The Horizon of the Wildlands

NIGHTWISH (and some HIM)

2008-02-18T22:58:52Z

I've been considering this for quite some time now, and today I finally decided to go through with it. Over the years I collected quite some Nightwish stuff. Most of it I never use and is just collecting dust. So I decided to SELL THEM.

Before I post this at other communities and forums, I've decided to post it here first, also with the option for you to pay me with concealed money (if you don't have PayPal or a bank account). You have a week to decide, after that I'll try to sell it somewhere else and raise the prizes. The bidding system doesn't count for this post. If you want something but think the price I ask is to high, please ask me if you can buy it for a lower price.

I just want to give these a new loving home with someone who loves them like I did before JRock took over my life.

-//-

TERMS & RULES

*Payment: PayPal, bank transfer (I’ve you live inside the EU)
for my friends: Concealed Money (in a card, at your own risk)
*Prices are in Euro (see http://www.xe.com/ucc for conversion)
*Prices do NOT include shipping! Please ask me about shipping methods and prices.
*Items are shipped from The Netherlands
* Feel free to haggle if you do not agree with the price, I am open for offers.
BUT!:
I’m selling this semi-auction style, if somebody outbids you (even on set price) within the hour, the item goes to that person, unless you bid higher.
* I'm also willing to trade for Jrock/Lolita items.

Nightwish Tour Book 2004

Inside 1 (Emppu)
Inside 2 (Tuomas)

Sold out in the Nightwish shop. Great condition.

€ 10

Nightwish Off-Tour Book | ON HOLD FOR WOLFOFLONELINESS

Inside (Marco)
Inside (Tarja)

Offers a special section for each bandmember. Includes a lot of backstage and crew pictures. I bought this one in Savonlinna, Finland. I was always very proud of owning it, so I’ll be giving this a new home with pain in my heart. Its in excellent edition

€ 10

Sonic Seducer Starfacts: Nightwish (Deutsch/English) includes A3 poster and CD
ON HOLD FOR WOLFOFLONELINESS

Poster (back)

Inside pics:

Inside 1

Inside 2

The magazine is actually half coloured pages – half black and white like this
Black & White

Originally the cd was in plastic case inside of the magazine (like shown on pic). I took it out and put it in a real cd-case.

80 pages. Since I used to stack it amongst other magazines, the white of the cover has gotten some of those dark wear marks on it, apart from that the state is good. No tears/folds.
Playlist CD:
1. The Kinslayer (live @ M'Era Luna Festival 2003)
2. Dead to the World (live @ M'Era Luna Festival 2003)
3. She is my Sin (live @ M'Era Luna Festival 2003)
4. Interview - Vide0 17:14 (special interview with Tuomas)

€ 10

HIM: A Secret Story, special from RockSound 2004 (?) + Poster ON HOLD

Inside

14 or 28 pages. This was once a special included in the RockSound magazine. The magazine I do not have anymore, but the HIM special has been laying inside my drawer, forgotten. It has a lot of rare pictures and in short the history of HIM plus some interviews (English).

€ 3

Nightwish : Dark Passion Play Lim.Ed.

Inside

It’s the special edition with the instrumental 2nd CD and special fold-out case. I bought this for €19,95, listened to it a couple of times, but I just don’t like the new Nightwish, please give it a new home!

€15

HIM: Dark Light

€10

POSSIBLE SALES: (make an offer I can't refuse!)

Nightwish : Wish I Had An Angel. DVD-Single

Inside

Disc 1:
1. Wish I Had An Angel
2. Ghost Love Score (Instrumental Score)
3. Where Were You Last Night
4. Wish I Had An Angel (Demo Version)

Disc 2:
1. Wish I Had An Angel (Video) (Data Track)
2. Ghost Love Score (Audio Track)
3. Wish I Had An Angel (Making Of)

Nightwish: Kuolema Tekee Taiteilijan. Single

Inside

I think this one was only for sale in Finland. I bought this in Stockmann, in Helsinki (original price tag still on it!)

Disc:
1. Kuolema Tekee Taiteilijan
2. Creek Mary's Blood (Instrumental)
3. Symphony of Destruction.

