★ shake your head it's empty

~ i don't wanna talk anymore

2010-05-10T23:00:21Z

❝WHAT I THINK ABOUT YOU❞

I went there.
This will be left open; I'll lock it later.

~ i'm not street but i do what i gotta do

2009-08-10T09:39:54Z

The HONESTY Box

[I sort of hate Jess a little for this.]

you'd think they'd grow up, but kids are always kids

2009-05-07T12:04:23Z

I'm so sick and tired of Livejournal RP drama! It's ruining games and all the pathetic 'I'm going to leave this super bitchy post' is lame as fuck. You're not being adult, you're just causing drama, but I guess that's what you like doing.

Here. Have a link.

It's just pretendy fun times

For seriously, you left. Shut up about it already.

Not locked or private because I don't give a flying monkeys ass.

need somebody?

2009-04-20T13:41:39Z

Okay, slashers -writers and readers, help a body out?

There's a questionnaire about slash writing and reading, it's for a friend of mind doing a written paper on slash fic and it's many intricate little niches. Fancy giving up just a short while of your time to fill it out? It's nothing complicated, nice and simple, with just 18 easy to answer, concise questions about slash fic.

Link to Questionnaire

All the comments are screened, you don't need to sign in or give your name and I think most of the questions are optional. But really, you'd be helping her out with her college stuff.

Thanks muchly for the time.

dedstructive is the way we want to be

2009-01-25T22:50:36Z

I'm being a bitch. I'm cutting friends.

No commenting. No interest. No point.
Cut.

There are certain people who just won't be. Because no matter what, I'll always want to know what's going on.
But I'm cutting the list down.

If I've cut you, and you wanna be added back - not that I expect it - comment and I'll consider it.

365 Days [1-4]

2009-01-04T23:09:54Z

1.

This is my dad and I. We don't usually do the smiling thing, or the picture thing. But my dad is pretty awesome most of the time. He's managed 28 years married to my mother. He's like a saint. A really over protective worrying one.

2.

This is my Gaara wall hanging that I got for Christmas. I've moved into my brothers room, and I had some space on my wall, but nothing to hang, so he bought me this. I like it.

3.

These are my most cherished graphic novels. I have a few more, a scattering of series and a few stand alones, mostly ones I bought for the pretty covers. But these are my faves. Lenore, Johnny and Squee, with a little bit of Emily and Tim Burton poetry.

4.

And this is Effie. With a mild make over. She used to be covered in stickers, I don't know if you recall. Alas, they sorta had to come off. So I doodled on her, then wrote on her. Mostly little lyrics or poems. The markers fade and then I just write something else.
She's a little dead just now. Needs a new Boot File. Hopefully that will get fixed up soon and I can be happy and blissful with her again.

WHY DOES MY TOOTH ACHE SO BADLY!

I'll give up my scrooge ways, but for a day

2008-12-25T11:43:06Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS

I may not be joyous and cheery. But have a good one everybody.

And it's my nephew's first birthday!

here we go again

2008-11-04T11:15:37Z

So, another new layout - please note, I will not be removing the capitalised font for my subjects - that is right, I am being less anal...but still rather anal.

Also, for anyone who wants to, but mostly for me and Jess to be dorks...

ICON WAR!

Rules are simple, don't use the same icon twice.
Post randomly and ramble [this does not mean you spam me Jess, my head may explode]
Winner is declared when I grow a brain.

Feel free to join. ^_^

I shall have an actual update later, as I actually have some things to say.

this is where I bash my head against a wall

2008-10-01T15:46:25Z

Today will probably be my last day of activity for a fair wee while.

Effie needs over hauled, so I'm going to uninstall everything and reinstall it. However it takes time. I need to back up all my docs, music and pics and this will take at least a day - I still need to dig out my old 'Nny' external hard drive from my room.

