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I am ignoring all the bad shit today

undeny — Sat, 19 Sep 2020 16:13:12 GMT

novel coming along. the post at dreamwidth | comments | comment there

undeny — Thu, 10 Sep 2020 21:12:26 GMT

I wrote quite a bit more! I'm just really concerned right now over my characters, their characterizations, and whether I can keep them from being flat on the page. the post at dreamwidth | comments | comment there

getting back to it...

undeny — Fri, 28 Aug 2020 15:03:07 GMT

Look at that, I'm writing a novel! I'm stoked.

This is the same novel I started writing in December and scrapped around February. It had some plot holes, or rather, some things that just didn't make sense. It took until now to rework my plot and outline, reconfigure some basic character things, and finally come up with a story that (so far) works in my head and on paper. So here I am, back at it.

If you're curious, it's M/M paranormal romance. Psychics! Mediums! ~~Daddy issues!~~

For a while, I felt like talking about my original fiction attempts might jinx me, but I'm feeling a little more confident now. the post at dreamwidth | comments | comment there

undeny — Sun, 23 Aug 2020 00:29:18 GMT

rewatching Guardian with some friends online is fun, and introducing new fans to Shen Wei and Zhao Yunlan is so satisfying. But also I had almost forgotten just how GOOD Zhao Yunlan is and how much I adore himmmm the post at dreamwidth | comments | comment there

undeny — Sun, 12 Jul 2020 18:31:24 GMT

the diet for real starts tomorrow. mom has already started - I'm waiting to go shopping again. tonight I'm gonna order tacos or something.

my online writing group is (probably) going to go through Steering the Craft and do the exercises together.

meg's nails are a mess. I try to keep them clipped short, but they still tear sometimes and today one nail tore down and was bleeding and I always feel such awful guilt.

Florida in the headlines again, this time for shattering coronavirus records. like wtf, why can't we ever be in the news for something good?

today I wrote some stream of consciousness stuff that has nothing to do with anything. but it's writing, dammit.

I never know what to say in these updates.

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undeny — Fri, 10 Jul 2020 19:51:41 GMT

I signed up for Teen Wolf Bingo. It's weird? You pick your own prompts and how big a card you want, and then you have a whole year to do it. I am hoping this means I can do it lol

rules
signup form

You don't need to be on Tumblr to participate, which is good, since... yeah. And there's a Discord server for the bingo, too!

Sign up with meeee
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undeny — Wed, 27 May 2020 14:36:17 GMT

This pandemic bullshit has really affected me creatively but I'm clawing my way back. I had a productive chat with a friend about my book yesterday, and today I wrote 1175 words of my FTH Sterek fic.

Mom broke her toe and refuses to stay off it. She keeps *doing* things. At this rate, it will never heal.

edit: I almost forgot. I'm cleaning my room. it's gonna be a huge endeavor so wish me luck. so far I've thrown away 2 garbage bags worth of stuff and filled 3 large boxes full of clothes for the thrift shop. I bought a new rug to keep me motivated. the post at dreamwidth | comments | comment there

it's my birthday... again.

undeny — Wed, 06 May 2020 17:11:27 GMT

My birthday! Happy birthday to meeee

I'm 42 today. Perfect number. the post at dreamwidth | comments | comment there

meme stolen from heipaoshi

undeny — Sat, 15 Feb 2020 12:27:46 GMT

Slow burn OR love at first sight: I like both, but if I had to choose, it would be the latter. Or maybe I like sick infatuation/obsession at first sight. Yes, we're already starting this meme off with Greenie flavor, sorry. But anyway, love at first sight doesn't automatically exclude slow burn, because maybe that trope only belongs to one character, and it takes awhile to get the other character on board. Like matefic where only one character can feel the bond? Yeaaahhhh.

Fake dating OR secret dating: Neither are tropes I particularly like, and that's being nice. Fake dating is too comedic for me, and secret dating is... well, I've kinda written it or at least alluded to it in my Stars 'verse with Chris and Peter having had a secret relationship as teens. That was nice and angsty backstory, I did like that. But I don't seek out that trope, either.

