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Submissions Post Forty Nine (19th February - 4th March)

2011-02-19T11:24:53Z

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Secrets Post Forty Eight

2011-02-19T11:22:04Z

Warning: Possibly triggering secrets under the cut.

Submissions Post Forty Nine will open shortly.

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One.
I really, really, really want to have sex but I don't want to lose it while my body is so out of shape and my skin is so rough and unattractive. I'm in my mid 20's and I need some action. I never had any.

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Two.
I make like $80K a year and spend about 30-45 minutes a day working. I fucking LOVE IT!

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Three.
Sometimes, I think about submitting something to Post Secret just to see if anyone will recognize that it's from me.

I wonder if my secrets aren't actually so secret.

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Four.
i'm becoming promiscuous and it's scaring me.

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Five.
An online game just saved my life.

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Six.
I wish I was depressed again. It made me feel more comfortable with my life.

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Seven.
i wish sometimes that i could go back to the first 3 weeks of cutting myself and just extend it ad infinitum. where no one knew. where it was my little secret that i had ultimate control over. but, just sometimes. currently i've gone two months without it.

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Eight.
The guy that I'm seeing has a girlfriend. He keeps telling me that he'll break up with her as soon as the lease on their apartment is up. I think I'm falling in love with him. Am I being an idiot for believing that he'll leave her for me?

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Nine.
I'm always sad over Christmas, I always have to spend it (quite literally) alone. It's kind of pathetic that I cry myself to sleep on Christmas Eve and wake up to cold leftovers and an empty home the next morning.

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Ten.
I don't think I'm suicidal, not really. I can't seriously imagine going through with it. But my life is so miserable right now. More often than not, when I go to bed at night, I just lie awake thinking of how much I hate all the things I have to do the next day. The only thing that's really comforting is reminding myself that I don't have to do anything, that I can just end it all whenever I want to.

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Eleven.
After all that time and the back and forth, you finally gave in.

I take it this means you never got over wanting me. Honestly, I've foolishly harbored hope this would happen, no matter what you said.

Yes, I know how wrong it is if we actually go all the way. That's never been in dispute.

But your voice is all I can think about. Is my touch all you've thinking about?

Where do we go from here? Are we still talking? Do you want more?

Or....are you going to deny everything and leave me hanging, again?

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Mod post!

2011-02-17T11:49:50Z

Sorry about the uncustomary delay in updating the community.

The next posts for Secrets and Submissions will be made this Friday. Thank you for your patience.

Sigh. :(

2010-12-21T08:14:15Z

There are only four secrets in the queue, so I am extending the deadline on Submissions Post Forty Eight to December 24th. Please submit all secrets here, and remember to adhere to the current rules. Thank you.

If you have any ideas for ways to revamp the rules or spice up the community, please comment on THIS post.

Submissions Post Forty Eight (5th - 17th December)

2010-12-05T19:04:14Z

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Secrets Post Forty Seven

2010-12-05T19:00:12Z

Submissions Post Forty Seven is now closed.

Some secrets under the cut may be triggering.

Submissions Post Forty Eight will open shortly.

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One.
I wish I was exceptional at one area rather than mediocre in all areas.

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Two.
i accidentally let you see my wimpy little scratches. i'm not sure how i thought i'd hide them from you, but the scenario i imagined realistically happening was how it did happen: you held me and i told you to drop it and you did. you told me not to hurt myself anymore. but sometimes it's the right thing to do. i'm just a little chickenshit and i hurt myself because i hate myself.

it would be easier if you were here i guess. i would still have nothing, but i realize that...it would be easier. i can't relax because i'm so alone. you love me and i love you, and that should be enough even if we're separate, but daily life is different. without knowing that someone near me cares it's hard to tell myself anything positive.

i'm too old for this shit. when am i going to grow up.

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Three.
One of my number one fantasies is to shag someone like that Arthur bloke from Inception. I'd let that man do whatever he wanted, as long as he fucked me while dressed in his best suit. For him, I'd do the most distasteful things.

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Four.
I want to tell my therapist how truly depressed I am. I want to tell her about my suicidal thoughts. But I'm terrified of being put in a mental hospital. And I know for sure that's what would happen.

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Five.
i don't miss you.
i don't want to hang out with you.
i wish you would stop calling. text messaging. facebooking.
i'd wish you'd stop.
i wish even more that i had the balls to tell you all of this.

