading the archies!

josh singing at the stop light.

me & terri after our door-to-door scam. josh got cut off ha.

mine & josh's mcdonalds cups. free food always tastes better!

i dont kno what is wrong with him, i think he was putting on his seatbelt. wierd.

terri being way cute!

me, being naturally hott;) ha.

unxdeadx @ 2005-10-14T13:56:00

2005-10-14T18:09:02Z

so this weekend i am going to montreal.
im so excited.
im going with terri & josh.
should be fun!

i leave in a couple hours.
im not even packed yet.
clothes are still in the dryer.
i think they are almost done.
hopefully.
i need clothes.
im bringing my whole wardrobe.
and nine pairs of shoes.
me & terri picked them out last night.
theres nine.
we couldnt decide.

ok gotta pack.
bye.

heart; ♥

unxdeadx @ 2005-10-13T17:27:00

2005-10-13T21:45:20Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	jess
Birthday:	august 30th nineteen eighty seven
Birthplace:	a hospital
Current Location:	my house
Eye Color:	brown
Hair Color:	light brownish
Height:	5'0
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	dont know.
The Shoes You Wore Today:	my red sandals
Your Weakness:	shoes
Your Fears:	spiders, bridges
Your Perfect Pizza:	chicken, pineapples, light sauce, cheese, cooked..
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	pass grade 12.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	thats hott.
Thoughts First Waking Up:	fuck
Your Best Physical Feature:	my butt.
Your Bedtime:	whenever i fall asleep
Your Most Missed Memory:	smelling like mcdonalds. just kidding
Pepsi or Coke:	neither. hate both
McDonalds or Burger King:	mcdonalds. cuz i get a half.
Single or Group Dates:	both, depends.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	yes
Do you Swear:	fuck, yes
Do you Sing:	yes
Do you Shower Daily:	yes
Have you Been in Love:	i am.
Do you want to go to College:	eventually
Do you want to get Married:	yes
Do you belive in yourself:	i guess
Do you get Motion Sickness:	not really. sometimes.
Do you think you are Attractive:	meh
Are you a Health Freak:	nope.
Do you get along with your Parents:	most of the time.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	definitely.
Do you play an Instrument:	nope.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	of course.
In the past month have you Smoked:	yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	yes
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	not a whole box, but maybe one or two.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	eww fuck no.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	nope.
In the past month have you been Dumped:	nope.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	nope.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	nope, but i want my Ollie.
Ever been Drunk:	yes.
Ever been called a Tease:	yup.
Ever been Beaten up:	nope.
Ever Shoplifted:	yes.
How do you want to Die:	when im 2344129310- years old.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	i want to own a chain of my own hotels.
What country would you most like to Visit:	Ethiopia
*In a Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	[boy] green
Favourite Hair Color:	[boy] blondish/black
Short or Long Hair:	[boy] short, but shaggy.
Height:	[boy] taller than me.
Weight:	[boy] dont care.
Best Clothing Style:	[boy] punky, yet fashionable.
Number of Drugs I have taken:	fuck, dont know.
Number of CDs I own:	too many.
Number of Piercings:	twelve.
Number of Tattoos:	one
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	meh. i dont kno too many.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

unxdeadx @ 2005-09-25T15:37:00

2005-09-25T21:13:22Z

this weekend was...um..interesting.

first of all brian got us to go camping.
in friggen Darlington.
yeah family park right there.
the park ranger came to see us,
asked us for id.
i said i was drinking orange juice.
it worked.
so then like every twenty minutes a park ranger truck came past our site.
code name: smokey.
ha.
we had like so many tents on our site.
one of them we werent even using.
sarah & tj had one.
jeff & dayna had one.
then terri, josh, me, jay & brittani slept in the other one.
wicked, ye.

so the next morning one of the park rangers came by and asked to talk to the legal aged kids.
aka brian jeff josh jay. but josh & jay were sleeping.
smokey said that we werent allowed to drink because we had minors on the site.
& if we were caught drinking then we would be fined.
fuck that.

me josh terri jeff & dayna made up a big story, to get our money back for the second night.
it worked.
we got everything out.
and we took the deposit for gas money, since we only had one car.
josh had to be the chauffer, with terri's car.
then everything got so complicated.

