| Happy Fucking Birthday |
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I'm 28.
I feel a drift. As High as I tried to start this year fate has stepped in - with a much twisted sense of humour. It has been a long time since I posted. But for anyone actually reading this. My Wonderful Baby sister ran away from home last august. I became a bit of a hermit after that, I feel it was more out of a sense of obligation to my parents,
I love them. I was afraid of what they would do....much like the others. But as often found, I take that to a higher level. Spending almost every waking minute with them is overkill. .....So you feel. Gina (the youngest) can't even give a reason for why she has left. You worry and consider every little thing you have ever done. Every word ever said, every action ever taken. What you could have done.....what you shouldn't have?
I thought it was the worse thing that could eve happpen.....The most pain I had ever felt. Sadly it was yet to come.
I had tried to turn it around in the new year. NEW ME. to work on the things I wanted....needed. Life is short.
I sentence I would learn too quickly. On the 5th of June, I lost one of my closest friends. She had fought and beat cancer last year. And after some celebration, I took for granted her support. I wish I had told her everything....but I thought about the trivial drama I was living through....and kept quiet, all but the odd "hey hows its going..."
I received a message on new year....the cancer was back. Think I had more time to meet and speak we talked about arranging a date to meet......
5th Feb. I received a call from her husband. Claire shephard. One of the most wonderful people I have ever had the fortune to know had passed. I have fought for weeks to remember my last words. The last thought. The last hug.
I miss her. I am going through a lot at home and I wish I could just tell her how I feel....I wish I had told her everything. She would have given the best advice...she always did. Always made me laugh.
I felt my problems were so small....but now she is gone I know she would have always been there....I should have take more time
I am 28
Bitter. Sad. And Alone. This may go unnoticed....if I was a lesser person this may be it. But despite the booze. I live to live. Life is there to live...don't wate the chances you are given.
I love you Claire
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[25 Feb 2014|12:29am] |
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CHange freeze my ass. I love my job :P
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| All this dating malarkey |
[16 Sep 2013|10:06am] |
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Arghhh lol. It all feels so complicated. I'm 100% sure men are way more complicated - I can't figure out what they want - guess I'm in too much of a hurry to be half way though the story.
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| Lets get healthy |
[03 Dec 2012|06:42am] |
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Decided to be a little more healthier working up to xmas - No chocolate or bread -
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| Cutting the Fat |
[04 May 2012|10:57am] |
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I have been unsuccessfully dieting, but I recently read a book that inspired me to change how I eat and exercise. So far so good. I eat 3 meals a day - not craving chocolate But I am addicted to have at least 1 ginger nut biscuit a day. I drink only water and a glass of milk at the end of the day, and I feel great :P
wish me luck
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| Writer's Block: Chatty Cathy |
[19 Oct 2011|04:23pm] |
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Who do you talk to the most?
Most recently family - After a disastrous holiday with my friends I've found it difficult to talk to the one person I used to tell everything to.
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| Race For Life |
[13 Jun 2011|05:57pm] |
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Hey
Sorry I've been a bit awol! Just wanted to let you guys know: I will be running/walking (see how it goes) the 5k Race for Life on the 24th July - Finsbury Park. I'm really looking forward to it and have started training already - (great help with the weight loss.) If anyone can sponsor me please do either online or in person! Thanks for your donations and encouragement.  |
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[03 May 2011|11:38pm] |
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thought I'd try this out. LiveJournal app on my HTC. watched an affair to remember last night and cried my eyes out. love the classics. Posted via LiveJournal app for Android.
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| OMG BONES! |
[08 Apr 2010|07:43pm] |
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How good was that 100th ep?! Poor Booottthh:( great charater Dev!
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| Coming Home |
[14 Oct 2009|06:27pm] |
Due to some unforseen problems back home (Not life or death, so don't worry too much) I have to return to England, and while Vancouver has been a blast, can't wait to post all about it...I have missed home.
So I will be back on English soil on Sunday. Sadly bypassing all those I had promised to see:(
xxx
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| 7 minutes left |
[23 Sep 2009|05:21pm] |
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in my allotted net time.
I f*cked up my computer so have been force to sign up at a library. But hopefully I'll have it fixed soon. I can not describe how amazing the last 7 months have been. I feel I have grown alot. More confident, More adventurous and with more options, but still without a clue of where I'm going but who cares lol.
I've moved from job to job some pretty shitty but fun things:P not really stuff to shine on a resume but flexible enough to get the cash and drop everything and go on a trip:P
Off to whistler on sunday, its one of those hop on hop off bus tours. they give you the option of bungee jumping. I'm not saying I will do it but I'm not saying I won't either, Its not on my list of things to do before I die but when opportunity knocks...who knows.
Anyways I best be getting off. Got work at 6, in a cinema, lousy pay, cheap food, lots of canadians and free movies:P it ain't a bad job and I've got a couple of other things going to:P
Catch y'all laters xxx
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| Going to the island |
[07 Aug 2009|03:36am] |
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Still loving canada! Working funky jobs, meeting great people and planning to work at the olympics:D
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| HHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYY |
[31 May 2009|02:28am] |
another night of drunkenness and a funky trip home!
As most of you know I am have an AMAZING time here in vancouver Canada even on a budget;) I never know where or what I'll be doing unless its work LOL
BUT ANYWAYS;) Just a little update:DP
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| CREEPING OUT |
[21 Apr 2009|12:11am] |
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BIGGEST F*CKING SPIDER IN THE BATHROOM! REPLICATOR SIZE....I KID YOU NOT. HOW THE F*CK AM I GOING TO SLEEP NOW???!
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| just found out |
[30 Mar 2009|11:56am] |
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Just found out there's a stargate Con this week, right next to mall I go to almost every day?! Apparently there's going to be tours of the set and everything, but to expensive and wouldn't be the same with out you guys....but still....would be nice to see any of the actors while i'm shopping lol
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| missing home |
[20 Mar 2009|06:16pm] |
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With tomorrow looming I know I should be excited, but i miss home, miss my mum, my dad, my baby sis and even the other 3 brats.
I miss my boys,...I know we'd be doing something stupid, something simple. Movie, bowling, drinking and probably ended at Chris' house for more movies with drunken commentary.
It also has me thinking about when I finally do go back home, how things may change....Christians been working on actually enlisting in the Army instead of just TA. Everyone we'll have grown up with Jobs...
Hope we can still act like kids now and then:)
They're apparently doing renovating at Home. when I go back it'll be a different house, regina will be in high school I hope she's not a bitchy brat. but won't know til she's in year 7 *shudder*.
The girls will be working there way to their final years of Uni. and I'll have to get a real job lol!
But I do love that I came here! That I made the move to Vancouver...that I'm seeing this side of the world:D:P
love ya guys!
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