Takeaberry

takeaberry — Tue, 30 Dec 2008 20:18:57 GMT

So, the end of the year is very close. Which means everyone is pretty much making a list of their top 5 best and worst moments. So I thought I'd do my own.

Best:
5. Road trip down to Huston to see Cobra Starship 2 in a row.
4. Seeing and meeting Panic at the Disco
3. Turning 21
2. Falling in love
1. The relese of Fall Out Boy's new CD

Worse:
5. Losing my voice
4. Getting my heart broken
3. Still working at the same dead end job
2. Getting a staff infection
1. Paramore not coming to Dallas on both of their headlining tours this year

takeaberry — Wed, 24 Dec 2008 20:20:10 GMT

Its days like these that I wish I was a kid again. Or at lest had a better job. Today and tommorow I'm stuck at work. Today I don't get off till 8, which is fine but my family is doing our party around six. Which means I'll be getting home when everyone is leaving. I'm really hoping I'll be lucky and get to go home early. Even if I get off right at 6 I'd be happy
Now that I'm older, I like to sleep in before presents but I don't even get to do that. I have to be at work at 12:45 tommorow. Which means I get up at 9:30 so we have time to do everything. My body is just aking from the weird hours I've been keeping. I hate it, completely hate it.

So the moral to my story, is that its the worst christmas ever.

No one wants to hear you sing about tragedy

takeaberry — Sun, 14 Dec 2008 21:33:37 GMT

So it's been awhile since I've made a real update on here. Not that much has really gone on in my life other then work and rping with my buddies. But I'm sure if I think hard enough I'll figure out something to write about.
Christmas is coming up fast and this is the first year I actually bought people presents. I was going to send something to Paige but it looks like I wont have enough money to send it on time. But her birthday is next month so I might make the CD she wanted and send it out then. There really is to much rush this time of year. I'm just hoping people like what I got them lol.
Fall out Boy's new CD comes out this next week. Even though I've already heard it, I'm actually listening to it right now, I'm excited to get my package. My figures are crossed to get one of the golden tickets. But when it comes to winning things that way I'm never lucky. I'm just hoping I get it on time lol. Because my friend Ashley already got hers.
So my cousen and I spent the whole day together the other day. It's was fun because we dont get to do things like that most of the time. We went Christmas shopping together lol. But by the end of the day we ended up at Pet Smart. She got some of the frogs that were on sale and it made me really want a fish. Really I want a Cat but my Dad wont let me. So today, since I have money now, I went and got myself a Beta fish. I have yet to name him but he's very Pretty. I got some black glass stones [not enough but I'll get more later] and this white plant thing to contrast against the red of his scales. I'm really excited that he hasn't died, I was worried I might do the water wrong but he's still swimming. Most people don't get worked up so much over a fish but since it's my own pet that I spent my own money on I'm going to take care of it. He's already desided he likes to hide behind the plant so I cant see him lol. Well anyways if anyone has any idea's for a name let me know. I'm leaning toward frank but I'm not sure. I also desided if I dont kill him by after christmas I'm going to go buy a Female to name Lilly Paige ^^
Well anyways I think that's all for now. ttyl

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takeaberry — Sun, 16 Nov 2008 07:16:10 GMT

There is just so much hate in this world. So much confustion and mixed up facts and lies that people would rather believe then the truth. Anyone who knows me well knows I don't have a problem with gay people. I really don't, everyone one of them I've met has been a wonderful person. And really in the bible it says not to juge others so I don't. I'm not a rasest person by any means. And really I think its redculase the way people have been acting lately. So you lost the damn vote in California's fault. That wasn't the mormon's fault. You were just out numberd by the people who voted. So give up the crap already. You lost, it's over, how much do you want a bet that many of them didn't vote because they thought it would work out the way they wanted. Sorry its does not work like that.
With all the stupidity and hatred in Cali right now it makes me really glad I don't live there anymore. If it really matterd to you 1. You would have worked harder on getting a diffrent vote and 2. Now that its passes, if you want to get married that bad move to a state where it's legal. Because guess what just because California doesn't alow it doesn't mean other places don't. So if it means that much to you go there. So stop throwing out facts about things you don't know about, because everyone of the them I've seen have been completely wrong, and stop messing with my religion because I haven't done one damn thing wrong to you!

takeaberry — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 18:54:44 GMT

So I'm sitting here at the parks mall waiting for Panic at the Disco to show up. I wasn't even suppost to be here today but by some force of magic I had the day off. But instead of being at the show rocking out. Which I'd rather be doing, I'm at a signing that their doing at my hot topic. I bought this bag I'll probubly never use it so I wanted it signed and now I hear them saying their only going to sign posters. Which is totally not cool. I don't want a new poster! Oh well... it sucks I'm not with my friends though. But at lest I get to meet the band... again.

