tranquilite

how do you documentry a life when real lifes getting more like fiction each day...

tranquilite — Tue, 22 Jul 2008 19:23:05 GMT

I think sometimes you've gotta rock it, but you don't always have to rock it on your own.

I don't have any doubts any more, whatever my future holds I know it belongs to Minoru and I.

I got confused along the way with everyone else's suggestions and opinions and I felt pressured to some how live up to that, to some how become what they wanted me to become but at the end of the day as everyone has pointed out this time is for me and my decisions and I know and feel that I cannot move forward without a certain someone sharing all my new experiences with me.

I trust him, he trusts me...and I think that that's about it really

:) it's nice to be content

and like I was saying in a previous post it takes an ultimate low for us to realize sometimes the best way to move forward and I reached my low and I have discovered my best way to move forward.

trust me?

if you are what you say you are

tranquilite — Tue, 03 Jun 2008 20:38:40 GMT

a super star then have the fear the camera is here...

My phone sucks, but I am smart and did something awesome. I combined mine and Minoru's phone to a family plan because if we pay individual plans at $40 each (and I ALWAYS go over my minutes) it costs roughly for the both of us $90 or more, however MInoru NEVER uses his minutes so I got a $70 family plan for around 700 minutes and it will stay only $70!! wooo

so cheap

cuz I am so smart.

So, I guess I am suppose to update you on my happenings.

Work is better, I get 2 days off a week now a days, which is nice. :) I am getting my app together for the Message Therapy program I want to go to and I am still doing Voice Lessons once a week. I am also looking into Pilates and the Japanese langauge classes, I have a intro class for japanese tomorrow around 5pm to see if I like it and if so I am going to sign up. WOO

Pilates wise I am still contacting the teaching and I dunno how much I can afford but we'll see what she offers.

Yoga I still do, but I havent had time as of recent, so if I set up private lesson with pilates I know I will go. wooo

I really should start Ballet again soon, I have time in the mornings. I think I will, but again it all costs money so one step at a time.

I am off to work now :) hi ho hi ho off to work I go.

Also, I have been writing more. It is inspiring

I have ideas, many and I think this message therapy thing was a really smart idea and I have idea's surrounding it.

peacepeace

the journey is the art

tranquilite — Thu, 15 May 2008 05:06:05 GMT

I am sitting here eating left over fries and bread from KFC as well as peace flavoured Calpico and this awesome grapefruit flavoured multi vitamin cold jello stuff that comes in a pouch all written in japanese O.o This is my dinner and I have thoroughly decided it is extremely and unusually enjoyable.

...I just finished my jello, it was very refreshing in this humid weather...

I got my first voice lesson in Hawaii, Friday at 11am. :) so excited, no clue what the guys costs though.

POO.

:)

tranquilite — Fri, 09 May 2008 21:21:39 GMT

ZEN! inspired me with "Play Cards, Go Dancing" and also made me cry, I think only people who know my grandparents would cry tho....

the following are his lyrics.

Play Cards, Go Dancing

I've been making plans to stay
But they're never quite threatening enough
I've been making plans to stay
But they're never quite threatening enough

This is much more than just the distance across the Atlantic
You're a lifetime away
You play cards and go dancing
Every night in your dreams you say
I already miss the birthday cards
Though they never said much
They kept my memories fresh
And that was more than enough

I've been making plans to stay
But they're never quite threatening enough
I've been making plans to stay
But they're never quite threatening enough

When did time
Start moving so?
And why am I?
Going so slow
I go so slow, so slow

You tipped over
When we all stood up at once
But you never let that baby go
No you never let that baby go
You held on, you held on
While you waited for her
Never once, never once
Letting what ails you keep you from being strong

I've been making plans to stay
But they're never quite threatening enough
I've been making plans to stay
But they're never quite threatening enough

So, on an unoriginal note this inspired me to do something for the grandparents which involves Zen hopefully if he is willing. We were talking about doing a song together or something and I thought it would be really nice to recompose (sp?) Danny Boy in a slight indie/modern version. That was grandad's favorite song...and I love it...and I always said I would sing it one day to him and I never did and I would love to make that for him....I have the music somewhere for the original version, I sang it in choir once....

Yours thoughts?

I may get together with one of my friends who is a guitarist and see what him and I can put together but I would really love it to be you (zen) and me.

POO anyway, I am still pounding forward with this massage therapy and going strong. but right now just figureing out the best program and facilities...I have 2 more veiwings of schools next week.

I am also trying to audition but this voice coach who I wanted to help me is not calling me back!! and if I dont get him I dont have enough confidence in myself to get the music prepared to the standard I want in time so I may wait for the next show. But cuz this guy isnt calling me back I am going to start looking for someone else.

my grammar sucks.