Enemies to lovers OR best friends to lovers: Enemies to lovers yessssssss. And not just 'enemies' but you know, *enemies*. I was gonna say "give me Voldemort/Harry" but I haven't actually read a whole lot of that. But the point stands that I want complicated, messy, angsty situations where someone is defying their peers and/or their own moral compass (or maybe discovering they aren't quite as moral - or immoral - as they thought, or that others thought) because they've found someone who understands them and who they love. Just yes. GIVE IT TO MEEEE.

Oh no there's only one bed OR long distance with correspondence: I guess only one bed? I've written it before but in my fics it rarely leads to actual sex, just like, intimacy. I don't like long distance in fics. I've had enough of that in real life.

Fantasy au OR modern au: Fantasy! Magic and fae or dragons or whatever. I don't read many modern AUs but I do write them occasionally? The current fic I'm writing for The Untamed is a modern AU.

Smut OR fluff: Hmm. Depends on my mood, and I don't like either on their own. There should be plot and angst flavored in with the smut and fluff respectfully.

Mutual pining OR domestic bliss: Oh my GOD give me ALL the mutal pining, yesssss. Domestic bliss is only fun for me if there's this undercurrent of OH GOD WHAT IS HAPPENING. Like if one of them has lost their memory and only THINK they should be living in domestic bliss. Or they've been Stockholmed. Or just.. idk, something is there and they don't know. Or maybe domestic bliss in the middle of an apocalypse.

Alternate universe OR future fic: AU - Canon Divergence. Every time. The 'what if' is my CRACK.

One shot OR multi-chapter: I'm more likely to seek out one shots but that's mostly because of my poor attention. I can read multi-chapter if it's coming out weekly or so, and I keep up with it. But that's the exception to the rule.

Kid fic OR road trip fic: Hmm. I like both? I don't like a LOT of either one, though.

Reincarnation OR character death: Depends who's dying and for why. I probably will seek out reincarnation (or resurrection) more readily than MCD.

Arranged marriage OR accidental marriage: Arranged. Definitely. Accidental marriage is too much like fake relationship for me with the comedic aspect, which just isn't my style. I mean, never say never, but nah.

Time travel OR isolated together: Time travel FTW. One True Trope.

Neighbors OR roommates: Meh. Neighbors, I guess.

Sci-fi au OR magic au: Magic AU. Or some speculative comglomeration of the two. Which, hey, is my latest idea for an original novel, and it's on my mind at the moment. (Future AU, Earth has been mostly abandoned, and the Tuatha Dé Danann come back to reclaim what's been turned into wasteland...)

Bodyswap OR genderbend: I don't like bodyswap AT ALL, and the only genderbend I like is Always-a-Girl, not sexswap, which I find... cringy, at best.

Angst OR crack: Angst angst angst. Or crack treated seriously. But just outright crack isn't my thing at all.

Apocalyptic OR mundane: *rubs hands together* APOCALYPTIC THANK YOU

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writing process questions from getyourwordsout

undeny — Fri, 14 Feb 2020 10:39:08 GMT

1. Do you write your first draft by hand, or digitally?
Digitally for sure. I don't have the patience for longhand and I never learned shorthand.

2. Do you have a writer’s notebook?
I have several notebooks but I rarely use them. Instead I have a bunch of google docs with one or two sentences in them. I've started using Scrivener in the past two months though, and that helps with the organization, too.

3. Planner, pantser, or planter?
I plot a little and pants the rest, so Planter

4. What is your favorite place to write?
I mostly just write in my chair in the living room. Sometimes when the weather is nice I try the porch, but then the problem of seeing the screen comes up. Mostly just... in my chair, in the living room. Where I am right now.

5. What is your least favorite place to write?
Anywhere outside my home. I'm agoraphobic so coffee shops (which I don't actually have around here) would be out of the question.