There's a file missing or corrupt which is affecting all my .exe files and thus things are not loading. I can't get on AIM or MSN so, I apologise if I said I'd get online to talk, I can't.

I will hopefully have everything up and running by Monday - but Emma's 21st birthday party is Saturday night, Brian's 18th is Sunday and Emma's actual birthday is Tuesday, so it might be as late as next Wednesday/Thursday before I'm up and running again.

Apologies to all, but I will be back as soon as possible.
Jess, I'll email you when I get the chance and I'll give you an estimated ETA. ^_^
I'm ordering Cloud today so that he does make it on time. ^_^

Well, catch you later.

we are dead until dark

2008-09-02T00:10:23Z

so we have limited power right now.

by limited i mean all non-essential things are turned off - except i'm being bad and using up that last bit of power effie has to do this now and see if anything drastic has happened in the world. so far, so good.

we're hoping to get power back tomorrow afternoon - and since we have no heating because the boiler and gas thingy have no power that'd be really nice. i'm currently wearing half my wardrobe. and i'm still cold.

apparently it was a main power house busting or something. some jackass killed the breaker. *shrug* i know next to nothing about these things.

just worked at 39 hour weekend. dead on my feet, thinking about sleeping with 12 hot water bottles until the power comes back. except we don't have hot water either. two cold showers this weekend is enough to make me wait until the heating is back before i do it again. and then it's going to be a nice long hot bath!

hopefully i'll be back soon.

torncorpse @ 2008-08-29T14:52:00

2008-08-29T13:54:05Z

currently we have no power.

like...none.

so i don't know when i'll be online again. *sigh* i'm at a friends just now, hopefully we'll get things sorted soon.

jess: sorry i disappeared last night so suddenly. the pc freaked out and then the power went.
^_^
i'll catch up with comments/replies when i get back.

public service announcement

2008-06-30T21:19:16Z

I have a temporary layout up while I work on a few changes I'm making.

Bear with me please.

Cut!

2008-06-20T11:11:49Z

I've just had a friends cut.

If I cut you, it's because I don't read your journal, you don't read/comment in mine, or I've fallen out of the fandom you write/like/we friended because of.

If I've cut you and you want to be uncut, leave a comment saying why.
Otherwise, it was nice knowing you.

[There are lots of people I didn't cut, even if we're not as close anymore, but bitches, I'll never cut you. You know who you are.]

Thanks to Rio, I got a little addicted...

2008-06-17T12:20:40Z

i'm like a trainwreck baby

2008-06-12T13:05:03Z

Random meme - ya'll gots to do it, stolen from goingvogue.

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favourite Movie:
5. Favourite Song or Album:
6. Favourite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favourite memory of us?
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarky) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favourite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

Here's a suggestion. Do it Anonymous and let me guess who you are!

public service announcement

2008-05-13T12:22:01Z

vampire_heart has under gone a make over.

Due to annoying glitches we've changed name.

We are now torncorpse.

Cause Jess asked....

2008-04-18T13:50:31Z

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customer service annoucement

2008-04-02T22:27:50Z

Messing around with Layout

Will stop soon

patience is a virtue

it was never my intention to break

2008-01-22T00:47:32Z

I've just spent the last hour playing with my layout.

And I'm still not happy with it.

Why must I complicate things?

I Watched My Wildest Dreams Come True

2008-01-11T00:03:52Z

Can I behoove [is that a word?] all the SPN fanners out there? Please?

Pop over to my writing journal.
I've just written the largest/most complex/most taxing fic of my fangirl career. Input would be nice.

Fankies.
[there are warnings at the top...]

Part 1
Part 2

Comments are my friend.

She Moves Like She Don't Care

2007-12-18T21:07:03Z

Okay so, been a while people.

First off, Jess, sorry I haven't been around much, I swear I'm gonna try and fix that!
We really need to figure out when suits you mostly, so we can chat.