Work is a poo, and sucks, and is uninspiring...but I ROCK at my job.....sometimes....or I am just funny....

hopefully with this massage therapy I will strive forward more in what I want to do.

:)

WOOT

I am going to go to yoga more then 4 times a week to get my body back on track before I start ballet again....my body is so LAME RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my shoulders and neck hold all this stress and I cant move them and it takes forever to stretch out...so I will do yoga ALOT and hopefully in JUne I will start ballet along side that.....minus the hopefully I WILL...

I miss my family so much.

HALLIE IS COMING TO HAWAII FOREVER!!!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYA I already saved money to visit her (it only costs $40) :P and I put a ton of my taxes refund in my savings so I am working towards visiting Japan (sorry CA, but I visited last year and I think Minoru really needs to see his family) and then in a year we will be back in CA living!!!

Ok, I am going to peace out and e-mail my friend.

Peace,

OUT

all that is gold does not glitter, not all those who wander are lost...

tranquilite — Wed, 30 Jan 2008 05:17:04 GMT

life is just a bowl of whole bran you wake up every morning and it`s there
　
I had a conversation yesterday that was kind of awkward and good.

To start at the beginning; I missed my period this month, not overly worried because this happens to me usually when my body is exhausted (which it had been this month) so I merely expected that, however just in case I took a pregancy test. Of course it was negative but it brought the fact up with Minoru and he was surprisingly excited if I was pregnant...then when I wasnt he was extremely disappointed.

SOO, me who was extremely happy finally asked a simple question: "Minoru, when do you want to have children"

his answer was right away "soon, now is OK too"

me....O.O

So, after me discussing with him we are not financially secure, we are not even married yet, and I dont want kids in Hawaii, and I only might think about it after at least 1 year of being married...

to his disappointment, but he did agree and understand but was sad.

Im just proud that I stuck to myself and said I want to have a career and things like that before we move to the step of having a family. and as one of my friends said in a comment "now is a time to focus on myself and Minoru and our relationship, not children"

So, thats what has kind of been in my head for a while.

Of course I understand I will have to compremise and have kids perhaps earlier then I wanted to but he will have to have them later, so it works out in the end.

But I would like people thoughts on this, I know I am young but it is arising in my situation at the moment so therefore I should be addressing it and thinking about it.

I think I address it pretty well and got my point across, he said he wants to have a family and I had to remind him a family doesnt have to have kids. Him and I getting married is already a family and we are only going to grow from there so therefore there is not need to want one, he already has one! he liked to think that way :) glad I got through.

Anyway, I am off to call my mum. :)

do one thing everyday that scares you...

tranquilite — Sun, 06 Jan 2008 06:15:51 GMT

I am dry, I need some water and some understanding of my exsistance in this world. Perhaps I am merely being dramatic due to the fact that I am a 20 year old female who has just gotton engaged, we tend to lean towards the dramatic end of the scale. I do not want my life to be of husbands and babies, of course YES I want it to be filled with 1 husband and my babies as well as a long career of art and success and learning and literature and peace and creativity and most importantly theatre; to be even more specific MUSICAL Theatre.

YES ok, the majority of you will be thinking that for me to be only thinking of husbands and babies NOW at this age is INSANE!! but alas it is not, I am 20 (which is YOUNG) yet I am engaged (WHICH I AM BEYOND EXCITED AND HAPPY ABOUT) and yet my body and my mind needs nourishing I need more education...I was talking to Minoru about what my future holds and he was giving all these career opinions yet I feel I need more ...I need more knowledge!! Which is understandable since I am only 20 years old.

Everything for me now though falls back to Musical Theatre and Singing and Dancing, and to be honestly it mostly falls on Singing...I miss singing, I LOVE singing it is something that has always transported me...perhaps I should do something with purely singing...

and alas it all comes back to money.

which I do not have.

Can someone please donate me a life fund? thanks.

happy happy happy new year!

tranquilite — Wed, 02 Jan 2008 04:45:56 GMT

My sister is hugely pregnant; is it horrible that I keep picturing an elephant and having dreams about it too...I dunno just the way she describes it in her journal she seems like abnormally large in my minds eye. Of course this is not true, Mystical you are a very beautiful elephant-I MEAN WOMAN!

I`m engaged, and I got a ring...its beautiful, I may take pictures and pop it on my facebook for the veiwing of mainly my mother but for everyone else as well.

However, my fiance is suffering from serious back problems and has been out of work for today and perhaps the next 2 days. :( I am extremely worried...

