Beat me over the head with symbolism, why dontcha

Last night I dreamt in terrifying, full color realism that made me fully believe it was reality. I walked into a larger room and I saw Josh's parents standing together, whispering, sort of holding each other tightly and looking a little distraught. I followed their line of sight and saw Sydney Li sitting on the couch with a toy in her hands. She was holding a baby doll the same way she holds a real baby, on her knees facing her, with her hands underneath its head, stroking the temples. Josh was standing behind her with his hands on her shoulders, looking kind of funny like they were posing for a very serious family portrait. Vi-Vi was standing facing them and talking to them but she was talking quietly, almost to herself. She didn't seem angry or sad or happy or anything, just standing there. I came over and I sat down next to Sydney Li and asked what's going on. Vi-Vi started talking and I wasn't listening like I should have. I wasn't giving her my full attention, my full focus. She was speaking calmly and quietly and she was making very intense eye contact that was making me uncomfortable. I didn't want to hear her. My eyes kept darting around the room, back-and-forth from Sydney Li and Josh to Josh's parents and I kept hearing things from their conversations. Sydney and Josh were being very quiet but I noticed that Sydney Li was being very still. She wasn't moving at all except for her thumb which she kept rubbing over the forehead and temples of the doll in her hands. And Vi-Vi wasn't moving at all. She was standing there almost limp, just looking at me and talking in a very quiet monotone. But I could hear little things from Josh's parents...things like "a granddaughter" "what are we going to do" "how can we have a granddaughter" "what are we going to do" and Josh just sat there with his hands on Sydney Li shoulder. I felt fuzzy and confused and scared and I didn't want to hear what she had to say but I knew I had to focus, this was important, she needed me. I caught the end of it and she said "I just woke up and she was there"... "I don't understand"... "I don't know what to do" ... "I don't know how this happened" ... "I don't what will happen to me now" and I figured it out in bright flashes. Flashes of her bedroom, all while she was talk and I suddenly knew the whole story all at once. I realize she was in shock because she just graduated from high school, she's 18 years old, she didn't know she was pregnant until she woke up and the baby was already here. I remembered how she had said her stomach hurt and she had gone to bed early. She was saying woke up in a bed covered with blood and after birth. And I looked over at Sydney Li, what she was holding. I realized it was a very tiny baby girl covered in blood and mucus and so brand-new and still attached to an umbilical cord. And Sydney Li wasn't acting like she was holding a baby, she wasn't acting like she was holding something gross and disgusting. But the baby wasn't crying or making any noise and Josh wasn't doing anything and none of this made any sense and I finally just sort of caught it like oh my god what just happened here. So I reached over and I gently lifted the baby off Sydney Li's lap and she sort of turned her body to me like she was going to stop me from taking the baby but when she saw that I was holding the baby carefully and I was going to be careful she continue turning until she was facing Josh and she sort of put her head on his stomach and he rubbed her back. Vi-Vi was still talking slowly and monotone and her arms were limp at her side and she was not there. She was in shock. I realize she was in pyjamas but she was dirty and messed up. She had had a terrible shock. I had help this baby girl in my arms and my baby girl. I rubbed some of the gunk off of her face because it was drying and she looked at me and she was so tiny. She wasn't at all ready. She was so tiny. And then I looked at my baby girl and she was so tiny and so not ready and this was so huge and how could this have happened? I didn't even know she had sex... I never realize she was pregnant ... and I realized I was both really excited and really terrified. I was always the one to say I didn't want my girls to have babies because I couldn't tolerate them going through all that pregnancy entails and childbirth is unbearable ... to watch my girls go through ... that but she went through it silently, like a champion, like she always does everything she wants, she once or twice complained about cramps, had probably had a little diarrhoea but ... she hadn't experience the fun of pregnancy. She missed out on all the excitement and the surrealness and the love. she'd been all alone in her room, asleep when the big moment came, and almost missed it. I know she had this huge responsibility and no idea what to do about it because she didn't plan it and it came at her suddenly and now it's here and she's unprepared and no one is ready for this. And I woke up and I was laying in my bed and Vi-Vi and Sydney Li were in my room and they were already talking to me and I said "wait where's the baby" and they looked at me like I've lost my mind. They just kept doing what they were doing, they were getting ready for something, and I said "that was a dream, Vi-Vi didn't have a baby" and they both kind of laughed a little and they said "no but it's moving day" "come on you got to get up, we got to get Vi-Vi to college" and then I woke up again. I was in my bed and it was dark and it was quiet and everyone was asleep in their bunkbeds and it was OK. But I'm still upset because my daughter really is going to college and it is scary and it is exciting and she isn't prepared for it and she's always had huge responsibilities but missed out on some of the fun of childhood and I'm not ready for her to go to college and I'm not ready for her to move on into some adult life without me when she didn't get to experience the fun and she is really, really tiny...