Effie died a horrible, brutal death. It was tramatising and left me a little bit hollow inside. I miss her terribly. My mother even felt bad for me. And so we have Noire. Cause I felt like that was a good name for her.

Effie has left and Noire is the sorta stand in replacement Effie Mach 3 or whatever. More memory, more space, more gadgets. But she's not the same. If I was honest I would've liked a retro iMac, but my mum hates Mac and wouldn't buy me one. Go figure. Effie is hopefully going to be revived by the nice folks I sent her to. With all her memory intact. But I'm not holding my breath.

Which brings me to this. As of late, I've been hard up for cash, so, I ended up copying all my CDs to Effie and selling them. It was that or sell my body. And I got more for the CDs I can assure you. So, if anyone has some music lying around, ready for upload? Noire really needs a boost on that front. She's rather sparce.

I'm not picky. I'll give anything a listen. So, if y'all are feeling nice, throw some links my way? Or even just some suggestions and I'll use LimeWire myself.

So I'm now on FireFox. Cause I've heard some really good things about Mozilla and I thought I'd give it a try. So far I'm liking it.

At current my Grandad isn't looking too good, so we've been up and down from the hospital a lot, and some friends are kinda moping about. Plus Henderson is kinda being a pain, so we're all sorta on edge around here. But I suppose I at least have my health.

And two jobs. Which so far seem to be going okay. Not dying from exhaustion yet, so that's a good sign. Right?

Every bridge you cross is burning down

2007-12-07T15:56:04Z

You know, actually going through with things you plan is rather difficult.

The plan was saving money.
The plan failed miserably.

Between Xmas and Birthday's and just general bills and stuff, it's hard to keep track of how much I have coming in and what's going out.

Petrol for the car is up to £1.01 per litre. My car takes 40 litres. And she's a little guzzler. Seriously, there's so much money going into the car I'm shocked my car hasn't turned green!

I'm working the next three weekends. Although I get a break tomorrow before I start the Week of Doom!

Also, if I told you I'd call you, or that I'd answer the phone if you called me, sorry, my phone DIED!!!
I kinda dropped her in the toilet. So, she's le ded. Guess what I'm looking for my mum to buy me for Xmas?

[lookie at my new layout!!!]

Don't you breathe for me, undeserving of your sympathy

2007-11-29T16:07:03Z

Sweet Jesus.

I make the decision to make a point of updating and everything turns to pot.

Quick drop by.
I'm not ignoring people. I'm just really really overloaded with life.
Which is annoying.

My sister in law is very close to her due date, and the baby hasn't turned yet so they're gonna wait and see if they can get the baby to turn - meaning they're waiting before they just cut into Louise.

Work is all I do now. I've not left the place in a week nearly.
Worked 7 days in a row, have a day off and then I'm back in tomorrow.
And that's only in Subway. I've got work at the bar all this weekend - Friday - Monday. *sigh*

I am hoping to get to Iowa in April. And then do a little road trip before I go back home so I can visit some people. Would love to do that. *sigh*

Thats...sadly all I have. Hopefully I'll get back at some point.

Jess, I love you and miss you. We'll need to arrange a time to phone.
Maria, I think you effin' fantastic and I'd love a Xmas card, thank you sweetie.

And everyone else, I will try at some point to get into the swing of things and have a gander and comment in your journals. I really miss you all.

Your Eyes Forever Glued To Mine

2007-11-21T13:04:31Z

I’m not dead! Wow, bet you’re so disappointed. But seriously, life is so horrible that things are just really piling up now.

So, should I bullet point?