I must confess I'm in love with my own sins.....

takeaberry — Mon, 27 Oct 2008 22:22:10 GMT

Ok so severl things. The new Fall Out Boy song on iTunes is amazing. Its completely my favorite song from their new album.
Anyways in other news I had a job interview today. I didn't get the job but its ok. At lest I tried. Heading back home I found the spot for early voting so I went in. So yep I went and voted for president for the first time. I was actually really simple so simple it was confusing to a point lol. But its done. And I'm happy to make a small diffrence.

takeaberry — Tue, 14 Oct 2008 22:06:05 GMT

The days pass by
And I'm screaming my lungs out
When really my mouth is mute
Each mouth that passes by
Makes it seem like I've stood still
While the world just rushes past
Every year is just a blur
The memories mixing together
So I can't tell what happend when
Just stand still
Keep my camera in hand
Then maybe I can start to link together
All these things I thought I had forgoten.

takeaberry — Mon, 13 Oct 2008 18:18:20 GMT

Ok well I just paid for my rolling stone subscription. Money I shouldn't spend but I was sick of them sending me notices and I like getting the magazine so I had to renew. I mean what if one of my bands is on the cover you know? So im like >< hopefully i can stretch 300 bucks out really well in a week. I can but its vacation I'm suppose to have fun. Oh well I guess we'll see what happens

takeaberry — Fri, 10 Oct 2008 08:57:42 GMT

I've always been able to find that one song that could get me threw anything that I was going threw in a period in my life. Never did I think that one of the songs from so many years ago could do it for me all over again. I've been thinking of putting the songs into a mix but there are only a few songs on it so far.

In Order:

I Drive Myself Crazy- N*SYNC
Suger Were Going Down- Fall Out Boy
I'm Not OK I Promise- My Chemical Romance
Saturday- Fall Out Boy
The Ghost of You- My Chemical Romance

These are the top songs I lisened to over and over. Wheather I be; trying to get into a better mood, crying myself to sleep, drowning out the world, getting over a brake up. Whatever it was each of these songs played a big part in who I am. There have been a few minar songs along the way but these are the ones that were life changing.
Its silly to think such a simple song that someone wrote with a totaly diffrent meaning then the one you gave it can effect you so deeply. But that's the beauty of music I guess. You can bend the meaning to place it into a peace of the puzzle you need it to fit.
My life is in a spiral right now and it hadn't dawned on me to go back and listen to the songs that pulled me threw so much. Each by themselves just pulled me back to the time they were first used but combined they seem to pull out each thing I needed to hear. It's slightly amazing that these last 2 months I've been looking for that one song to help me get over you. Yet now I see that all along I just needed the ones that lead me to this space that lead me to you.

This night walk the dead. In a solitery style. Crash the cemitery gates in the dress your mother hates. Way down mark the grave where the surch lights find us drinking by the mosoleum door and they found you on the bathroom floor
I MISS YOU, I MISS YOU SO FAR. AND THE COLISTION OF YOUR KISS THAT MADE IT SO HARD. WAY DOWN, WAY DOWN, I MISS YOU, I MISS YOU SO FAR, AND THE COLISTON OF YOUR KISS THAT MADE IT SO HARD

takeaberry — Sat, 27 Sep 2008 08:11:11 GMT

Shifting threw the mess that is my room I found my Marié Digby cd. I haven't lisened it to in awhile so I found the music on my ipod and started lisening. I'm falling in with the album all over again. I used to watch her on youtube before she got signed. She's a really sweet girl. Anyways a lot of the songs on there I could really relate to right now. Sleeping hasn't been going to well ~~I haven't cried this many nights in a row in... well ever~~ and her music has seemed to keep me calm... for the most part. But its an awesome album go and buy it ^^
..............
I just want to stop crying over you
Its been over for a whole month now
You'd think I'd be over you
But your the one who hurt me the most
All those other boys never crossed my mind a secound time
But you... you I can't seem to get out