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Six.
I just want to cry and cry and cry but I don't because there's nobody in my life that will hold me and tell me it'll be alright. They all just tell me to buck up, be hard-working and get through it.

I have emotions, god forbid it, but I do. And yet I have to pretend they don't exist.

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Seven.
Dad: Stop sending me Tea Party forwards. Stop calling me to talk about the latest liberal/homosexual/feminist plot that you've uncovered that you feel will destroy life as we know it. You KNOW I'm a liberal, a homosexual, and a feminist. Once upon a time, you were even okay with it. Please recognize that you're the one who has changed, not me.

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Eight.
It drives me crazy knowing that you'd probably like me back if I were male.

I won't ever say this to you, because I know how it feels. There's someone I think I would have had feelings for, had he been female. It just really sucks. We'd be so good for each other, but my gender is a dealbreaker to your hormones. I know that's not your fault, but it's frustrating on my end. And maybe it's a little frustrating on yours, too.

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Nine.
I know we're both WAY too fucked up to be together, but I'd still love to just hold you. I wish I could say that to you in real life.

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Ten.
I play nice cause it's easier to manipulate people when they like you.

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Eleven.
I am having an affair in my head and I find it impossible to stop.

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Submissions Post Forty Seven (24th October - 5th November)

2010-10-24T07:46:39Z

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Secrets Post Forty Six

2010-10-24T07:44:48Z

Life just got insane for me again... in a good way. ~~Not including college, which sucks.~~

Secret Eleven is actually 229 words, which is over the 150-word limit, but I'm posting it anyway to ask y'all a question again... Should I raise the word limit from 150 to 200, or 225/250?

Submissions Post Forty Seven will open shortly.

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One.
I've told her that I'm depressed, but I haven't said just how depressed.

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Two.
I'm trainging to be a college lecturer and suddenly its like I have no idea what I have to teach anyone, I used to be confident, comfortable and happy about my knowlege base and could teach anyone but now this is official I've lost it. Oh god this is a stupid idea. I have nothing to give to anyone! Why am I doing this!

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Three.
I'm losing control of my own mind and the worst thing about it is that I know. If it just crept upon me one day and I was suddenly really depressed or suddenly really high it would be fine but I can feel myself being dragged down and its killing me. I don't want to live like this.

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Four.
You know, I could totally care less about this European vacation you're planning. We haven't even left and you're stressing me out. And, you're not doing this so I can have this great, life altering experience that I've never had. You're only doing it to make yourself look good. ("I showed her the world, aren't I great?") Because that's what you do.

Honestly, I'd rather stay home and be ignorant. Or, go without you.

And, when I get frustrated and start screaming, remember it's your priority, not mine. I really hate traveling with you.

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Five.
I thought that something had gone really well in my placement. Although nothing has been said about the session I did I just got an email that made me feel like I'm being told off for turning up when the guy I'm shadowing is ill. I was told what to do this morning and I did it, now I'm being told off. WTF!!

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Six.
I can feel in my skin and bones that I'm not exactly happy, but my brain is refusing to acknowledge it, let alone do something about it.

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Seven.
Every time I update my facebook status, it has to do with you. I'm too big of a chicken to tell you upfront about how I feel... but you are the most perfect person in this world.

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Eight.
I still love you.

Every time I see you, whatever I have with someone else - disintegrates.

Why will you not have me?

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Nine.
Every time I try to not to hate myself, I see everything thats wrong with me and it makes me want to die more

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Ten.
I tell everyone, including you, that I'm over you. Truth is: it's a lie. I thought I was but I'm not.

If you love me too, tell me. I won't say no.

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Eleven.
My friends are all happy. they're young, all in long-term and secure relationships, they work in challenging, rewarding jobs, they have a plethora of friends and events to occupy their time every week.

I'm 26, working as a part-time teacher, swamped with work and make just enough money to survive. I'm single and can't even seem to find 'average' looking people on online dating sites to go out with me. Every weekend I make calls to my friends to see if they want to hang out and do things with me, but they're busy with their long term relationships and their plethora of friends and events that occupy their time. I feel as though I have achieved nothing. I feel as though sometimes I don't deserve to be anywhere near what my friends have spent so hard working to achieve and secure. I feel as though I will never amount to anything my friends have because I am just too stupid, ugly, unlikeable and unwanted for anything or anyone in this life. I know only I can change the way I am. But after every dissapointment, after nothing but setback, rejection and ignorance, I sometimes wonder why the fuck I even bother trying.

