GAETSS, Update 4
A small, hysterical one. But like I said, I`m not editing right now. For the Japanese-unitiated, the title essentially means "nothing."
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I’m terrified of the future. Terrified that everything will be the same. Or that everything will be different. Scared that I’ll wake up in fifty years and I’ll still be afraid to say goodbye, or to move on. Worried that one day I’ll want to cry in bed alone but there might be someone else there, a husband or a child. Worried that because nothing’s wrong, nothing is ever going to get better.
Hello, crazy, nice to meet you. My name’s Joanna, and I think we’ll be spending quite a bit of time together, if I live that long.
I want to scream, but I can barely cry now. It’s too much, too big. The heater is turned off, but blankets can’t protect me from a chill that has nothing to do with the cold.
There is so much I can’t anticipate, plan. I’m in my room in Japan now, but I can just at clearly remember ten years ago in bed, pretending I was a patient at a hospital whose one true love had come to visit. And in ten years, where will I be?
In the uncertain future, there’s so little to live for.
I’m terrified of the future. Terrified that everything will be the same. Or that everything will be different. Scared that I’ll wake up in fifty years and I’ll still be afraid to say goodbye, or to move on. Worried that one day I’ll want to cry in bed alone but there might be someone else there, a husband or a child. Worried that because nothing’s wrong, nothing is ever going to get better.
Hello, crazy, nice to meet you. My name’s Joanna, and I think we’ll be spending quite a bit of time together, if I live that long.
I want to scream, but I can barely cry now. It’s too much, too big. The heater is turned off, but blankets can’t protect me from a chill that has nothing to do with the cold.
There is so much I can’t anticipate, plan. I’m in my room in Japan now, but I can just at clearly remember ten years ago in bed, pretending I was a patient at a hospital whose one true love had come to visit. And in ten years, where will I be?
In the uncertain future, there’s so little to live for.