Otherwise I am pottering around and telling people what to do at work as I am the BOSS, booyah! Hahaha not really but I am doing a good job I think but I have high hopes for the New Year which includes some more dancing, singing, and learning Japanese! as well as working towards a job that will help me in my future.

Well, peace out the cat is trying to eat the bunny.

XX

in which life turns into a whirl wind of rainbow loving oompa loompa`s...

tranquilite — Tue, 16 Oct 2007 06:09:19 GMT

hello....I don`t know if anyone remembers me but my name is Celestial Zenith and I work at Satura Cakes as Assistant Manager and I live in Honolulu with my boyfriend who is Japanese and really good to me and funny and beautiful and did I mention really good to me? well, if I didn`t he is...just so you all know....

we live in a 1 bedroom apartment right next to Magic Island and Ala Moana beach park, it is always really humid here and sometimes rainy and windy too but it is mostly beautiful. You would call me a Haole (which means white person) here and sometimes the Hawaiian names comfuse me but generally everyone is really nice..sept the ones who are tooooo nice, if you know what I mean.

I do theatre, I just finished being a NYC hooker onstage which was a featured role in The Best Little Whorehouse in Texas. I liked it and want to audition for the Producers but it all depends on work and everything...yeah...I work full time as Assistant Manager which is good but the pay sucks and I want more...phoohy...so maybe I am going to get another job or have to ask for more hours. or something...you know

did I mention my boyfriend? well, he is steki. Him, my friends, theatre, and work are pretty much my life right now...oh and paying off bloody school loans and car loans. Peace man, it sucks.

we just got a bunny, her name is whichee...long story...but we got her for free because nobody wanted her, she is beautiful and cute and hops around the house like she owns the place, but she is easily scared...anyway I am her mummy and Minoru is her daddy...he decided this...im all for it but he is the one who named the rabbit and I dont really want him naming our kids if thats the best his got. Awww, I love him for it though.

I`m happy :) I miss the mainland and california and Hallie and my sister and my mum and my siblings and even Phil who is now family, and Tamsin, and my new friends i made last year...but all is well and maybe next year I will visit London with Minoru to see the new baby and then I might be living in Japan next year which would be fun! who knows. it all depends on visa`s and lots of other things but I am taking it in stride and letting life take me on a ride (hehe I rhymed)...Japan would be cool, I mean I actually might learn another langauge fluently...that would be awesome....

I am applying to be American...I need to send my application but I have been lazy...actually I am really nervous about it but I need to find the address and everything before I send it...why am I being lazy? I dont know, I just feel like I have not gotten everything and therefore it will not be taken at all.

I love my mum, my sister, my older brother, my little brother, my Tamsin, my Hallie, my cats, my bunny, my friends, my life, my new nephew, and mostly my Minoru...

so much love in one life. Thats amazing...have you ever thought about that? rather then all the hate in the life and world have you ever just focused on all the love that surrounds you? Well, I do and it keeps me in my world of rainbows and oompa loompas which honestly is a fantastic world because it is truly reality...just my version of it.

Peace out y`all, I am making rice and beef and tofu for dinner and Minoru just came home :) I love him too along with this music I am playing and my relatives in England and my grandparents who are the most incredible people I knew and are my inspirations.

love love love love. please do not forget. please do not fight...which is also an awesome band involving my brother...check it

thank you

poetry from time and time again...

tranquilite — Mon, 04 Jun 2007 04:09:11 GMT

I - you: By Celestial Zenith. 5/22/03

Excitedment (as if you where falling)
Adrenaline.

Stepping up onto the
I’m platform.stage.
You’re ready.

You imagine your
Someone
New, different.

New scenario, new life

People watch as I
Imagine. forever hold your peace.
I
You recite what is so well
Known. I listen, LISTEN.

Incredible passion,
Motivation, determination.

A PAW S.

I am going through my old LJ from when I was 14 - 16...I was funny

damn, what happened? I am so serious now.

Life was so simple, hah I think I will make it again simple!! WAHOOO

Peace out Homies.

Word up.

the dawning of the rest of my life...

tranquilite — Tue, 22 May 2007 06:13:20 GMT

i'm feeling that my emotions have been extremely weird of late, I have gone from indignant, rejected, embaressed, wanting to cry, not even knowing what emotion I am feeling, incredibly determined, incredibly tired, wanting nothing in the world, wanting everything in the world, and lastly want this rampant chaos to merely end and stop. finito.

I blame my period.