sarah, tj, jay, me, terri, josh & brittani went to zellers diner for breakfast.
the worst breakfast ive ever eaten in my life.
then we me, terri & brittani chilled at terris, while josh went home to shower.
i had a nice hot shower at terris.
after thinking long and hard of what to do,
we decided to go to dinner @ Kelseys in Ajax.
it was ok.
then we figured it out.
we'd party at josh's, then sleep at brians.
josh didnt want everyone crashing at his house.
the baby was there.

so we partied.
hardcore.
i was doing shots like there was no tomorrow.
i'd puke, then i'd do more shots.
it was awesome.
then blayne came by.
we called for the cab.
but josh was too wasted to wait to get back to brians.
so me terry brittani & josh passed out in joshs basement.
josh almost puked on me.
but didnt.
then we slept.

in the morning, we had to clean everything up.
jeff left a bag of puke on joshs deck.
fucking bastard.
thats just gross.
then we went to brians to get my money and to take down the tent.
jeff and dayna were still sleeping.
so i screamed " WAKE THE FUCK UP" & shoook their tent.
dayna got really pissed off.
hahaha
it was funny.
then we went to mcdonalds to eat.
then brittani got dropped off, then i got dropped off.

now im going to watch a movie & relax.

heart; ♥

unxdeadx @ 2005-09-16T16:44:00

2005-09-16T21:01:17Z

why the fuck is he so complicated?
who the hell wouldnt want to go to cancun, mexico?
oh right.
devin.
i asked him if he wanted to go.
and i said id even save enough money to pay for him.
because i know he has his whole school thing to pay for.
i understand.
i figured it would be a nice getaway for a while.
to just hang out, and relax on the beach
IN FUCKING CANCUN.
HE gets mad at ME.
fuck that.
like i just want to spend time with him.
when i told him that hes like,
"we can spend time together here, we dont need to go to cancun for that."
why the fuck not?
we dont spend anytime together.
hes either at school or working.
so he never has time for me.
im surprised hes making effort to see me this weekend for his birthday.
sometimes i feel that just shooting myself would be more easier than trying to figure him out.
you'd think after so long you would know.
but nope.
i just keep learning that he doesnt like doing anything.
nothing i want to do.
its like we're not even alike.
i used to think we were.
but maybe our priorities have changed.
maybe we are growing apart.
maybe we arent meant for each other anymore.
i dont know.
im tired of apologizing after every fight, like its my fault.
im tired of crying over him after every fight.
im just plain fucking tired.
and i dont know what to do about this.
maybe we should take a break or something.
i might be too much for him right now, with his precious schooling and all.
whatever;

he says its my fault that we dont spend alone time.
but i just hate staying at home sometimes.
i love hanging with my friends.
and i dont want to always be at home.
i include devin when i go out.
he doesnt include me with his friends.

tonight i asked him to come over after work.
even if only for a couple hours, since i work early in the morning.
it was like he didnt even want to just because it was a couple of hours.
but like seriously i dont know.
im fucking fed up.
thats it.
im fed up.
fuck it.

adklfsdfads;

unxdeadx @ 2005-09-01T14:22:00

2005-09-01T19:35:46Z

my birthday was definitely a couple days ago.
wahoo to me.
i can buy porn.
my dreams have come true.
yah.

my people took me out to dinner at eastside marios.
i won a free desert.
ill use that someday.
i got my presents.
my bro and sis got me the hilary duff cd.
my mom got me some money so i could get some new clothes!
yay!

then.
brittani, smac, and brian picked me up.
went to brians so he could change.
then off to canadian tire to bug devin.
we waited for him to get off, drove him home to get changed.
off to mccafe!

it was delicious. but it always is.
me and sarah shared a nice cinnamon bun.
holy fuck was it good.
mmm.

after that, we went to burger king.
got these chicken nugget fry things for me and sarah to share.
devin ate most of mine.
he smells.
<3

after that, we dropped off sarah.
then dropped off devin.
we went to mcdonalds after that.
but first we went to tim hortons so brittani could pee.
we saw daniella and her friend.
after that we went to mcdonalds.
zach gave me a free ice cream cone.
and got some food.
i talked to this guy who was cleaning up the garbage.
he wasnt very nice.
stink head.

the next day. my afterbirthday day.
devin came over and gave me my present.
he bought me the oc season 2; kelly clarkson dvd.
i made him watch like 8 episodes of the oc.
before going out to dinner.
we went to montanas.
it was pretty good.
i enjoyed.

