mostly anyway.

Current Mood: chipper

Ya know how life sucks and sometimes you feel like drowning yourself in a sink in a public bathroom? because being dead sounds a lot easier than being alive?

Lately I've been missing the people who've hurt me the most ... missing the ones who did, because they could, because they were relevant. I don't make any sense.

civil war of the mind

I never could understand why she couldn't ever walk barefoot outside the bathroom but then i realized that she could never trust well enough alone.

i'm screaming at the top of my lungs pretending The echoes belong to someone

This place is a prison And this people aren't your friends

i know that it's not a party if it happens every night

I know there's a big world out there like the one i saw on the screen

I wanted to be just like you, so perfect so untouchable. Now you want me to be with you, someone who used to have it all.

I strained my eyes and try to tell the difference between shooting stars and satellites

With my feet on the dash, the world doesn't matter.

no matter how much you think you love somebody, you'll step back when the pool of their blood edges up too close.

This sudden fear has left me trembling Cause now it seems that I am out here on my own

I want to take you through a wasteland I like to call my home

Tell me what do you see But you quickly turn your head away

Do I contradict myself. Very well then I contradict myself, (I am large, I contain multitudes)

The record player spinning the best times I never had So why do my old records make me sad?

no one seems to understand The glory of guitar

Started out trying to fake a smile

You can fake this And I can't take anymore

I wonder why,Only disasters flood the headlines, Other people's misery,

THERE IS NO RIGHT, THERE IS NO WRONG, THERE IS ONLY THAT IS FOREVER GONE!

If this is really living Then why am I so unforgiving

the headlines are keeping us up tonight and they'll scare us all

everything is more beautiful because we are doomed

I just wish to enter your mind and plant a star...

Wouldn't it be beautiful, raining stars?

let these facts speak to a candid world

theres something about the way you act that makes it seem like you're waiting for the opportunity to kill me.

and if young hearts should explode from all the lies they've been told,to live through one night like this, i would trade it for the silence.

Art with no risk is like saying "No Sex!" and expecting children"

if you don't live for something, you'll die for nothing.

Current Mood: intimidated

1st with a reference to this journal thing...
p: so i found your journal
t: stop stalking me
p: you gave me the name
t: why would i be so... stupid?
p: its so random
t: it's not my main one
p: according to unbrokenspell, you are a pervert and icon-obsessed
t: not too far off
p: you gotta clean up your act, people are gonna start knowing the truth about you
t: wouldnt want that



cade: one day you'll wake up and i'll be in bed next to you
t: i'd eviscerate you
cade: but you love me
t: to death


later...

t: yea, so i'm just sitting here sucking
cade: peni?
t: i was going to say jolly ranchers but that works too
t: damn pinky!
cade: doesnt prepare you enough does it
t: well i got natural lube that you dont
cade: not going down there
t: not going down there
cade: i hate you
t: fair enough mr. i-try-to-sound-inteligent-but fail
cade: ok miss too-bitchy-and-smart-for-her-own-good-who-can't-spell




today:
t: so...i'm dying
jj:of what? apathy?
t: well i got these aches in like, my gut
jj:otherwise known as contractions
t: huh?
jj: it sounds like you're giving birth
t: to jesus?

toni: man, i lost my mood ring. i don't know how I feel about that
t: like you've lost your penis
toni: but i never had a penis
t: you never had an emotion either
toni: i just thought it was broken...

s: teresa, i love you, make sweet sweet love to me on a bed of kale...
t: but i don't like kale
s: me either

t: i was thinking of flames
t: and asbestos
k: plus school
k: equals
k: burn school burn

Still a little bit of your song in my ear. Still a little bit of your words I long to hear. You step a little closer to me. So close that I can't see what's going on. Stones taught me to fly. Love taught me to lie. Life taught me to die. So it's not hard to fall. When you float like a cannonball. Stones taught me to fly. Love taught me to cry. So come on courage! Teach me to be shy. 'Cause it's not hard to fall.

Different Color Tints

learned from a tutorial by remyheart

1. select one part. fill in color

2. fill in all the parts wanted.

3. guassian blur layer by 7ish pixels

4. set layer property (maybe multiply)

Cool Illusion Polaroid Frame Look (best for b&w)

learned from iconisms's tutorial

1. Usually an adjust brightness/contrast helps

2. new layer, use brush named tilt. (black or white)
Size: 100
Step 32 (though it really doesn't matter)
Density: 100
Rotation: 0
Opacity: 100
Blend Mode: Normal
(Continuous and Wet Look Paint remain unchecked)

for subtle lines
3. new layer. pen tool, color white
Create as Vector: unchecked
Mode: Drawing (pencil in center)
Segment Type: Line Segments
Line Style: Solid
Width: 1.00
Anti-alias: unchecked

4. change properties to screen, play with opacity

for text
5. new layer. turn off foreground color.
Font:Sylfaen (looks best in caps)
Size: 4
Stroke width: 1.0
Anti-alias: checked
Kerning: 1000

6. once text to moved to the appro. space. convert layer to raster

7. change properties to hard light (font shows up muuuuuuch better)