However, all in all my life is running fairly smoothly and I have just got a new spurt of inspiration from my friend Andrea and I will shortly be auditioning for several musicals and perhaps looking into an agency and how to get more classes for not so much money. I think Ballet Hawaii will offer a volunteer scholarship and I have discussed it with them but now that I have more time it may be more possible.

June 12, 13, and 14 I have the test for the GED and if I bring in 1 semester of my HCC credits I can have a diploma. rock on.

Then I am getting my SATS once I return from Cali and I will apply for UH Manoa. O.o

I am so....weirded out that my life is slowly working out.

However, I think suddenly I have an inspiration to establish myself in the theatre world here rather then just schooling. I am fed up of school I need to be on the stage.

lovers.

I love my boyfriend

oh it's what you do to me...

tranquilite — Thu, 10 May 2007 19:26:41 GMT

This is my favorite song of all time, I think it is absolutely drop dead beautiful and I am in love.

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

I am sitting in the library and it is my last day of school until January of 08 where hopefully I will be attending UH to get my BA in Drama and a minor in Dance. I am so excited! look out world. Dood, however I still need to bust my butt off after school to get GED and SAT and to get my scholarship AKA financial aid worked out, we'll see how it goes.

I have so much to say and do I just dont know how to say or do it. Damn, I need a stage or something...I need something.

P.S. I love my boyfriend so much, he is awesome and funny and every day I find something new about him that I think is funny or sweet or cute. ai shiteimasu

in which I attempt to close Satura down early today...

tranquilite — Sat, 05 May 2007 05:42:12 GMT

well, my title says it all...I attempted to close Satura at 5PM not 6PM...honestly, I didnt mean to I just didnt realize it was only 5PM so I had everything cleaned and ready to go and at 5PM (or what I thought was 6PM) I locked the doors and my co-worker goes...'dont we close at 6PM?'

'yes...it is 6PM'

'no, its 5PM'

....

'....'

'...I need a hug'

in which I save the day...

tranquilite — Thu, 03 May 2007 19:46:51 GMT

SO, yesterday and the day before I had gone into complete worrisome panic about my boyfriends and mines money situation, being that we had NONE. Of course we get paid on Friday (which is tomorrow) but we have to pay our car insurance and it is basically Minorus entire pay cheque. So, here I am in complete panic. However, one thing I was really trying to avoid was making that big of a deal and i manage to keep a completely cool head around my man and only vented to my two good friends at work (who actually are his co-workers). So, last night after work and really not looking forward to have no money for the next 3 weeks I decided to take action and I looked into a payment plan from Gieco and I managed so we are doing it in 4 payments only I think 8 dollars more per payment, not too bad, and we now have some money so we can start a few things into our new apartment (a chair...quilt...etc;) and we can pay off our loan for the car comfortably.

I dont think Minoru was overly worried but I think deep down he was, so after showing him what I had down he lightened up alot. The only thing I think that would make him even happier would be if we had a decent bed.

Phoohy.

But, hooray for me and saving the money situation! I give all the credit to my mother who helped me learn how to be resourceful.

However, now I start work at 4PM and I need to try and fix the water, oven/stove, and the electricity since none of it seems to be working...well the electricity is working but weak and the other two are not working at all...Well, we get water but its ICE COLD! So yay for having two ice cold showers two days in a row. Whoop!

and then after that I work only 3 hours and then I get to wait for my honey and do all my english homework since I managed to preoccuppy myself so much last night with making a budget and making this gieco thing go to plan. So, the only big bill I have to pay is my phone bill.

Only one more week of school.

Next month I am going to California for 2 weeks!

I really wish royal hawaiian would open soon so Minoru wasnt so stressed out, there isnt much I can do but try and make him comfortable when he gets home...I think I am doing a good job but I wish he didnt have to work so much.

Another note, this month is the month I need to get my GED so right after finals I need to call the mckinley highschool and set that up. I have to for my uni.

Ok, well I have to run to class and start my hectic day.

XX

this is so suprisingly me.

tranquilite — Tue, 01 May 2007 19:43:44 GMT

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watashi wa o-hima ga arimasen...

tranquilite — Mon, 30 Apr 2007 01:22:56 GMT

which means in English I have no free time.

So much homework, however tomorrow is the oral final and next week written so therefore very soon I will only have work and I can focus on some GED studying before I head to CA for the end of JUNE.

Maybe I need to also start looking into scholarships.

I close ward centre tonight, bleh.

Also, I am extremely exhausted.

XX I am lost and yet I know only one person who can find me.

to day was a great day I said but I meant today was the worst day i've ever spent...

tranquilite — Thu, 26 Apr 2007 19:49:29 GMT

I just got the best text messages from my boyfriend.