takeaberry — Thu, 25 Sep 2008 23:09:42 GMT

So I guess it's been awhile since I've write a post about what has actually been happening in life. Not that anything really exciting ever happens to me.
Not this sunday but the sunday after there is going to start being a church serves held in my work building. Here in texas people seem to have church where ever they can rent the space. *shrugs* what happend to realy church buildings? Anyways Paster Vick was here with his other leaders to go over there plans for the first sunday their starting. Of course I'm here at work and I feel like of weird because I can here him talking and praying and the amens from the others. Well once their about done with their meeting they seems to zone in on me. I was singing to myself. Quietly mind you because I didn't want to bother them yet they still hurd me. Long story short they want me to come sing at their church when they open.... I'm just like >

takeaberry — Thu, 18 Sep 2008 05:50:07 GMT

I waisted 5 months of time for everything to be thrown away
I'm not what you want or you needs
I know how things work for me
I should have known better
And really I did.
I should have never asked you
I should have never let those words slip
Because now I need you
And you could care less about me

takeaberry — Sat, 06 Sep 2008 06:51:46 GMT

I want to go on a date
I want to hold your hand
I want to smile and feel good about myself
I want a lot of things
But the way I hide inside this house
Ill never be happy enough for you

takeaberry — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 20:28:09 GMT

So I've been kind of sad/bumded when thoughts of Fall Out Boy wasn't going to be doing an album for awhile. Which I can understand they want a brake and what not. But I was suspicous when Pete was saying "were not doing an album" way to much. When he says he has been hanging out with Patrick a lot. And really them as a band have gotten me threw so much and I still love all their music. I just still needed something new with Patrick's voice on it. And low and behold they have a new album coming out on election day. Even though I'm not voting for the same person they are. Even though I know Pete has been pushing his point on Obama for awhile I just don't feel the same as he does on the facts. I'm still looking forward to the cd and the elaction. Including the free mixtape they did with my other favorite bands. It sucks that iwork till 10:30 tonight. Hopfully if not tonight I can get the mixtape tomorrow :] so all in all. Its all pretty amazing to get exactly what I've been hoping for for awhile now *dances*

I'm ready for my after life

takeaberry — Sat, 16 Aug 2008 01:04:56 GMT

Well it's official every single one of my friends is Engaged or married. And my one last friend who lives here that I thought we might have some relationship after she gets married is moving to Utah to live with her hubby once they get married. My co-works told me its my turn now but I don't think thats going to happen anytime soon. I've decided I need to get a really big jar and save all my coins and change and put it into a jar. by the summer of next year I want to be able to travel. I want to go to New York then England to visit two of my very best friends. *sighs* i need to get out. I need to move. I need a new start over. on top of raising the money to travel i also want to save up enough to move out and move to Chicago. I have a feeling i need to be there now I just need to work on it. Anyone want to help?

the promises feel like lies, no one lisens anymore

takeaberry — Wed, 30 Jul 2008 06:57:31 GMT

Not matter how much I love Christy her and Kevin together in a conversation with me at work makes me want to hit them over the head. People can fucking change! Without change there would be no growth. And you can not fucking tell me that teenagers going around sleeping together, even getting pregnate at a young age is ok. Don't tell me to just except it because its the world we live in. There are so many things we could fix but we don't. It makes me feel horrable that its taken me till now to really relize this.

I really wish I could go back to a time when things were simple. Someone asked me if I could take a time travel device and go back where would I go? I'd want to go back to my first day of high school and do it over. I took so many wrong turns without knowing... I just wish I could fix it all. There are so many out comes that could be better then this. I know exactly how to of made it right.

I'm in such a confuseing place right now. With everything going on in my mind and how much a failer I am. There is so much I'd have to give up for you. Wall at the same time strugling with my belifs. I want to get away and go where no one knows me. I know where I want to go but ill never be able to aford it. I don't know how to flush my mind and start over. I just need to get out of this box that I've put myself in... because each day... it feels like one more air hole has been pluged up.

Pete... I know you'll never read this but please make some more god damn music already. Your words with his voice have made these last three years liveable. And to go on... all I need is one song... one song and then if you say its over I won't hate you... more then I already do... for making me love to hate you because how much alike we really secretly are.