6. What is your favorite writer’s drink?
Coffee at the beginning of a session, water and/or water with some caffeinated flavoring later on.

7. What do you like to eat when you’re writing?
Nothing. Too distracting.

8. Do you like to write where it’s quiet, or with noise? If noise, what kind?
Music. I listen to Dubstep or other electronic music. and sometimes music with lyrics if I know it really well and it won't distract me. Favorite playlists to write by on Spotify are 'Dubstep Don' and 'Altar'.

9. Do you have a favorite writing season? (eg. spring, summer, fall, winter)
Not at all. I write about the same amount year-round.

10. Do you make imageboards or storyboards or playlists before you write a story? Do you do them during? After?
Sometimes I do put up aesthetics or collections of characters on Pinterest in locked boards. Usually right before I start writing or when I've just started.

11. How do you feel about worldbuilding?
It happens for me fairly easily without thinking, but then even better when I do think. I don't usually have too hard a time with it.

12. How many drafts does your work go through before you’re ready to show it to people or publish?
My close friends will look at my first drafts. My BFF and a couple trusted others know damn well it's just a draft and that it'll get better. Sometimes other people don't seem to realize that lol

13. How do you feel about editors and editing?
Editors/betas are an important part of the writing process. Having a good developmental beta at the beginning or throughout is imperative. Not a nitpicker, but someone who will ask questions or get excited about certain elements I hadn't thought about at first. so they can help you tease out the true potential. I am less likely to use a final beta reader for fanfiction, but for pro stuff, you bet your sweet ass I will use one and listen to their suggestions.

14. What is your favorite part of the writing process?
Almost all of it, but especially when I really get into it and the words are flying off my fingers and I am in the story at that moment.

15. What do you do when you have no inspiration, but have to put something on the page/get that story finished?
I listen to the music I picked for that project and look at the images on its pinterest board, reread my notes I wrote at the beginning, try to find the spark that got me writing it in the first place. Cheerleaders help too.

16. What do you do when you have lots of inspiration, but no way to actually sit down and write?
I am a grumpy little bitch when this happens. Luckily it doesn't happen too often.

17. Have you ever dreamed something that ended up in a story?
Maybe? I don't remember my dreams very well.

18. How often do you hit save/back up your work?
I try to use programs that do that automatically. If I'm working in Scrivener, I back up everything to Box once a day.
19. What is your favorite punctuation mark?
em dash!
20. Have you ever gone to school for writing? Would you?
I have very little formal education. I'd like to try a workshop sometime on novel writing, but it would have to be a good one. I've heard some of them are bullshit. idk, I think I get more education on my own by actually DOING the writing.

21. How do you get better at writing? Do you read articles, blogs, or books about writing for tips and tricks? Watch videos? Make it up as you go along? Something else?
All of the above, plus practice. Years and years of practice.

22. What’s something you wish you learned earlier as a writer?
It's okay to suck. We all suck at first, and then frequently suck even as we go on. It's okay. If something sucks, then just learn from it and try to do better next time. Also, it's not a straight line up. You may write something amazing and then write a flop. If writing quality was a graph, it would be all jagged, but the overall trend would be up. Just not straight up.

23. What is the first thing you remember writing?
In 9th grade, I wrote a story about a girl visiting her... friend? mother? in the hospital. I remember my writing partner telling me it was flat, and that I needed to add more sensory information, like the scent of antiseptic in the hospital. I'd love to say that was the beginning of my obsession with sensory info in fiction, but to this day that's something I still struggle with. I tend to focus more on feelings than things like sight/smell/sound.

24. What is the last thing you worked on?
Can't tell you, shhh. It's a secret exchange fic.

25. Your perfect writing day would be…
Just about like every day but instead of getting interrupted in the middle of something, there are no interruptions at all. :)

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undeny — Tue, 11 Feb 2020 17:24:07 GMT

Some good things

I have faster internet now!

DJ (middle child) is 21, as of yesterday!

I voted early!

I have a good idea of what I'm writing for my Discord exchange!