I was walking a long dillingham blvd thinking of him because we are moving into a new apartment next week and I was trying to figure out a plan and organize the day. Then I go to check my phone and make sure it was on silent (since I was about to enter the library at my school) and I noticed two text messages both from Minoru. At first I had asumed they were form Mystical since she is the one who usually texts me. But anyway, here is what was in them.

the first; Hi !! I have to tell you

the second one; I love you so much!! Xxx

So so so simple and yet it has completely brightened my day. Need I remind you my boyfriend is at work, they only have maybe 4 chefs on duty (a regular kitchen should at least have 8, what with the qauntity of products they are bringing out) and 9.30AM is there busiest time due to trying to get the delivery going to Ward Centre, and my boyfriend stops for a minute (or longer because he is really slow at texting!!) and takes the time to do something like that.

Today I am going to lunch with my boyfriend and then I am taking the bus to ward centre to close the shop, but I think I will have maybe 3 hours to spare and I am going to spent it studying my ass off for my oral exam on Monday for japanese.

right, peace out everyone it is time for my english class.

there is nothing like looking, if you want to find something...

tranquilite — Fri, 20 Apr 2007 06:12:03 GMT

You certainly usually find something, if you look, but it is not always quite the something you were after

So, I thought I had an essay due today for my English class but it turns out it is not due until Tuesday. So, this means I can actually put some more thought an effort into my essay. However, I didnt think I would have time tonight because I was planning on going to Shinnyo-en but sadly I was unable to due to one co-worker not staying and therefore I having to train someone to close, so it took me about an hour to close when usually it would take me half an hour to forty minutes.

So, point being I do not have any of my books with me so I think I am going to attempt to write whatever I can from memory and make some of it up and then just type where I need actually quotes or I want to write more about a certain thing yet I need more information.

Im exhausted, but my boyfriend and I finally have a new apartment! Wahoo. No rest for the wicked though, even if I get free time this weekend I must spend it doing homework since finals are slowly making there way closer.

Love and all.

I cant explain what you cant explain....

tranquilite — Wed, 11 Apr 2007 07:39:21 GMT

So, I am finally supervisor again a Satura, I got a small raise but I am not however on my original wage...Im working my way up there and I should be thankful to have such a job which I enjoy going to. In other news I have figured out when I can do my SATs and will hopefully be doing the prep course in the next couple of weeks and then straight to the SATs which also means I can go straight after that to my GED which should be a peice of cake after the SATs test. So, before the end of june I should have all those documents ready to go and then all I need is my transcripts and to finish a discussion with one of the advisors at UH Manoa before finally applying by November 1st, also I need to start putting the documents together for my Citizanship, wish me luck.

Those who care, I will be in California June 25th through to July 9th; Tamsin will you be in CA? or still Virginia? I would love to see you. X

Update on more of the social aspect of my life; first of my teacher (Japanese) has offered to let me join in on his summer classes for free as all I want to do is study the langauge not do the class for a grade, per sei, so he has been beyond kind and has offered this oppurtunity to me which I intend to take. However, I do need to speak to my work about it to get confirmation that it will be OK before I can fully commit.

Today was so much fun! My boyfriend and I went to Sandy Beach for maybe 2 hours nd the waves there are incredible! Him and I had so much fun trying to surf them and just being silly but it was so scary, one of the waves knocked me to the point where I was just going in circles under the water holding my breath for dear life before resurfacing and seeing my boyfriend calling me name and trying to grab for me, I couldnt stop laughing but he looked a little worried. ;P meep. Also, Mystical I think I can beat your sunburn now and I may be getting a tan; hehe that means I may no longer look so english, incredible.

After that we went to the Sea Life Park up the road and we got to see a sea lion show and a dolphin show! I have never ever seen that kind of thing live before and it was so incredible. I had my mouth open the entire time and was smiling so much! Also, we took pictures! but my sister seems to have the cord to connect my camera to the computer so I have to go to the shop to buy a new one. Mystical is a lameo but I love you.

So, there is this Jazz cafe I really want to go to and I think I am going to take my boyfriend next week, it looks like so much fun! Something I would be really into, I might look into starting to write more again because my english teacher suggested I go into writing as a career and it sparked an inspiration in me to just do a bit of it on the side.

I am going to ballet once a week, it is definitely not enough but it is better then nothing and I am hoping when I get back from CA I may audition for a show since I will not be attending school and only doing work so I will have the time, I want to get at least one show on my resume this year. I need it for my own personal fulfillment.

you see, I need everything...you see, I can have everything...