RP Example for Hayley williams

takeaberry — Sat, 19 Jul 2008 19:48:59 GMT

Hayley Williams: [Scene between Hayley and Patrick Stump]
ME:Hayley was lost for about 5 minutes till she realized her lit class what right in front of her. As she walked in the door she looked around nervously. When she saw Patrick she let out a breath she had been holding. But when she saw him wave she felt her face blush and gave him a small smile. "Hi," She said as she took the seat next to him that he had offered her.

Him:"Hey," he nodded. "How've you been? Finding your way around all right?" He reached back into his bag and pulled out a notebook, opening it and dropping it next to his book. The notes scrawled on the page were chord progressions and not related to literature in any way. Rooting around, he located a pen. "I am completely unprepared today, by the way. You'll whisper the answers if I get called on today?" he joked.

ME:Hayley laughed. "Well i don't know if I'll be of any help. But yeah I'm finding my way around ok," She said pulling out her own notebook and her lit book before looking for a pen. "oh crap," as whispered as she searched her bag, slumping in her chair when she realized she left her pen in her last class.

HIM:"What's the matter?" Patrick asked, furrowing his brow with concern. He chewed his lip as he searched her face. "Did you forget something?"

ME:Hayley looked at him biting her lips lightly. She hated asking for things but she knew there was no time to go back for her pen. "I forgot my pen in my last class...i can be kind of forgetful sometimes," she said as she looked down opening her notebook searching for a page that wasn't full of lyrics.

HIM:Patrick laughed. "Well, you're talking to the right guy." He leaned back down to his bag. "One, I'm unbelievably forgetful." He sat back up and handed Hayley a blue ballpoint. "Two, I usually have like twenty pens with me for the exact same reason. So help yourself." He gestured to her notebook. "Looks like you take a lot of notes," he chuckled.

ME:Hayley smiled as she took the pen. "Thank you so much," She started, "...um...yeah notes," She giggled as she finally found a blank page at the back of the book. "Looks like I already need a new notebook. Oh well" Hayley played with the pen for a bit before starting to write something out then quickly turned the page when she was done.

HIM:"Wow! You're good! Taking notes before class even starts?" he teased. "So I'm going to be all nosy," he admitted, leaning over to Hayley's side of the desk. "What are you writing? Passing notes?"

ME:Hayley swears she has never blushed so much in her life but every time she was around Patrick it felt like her face was on fire. "Um...well...," she started the sighed, "There lyrics....they all are." She flipped threw the pages to show him how many there were. "There not all that great some times theres just a sentence but then i can never use it with anything or some times it can be like two pages long."

HIM: "Holy..." he cut himself off, not wanting to offend Hayley with his language. "Seriously?" he wondered. "Whoa. I... I've tired to write lyrics and I think it's just painful. It takes me forever and I don't get very much and what I do write isn't very good." He leaned in to get a better look. "You write like it's a full time job," he marveled.

ME:"I guess... I just have a lot to get out sometimes," Hayley shrugged with a big sigh. The pen absently scribbling at the page. words flowing from the tip with Hayley not even looking at the page. Patrick's name coming out in bold letters. She looked down and quickly turned the page again realizing what her hand had been doing.

takeaberry — Tue, 08 Jul 2008 00:32:23 GMT

Wooo so I got myself a sidekick after how many years of saying I want one? Lol. Its been working out really well and I love it. So that's it for now lol :p

takeaberry — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 00:18:03 GMT

So it seems that Warped tour is 6 days away now. Thursday couldn't come any faster! My friend Stephine told me that Paramore and Gym Class Heroes were going to be going to Kiss FM in the morning to do a radio spot. I've decided to go but there is only one problem. It's 30 minutes from my house. Then 30 minutes from there to the concert! I know doors don't open until noon so we should be fine but still for once I wanted to be up front in line and not pay for parking. But I'll get to see Hayley and the boys and I really don't want to miss that. Because it will be just completely amazing. Anyone wanting to donate a few bucks let me know!! I'll give you my paypal account to send it to. If you help me I swear I'll do something awesome for you later when I get paid in two weeks.

takeaberry — Tue, 24 Jun 2008 18:04:07 GMT

The almost show was awesome yesterday. Here is the pictures from when I got to meet different band members. All of them were sweet but Aaron looked like he needed some sleep.