-learning shorthand with a semi-broken thumb is difficult, seriously.
-stupid Clara got me into a new tv show, Blood Ties. I can’t complain too much cause it’s like NYPD Blue meets Buffy only with style. Yeah, and it’s got Vampires.
-Effie and I have fallen out. Her keyboard needs replaced due to a spillage of cola. Damnit. And the stupid CD drive is messing me about - means no more US version DVD’s for me - which is half of my DVD collection including most of my Viva La Bam, half my Jackass, my Queer as Folk and my Supernatural. Not a happy bunny.
-work is sucking. So much so that I have a second job. At a bar. It’s so ironic I want to cry. Should alcoholics really work in pubs? My life is nearly non-existent, work is all I do and I have nothing to show for it.
-I’m starting writing again, nothing substantial, but little bits and pieces, which is good.
-possible trip to Iowa is in the works. Excited beyond belief, but before hopes get up, I need to see about time availability and finances. Yes, I plan things without thinking them through. Details.
-purchase of many DVD and CD’s which has eaten all my money. I am now the proud owner of {deep breath} HIM’s Venus Doom, Gym Class Hero’s album, the Police’s Greatest Hits, The entire A-Team collection, all 8 seasons of Charmed and the new Star Wars all episodes box set along with the Die Hard quadrilogy and the Indiana Jones DVD Collectors edition Boxset. Happy face, sad bank account.

So, my grandmother is doing better, but the chain of cancer she had [yes had, they got it all] appears to be of a genetic nature. So I’m in the system now, means I get all these tests run every 6 months, just to be sure to be sure. It’s not too much of a hassle, I mean if it saves my life then wayhey. I’ve already had a talk with the consultant and it seems that should I ever develop a cancerous lump they would prefer to do the double mastectomy and just work on reconstruction, that way they know that it’s done. It also means that any female children I have will be high risk. Just another genetic trait that sucks.

Henderson got a cat. She’s vicious. Everyone is of the opinion that I’m slashing up my arms again. Less than half of the scratches are even from a razor! It’s the damn cat - his name is Snake Eyes [don’t know why]. He’s adorable and everything, and we have fun with one another, but he’s seriously evil.

I’ve just missed what seems like half a year of college. Between a semi-broken thumb, work being so hectic and continuous, my gran being ill and just general life I just haven’t had time for being the good little journalist. I’ve missed too much in my mind; I just can’t seem myself catching up to be honest. I’m considering dropping out and continuing the year the way I’ve ended it - as a hard working taxpayer.

It does mean that I’d be more likely to be able to afford the long list of things I am hoping to do next year, like move out of my parents house, get a trip to Canada and another to Iowa, redo my scaffold/industrial piercing since I hate that it’s closed up and finally get my ‘Brit’ tattoo [not that it is saying Brit or anything but Brit and I know what I’m talking about].

I have 55 days left [aprox] until I become an auntie. And before then I would also like to extend on my left wrist tattoo so that I have 8 purple stars and another three darker ones, these are to represent my immediate family and then the three members of my family that I’ve picked. Dave, Colette and Emma.

If I’m painfully honest with myself I’ll probably do the tattoo thing before I do the moving out thing, which is stupid since my dad will kill me if I get more tattoo’s while still living with them.

life's a bitch and then you die

2007-10-02T22:47:22Z

Oh, how you like to throw curve balls at me you ass.

Work is practically non-existant right now. I can't focus. I can't focus on anything really.

My wonderful mother decided to call me last night - in the middle of the college radio show I co-present - and inform me none too kindly that my gran [my only living gran] has breast cancer.
Thank you very much.

The rest of the show was a nightmare since I got hardly any information from my mother and I really didn't know what to think.
After calling my gran and talking with her I've discovered that they located a lump on her breast during a body scan. They're unsure if they caught the cancer in time but there will be a consultation on Friday to decided when the breast will be removed. And then Chemotherapy.

So I've taken some time from work. And I've taken some time from college and I've called my uncle and he's flying over because really, my dad can't get time off work and my mum's already working overtime to cover other people at her work. Right now nothing is really helping.

My other gran died 30 years ago from breast cancer, and in the end, it was the chemotherapy that got to her.
Fuck do I hate the cosmic 'HA' that comes my way. This is why karma sucks.