The storm the other day left minimal damage!

I'm still broke but not as much as I thought I was!

I went to the store today and it didn't completely suck!

Some bad things

The Oscars triggered some bad memories that I'm still trying to deal with. I started to write a post about it, but then I stopped because I hated it and it made me cry more.

I don't really like the Wangxian relationship in The Untamed that much, which makes it super hard to enjoy the majority of fics I've started to read and then gave up on. I liked it enough to root for them and aww over them while watching, but I feel like they should have played up the tension a little more? Overall I just find it less than interesting. Unfortunately, the ships I do like seem to be all written by teens and extreme kinksters and I don't like that, either. I don't want to be like this, I swear. I realize this is a vastly unpopular opinion. :(

DJ's still not talking to me.

I haven't written any of my book this month.

I'm having to ration my pain meds again.

I'm having trouble focusing on reading, still, which makes me sad. I've bought books but they are sitting in my kindle taunting me.

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icons for round 14 of icons10in20

undeny — Wed, 05 Feb 2020 21:00:18 GMT

8 The Untamed, 1 Marilyn Monroe, 1 Hayley Kiyoko
I like this one the best:

3’s a crowd	Book(s)	B&W canon	Flower(s)	Glow

LGBTQ	Movement	Picspam	Red Outfit	Sentence

all icons are available for your use
just credit me
and comment please 💚

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xue yang was written as a personal attack on my feelings AND icon requests open

undeny — Fri, 31 Jan 2020 11:04:32 GMT

It's so funny - now that I've seen all of The Untamed and poked around at AO3 a little, I have no ideas or whim to write WangXian at all. Like, their story is so good, and ends well - it reminds me a lot of the ending of Mad Max Fury Road. So while I could write a story about Lan Wangji getting the cultivating world back in order while Wei Wuxian travels around and circles back to him (I have a particular Fury Road fic I'm thinking of that is similar), I don't really want to. But the others in the drama* give me all kinds of feels and inspiration. I have like 4 or 5 vague ideas for XueXian** fic, and have already written about 2k words of them.

So while my favorite character, hands down (as of this writing) is Wei Wuxian and I love him soooo much, I am absolutely fascinated by Xue Yang and want to explore his character through writing dark fluff with somewhat happy endings.

IF ANYONE WANTS A FEW ICONS for The Untamed, just drop me a screencap (from the drama) you like or something like that and I'll do it for you! All characters/ships welcome.

*I haven't read the novel yet and probably won't for awhile
**Of course I get invested in the MOST problematic ship because that's how I roll, apparently

PS: I'm probably going to stop crossposting to LJ soon. If you read me exclusively at LJ and that will be a problem for you, let me know and I'll reconsider. But I'm pretty sure that's not the case for anyone anymore.

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undeny — Tue, 28 Jan 2020 18:11:22 GMT

short life update:
laws about meds you need on a regular basis SUCK and I'm so pissed off at people who take my prescriptions (not MINE but ones like mine) for fun and fuck it up for me.

okay I just had to say that.

fandom:
I have now seen all of The Untamed.

I really wasn't expecting it to end so well. I thought for sure that Lan Wangji was going to die. But he didn't! So... yay! That was a great story and well done and all, but I just was expecting more angst? Maybe Guardian ruined me.

Okay FIC. I need fic with Wei Wuxian inventing things and being clever and teaching the juniors fighting and farming maybe? DOES THIS EXIST? I will take any teacher!Wei Wuxian really.

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the untamed 36

undeny — Mon, 27 Jan 2020 13:19:19 GMT

me: he gave him roosters! that's true love!

Bee: roosters are an ancient proposal gift

me: but they're already married!

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the untamed (through ep 29)

undeny — Sun, 26 Jan 2020 02:15:49 GMT

I don't really know what to say about this other than I'm totally overinvested.

Wei Wuxian is just SO GOOD. He's such a good person, I CRY. I want everything to be okay with him, and for Lan Wangji to go live with him and his friends in the creepy mountain place and learn to farm and have all the babies. 😭😭😭

ALL THE BABIES.