Me and ryan

Me and David

Me and Jeremy

Me and Dusty

Me and Kenny

Me with Aaron

Me and Alex

Me and Vince. He was such a sweet guy

takeaberry — Thu, 05 Jun 2008 15:44:18 GMT

Ok ok So I know I said my birthday would be bad. And for the most part it was ok. My cousin came over and we went swimming in the new pool in my back yard. Listening to music on my ipod. We did this for awhile and even though I had put on sunscreen twice!! I still got burnt. *sighs* Oh yeah my mom also brought me home lunch and se got me Pepsi with it. She never does that lol. And I got balloons. My cousin gave me a new bottle of body wash it smells good. Then my friend Tresa Came over and we went to go get "make overs" it was this Mary Kay thing where they try to sell you makeup. We didn't get anything but it did make us look nice and pretty when we went to dinner. Our friend Gabe joined us and just laughed when we kept talking about the makeup. We went to olive garden and I had only 2 drinks that night. Ordering the seafood pasta and salad I got a mango martini and then I got a pomegranate one that Tresa paid for. I've never had mixed drinks before but man it hit me so bad lol. I felt kind of sick after dinner. SO my cousin drove me home after. I should haven gone straight to bed but I wanted to finish my book. So surprisingly I was able to read drunk and remember it lol. Anyways so that was my brithday... oh yeah the waiter we had was hot and they did sing their birthday song to me.... oh and one other thing i forgot lol man i must still be little buzzed. I got to say goodbye to paige and she and her sister sang happy birthday to me. :] that did make the day a bit better. ok well I need to run off to work.

~~Mindy I love you wish you could have been there~~

What is it we wanna do now that I'm aloud to be alone with you.....

takeaberry — Tue, 03 Jun 2008 23:44:53 GMT

So tomorrow I turn 21. I feel the same way I did as when I turned 18. Like my life is in a shift and even though I cared everyday leading up to it it just feels like any other day. I worry no one will remember and I'll be ignored. I'd rather not go into work tomorrow. My Boss will be nice yes but I bet anything there will be a customer that isn't so nice.This week had already started to go down hill. Like I cant use my cell phone because Both yes Both of my chargers are broken. So I can't use up my battery because Paige is suppose to call me tomorrow morning before I cant talk to her for 2 years. And I wont have a new charger till the end of the week. And I have to pay for my own party and I have no money for food. *cries* I feel so stressed out right now and I don't know how to make it go away. I want to have a good party but I don't know how thats going to happen. I do have $200 coming my way but I want to use that on a plane ticket to go see my girlfriend *head desk* I don't know what to do I really don't. maybe I'll get tipped tomorrow that would help a lot.

Anyways So this summer I've given myself a summer reading project. Paige gave me like 20 books and I'm going to read them all before summer is over. I'm not usually that fast but I started on the first one today and I'm already a bit over a 3rd of the way done. I wouldn't be surprised if I finished it tomorrow cause I know I'm going to be up tonight reading it. I'll do a review When I'm done with each one to let you know if it's worth the time. This one so far is really good.

I need some serious hugs and love from a special someone. But I understand their busy. Just know I love you ok? Love you so so much.

Well here is to another birthday *sighs* yeah happy birthday to me....

takeaberry — Fri, 30 May 2008 01:26:41 GMT

so 6 days till my birthday!! and Zac's birthday and my friend kevin who i haven't seen in forever. Totally need to fix that. Only problem i dont know what picture to get on my cake this year. I know I want one where I'm with one of the bands ive gone to concerts to see but i have so many and really i look like crap in all of them i still dont know which one to pick. oh well ill figure it out.

takeaberry — Mon, 21 Apr 2008 21:01:50 GMT

Her eyes shine bright as the morning sun.
With a heart thats been torn and ravaged
And I know with it's like to feel that pain
Friendships broken over this silly thing
But I can't say one word, no,
It's all left up to fate.
Thoughts keep running in my mind
That things will all end soon
Maybe not today or tomorrow
But when the day we see
We can't get what we need this way
But I love her
Yes I love her all the same
And it scares me
It scares me to death
Because I know if I say those words
I'll only hurt her more in the end.

Please Watch!!

takeaberry — Sat, 12 Apr 2008 08:23:21 GMT

Hey guys!! So i did this video for We shot the Moon's: Sway your head contest. Please watch and show it to your friends. I really need the views. I love you all and I did work hard on this.