It's enough to make me want to hurt myself. So I do. And sometimes I feel it's the only thing I can do without fucking it up.

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Twelve.
As much as I love my boyfriend of two years... I think I'm only with him for the security of a future that's more than this.

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Mod post: I fail, and school is evil.

2010-10-15T09:42:33Z

Hey y'all. I am so sorry I have neglected this community a bit. Once again, real life has conspired against me. However, I never forgot about you guys! :)

I will make a new secrets post and submissions post later on today. In the meantime, Submissions Post Forty Six is still open. (And there's only 7 secrets queued!)

By the way, please remember to submit all secrets anonymously, and at or under the current 150 word limit. Thank you!

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(Question: The 150-word limit has been in place for a long time. Is it good, or should we discuss raising it to 200 or so?)

Submissions Post Forty Six (1st - 10th September)

2010-09-01T18:02:23Z

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Secrets Post Forty Five

2010-09-01T17:58:12Z

Hi guys. I cannot begin to express how deeply sorry I am that I've slacked off for... such a long time. To be perfectly honest, most of July kicked my ass. I continued to volunteer at my local animal shelter a lot, which was exhausting but mostly great. What WASN'T so good, however, was when five of my cats died (all within one week). Four of them were REALLY mine (the other was moreso my family's cat), and it just shattered me. I lost four of my BABIES. :( So, I've been trying to recover from that. In the meantime, I've also been trying to figure out school again. Let me tell you, being on waitlists is too much stress.

So, anyway! Let's get back to business here. Despite the extended time to submit secrets, this post is kinda lean on them. So, please feel free to promote this community to your fellow LJ friends. Perhaps we can get a new layout soon, and new link buttons too. We'll see.

I hope all of you are well! :)

Submissions Post Forty Five is now closed.

Submissions Post Forty Six will open shortly.

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One.
i've fallen completely in love with a girl i work with. (well she goes away in the summers to work on a farm, and omg.. i miss her incredibly.) (also she is a lesbian) (and for the most part, i am straight...) she has to be one of the funniest chicks I know. i absolutely LOVE working with her. it's all laughs, i can't breath.

i'm going to visit her on the farm this weekend. alone. part of me wants something to sort of happen, then again, i love the tension i have inside myself whenever we hang out. because i don't know if she gets the vibe that i'm so far in love with her. Gah.. she's just so incredible. i hope she knows that. i think she does.

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Two.
I know that celeb gossip is kind of trashy, and that TMZ is the trashiest gossip source ever, but I love watching that show.

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Three.
I have a low sex drive. But I love reading NC-17 slash fic. And I love reading blogs about sex.

Now that I live with my fiance, I feel like I can't read and enjoy these as much because I don't want to lead him on about sex if I'm just not feeling up to it.

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Four.
I care about my boyfriend so much, and we are so good together, but I can't ever see myself wanting to have sex with him. It's not even that I'm just not ready for it (although I'm not), because there are other guys I know I'd have sex with in a heartbeat if I was dating them. I feel awful, but I just can't stand the thought of being with him like that. At all. I don't know what's wrong with me.

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Five.
His mother is a sexologist? No wonder he's a goddam furry.

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Six.
I left a very basic comment on his Myspace page, "Hey, heard a song that made me think of you so I thought I'd say 'hi'. So, Hi!" He hadn't logged in in so long that Myspace didn't even have a last login date. Well he logged in today.

And deleted my comment.....

Why? :(

It's my own fault. I suppose I have put a strain on his marriage. Not that I've done anything. But I'm sure he has talked about me to her. But I thought we were past all that. It was freakin' 8 years ago! *laugh* We've had lunch since then and just talked and it was fine.

He deleted my comment...:(

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Seven.
I want to be hit on by someone attractive instead of the freaks at the bar. Just to know what it's like for a nice-looking guy to hit on me. Because the guys I get are the creepy ones.

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Submissions Post Forty Five (10th - 30th June)

2010-07-10T09:34:19Z

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Secrets Post Forty Four

2010-07-10T09:30:15Z

Sorry for the crazy delay. Life has pretty much kicked my ass recently. I'll spare y'all the details.