And Wen Ning is so sweet and I'm so happy he's somewhat okay. Though I know he doesn't stay that way. But I'm HAPPY RIGHT NOW WHILE I CAN BE.

Also maybe Wei Wuxian shouldn't drink because what if they're attacked and he's DRUNK. Or if something happens to Wen Ning and he goes a little crazy on them again? I AM SO WORRIED.

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the untamed

undeny — Thu, 23 Jan 2020 18:51:05 GMT

I'm on episode 18 now.

Bee assures me things will get much much worse. I'm looking forward to it and dreading it at the same time.

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the untamed

undeny — Wed, 22 Jan 2020 02:58:57 GMT

okay I've seen 14 episodes now and I think I see where this is going. *rubs hands together with glee*

also I finally picked up on what mdzs means now. I thought it was a whole other fandom

aaaand I have an icon now.

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undeny — Sun, 19 Jan 2020 01:04:38 GMT

Okay about to start watching ep 5 of The Untamed.

I started out pretty confused but I'm doing better.

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undeny — Tue, 07 Jan 2020 19:59:38 GMT

I've already said no thanks to like, two different exchanges this year and it's only January 7th. But this is the year where I focus on original work and not go crazy over fandom deadlines. I do want to do Fandom Trumps Hate again, and I'll probably participate in WIP Big Bang. But with the latter, if I don't finish there's really no one to disappoint but myself, and the former gives you until the end of the year to complete your fic(s). And at the end of the year, if I'm feeling it, I'll definitely participate in Steter Secret Santa. But that's the only exchange I'm gonna do. Fests/weeks I'm iffy on but I think I'll take those on a case by case basis.

Wait, I added a whole lot of fannish possibilities on there, didn't I? lol siiiiigh.

I'm gonna have to find a way to tell Bee I can't watch The Untamed. I just know myself too well. If I watch, I'll get obsessed, and I'll have to write for it, and all my dreams of writing the first draft of a book this year will go out the window.

Things I WILL do this year: icons. Ooh maybe that's a good compromise - I can watch The Untamed but I'm only allowed to make icons, not write for it? Ugh I dunno.

Word count this month so far: 7,084.

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wake up in the morning feelin like p.diddy

undeny — Wed, 01 Jan 2020 19:26:34 GMT

Today I started a new email and Twitter account for my authorly persona. Not really a persona, just a me with a different name. I'm still trying to figure out how being active as a writer on social media will look like. I haven't even been active on social media as a fan lately. My Tumblr is full of tumbleweeds and my regular Twitter is just politics but I hardly ever tweet anymore.

Snowflake Challenge today is to make a new or updated Intro post. Y'all know who I am, so I'm gonna skip it for now. Maybe I'll update my bio tomorrow. Or maybe even I will start a new DW for blogging about my original writing. yeeeaaahhh that's a good idea!

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undeny — Wed, 01 Jan 2020 01:28:44 GMT

HAPPY NEW YEAR! (let's pretend it's midnight)

I started a book. writing one, I mean. go me! I've written a few novel-length fics, and my writing has gotten to the point where I'm comfortable enough to TRY to write a book. so we'll see.

looking forward to snowflake_challenge this year. I'm thrilled that they changed the schedule - it's still 15 days, but it runs the whole month. I'm pretty sure I'll prefer it this way.

I signed up again with getyourwordsout to write 200k in 2020. I wrote about 210,000 words in 2019 and I think I'll write more in 2020. but I guess we'll see what happens.

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undeny — Wed, 18 Dec 2019 11:34:20 GMT

heyyyyyyy

so yeah, having money problems (who isn't?) and asking for help. I managed to get meg most of her birthday and xmas presents, and zach is just missing like one or two things more. but I have to send them to him, since he's not coming, and that takes money I don't have either. my electric rates just went up (lovely) and I'm depressed as hell and I know some of it is financial burden junk.

if you want to help, I've got wishlist stuff here (some for me, but the art and philosphosy stuff is for zach) and my paypal is https://www.paypal.me/yogibogeybox

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is it time to go to bed yet?

undeny — Fri, 29 Nov 2019 18:06:34 GMT

This gout shit is nothing to fuck around with. I had turkey and gravy yesterday (both high purine foods) and woke up this morning feeling like I broke my fucking arm. OW.