Slip-sliding-away

2007-03-02T14:24:19Z

Yesterday was such a nice day. First my estonian exam that went so well, and than we decided to call Jussi and go to this big hill with sledges. First we had to go to Ville's parents to get the sledges. It had been snowing for the last two days, so the way to his parents was quite nice since I managed to hit Ville a few times with a snowball *chuckles* Ofcourse his mom got really worried because I do not exactly have the clothes to go sledging with. So at the end I left the house for Jussi's car wearing old shoes and an old jacket from Suzanna, wollen socks and some kind of woolen legging LOL But than the four of us (Ville, Jussi, Susanna and me) finally could go. Sledging is fun! I felt like a child and probably laughed like one too. The hill was quite steep and there was this bump in the middle of it that send me flying once. It was like being in a rallycar. Somewhere before 8 we left the hill again, since Susanna wanted to watch Idols and the shops would close at 9. We dropped Susanna off and I got my normal shoes and cloak again. Ville's mom had noticed that the bottom of my cloak was torn and repaired it whilest we were away. That was so sweet! First we went to FilmTown, because they sell 'old' rentdvds quite cheap. Only 4,95 euros. First I found Blair Witch Project II and than in this other dvd I found........ *laughs*...... Dark Harbor!!!!! Or as known with us Alan Rickman fans: The movie in which you can see Alan completely nude. WS we have to watch it when I get home XD
After that we went to Citymarket, I bought some Coke Light again and Jussi dropped Ville and me off home. The rest of the evening we spend watching Saw II. A nice movie, but not as good as the first one. Usually the case with sequals.
Tonight we're going to Moonsorrow. I wonder how that will be. My first 'real' metal gig I think (not counting the ones in Holland from local bands). Nah we'll see, Moonsorrow is quite nice. I'm not sure yet if we go to TPS - Jokerit tomorrow... have to watch my money a little...
Oh yeah, Susanna gave me an old shirt of her, black with kinda widening sleeves and a nice decoleté (sp?). And it fits! ^^ I think it will look great with a nice corset over it... Hmmm I should maybe visit LeatherHeaven soon.... That reminds me. The replaced SinCity and now I can't find it *cries*
Final note: For all of you who have been sending me smses and got nothing back: the airtime on my mobile is near zero, so I need to reload it first. Yet I'm lazy....
@ Eribasu: BoB is just puuuuuuuurrrrrrrfection. That song never bores me.

Two pics

2007-02-28T18:35:46Z

We went to Ville's grandmom today ^^ She's such a nice woman and i could understand her better than I hoped. But now I really have to start studying for this exam. This post will be two pics:

The First:

Happy Birthday Angelette!!!

Second:

Vibeke left Tristania!!!!!!! *cries*
Why do all good singers leave the bands??!! And we gets such crappy ones in return *throws stones at blonde bimbo of Sirenia*
*sighs* in a perfect world she would have left to join Nightwish.... She can't stop singing! Her voice is way to nice, and just look at her <3

Watashi wa shinku no bara no you ni somari yuku

2007-02-23T13:10:54Z

So I commented on kultamuru/*sab* and she asked me to explain three of my interrests, namely: Oceansoulholics, Malice Mizer and Klaha.

Oceansoulholics: Oceansoul = Tuomas, -holics is something you add when you're a fan, well maybe more than just a fan. There's also Emppuholics. But well, oceansoulholics is a term invented by members of the FIS and members of the Tuomasholic thread on the official Nightwish site who didn't feel welcome there anymore and created their own forum where they could chat freely.

Malice Mizer: My favourite band. They are from Japan and make Visual Kei, which you can say it the Japanese version of Goth-music. There's a lot about vampires and roses in their lyrics, and since I have something with both... And ofcourse they made their own version of Bram Stoker's Dracula, which is also a silent movie and one of my favourites ever.

Klaha: Third and last singer of Malice Mizer before they disbanded. After Malice Mizer he went kinda pop/soft rock, but his voice is still amazing and he can make me cry when he sings Sayonara. And his looks to me are just purrrfection, either in his MM costumes or in his normal clothes. He's got style, aristocrat style.

