「The Loneliness of the Queen」

I feel like I'm at a dead end

tecla — Sat, 19 Nov 2011 14:53:49 GMT

I hope I can get this all under control soon.

The constant headaches and anxiety are really taking a toll now. It's extremely hard to sleep and I'm about ready to quit my job soon. I just got back on my anti-depressant pills so they should kick in soon. But my sinuses seem to not want to co-operate.

Lady's not feeling well either and I feel pretty useless that I can't help either of us...

When life gives you lemons, make lemonaid

tecla — Tue, 08 Nov 2011 01:05:56 GMT

The supervisor at my work's emb department, his wife suddenly died from a brain aneurysm on Saturday night. She went to bed and never woke up in the morning.

It really made me think since my mom's brother died from the same thing when he was just 25. I was going to be born the year after. His wife was only 43 and left behind 2 kids, who think their mother is still at the hospital.

I would joke and ask why Aizen-God-Sama is so cruel, but it's not the time. We all at the art department are even stopping our "is lam here" jokes (the name of the supervisor) for respects sake since he's a great guy.

I hope he's able to work everything out.

Lots of stuff

tecla — Sun, 06 Nov 2011 22:57:57 GMT

I'm sorry for not being around for a loong time. My job really keeps me from doing much of anything. Well, I'd rather Role Play, do graphics, partake in BA discussions, talk to Lady, etc, leaving me not much time for my journal that is so neglected now.

Sometimes I have really rough days at work, such as a couple weeks ago when one of my co-workers was extremely rude to me. I used to be on anti-depressants a year ago for anyone who doesn't know, so this really stressed me out and I wasn't able to sleep that night. All of a sudden she's back to normal and even got me and my supervisor treats.

If anyone wants more info I can paste my long email to lady about it.

My period's have also been killing me recently, with painkillers not helping much. I went on a new birth control this month that has 3 different pills, so I gotta see how this works this time.

And then there is also very bad sinus headaches. I was tested a view months ago and found out I'm allergic to just about everything. Dust, Mold, Tree's, Grass, Weeds, Ragweed, and I have hay fever. The specialist told me to wait until next year, in which case if it's just as bad I have to start taking shots every month.

And... I've changed my diet and since then have lost 20 pounds. Off course with halloween I'm trying not to gain it all back. ^_^

Take care everyone. <3

Friends Cut

tecla — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 22:20:18 GMT

I'm doing a friends cut, I just feel like I don't connect with half of you on my f-list. If you talk to me sometimes on IM/comment you're safe.

Friends Cut.
Comment.

Not gonna do it until I'm over this cold, but I already have an idea of who I want to cut. Such as people that never comment/talk to me on IM and those that feel fandom restricts getting to know people better. Everyone else is safe.

Role Play Meme

tecla — Sun, 06 Sep 2009 23:52:15 GMT

Okay, so I'm bored. Have at it? Extra AU info is in the characters journal, most of the active characters are in bleach_dressing and the_inner_world.

Ask any of my characters a question, and they will be forced to answer truthfully. And don't be afraid to ask multiple questions. Feel free to ask IC or OOC!

Active:
fuckyosword - AU Grimmjow. He's from an AU world where Espada Zanpakutou's have a Humanoid form and a Weapon form, acts Canon for the most part. grindmepantera is his sword.
nnoinnoi - AU 8th Espada Nnoitra, Instead Neliel attacked him and was turned into a child.
petme_and_die - AU Grimmjow, all Arrancar are in permanent release.
tesla_chan - AU Tesla from Gender Switch World, she's in a relationship with grindit_rockit.
ditzyhealer - AU Shinigami Orihime.
cant_clap - Canon Grimmjow, missing one arm.

In Progress:
father_jiruga - AU Nnoitra where Arrancar have a Gigai and are undercover in the real world. He may or may not be friends with a Dr. Jaegerjaquez's.

Inactive:
crush_verruga - Canon Male Tesla, was for ubau but I was lazy and forgot about it. I changed him back into Verruga/Zampactou and will be active more later on.
horncrowned - Canon 5th Espada Nnoitra.
nursecretary_aa - The households kidnapped Arrancar Healer, I share the account with Lady. This is not played in the DR since it is mainly considered an Original Character, we use her in journal entries to heal people.

Pimpage-!

tecla — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 14:06:20 GMT

Community pimpage. Feel free to pimp

jabali_tesla - Tesla Fans from Bleach.

soi_fans - Soifon Fans from Bleach

casshernsins for all you Casshern Sins needs.
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yami_no_hikari for fans of Yami x Yuugi from YuGiOh!