ok so im here now.
i watched a couple of episodes of the oc this morning.
because i am that cool.
& im catching up on missed episodes.
so i am ready for season three.

im waiting for britty k to get home.
then we are going shopping. woot.
i ♥ shopping.

ok bye.

heart; ♥

unxdeadx @ 2005-08-26T20:28:00

2005-08-27T00:46:48Z

yay, wasaga beach.
it was friggen awesome. again.
sarah,brittani,tonya,brian and me went.
stayed at the same park as we did on prom weekend.
there wasnt as many people there.
but it was still fun.
we planned it out way better this time.

i dont even feel like writing.
so ill definitely update when i get the pictures back.
they are in the photo place now.
ill pick them up tomorrow.
before work hopefully.

heart; ♥

unxdeadx @ 2005-08-22T08:18:00

2005-08-22T14:18:10Z

this weekend was hella fun.

[thursday;]
♥ tyler picked me up from where i babysit.
♥ raced brittani to my house so i could change and i forgot my bank card so i needed that. brittani got to my house first, but me & tyler got to the door first. who won? who knows.
♥ tried to get sarah. but she was no where to be found. so we left.
♥ went to swiss chalet. ate chicken. yum.
♥ dropped brittani off at work. me & tyler went on a mission.
to find the mccafe.
♥ drove to toronto. by accident. we couldnt find the mccafe.
♥ got off the highway. and got directions.
♥ finally made it to mccafe.
fell in love<3
♥ i was suppose to go to devins, but ended up coming home to late. [tear]
♥ went to sleep.

[friday;]
[+] brittani came over, because we drove her to work.
[+] we went to walmart, i wanted to look for some stuff for wasaga beach.
[+] huge fucking storm. definitely thought i was going to die. just kidding.
[+] picked up devin.
[+] watched the movie "The Hole".
[+] tyler called me, said we were going to the movies. wanted to see RedEye.
[+] stopped at wendys, cuz brittani & tyler were hungry.
[+] got to amc. lady stopped us, said no movies tonight. the roof had flooded.
[+] tried to find another amc. too far away. it was already like 9 anyways.
[+] found the mccafe, we were looking for the night before.
[+] stopped off at mcdonalds so tyler could talk to shannon.
[+] drove kristina to her friends house. but first she helped me get a pylon. the big black and orange ones. i needed one of those.
[+] got home around oneish. just went to bed.

[saturday;]
♥ woke up around 1:30pm.
♥ drove my brother and sister to a birthday party.
♥ got ready for work.
♥ went to work for 3:30pm, but ate some lunch with my mother who had to wait a little while to pick up my brother and sister.
♥ closed with justin and cheryl[who i wish i could kill] til 10.
♥ went over to harmony[mcdonalds]. talked to angus. picked up brian. drove him home.
♥ had a shower, then brittani & brian picked me up at about 11-11:30pm.
♥ went to the whitby psych. but our way in was blocked so we tried to untie the metal wires.
♥ then brittani called and said she found another way in[she wasnt going in with us]
♥ we got in her way. then as we started to run to a building we heard someone shout. we were like shit. and raced out.
♥ we saw a group of people. brian sat on the window part of the car, hanging out the window. it was the police who were talking to the group of people. it was funny.
♥ we headed down to the lake. almost hitting a cat.
♥ creeper dan and ryan were there. met these people.
♥ some lady was there who definitely fucked on something. she was singing and talking about working on a mushroom farm with lazers. i dont kno she was fucking wierd.
♥ brittani had to get home because she worked in the morning.
♥ we raced dan. he won.
♥ got home about twoish.
♥ went to sleep.

[sunday;]
[+] woke up at 12:30. got ready for work.
[+] went to work for 1:30.
[+] closed with justin and elaine <3. had so much fun.
[+] found a hot guy that worked at walmart. who must be gay. he had style.
[+] got off at 7pm. love closing walmart on sundays. <3
[+] brittani, brian, sarah, terry & josh picked me.
[+] we drove to terrys house. sat outside.
[+] we drove a movie to her neices house.
[+] then drove to the store where they bought these cigars.
[+] went to sarahs house to pick up brittanis car.
[+] we raced them back to terrys house. we won.
[+] i did handstands in the middle of the road.
[+] went to the park to smoke the cigars. it was wierd.
[+] played some form of soccer. me sarah and brian kicked ass.
[+] went back to terrys.
[+] went swimming.
[+] then we went home. tres fun.

thats my weekend.
sweet eh? oh yeah.
and it didnt involve drinking. woah.
wasaga beach t-minus 2 days. fuck eh?