So this evening I will go see Turku's other icehockey-club play. I hope its just as nice as TPS.
This morning I made croissants... hmmm... they are so delicious. Now I'm getting hungry again.
I just called my sister and asked about Saartje. The surgery went well, she can go home later ^^ I'm glad to hear that. Was worried about my hexekatze.
I have a tupparit (sp?) tomorrow... I wonder what I should buy for Jenni... maybe just booz?
@ Weird Sister: As soon as you know wether you'll earn that 400/500 per month next year you should subscribe to the housing-company. Because Ville mentioned it yesterday I dreamt about it last night. Of us living together in one of the places at the Valeriusstraat. It was fun. We should really do that. And now we have a washingmachine already and you did get some stuff from Oma Christina right? Living together in an apartment would be so much better for us :)

Something takes a part of me

2007-02-20T12:47:05Z

huivanta and shadow_wolfessalready wrote about it, yet still I want to put my opinion here:
When I first came online yesterday Lizzie-chan gave me the news about the date of the internetsingle Eva and about the date of the album. I was so happy that finally we fans knew finally more. And than *snorts* the new tourdates. I don't think I've been this pissed in a very long time. HOW MUCH SHIT DO TUOMAS AND EWO FUCKING POHJOLA THINK WE, OLD FANS, WILL TAKE FROM THEM???!! Sure, they had to cancel the US-tour during Once, sure that was sad for the american fans.... but it wasn't that bad that those fucking americans have the first right to see the new Nightwish first than us, the old fans?!!! Fucking hell, most of those people didn't even know them before Once. I don't like the whole 'I'm-more-fan-than-you-attitude', but in this case I'm gonna use it. They have been fans for a mere 2 years only, but just because they can whine better, since that's what Americans are good in, Nightwish will come there first. Again a dissappointment. And it's not cause now I don't have a chance to see them. It's just the idea. They'd always started in Finland. They are really trying hard to push their old fans away. And why? Is it cause we dared to question the brilliance Once? Because we dared to say it wasn't the best album? Sure, the album was perfection. But where was the feeling? Ghost Love Score got my in a frenzy the first time I listened to it, but the more I listened to it, the more it lost of that glow. Same with all other songs. They are good songs, yet they have no emotion. It doesn't give you a chill like for example Passion & the Opera or make you float off to the world of dreams like Sleepwalker did. I'm certain the new album will be an excellent piece, everything will be just right, perfection, yet it will be just as dead as Once. I'll wait for it and listen to it. But they've killed the feeling deep inside me. Well they, I'm not angry at Jukka or Emppu or Marco, they are great guys, it's just my feelings for Tuomas that have completely changed.(And I'm not even getting started about that drunkard that calls himself a manager) I used to love him for making music that kept me alive, for saying the exact words that were in my heart. I felt he understood exactly how my soul was build, but now..... Angel of music, you decieved me...