Submissions Post Forty Five will open shortly.

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One.
I wish you'd stop telling me little facts about yourself. They're always so (unintentionally, on your part) cute, and it just makes me like you more. Makes me wonder more. Wonder what it would be like if things were different, if I were allowed to ask you out for coffee sometime or something. But it's no use wondering, because I know it can't happen. So can I somehow stop getting to know you? We need to work together and nothing more.

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Two.
3 years, 5 weeks and 2 days ago i realized, i love you.

3 years, 2 weeks and 5 days ago you told me it would never be.

last night i cried myself to sleep thinking about you.

i know i will never be good enough for you.

but i will love youtil the day i die.

(at least i no longer want to kill you, then myself. just myself)

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Three.
I slept with my ex-gf last weekend.

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Four.
Since I knew what collaring was, I've wanted to be collared.

And recently I learned, through aimlessly browsing facebook, that a friend of a friend is collared.

I find that I am so jealous, it is ridiculous.

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Five.
It took five months of hand holding and cuddling before we finally kissed. I justhope he doesn't give up everything else now. Because kissing has never done anything for me.

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Six.
Truth is, once they're gone, I'm not sure how much motivation I'll have left for living...They're just about all I have left.

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Seven.
I'm just using the scars from my surgery as an excuse, it's really about the fact that I'm uncomfortable in my own skin and think the rest of my body is something to be ashamed of.

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Eight.
I don't think it's a surprise that I'm suicidal when you're always telling me how worthless I am. I only wish I could tell you, but when it's come up before, you've ridiculed me, and I can't handle that again, either.

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Nine.
I still want you, you know.

I know, I know. We don't talk about it. Although, we certainly yank each other's chain enough.

Is there still UST there, or have you decided to treat me like one of the guys?

Cause, it feels like you're still dropping hints.

If that's the case, nothing has changed: it's still your call. You are the one who has to be okay with it.

C'mon, it's only infidelity/adultery. There are much worse sins. ;)

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Submissions Post Forty Four (5th - 18th June)

2010-06-05T13:56:02Z

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Secrets Post Forty Three

2010-06-05T13:54:13Z

Hey y'all. Time for a friendly reminder. Please remember to always ensure that you post your secrets anonymously. Thanks so much!

WARNING:Potentially triggering secrets under the cut.

Submissions Post Forty Four will open shortly.

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One.
I haven't had sex in almost seven years, and I feel really good about that fact.

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Two.
I feel really slutty when I think about how many people I've slept with. The only thing that makes me think I'm not is because I can honestly say that I had feelings for every single one of them.

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Three.
I'm scared that whatever I come up with for my section of the report won't be good enough or smart enough. I feel like whatever I contribute will be dumb...and it makes me want to cry every time I see my group.

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Four.
tas, i love you more than i've ever loved anyone in my life. you are my best friend and soul mate. but if you go back to him, i dont know hom much longer you'll be alive. and it scares me so bad that i think about killing him just so that you will be safe.

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Five.
I hate being really drunk but every now and again I give in to my darkness and drink myself blind. Its like I'm taken over I can't control myself every once in a while I lose the ability to stop drinking. I don't enjoy it I just have to do it. I am a stumbling example of why manic depressives shouldent be mixed with alcohol when manic.

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Six.
Dear Boyfriend,

You're sensitive, discreet, funny, and openly in love with me.

But you can't hold down a job. That makes you a liability to marry.

So why am I eyeing the charming bad boy?

Because I know he'll go further than you ever will. And I feel horrible for being shallow.

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Seven.
I still love her, and this will never change. I'm just better at dealing with it now.

I feel horrible for deserting her when I did, but I couldn't watch, couldn't deal with her boyfriend, he didn't deserve her. He swore he wouldn't add to her scars but he did and I feel horrid for not being there.

And so, I will be her friend through and through. I never want to have to hear that she's been hurt again and I wasn't there for support. I never want her hurt again.

All this doesn't change the fact that I love my boyfriend, and he is more than I could have hoped for. They are different people, and so I love them different ways. I have more than enough love in me to love them both.

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Eight.
He doesn't seem to care, but I still feel self consious when we're cuddling and his hand ends up on my fat stomach.

