19 years and counting

tangled_rhythms — Wed, 26 Jan 2022 09:12:22 GMT

I rec'd an email a few minutes ago to remind me that this is the 19th anniversary of my first post on here. So many things have changed in my life since that first post. I've lost good friends that I used to spend hours with on here and our talker haunts. Some I lost because we were young and didn't know the definition of the world compromise. I was stubborn, they were stubborn, and we walked away with our dignity in tatters because neither would give in. Some I lost to illness and accidents. Others left because I was too wrapped up in my pain to sit with them in their pain.

I've learned so much since that first post. There are words and deeds that I wish I could take back, There are also words that I wish I'd spoken, hands that I wish I'd have held, and comfort I wish I had given. There are also moments and events that occurred that I do not regret. I don't talk about them, but the memories are there and they're mine and I wouldn't give up a single one.

In the length of time that I've had a LiveJournal, babies were born, became adults, and some have babies of their own. It's so surreal to think about. It's 1am my time and I have to be up at 7:39 to save the world, one household at a time. For anyone left to read this, thanks for sticking with me through everything. For anyone who could have been here and chose not to be, you suck :)

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19 years and counting