Please dont forget on a day to day basis to use common curtesy, I think it has become an after thought for many people in society today and I think it is such an important thing to have. Its just politeness and it shows you care, compassion is such an important thing at the moment with everything going on in the world, and even though you may not be able to influence iraq or bush or any of the poverty and war going on in surrounding countries, what you can do is influence you immediate society with compassion and it will set an example for future generation who will pave the way for there future world as we are for them at the moment. Everything we do now effects those in our future and present and it is so important to always think of other when you do things, because then they will be thinking of you and if you both are thinking of each other rather then just yourselves it makes the world a better and caring place.

in acting when on the stage the one rule to go by is what your goal is is to make your scene partner look good, and they are trying to make you look good so therefore you are looking after eachother and you do not worry about yourself which creates from the audience point of view a sense of giving and out wardness rather then isolation if we only thought of our performance.

I dont know if that makes sense.

main point; please care for people, be compassionate, have common courtesy, and dont forget to say thank you.

sorry for the bad grammer, I am in a rush.

Peace out.

dont say i"m out of touch with this rampant chaos your reality....

tranquilite — Sun, 01 Apr 2007 23:21:42 GMT

dance as if no one is watching and believe as if you never stopped believing...

I am exhausted, I managed to go to sleep around 12AM last night and woke up around 4.30AM...I sometimes lie there wondering what would happen if I just didnt get up and come to work, you know? Well, being the good person I am I did get up and did come to work and I now have 3 more excruciating hours to endure of a slow slow day at the Ward Centre, however afterwards my boyfriend and I are going to a BBQ at our friends house with all the other chefs. Yay!

The reason I tend to get to bed late is not that we were not home early and or had not finished dinner but because Minoru and I decided there are so many stories we don"t know about each other that every night we will tell each other one story because it would be impossible to tell all at once. So, we end up talking for over an hour after we have initially gone to bed.

And I still have the BBQ, I may fall asleep that I think I am going to get my boyfriend to drive the car.

Right, I am going to go to the bathroom and then head back to work. ~~*groanmumblegroan*~~

I think one thing that is extremely important to consider in this world is to never stop trying no matter how long it takes and no matter how many times you are ignored, if you believe in yourself and believe in your ability and your mind in the end you will be rewarded and people will be inspired by your perserverence. If you fail, you would have never known what you know now so dont be afraid of failure, it is our path to knowledge and alot of people do not realize that, they want to be perfect and little miss barbie or hollywood, but we're all only human so dont expect more but try to be more...if you understand...I dont know...

we were made for so much more

to live would be an awefully big adventure!

tranquilite — Fri, 23 Mar 2007 06:04:42 GMT

So, today was my first morning of spring break. I got it early before Wednesday was my Jpns midterm and then Thursday my english teacher was out of town so no class! so I get a week and a half for spring break, it is fantastic! So I am working for Satura, I get to go to a birthday party with all the chefs and chris's family on Saturday and I hoepfully will be going to ballet every day all week, depending on my money situation.

so much is going on but I dont have the brain right now to write it down, so alas you will have to read another quiz from me.

peace out

tranquilite — Tue, 20 Mar 2007 08:45:24 GMT

so next week is ｍｙ last week at macys! I am so excited Ithink I might die of exhaustion before the end of the month if I had attempted to keep up what I was doing， I really need to start ｆｏｃｕｓｉｎｇ on my GED and SATs so I can get the studying down before I have to head down to California to meet up with my friend from London town. So, much to do and so little time. Well, ride the waves right and we'll see where they will take me.

My first week back at Satura last week, was fun and interesting all in one go. It's just not LA though, I wanna call Melody.

I am 20, so old. Jeez.

I am bored out of my mind...

tranquilite — Fri, 16 Mar 2007 06:44:46 GMT

-S-O- -B-A-S-I-C-A-L-L-Y-
What is your first name?: Celestial
What is your middle initial?: I have 2, T T
What is your zodiac sign?: Pisces
Are you happy right now?: I am beyond happy

-L-O-O-K- -A-T- -M-E-
What is your natural hair color?: Brown
What color are you eyes? Green/Hazel/Blue/Gray/Yellow...
Piercings: My ears
Tattoos: a small one on my lower back
Long or Short Hair?: Long
Straight or Curly?: Wavey and depending on how I style it it can be really curly or really straight
How tall are you?: 5'9"

-C-U-R-R-E-N-T-L-Y- -W-E-A-R-I-N-G-
What shirt are you wearing? A bright pink one from Old Navy
What kind of trousers are you wearing?: My black work pants
Necklace?: Yes, the one my boyfriend got me for V day
Bracelets?: Nope