Are you easily amused or hard to humour?:
Easily amused... though in the demonic kind of way, my humour is kinda dark
Outgoing or no?:
I don't consider myself as outgoing, but some people have told me I am.
Are you at all competative?:
Very competive, specially in things that depends on brainpower
Would you say you are emotional? Emotional in what way?:
I usually keep my emotions inside. Showing emotions makes you weak. Only people that I really trust know my emotions. Though anger I usually show, yet it takes a lot to really make me angry
Are you social or are you more of a loner?:
I'm more a loner
What does your favourite teddybear look like?:
It's a red cat with the name of Evora. I gave it to Ville when I left in summer, so it's still here
Whats on your walls?:
In Finland: Nothing as yet. Back home: Can't be sure since WS redecorated. Ville has this beautifull flag of Victoria Frances, the one of the two kissing girls. <3
Name 5 random things on your desk right now:
Papers, notebook, pencil, candy, empty glass
Do you have anything Disney in your room, if so, what?:
Chip and Dale poster, POTC DVD
Any thing black? If so, what?:
Same as WS
What do you cherish the most in your room?:
My laptop, my cds and my Finnish flag
Name 5 random cds from your collection?
Moi Dix Mois - Beyond the Gate, Nightwish - Oceanborn, My Chemical Romance - Welcome to the Black Parade, Phantom of the Opera OST, Malice Mizer - Merveilles
Do you have a dictionary? If so, do you ever use it?
Do I? LOL Dutch - French - Dutch, Dutch - English - Dutch, Dutch-German-Dutch, English-Finnish-English, Dutch-Finnish-Dutch, Estonian-English-Estonian, Estonian-Finnish-Estonian, And yes I use them
Your favourite book:
Armand the Vampire - Anne Rice, Equal Rites - Terry Pratchet
Last movie you watched:
Secret Window on tv
Last song you listened to:
Dir en grey - beautifull dirt
Last person you spoke with online:
Weird Sister
Last comic you read:
Garfield
Last thing you bought:
Black hold-ups and hairdye (black and purple, but the purple didn't work)
Last thing you ate:
Vanilla-Munkki (Vanilla teeheheee)
Last present you got, and from who:
Errr....
Rory Gilmore or Lorelai Gilmore:
As in: Please chose the one we shoot? Than the mom, she annoys me to pieces. Grow up woman! You're 40 goddamnit!
Invasion or LOST:
LOST must seriously be the most boring thing I've seen in a while... nothing happens, just the idea is given that something might happen. Kinda like Blair Witch Project, but than even worse (Though BWP II rocks)
Blind Guardian or Dragonforce:
Blind Dragon Guardian Force
Interview with the Vampire or Queen of the Damned:
Interview with the Vampire: Tom is yummie, Antonio is yummie, and the feeling in the movie is exactly how it is in the books. QOTD is filmed in a too popular style.
Winter or summer?
Winter
Pants or skirts:
Skirts
Frogs or snakes:
Snake, I want one, a Tiger python, they are so gorgeous.
Beer or wine:
Wine, white wine, preferable Spanish or South American
Joey Tribbiani or Chandler Bing:
Ai ai... ehm both? Okay Chandler, since his humor is great.
Halloween or Valentines Day:
Ol' Hallo's Eve
How do you feel?:
Rather fine, though my stomach acts weird
You're thinking about?:
Shopping (oh how preppy!)
What are you listening to?:
Edenbridge - Whispering Gallery
Close your eyes, move your head and open them. What are you looking at?:
Two girls kissing eachother => Victoria Frances
What colour are your socks?
Black with that Woodstock-bird on it and Drooby or what's his name.
Are you wearing any jewels?
I don't like jewels
Who do you think is the sexiest actor?:
Johnny Depp
Actress?:
Mana-sama ;) Ehm Lucy Lui can look quite good, Catherina Zeta-Jones too
The best looking male musician:
Klaha, Kaoru
Female musician:
Sharon den Adel and Amy Lee
Which horrormovie villain would you be, and why?:
Akasha
What do you think about Mel Gibson?:
Passion of the Christ seriously sucks. I'd expected a good movie with a great torture scene... so this is what all those people where talking about? Yeez.... there's more torture in most Fetish-clubs.
Do you like realityshows such as Newlyweds?:
Not Newlyweds, but i like the one where they try to improve a couple's sexlife.
Any not so known actors you like?:
Tygo Gernands: (here playing Goran the slightly insane Serbian butcher from the movie: Snitzelparadijs)

Do you have any weird habits?:
Not that I know off...
Your favourite colour:
Purple
The best author?:
Anne Rice, Lord Byron, Terry Pratchet, Coleridge, Bram Stoker
Does the lyrics of songs matter to you?:
Yes, they can really make a song, even if they are in a language I don't understand.
Whats the color of your panties right now?:
Black
Do you have any obsessions?
My 'dollhouse', i'm obsessed with beauty and with my weight
Ever been hit by a girl?
Does my sisters count? lol
What Lord of the Rings character do you prefer?:
Legolas and Haldír
Any hobbies?:
Writing, reading, listening to music, Formula 1
Ever made out with a boy?:
How dare you accuse me of such a thing?! *makes cross* Ofcourse I have!
A girl?:
Nein
A donkey?:
Too hairy, sorry
Any favourite animal characters in animated movies?:
Garfield
What are you listening to right now?:
Dir en Grey - Bottom of the Death Valley
What is your pet's name, if you dont have a pet,what would it be if u had?:
Saartje and Woody
Where would you like to live?:
Turku
Do you have anything on your hands right now?:
Skin?
Do you believe in God and Satan?:
No
Vampires?:
I want to believe in them
Ghosts?:
Ehkä
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Shipwrecked frontier pioneer

2007-02-19T12:35:11Z

I bought 3 Muummi-books last saturday :p Didn't buy any clothes though, I only saw this one nice corset-top kinda thing in H&M (prolly my favourite normal shop) but I tried on 38, and ofcourse it didn't fit around my breasts. Come on! What do they think? That when you have size 38 you have A-sized tits??! And ofcourse they didn't have 40, only 42 and that was way to big *hisses* But maybe they have 40 here in the centre *hopes*
I'm gonna try something different with my hair, but I'm not quite sure it'll work...
Oh and kultamuru, rakas, I'm still winning this happiness-bet, for the simple reason that I'm in Finland ;) Show me the Salmiakki-kosu!!!