First best friend: shannon something or other.
First car: ha, if i ever get one.
First date: hmm, well depends on the type. i guess corey.
First real kiss: my first kiss with a boy was in grade 1. real kiss? corey.
First screen name: something skittlebabe or something. who knows
First self purchased CD: britney spears :: hit me baby one more time.
First pets: my cat, orangecrush. [he was orange]
First piercing/tattoo: my ears.
First musician you remember hearing in your house: beatles. i think.

-- LASTS --
Last cigarette: not for a while, i had a cigar last night.
Last car ride: two hours ago. tanya picked me up to babysit.
Last kiss: megan! devin, friday night.
Last good cry: no clue.
Last library book checked out: a long time ago. i have a 17.49$ fine on my card. dont know where that came from [eek]
Last book read: this one at my cottage. um. cant remember what its called.
Last movie seen: the hole.
last beverage drank: mmm milk.
Last food consumed: these vegetable thins, that i'm giving to the baby to munch on.
Last crush: [slash] current crush: gerard way <3 ha. and devin, love him.
Last phone call: devin, last night before we went to bed.
Last time showered: yesturday.
Last shoes worn: my black sandals.
Last cd played: some burned one.
Last item bought: a new purse, from sobeys. for the beach. its hott. pink with polkadots.
Last annoyance: waking up at 6:24am.
Last disappointment: hmm. well my mom said i couldnt go out. then i got mad. then i got my way and she let me go out.
Last shirt worn: my chemical romance one.
Last website visited: muchmusic, checkin' out something.
Last word/s you said: have you eaten breakfast yet. to annie.
Last song you sang?: "you just figured out blues clues, you just figured out blues clues" baby jackson is watching blues clues.
What color socks are you wearing?: im not.
What's under your bed?: nothing, i have my boxspring and matress on the floor. i like it better that way.
What time did you wake up today?: 6:13am, then 6:24am.

-- FUTURE --
where do you want to go?: paris. california/hollywood
What is your career going to be?: something with travelling.
Where are you going to live?: somewhere nice.
How many kids do you want?: 2. thats it. and they are going to be close in age. so they always have someone to play with.
What kind of car(s): a tiberan. black one.
-- CURRENT --
Current mood: tired.
current music: nothing, blues clues is on.
Current taste: vegetable thins.
Current hair?: reddy brownish
Current clothes: capris, my chemical romance top.
Current desktop picture: on this computer, viggo whatever.
Current color of toenails: plain. i havent had time to do them.
Current hate: waking up.
-- UNIQUE --
1. Nervous Habits?: biting my nails.
2. Are you double jointed?: nope
3. Can you roll your tongue?: i dont kno.
4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? i dont think so
5 Can you blow spit bubble?: i can do that!
6. Can you cross your eyes? yeah.
7. Tattoos? soon enough.
8. Piercings and where?: my ears.
9. Do you make your bed daily?: no, i never do.
10. Which shoe goes on first?: right.
11. Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone? yeah, but ive had many thrown at me. by my people. i leave my shoes everywhere.
12. On the average, how much money do you carry in your wallet?: not very much, i usually use debit.
13. What jewelry do you wear 24/7?: these little bracelets. i never take off.
14. Favorite piece of clothing?: my band shirts.

-- FOOD --
15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: twirl it.
16. Have you ever eaten Spam?: fuck that.
17. Favorite ice cream flavor?: mint chocolate chip/chocolate chip cookie dough
18. How many cereals in your cabinet?: too many.
19. What's your favorite beverage?: milk/ apple juice.
20. What's your favorite restaurant?: the mongolian grill. in vancouver. but i heard there is on in toronto.
21. Do you cook?: hardly. im pretty bad.

-- GROOMING --
22. How often do you brush your teeth?: twice a day.
23. Hair drying method?: when i get bored of my current hair colour.
24. Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair?: yup, too many times.

-- MANNERS --
25. Do you swear? i have a swearing problem.
26. Do you ever spit? yes.

-- WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE --
27. Animal?: pugs.
28. Food?: rice, spaghetti & chicken.
29. Month?: july/august[no school/nice,sometimes too hot weather] & october/november[ halloween/all the leaves are changing.i ♥ autumn.]
30. Day?: right now, fridays. its my only day off.
31. Favorite Cartoon Character?: barbie.
32. Shoe Brand?: aldo
33. Subject in school?: art
34. Color?: black/red/white/pink
35. Sport?: volleyball/hockey [its back baby!]
36. TV show?: csi/the oc/veronica mars/one tree hill/gilmore girls/tommy lee goes to college ♥

-- IN AND AROUND --
41. The CD player?: a burned cd.
42. Person you talk most on the phone with?: devin/brittani.
43. Ever taken a cab?: yup.
44. Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors?: in every store window and every mirror.
45. What color is your bedroom?: a purple colour, but with posters on it. trying to cover the colour.
46. Do you use an alarm clock?: yes, i use a regular one, and my cellphone.
47. Window seat or aisle?: window.
48. What's your sleeping position?: stomache.
49. Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?: yes, i have to. i hate not having one.
50. Do you snore?: no.
51. Do you sleepwalk?: never.
52. Do you talk in your sleep?: i dont know. probably. everyone does it sometimes.
53. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: yes a couple.
54. How about with the light on?: no way, i like the dark.
55. Do you fall asleep with tthe light on?: depending on how tired i am.

you cook your own dinner: sometimes, but something that can be microwaved.
you do your own chores: i have to.
your parents still give you money for things: if i beg enough.
you walk around barefoot indoors most of the time: yes, socks suck.
you got laid today: not today, not for a long time. gr.
you like beef jerky: no.
your 1st car was new: yeah right. i could never afford a new car. i can hardly afford a used car.
you own more than one brush: like 7.
your favorite color is red: oui.
you plan on never going to college: it was my plan. but i think i want to now.
you're completely broke right now: i will be after this weekend.
you never shop at the mall: all the time.
everyone compliments you on your clothes: sometimes.
you're happy with your hair: cant complain. except my bangs. they are gay at the moment.
you own 3 dogs: used to own a dog.
you spend your money wisely: ha, you wish
you're always making new friends: yeah.
you like to swim: loves it.
you get bored taking a shower: i like to sing in the shower.
you're patient: id say to a point.

unxdeadx @ 2005-08-16T17:54:00

2005-08-16T22:02:01Z

fuck.
last night was fucking awesome.
definitely went to parkers house,
got smashed with way cool people,
went home,
puked everywhere,
went to sleep,
got up at 6:30am to babysit, practicly still drunk.
was sick all day.
score!

but ye, it was definitely fun.
i went with brittani, sarah m, jay & brian.
also there was peter, tracy, matt.
then skillen showed up.
then zach, justin and megan came. way wicked.

i havent updated in like a year.
pretty much.
right now im cleaning up my mess i made last night.
its gross.
i should call devin back.
and brittani.

i need a shower.
a really hot one.
or a bath.
nah shower.
dude the place i babysit, have the sweetest bathtub.
its so deep and has jets and its amazing.
why cant my house have that?
because i suck. oh yeah.

next week a bunch of us are going back to wasaga beach.
definitely cannot wait.
but i hope i dont get sick. i hate getting sick.

ok i hear the mess calling my name.
i need to clean it up.
its pretty much clean, just have to clean my fan.
god i hate beind sick.
oh well it was fun.

heart; ♥

my very first tutorial.

2005-08-08T00:36:43Z

hello fellow iconers;

i'll be going from this: [to]

i decided to do very lovely ashlee simpson. i started with this pic, then cropped it down and resized to 100x100.

i noticed it was way blurry, so i sharpened it three times.
now i can finally start.

i made a new layer and added #0A1474 to it. set it to exclusion 100%.

i made another new layer and added this gradient which i made . set it to overlay 100%.

im not sure who this is by but i used this and i set that to screen 100%.

i then duplicated my base, destaturated it, then set to overlay 100%.

again i added the sparkling thing to make it more visible. i set it at overlay 100%

i then added i just used the deform tool to make it to the size i wanted it. set it at normal 44%.

i then erased the parts that were covering ashlee. so all you could see was her eye in the corner.i also used the sharpened tool on the eye.

i then added the sparkly thing again and set to overlay 100%

i made a new layer and in century gothic 12pt. i wrote "ashlee". i then took my rectangle tool and cut off the bottom of "ashlee". i set it at 43%. then in a new layer i used my rectangle tool to make a line under "ashlee". i set that at 55%. then in a new layer i wrote random crap using century gothic 2pt.

i then added the heart resized it. set it at multiply at 56%.
then i merged.

yay.
done.

id love to see what you guys get!

my very first tutorial.

