thursdayfix 😟depressed

Listens: brick ben folds five

the d word

my grandfather died about 10 minutes ago

we had a weird relationship. he was neurotic and crazy, but i loved him so much. we talked all the time. he built a house for me up in canada.

i miss him already.

he was such a powerful force, and i can't imagine him gone. but he is.

he was on life support in a comatose state as of this morning. but they took him off of it. we knew it would happen but not so fast.






when i first found out...i checked my email, ate a pretzel, got on IM. and then went into hysterics. i'm okay now but i really don't understand myself sometimes.

more later.