If people wonder why I won't be online that much this week: I kinda moved in with Ville for this week, since it's hiihtoloma and I only have my Khanty-course this week. I wonder how long it takes for Ville to kick my out :P
And tomorrow... hopefully Levykauppa Äx will make my day by having Marrow of the Bone *fingers crossed*

Stole from Eribasu-chan and DG-san:
1. What's worse, biting your tongue or stubbing your toe?
Biting your tongue... specially if it starts to bleed (though actually the taste of blood is quite good)

2. What were you doing this morning at 8am?
Sleeping next to Ville

3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
I was on the toilet LOL

4. Are you any good at math?
Yes I am and I like it

7. Are you mad at anyone right now?
(huh 7? O-o) No

8. Do you know the words to the song on your MySpace profile?
Mayonaka ni kawashita yokusoku => Yes I do <3

9. Last thing received in mail?
A Valentines card from my sister Sylvia with a Siamese cat on it ^^

10. How many different drinks have you had today?
One: Coffee

11. Who is the NEXT friend you shall see?
Myrtha and Katrina

12. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machine?
No, I hate answering machines.

13. Any plans for tonight?
Mess around with my hair - take a shower - snoggle Ville

14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
Me on a beach... yeah right... I'm afraid of the sea

15. Where are your best friends right now?
At internship, at school, at the computer, making hydrogen gas

16. What's outside your front door?
Melting snow, hallway

17. What are you looking forward to most this year?
Living this dream, Sarah coming to Finland in April, hopefully seeing Diru on Ankkarock, Ville coming to Holland, seeing Nighty in amsterdam

18. Do you like the ocean?
I like her as much as I fear her powers

20. Have you ever been to New York?
No, and I don't desire too

22. Something you are excited about?
Getting Marrow of a Bone

23. Suggest a film to watch:
Abre los Ojos : The original version of Vanilla Sky and so so so so much better... and for future seeing in the cinema: Young Hannibal, Message from *some Japanese name*. The last one is a movie about WWII seen from the point of view of the Japanese for once, so you can trully see the war and not the US-propaganda

24. Say whatever is your mind right now:
I think I like Arcturus

26. What's your order at the pub?
Snow cat or white wine

27. Tell a joke:
What's one Turkish guy on the moon?
- A black spot on the moon
What are two Turkish guys on the moon?
- Two black spots on the moon
What are all Turkish guys on the moon?
- One problem less

28. Do you like anyone right now?
*looks to her left* You might say so

29. What did you do for your last birthday?
I think I worked as usual and hating to get older

30. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed?
Closed, i can only sleep when it's totally dark and silent

31. If you could change your name, what would it be?
Datenshi or Lillith or maybe together: Lillith Datenshi (Biblical Vampire + Fallen Angel)

32. Do you like your middle name?
Ellen, nope

33.Who are you thinking about right now?
For some reason Armand the Vampire

34. Do you consider your best friends family?
They are more than family, I live for them

35. Favorite foods?
Italian, Finnish

Happy Valentines Day Everyone!

2007-02-14T10:13:31Z

(Not that I'm such a big Valentine's Day fan - after all you should show your love not only on this day - but for once my Valentines day will be quite great (I hope), so I wish you all a great day too!!)
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And I've been tagged. I'll try not to make a list containing only Diru and Malice Mizer LOL

List seven songs you are into right now, no matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your livejournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

♥ Puddle of Mud - She Fucking Hates Me
♥ Dir en Grey - Mazohyst of Decandence (9 minutes of pure pleasure <3)
♥ Malice Mizer - Mayonaka ni kawashito yakusoku
♥ The Cure - Creep (Radiohead cover)
♥ Within Temptation - The Howling
♥ 30STM - The Kill
♥ Dir en Grey - Bottom of the Death Valley

I tag
nimbocumulus
weirdsister_fis
huivanta
shadow_wolfess
nightlurker
2fortragedy
routaneito

Just some random thoughts

2007-02-13T22:39:17Z

Yeah it's me again, I just needed to shout: ONE OF THE PAPERS IS DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So one paper and one exam to go...
I somehow have to study everything for the estonian exam tomorrow before 16
I really want to finish this other paper before friday, so I can go to Länsikeskus on friday
Tomorrow (or actually today already) Ville and I will go to the movies. The Perfume. Again. Yes it was that good. And it'll be great to watch with Ville.
Liz (Eribasuuuuu!) send me the live version of Beast of Blood <3 Bad quality, but hack, it's great to hear how Klaha's voice really sounds like.
MSN has been fucking all night *annoyed*
Yeah, I'll go search some info for this second paper now....