I wasn't sure I had gout until today. The doctor mentioned it as a possibility but we were checking for other things, too. I haven't been back to him since I got my ankle x-rayed. I had been convinced the pain in my ankle was a stress fracture. But I'd gotten that flare (it's gotta be a flare) after eating pork chops and gravy.

Gout is kind of embarrassing to have. Like, when someone says gout I think of like King Henry VIII. Or this old dude who goes to church with my mom (he's 85). I'm too young for this shit. And too female. But I guess not.

I'm gonna go back to my doc in a month (unless I absolutely can't deal with the pain) and discuss it. In the meantime, I bought some tart cherry capsules, which is supposed to help with joint health and the uric acid problem. Another thing I might try is vinegar, but I'm starting with tart cherry. Also my diet is gonna change drastically - but I'd already started a diet, so it's not a disappointment.

I'm back on SparkPeople and logging my foods, watching my nutrition (balancing between fat, carbs, and protein), and weighing myself a lot. I've lost 10 lbs so far and I have more energy already. I'm not going to tag this with #lookgoodnaked like I might have in the past, since that's not my goal anymore. Need a new tag. Project Health? Yeah, let's go with that.

Exercise is gonna be added later. I need to find some safe things to do that don't hurt me. I'm in a lot of pain all the time thanks to my spine and the nerve crushing going on in there, plus now I've got this gout shit, which is a kind of arthritis. Oh, and I've got fibromyalgia too. So exercise might HELP, but I need to figure out what's safe. And what won't hurt me too bad. lol

I've written 22,287 words this month so far. I don't think I'm gonna hit 25k like I wanted, but it's still damn good. a little less than 11k to my year goal.

I'm BROKE. I just. Sigh.

My computer needs fixing. I still have bday (both meg and zach were born in december) and xmas presents to buy, and to figure out how to get Zach up here for the holiday.

Anybody want to chip in for gas money (my top priority, tbh),or me getting the laptop fixed, OR does anyone have this book or this book they want to send to me to give my boy? Or any art books? Zach is into renaissance art and draws with pencil and charcoal. Meg needs a new pair of shoes and likes pretty (costume/cheapish) necklaces. Maybe I should make a wish list? *flail*

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something I'm working on...

undeny — Sun, 24 Nov 2019 12:49:02 GMT

Sunday ~~Six~~ Snippet, anyone?

"Did they finally give you that security clearance you've been after?" his dad asks.

Stiles snorts. "No, and they aren't likely to give it to me. Though…." He trails off and sighs. He should have thought about what to say before he called.

"Yes?"

"I can't talk about it because it's better if you don't know."

His dad pauses. Stiles can hear him breathing over the line as he thinks. "Better so I'm not implicated in a crime, or something else?"

Stiles swallows hard and holds his phone tighter. "I'm not doing anything illegal. But someone else might be. Or... " Frankly, since werewolves aren't in the lawbooks, he's not sure if their imprisonment and torture count as illegal. But if he looks at them as just… people, then yes. So. "I can't tell you about it."

His dad's voice goes serious. "Does anyone know you know?"

Right to the point. "Yes and no?"

"Listen, Stiles. It's not your job to protect me. It never has been."

Except that's where he's wrong. Stiles has always looked out for his dad. And he's not about to put him in a position where he knows something like this, because John Stilinski is all about law and order and this isn't something that can be solved by a police investigation. Stiles isn't sure how far up the conspiracy goes, but ArgentCo's research is government-funded.

"Are you in danger?" his dad asks when Stiles doesn't answer.

Stiles lets out a shaky breath. "I think so, yeah."

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