2005-08-07T17:38:10Z

unxdeadx @ 2005-07-14T22:46:00

2005-07-15T05:56:19Z

so i dyed my hair.
black, with red underneath.
didnt turn out as well.
should have redyed it again.
oh well.
i cut some bangs.
yeah that didnt turn out as well either.
oh well.
its hott.

tomorrow is friday.
damn.
i go home monday.
im sad, yet excited.
i miss everyone at home.
but then ill miss my dad and everyone here.

im coming back in october.
with my aunt.
ha.
we had a blast when she was here.
so im going to come back when she does.
have some more fun.

i went to warped tour.
saw some awesome bands.

♥ my chemical romance.
♥ billy talent
♥ dropkick murphys
♥ fall out boy
♥ deadbeat romeo
♥ the unseen
♥ gym class heros
♥ the transplants
♥ boys night out
♥ senses fail
♥ hawthorne heights
♥ alexisonfire
and many many more/

i bought a mcr shirt, for moi.
a senses fail for devin.
i wanted to get him this hawthorne heights shirt.
but they didnt have his size.
not for another twenty minutes.
so i walked passed the senses fail tent thing.
and just got him on of those.

thats hott.

heart; ♥

unxdeadx @ 2005-07-08T19:35:00

2005-07-09T02:40:07Z

im definitely having fun in vancouver.
people are cool.
my aunt sonya was here.
shes so much fun.

yesterday, my dad had to work.
so sonya, cynthia (dad's girlfriend) and i went to the beach.
it was so pretty.
these ships are there.
very hott.

we also smoked a joint while walking on the beach.
fun fun.
then we came back. and smoked another one.
then watched seinfeld.
so much funnier when you're high.

right now im at cynthia's place.
my dad is studying. so we left him alone.

i went shopping.
sonya bought all my stuff for me.
two shoes, a purse, and sunglasses.
so far.

warped tour is on tuesday.
excited.
yeah.

tonight im chillin' with cynthia, since my dad has to work.
tomorrow im chillin' with kaity (cynthia's daughter). we're going shopping.
wicked. yeh.

well thats it.
yeah man.

heart; ♥

unxdeadx @ 2005-06-29T16:03:00

2005-07-02T20:06:07Z

for the past couple of days,
i've been working on a layout.
its hott.

i really like it.
tell me what you think.
thanx.

♥

unxdeadx @ 2005-06-25T13:19:00

2005-06-26T17:59:28Z

name that tune!

Step 1: Get your play list together, put it on random, and play!
Step 2: Pick your favorite lines from the first 25 songs that play!
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from!

1.i wrote you this song to tell you i love you but i know that thats much less than you deserve. its all so much less.

2.hes calls the mansion not a house but a tomb. hes always chocking on the stench and the fumes. the wedding party all collapsed in the room. so send my resignation to the bride and the groom.

3.there are no flowers, no, not this time. there will be no angels gracing the lines.

4.kids just love to tease. who'd know it put me underground at seventeen.

5.even if her plane crashes tonight she'll find someway to disappoint me by not burning in the wreckage.

6.you say goodnight, in my mind im sleeping next to you. you drive away from my car crash of a heart.

7. i feel like im being erased no on got left here. im all alone. no one was sent to get me.

8.you eyes are so blue. i cant look away as we lay in the stillness. you whisper to me.

9.you need him..i could be him. i could be an accident but im still trying and thats more than i can say for him.

10.read between the lines. whats fucked up and everythings alright. check my vital signs to kno im still alive and i walk alone.

11.and if i stare too long, id probably break down and cry.

12.so cut my wrists and black my eyes, so i can fall asleep tonight, or die. beacuse you kill me.

13.let the rain fall down and wake my dreams. let it wash away my sanity.

14.if i had it my way, id turn the car around, and run away. just you and i.

15.can you hear me. are you near me. can we pretend to leave again. we'll meet again when both our cars collide.

16.'cause all of the stars are fading away. just try not to worry you'll see them someday.

17.bombings wont justify bombings. death will not justify death. death its self justifies nothing, nothing will come of it.

18.you're broken down; you're hands are tied.

19.there was hop in me that i could take you there. but damnit you're so young. well i dont think i car and i hurt you, then im sorry.

20.if you believe it's in my soul. i'd say all the words that i know.