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Nine.
I've never been as suicidal as I am right now. I've thought about it before, but this is the first time I've ever formulated a plan. There's a bottle of sleeping pills in the next room and there's nothing keeping me from going and swallowing them all except for a tiny doubt. I know that the fact I called a helpline is a good sign, but I can't seem to convince myself that it'll get better. I really want to go to sleep and never wake up.

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Ten.
that's not my name; i've told you want i want to be called [it's too male for you, isn't it mom?].

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Eleven.
phallic packing makes me feel happier and more right than i've ever felt.

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Twelve.
Why do I have the sinking suspicion that since we're going to be sharing working space again, that I'm going to see even less of you than I do now?

I really miss you, you know.

Is there still no chance of......? Or are you telling me that you're still interested?

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Thirteen.
I'm afraid my severe insecurities are going to ruin every little good thing in life.

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Fourteen.
The anxiety and the insomnia are both coming back. what if the depression does too? :(

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Fifteen.
i was standing above my boyfriend and he reached up and layed his hand on my stomach. i got butterflies thinking about when he will do this again only i'll be pregnant with our child. and then he called me baby and i teared up.

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Sixteen.
On Saterday at a wedding my dad told my that he is terrified that he will die without telling the people he loves that he loves them.

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Seventeen.
I just compleated my final project for university. yet I feel like I've achived nothing. I could have done a degree in maths or physics in the same amount of time I just wastedand I would have probably got a better grade but I desided it was more important to chase a dream than to build a life.

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Eighteen.
I can't wait for my new sex toys to arrive, I have nothing to do but read fanfiction and play computer games. I actually think I bought sex toys as something new to do :)

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Nineteen.
I'm tired of waffling.

I've spent too many years on this relationship already.

I just need to stick to my guns when I say it's over.

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Submissions Post Forty Three (15th - 28th May)

2010-05-15T22:58:34Z

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Secrets Post Forty Two

2010-05-15T22:54:48Z

Submissions Post Forty Two is now closed.

Submissions Post Forty Three will open shortly.

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One.
I feel like my friends are slipping away from me and I wonder if it's my fault.

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Two.
when you figure yourself out, let me know.
[i'll be waiting.
because i've never felt like this about anyone else.
because i can't imagine my life without you in it.
because i want/need/adore you.
because you're worth it.]

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Three.
To Laura (or Dusty, I know you prefer that name):
I just wanted to tell you that I know you can do it. You can help your brother, and you can help yourself. *hugs* Go get 'em.

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Four.
I think I give great advice, I just wish that sometimes I would learn to take my own.

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Five.
Why is it that I always seem to be to be the one to start the conversation for you to talk to me? You clearly don't care how much I make an effort as a friend and each time I feel rejected completely and utterly by you and the lack of attention you have for me. I'm always listening and giving advice but it's all just me, never you. What do I get out of this? I'm trying so hard to just be your friend but I can't help feeling I'm being taken advantage of.

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Six.
Well, now that I have met you on OKCupid, you give me hope. I can't wait to meet you when I move close to you for graduate school in August. After thinking I had found the love of my life last year and losing him since he didn't want a LDR.. you, the new face in my life, have shown me that I can possibly love again and find another man just as compatible with me. I hope when we meet we have as much chemistry as we have talking over the internet. You give me hope.

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Seven.
It wasn't until I burst into tears after Mass on Sunday that I finally realized what the problem is.

I don't believe anymore. I can't. But I want to.

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Eight.
My boyfriend basically told me he thinks I'm a slut. Gee, thanks. You're the only guy I've ever slept with and you know it. -_-

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Nine.
When I was 15, getting married and having kids was something I really wanted to do, and I was confident that by the time I was 30, I'd be married with at least one kid. Ten years later, I'm pretty sure I won't have kids, and chances of me ever getting married are looking really slim. Everyone tells me I have lots of time, but I haven't even had a date in more than three years- if things continue at this rate, I doubt I'll ever even lose my virginity.

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Ten.
Things are going well with us, so why do I spend so much time worrying about whether or not things will change for the worse?

Just because most of the people I'm around are in bad relationships...That doesn't mean we will be that way, does it? :/

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Eleven.
It makes me sad to think that I might never know what it's like to feel beautiful or even just pretty.

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Twelve.
In a week, my dad will have been dead for two years and this is the saddest I've felt since he first died...I don't think anybody realizes just how sad and alone I feel right now.