-T-H-I-S- -O-R- -T-H-A-T-
Pepsi or Mountain Dew? Pepsi!
Rock or Rap? Rock.
Coffee or Hot Cocoa?: Both depending on my mood.
Wild Night out or Romantic night in? Romantic night in
Chocolate or vanilla?: Depends, but I like both.
Do you like Guys or Girls?: Guys
Bracelet or Necklace?: Necklace
Pink or Purple? Pink
History or Science? History
Sleep in or Early to rise? depends on my mood but preferably I like to sleep until atleast 8 or 9AM
Beach or Boardwalk?: Beach
Hoodie or Tee Shirt?: Hoodie please
Night Or Day?: Day
Jeans or Capris?: Capris
Love or Fun?: dont they both go together?
California or Florida?: California all the way baby!

-H-A-V-E- -Y-O-U- -E-V-E-R-
Been on the phone till sunrise?: No.
Mooned anyone?: I dont know, but I have a strong feeling I have.
Got chased by the police?: No!
Got in trouble with the police?: No
Went streaking?: Hahaha NO.
Crashed a party?: Never
Slept past 4 in the afternoon?: Yes
Rejected someone?: Yes
Got rejected?: Um, yes I do believe I have been.

-T-H-E- -L-A-S-T-
Person you talked to in person? Minoru
Person you talked to online? Kaori
Person you talked to on the phone? Freedom
Movie you saw in theaters?: Dream Girls!
Thing you drank?: Cranberry juice
Thing you laughed at? My boyfriend skipping across the kitchen to get something....I just stared at him before bursting into laughter.

-R-a-n-d-o-m-
Do you get sad? Sometimes
Do you have mental breakdowns? NO.
Do you like anyone? Yes

1. Name one person who made you smile today:
Ashley, Shan, Minoru, Kiyoka, and Lisa.

2. What were you doing at 8 this morning?
Getting ready for school

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
surfing the net...waiting for my boyfriend.

4. What is something that happened in 1994?
My parents seperated.

5. What is the last thing you said aloud?
Hi Jun!

6. How many different things did you drink today?
3...I have tes, latte, and cranberry juice

7. What color is your hairbrush?
Its red, green, yellow, and blue...it has a frog on it!

8. What was the last thing you bought?
A cheap outfit from Old Navy!

9. What was the last gift you received?
Oh a $40 manicure from my friend at work, so generous.

10. What color is your front door?
white

11. Where do you keep your change?
in my wallet

12. What is the weather like today?
rainy and hot

13. What is the best ice-cream flavor?
Vanilla

14. What is something you are excited about for tomorrow?
ITS MY BIRTHDAY!

15. When was the last rainbow you saw?
Maybe a couple days ago, it was beautiful.

16.What's your favorite gardening tool?
Eh, um a spade.

17. Do you have a sister?
Yes.

18. Are you very random?
Yes

19. Do you want to cut your hair?
No, I just did about 2 days ago.

20. Are you over the age of 25?
No

21. Who is the tightest person you know?
does that mean coolest? I guess my sister, but I dont really know.

22. Do you watch The OC?
No

23. Does your screen name have an 'x' in it?
No

24. Do you know anyone named Steve?
Yes, a variety of people

25. Are you ticklish?
EXTREMELY

26. Are you typically a jealous person?:
No, not really

27. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'J':
Julianne

28. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter A'?
Amy

29. Who's the 1st person on your dialed calls list?
Mum

30. What did the last text message you received say?
Something about call me in 10 minutes, it was from my sister.

31. Do you chew on your straws?
Yes

32. Do you have curly hair?
Yeah,

33. Who is the crappiest person in your life?
No one, I love everyone and if they were crappy they probably wouldnt be in my life.

34. Who is the coolest person in your life?
Everyone

35. What is something you say often?
Eh?

36.What is the last thing you ate?
Blueberry Danish

37. Have you seen the movie 'Donnie Darko'?
No, actually.

38. Do you have work tomorrow?
Yes. 7AM - 2PM

39. Do you see marriage in your future?
Yes, indeed.

40. What should you be doing right now?
studying

41. What color is your underwear?
Um, black

42. Are you a heavy sleeper?
Yes

43. When was the last time you used a skateboard?
Never! I fall over!

44. What is the best movie you've seen in the past two weeks?
DREAM GIRLS!

45. Is there anyone you love right now?
Yes, very much so.

46. When was the last time you did the dishes?
This morning....

all that is gold does not glitter, not all those who wonder are lost...

tranquilite — Thu, 15 Mar 2007 23:16:00 GMT

Next week is my last week of school before spring break, I have a pretty good chance of getting either all A's or one A and one B in my classes for the final grading in May. Rock on. I want A'S please.