21.and i've got a twenty dollar bill. that says you up late night starting fists fights versus fences in your backyard.

22.you baked it in cakes for me. what you left behind, it hurts my teeth. bringing the past with postcards you sent for me.

23.they say i must learn to kill before i can feel safe. but id rather kill myself then turn into their slaves.

24.every roommate kept awake. by every sigh and scream we make. all the feelings that i get but i still dont miss you yet.

25.our lives float in the headlines. so we parked these cars. parents garage. listen to the lullaby of carbon monoxide.

unxdeadx @ 2005-06-10T14:51:00

2005-06-10T18:53:09Z

i just got home from gettin my hair did.
now im here.
i shouldnt be on here.
but i am.
updating.

i have so much shit to do.
pack, find stuff, get money.
blah.
i still hvae to get everything ready for tonight.
fuck.
i need to do that.
stat.

ok bye.
im going.

<3<3

unxdeadx @ 2005-06-03T21:57:00

2005-06-04T02:00:43Z

tonight me and britty k are going to see;
the sisterhood of the travelling pants.
its going to be awesome.
im excited.
& your jealous.

tonight i worked.
it was fun.
somewhat.
as fun as work can be.
but it was a good crew.
elaine and me on window;
scott and britty k in the grill;
maxine manager.
how much better can it get.
not much.

gotta get ready.

<3<3

ps i made a backgroud.
its house of wax
heart.

unxdeadx @ 2005-05-25T22:58:00

2005-05-26T03:00:27Z

im tired.
i made an icon.
its a simple one.
but its hott;).

me, roleen and britty k played cards at lunch.
with my new barbie cards.
thanks to jessica black.
i heart you
<3

goodnight.

<3

ps i bought a dress.
its not black.
woah, shock eh?
yes.

ok bye.

unxdeadx @ 2005-05-15T22:16:00

2005-05-16T02:29:03Z

yesturday at work i got to attack/harrass people for their money in drive-thru.
totally hott.
but it was all for charity.
but it was fun.
especially when you'd walk up to their window and they wouldnt do down their window.
that was funny.

but i woke up with a red eye.
thinking it was nothing i went to work.
by the end of work it was still red.
hmm. i thought.
so i woke up this morning.
still red.
hmm still?
i went to urgent care at the doctors.
he told me i had pink eye.
woot.
i thought so.
also i couldnt help out melanie do face painting.
i was so upset.
it sucked.
but i heard she made 20$.
thats pretty good, for doing it by herself.
i felt really bad.

i have a presentation tomorrow.
woot.
ha. jokes.
it wont be hard tho.
crap, i didnt do the english stuff.
i need to do it.
tomorrow night.
its a date.
a date with destiny.

i need to find a prom dress.
stat.
im running out of time.
crap.

my music is done uploading onto my mp3 player.
its my bedtime.
im tired.

<3<3

unxdeadx @ 2005-05-07T16:56:00

2005-05-07T21:00:04Z

i dont understand while people have to keep on bringing up situations as an excuse?
its like all you hear/read.
it gets annoying.
it may be bad but al;ksdjf
whatever.

im tired.
im at my aunt donnas.
shes awesome.
we totally just went shopping.
i drove.
her car is awesome.

roleen if we ever read this,
i tried calling you last night.
cuz you didnt call me when you were done at the gym.
so hopefully next weekend we can get together.
<3

well im going to go work on my barbie surrealism project.

<3<3

unxdeadx @ 2005-05-06T22:05:00

2005-05-07T02:10:10Z

tonight i was suppose to go see house of wax.
but devin got home late.
and my mom is in a very bitchy mood.
for no reason.

tomorrow im going to mississauga with my mom and sister.
she has some sort of tournament.
and we're visiting a friend who lives out there as well.

i <3 my chemical romance.

i'm bored.
i'm singing to devin on the phone.
he's not even listening to me.
he's too wrapped up into his game.
oh well.
i like singing.

i found out that my chemical romance is playing warped tour.
im stoked even more
also billy talent it back.
holla back.
ha.

i got my ticket in the mail for my flight to my dads.
i leave at 8am on july 7th. til july 18th.
i cant wait to go.

i tried calling roleen tonight.
but she went out.
poo on her.
lol
i <3 you.

<3<3

unxdeadx @ 2005-04-27T21:59:00

2005-04-28T02:02:41Z

damn. im a rockstar.

<3