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Submissions Post Forty Two (2nd - 14th May)

2010-05-02T22:22:01Z

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Secrets Post Forty One

2010-05-02T22:18:27Z

Submissions Post Forty One is now closed.

Potentially triggering secrets under the cut.

Submissions Post Forty Two will open shortly.

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One.
That's just brilliant. I had to tell her that I love her. It was eating me from the inside out. And I knew she'd reject me right away. I thought, "Might as well get it over with." But that's just it! "I don't know." What am I supposed to do with that? I will be unable to SLEEP until you tell me; yes or no. Just reject me and get it behind us!

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Two.
I wish I could tell you that I think you're a gorgeous person, inside and out. You've never outright said it, but I know you're kind of down on yourself for being single. Believe me, if the situation were different, I'd be first in line to try for your heart. You're immensely intelligent and incredibly successful for your young age. You still have time, and I'm sure the right guy is out there waiting for you. The others have just been idiots not to see what they've had. Chin up, okay?

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Three.
Now that I'm here, I'm afraid to leave again. What if I go back and my world becomes boring?

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Four.
I find reading eating disorder communities absolutely fascinating. I can't let anyone catch me at it though, or they'll think I've got one.

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Five.
Sometimes I wonder if our political differences will be the end of us. You've become so extreme in your views. I can't even talk to you about it anymore.

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Six.
thursday when we touched hands [our fingers laced and it was slow pulling apart] goodbye, did you feel it too? [i think you did.]

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Seven.
I would like to find a real partner but just contemplating going looking for one feels like cheating on the imaginary husband I created when I had had enough of dating boring guys.

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Eight.
I am a disabled intersex man and I am considering suicide.

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Nine.
My confession? I enjoy playing, I really do.

But, one of the reasons why I'm still playing is so that I can spend time with you--even if it's virtual.

Because here's the real news flash: You may be my best friend but I really dislike both your husband and your kids.

No, I don't feel guilty. I just wish I could talk to you about this and the reasons why--for every thing.

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Ten.
My mother remarried a terrible man last year, who has done nothing but cheat on her & tell her lies. She knows all this. She knows my brothers hate him. She knows I despise him. I can't do anything to convince her she is better than him. So I give up. I feel like I've failed her as a daughter.

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Eleven.
Having someone into me sexually [as much as i'm into them] is a completely new [and terrifying] experience [but i'm willing].

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Twelve.
I masturbate too much

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Thirteen.
I'm thinking about calling my EAP to get help for depression, but I'm too scared to have to make the 30+ minute drive and try to find the place and find parking--much less pay for parking ... and it just seems too hard.

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Fourteen.
It is so upsetting that I can't lean on my boyfriend for support. He's too depressed to hold himself up, so how can he hold me up, too?

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Fifteen.
I'm broken and there's nobody to fix me because nobody sees it.

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Sixteen.
When you asked me if I loved you, I said I didn't know. I also told you why: I didn't want to say it back unless I truly meant it.

I lied.

The reason I couldn't (can't) say it back is because I don't love myself. And if I don't love myself for who I am, then how can I possibly love you?

I hate myself for doing this to you. You deserve someone better than me; someone who is comfortable in her own skin and loves herself for who she is. She, unlike me, will be able fully love you.

I'm sorry; I'm sorry; I'm so, so sorry.

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Extension!

2010-04-25T04:56:10Z

Hi everyone!

I'll be doing the next secrets post in one week. Sorry for the delay in notifying you all of this.

So, please continue to submit all secrets anonymously here. Thank you!

Submissions Post Forty One (10th - 30th April)

2010-04-11T06:33:56Z

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Secrets Post Forty - Part B

2010-04-11T06:30:00Z

All secrets have now been posted, and Submissions Post Forty is closed.

Submissions Post Forty One will open shortly.

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One.
I believe that I'm meant to be with David Mitchell. It depresses me that he lives in another country. I know this is an unreasonable way to feel. I know that you can't fall in love with someone you've never met... not really. WTF self.

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Two.
Sometimes I wish I'd become an addict like the rest of you. I'd love to have an excuse for the tremendous failure I am.

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Three.
I love you more than words could ever express. I adore my boyfriend. Why can't I have you both? Why can't it be that simple? You're amazing. He's amazing. You both think I'm amazing. You two adore each other in a bro-mance type way. Why can't we be amazing together? All three of us? We'd be so happy...