I had a wonderful night last and both my boyfriend and I now understand the full commitment to our relationship and we are both on exactly the same page.

When I have free time I want to sleep, but I need to study for Midterms and GED before March is up. During spring break I will. But, I barely ever get any time off. Phoohy.

I have so much to say right now but I do not have the physical energy or desire to right it down, maybe later.

I'm 20 years old tomorrow.

love leads to tears, tears lead to sadness, sadness to memories, and memories to madness...

tranquilite — Tue, 06 Mar 2007 22:00:33 GMT

An update on my emotions, my plans, my schooling, my ideas, my thoughts, my life, my decisions, and my situations

Where to begin, school I suppose is a better start then any. Well, I am coming up to my Midterms in both my Intensive writing/reading English class and in my Japanese. So far so good, I am obtaining a average of B's and A's however with the B's still coming in there is much more need for improvement and I think the only reason I am getting the B's is because of the amount of word and lack of sleep I get during a normal week. My english class is ok, I am not the biggest fan of the teacher however it's easy for me since I love to write and I am learning a lot on just setting up a paper without it being completely scripted out for me as it is in the introduction courses you have to take when you begin College (1A and 1B), so theres some optimism. My japanese class is so cool! My teacher is awesome and he really makes me want to learn and perservere even through the hardest concepts. I get a lot of practice since I work in Waikiki and I live...well with my boyfriend, so I speak alittle Japanese atleast every day. My vocabulary is slowly increasing and I am getting more comfortable atleast trying with the customers at Macys which is always fun, and they really appreciate it. However, a recent concept was just introduced and I am struggling slightly, I need to stop thinking english.

To go from school I now will talk about Work, I have 3 jobs. I work 1 day a week at the Hawaii Theatre and I get 2 free complimentry tickets to every production they put on! I thought that was awesome. I am on-call at Macy's starting next week Monday and still get the 20% off even though I may only work 3 or 4 times within a month, rock on. Then I am part - full time at Satura Cakes, starting as a Barista with highest pay and then moving onto Supervisor once the Royal Hawaiian store opens in April (there was no position as supervisor availible at the Ward Centre), and hopefully once I go to the Royal Hawaiian I will return to my original wage. Busy busy.

I started Ballet again! I am going once a week because it is extremely expensive, however there is a cheaper school but the times that it is avalible for me to go I am always working or at school. So, I go with what I can get. At least once a week is fine until I get more time on my hands.

I am going to Transfer to UH Manoa, a BA in Major Drama and Minor Dance. I have to by the end of the month get my GED (which will be a sinch) and before I leave for California in the summer I need to get my SATs, and then get both transcripts from HCC and Foothill sent over to UH and sent all my extra curricular over as well. I may set up a meeting in the future with the dean on the performing arts section to see how many of my extra curricular activities I can apply to the transfer process so I do not have to retake anything, such as beginning ballet. Bleh. I also have to write a ;qoute;transcript;qoute; for myself for my highschool years, I have told them my situation and they are completely comfortable with my doing this as long as both my parents sign it. So, by Spring of 2008 I should be well on my way towards a BA in my dream and it should only take me 2 to 3 years depending on how many units I get transfered over.

Money wise I have a couple scholarships in mind and will hopefully beable to find a loan if that doesnt work out.

Personals: My boyfriend is amazing and we are having the time of our lives together. However, he has been extremely busy due to royal hawaiian soon to be opening and therefore until the 19th will not get a day off. So I am doing everything in my power to help him, which isnt too much but hey...at least I am trying.

I am visiting Japan this year O.o my boyfriend wants to take me, so maybe nearing the end of the year we are going to go. *sings* I think i'm turing japanese I think i'm turning japanese I really think so...do do do do do No, I am extremely excited, I have always wanted to go and now I have a tour guide who knows the place really well. Next year or the year after we hope to visit London. We'll see, it all depends on money and time and situations.

And last but not least I plan on getting my Citizenship this year.

P.S. I have changed my number, please e-mail me if you need it and e-mail me yours because I have managed to lose all numbers on my old sim card. It would be much appreciatted.

/end

in which my boyfriend amuses me....

tranquilite — Sun, 04 Mar 2007 09:46:43 GMT

So, I was on myspace.com right? showing Minoru my pictures, he was sitting beside me eating dinner when I was explaining about a friend to him and I look over at him as my focus had been on the computer screen for sometime and half of his dinne rhas fallen on his lap. Natto and rice all over his pant leg and all he says is "my natto" with a pout on his face.

Oh boy, that was funny.

/fin.