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Four.
I love my boyfriend more than anything in this world, but I'm scared I'm only with him because my best friend is never leaving his fiance.

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Five.
i wish polyamory were feasible. i want to be in relationships with 2954739437 people at once. they're just all so lovely, and i don't want to lose my chances.

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Six.
I guess you could say we've been dating for almost three months and because of how shy we both are, we still haven't even kissed, just a bunch of hand holding and a couple of small hugs...And I'm fine with how slowly things are going.

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Seven.
He got jealous when he thought someone was translating the messages I was sending him for me. He doesn't know that I was using the Internet/Google Translate to look the words up. :X

The insecure part of me knows how he feels and wants to tell him not to worry about it, I was just using the Internet.

The really insecure part of me knows exactly how he feels and wants to keep it to myself, so I can remember it when I feel the same way about something he does.

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Eight.
The more you tell me, the more I am convinced that your husband is an abusive control freak. He may not be as bad as some abusive-types, but he's certainly no good for you.

Are you really that fucking blind that you can't see it's a problem when you say he's insanely jealous? Or that you spend more time placating his ego than being an equal partner? Are you that fucking whipped?

So....if--and when--he decides that I'm a bad influence on you and demands that we not be friends any more, then what? Are you going to placate him on that, too?

You're really pathetic, you know that?

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Nine.
After my morning shower I stood in front of the mirror naked. Breasts, thighs, stomach, bush and all. Struck a Birth of Venus pose, and thought 'actually, I can see the sexiness in this'. Nice feeling.

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Secrets Post Forty - Part A

2010-04-07T07:50:10Z

I'm going to keep the "current" Submissions Post open until this Friday. Hope that suits/doesn't bother anyone.

Submissions Post Forty is still open.

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One.
I told you I didn't love him, because that wouldn't make any sense. He's 19 hours drive away from me. We've never actually met, even though we've talked more than it healthy, stayed up until 3 am, talked for 6+ hours straight every day, shared everything. But still, I told you no.

...I lied. Oh God, I lied.

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Two.
He said he liked me.
I said I liked him.
I thought it was supposed to be that simple?
But he's forced himself to move on.
And now we're so incredibly awkward.

...Meanwhile, I'm falling more in love with him each day. :'(

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Three.
i dont know whether i still want to be with you because i love you, or because the sex we had was some of the best i have ever had in my entire life.

either way - can we still get drunk and have affairs?

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Four.
You: Don't worry, I'm not the hottest thing on the planet either.
Me: You're not too bad ;)
You: XD
You: Most people on this planet are not smoking hot.
Me: Oh, certainly.
~~Me: "Hottest thing" or not, I still think you're beautiful....~~

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Five.
I lied: I'm not over you. I can't even say that I wish I was.

I understand that you need our working relationship more than the unresolved sexual tension.

But....right now--as much as it pains me to admit--I don't really care.

Maybe you should stay away from me. This can only lead to no good.

I just wish I could ask you where you are in this--and get a straight answer, for a change.

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Six.
all of my passswords are twilight related. i.e. twilight43, eclipse 31, newmoon29. and i HATE that franchise.

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Seven.
The truth is that I think you're a bitch and you know what? Nobody likes you, not even your friends. They laugh about you and moan about you to the people you bitch and whine about all the time. Everybody thinks you're a joke of a person and you need some humilty and some appreciation of the things around you.

Don't rag on your friends because they don't sugarcoat things for you and disillusion you from the truth. Of course people don't want to be your friend, you're a giantic bitch to the people you consider your friends. We just want your company but you're making it REALLY, REALLY DIFFICULT for us to even tolerate your presence.

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Eight.
I was never able to keep a secret till now. Now I'm afraid this will always be a secret.

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Nine.
i wish i could combine the love i have for my partner with the crushes i have on so many other people.

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Ten.
i wish i could somehow break up with you and be in a relationship with you at the same time.

too bad that's completely impossible.

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Eleven.
I get a bit turned on almost any time sex gets talked about. It's kinda unnerving.

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Being sick is not fun, and I'm postponing the secrets post that was to go up last night.

2010-03-27T15:58:06Z

Hi everyone! :)

I was about to make this week's secrets post, but there is less than ten queued. So, I am postponing it until there is a sufficient amount.

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Submissions Post Forty (17th - 26th March)

2010-03-17T09:26:46Z

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