Merciless Cult

2007-02-13T18:14:27Z

Today was quite a nice day, though it began kinda shitty as I first woke up at 7, when my alarmclock went. But since I heard the streaming water of the shower, I decided to stay in bed untill the girl would come out... Ofcourse I fell asleep again and woke again at 9, which is kinda late if you have class at 10.15. Surprisingly I still managed to be only 15 minutes late. Normally I wouldn't have bother with coming even if I overslept, but we're discussing the one subject at Suomen Kielioppi that I always mix up: the partiisipia. I actually felt kinda good in class, cause we had to put this sentence from partisiipia-muoto into the 'normal' form and I was the only one to raise a finger (well apart from a few of the Russians, but they don't count. They take the same Finnish courses every year, so they know everything... vitun russit). It was scary that the teacher looked at me with this smile saying "that's very very good."
Had lunch with Ville at his place, I bought some bread-thingies, it was very nice. We also listened to the new Tristania album. As i'm not that known with the album before this new one, I was actually a little shocked about the changes, but still I enjoyed it ver y much. Specially the last song is amazing. And Vebeke sings with the same singing-style as Tarja ^^ (though their voices ofcourse are completely different) After that I walked with Ville to his Spanish class and went to the library myself to read some 20 pages from the Finnish syntax book. I actually understood everything... scary...

But Khanty.....
I had look so much forward to this course, but it so fucking sucks! That teacher, Elena Skribnik, really can't teach! She's supposed to speak in english, but her english is just horrible! She doesn't know any word and keep on saying the german equivalent instead, cause that language she does know, even though she's Russian. So than the german and I have to give her the English word. I fucking feel like we're teaching her English instead of her teaching us Khanty! And she really has no clue how to teach grammar. I would be a better teacher and I don't even know Khanty. Well, only 1,5 week to go and I really need the points. But I already know I'll write my paper in the most difficult English I comprehend HEHE

Tuomas spotted!

2007-02-09T14:53:22Z

Something like an hour ago Nightwish's sexy keyboardplayer and mastermind, Herra Tuomas Holopainen (30), was spotted at the trainstation in Helsinki. Due to harsh frost (pakanen) the trains to the East were suffering from delay. It was at that time that a dutch exchange student and animalfriend , Anne (20), walked passed him, recognised him and started started stamping her feet and swearing in dutch when she thought he had gone away again before she could sms her co-Finnatic friend in Turku, Patricia (20). Herra Holopainen however hadn't left and kept on stairing straight in front of him, afraid of this girl who suddenly shouting in strange tongues. Wether or not he shit his pants, we do not know as yet.

(Anne, kun luet sitä, kiitos paljon! *halaus*)

when I remembered, it started to melt, and spill from the palm of my hand

2007-02-08T15:26:16Z

Thanks to all the people who took the time to go to my brothers MySpace. *hugs* Your efforts have made me co-webmaster of the MySpace. I'm in charge of changing the lay-out now ^^
Once again, this is where it happens: www.myspace.com/nowayrocks.

Damn what's wrong with me.... My WMP started to play Dir en Grey's Ain't Afraid to Die just now, and it made me cry out of nothing.... I thought that was a power only Sayonara behold...

The day of this year's final snow on the street corner, one single flower
when I look up at the sky, the final snow will spill into the palm of my hand

Edit: WS just told me that my baby Saartje has a quite serious earinfection *is even more worried now* I swear I couldn't cope without her...

The sorrowfull withering flowers that have seen a thousand nights

2007-02-07T16:17:32Z

I want you all to go to this link http://www.myspace.com/nowayrocks

It is the MySpace of the band of my brother. As you can see, there's only one friend yet - Me. So I feel it's my job to promote them a bit. Please go there, listen to the music if you like and add them as friends. If you want to know who my brother is: He's the one standing in the middle, looking quite bald though he isn't. For some reason however he decided to cut his black hair really short *rollseyes* Thanks in advance sweeties! Maybe if they get more friend I can get them to change lay-outs :p

Now some bad news for a few of you maybe: I've made my decision concerning the FME's. I'm not going. I've though long and hard about it, but it's just way to expensive. 25 euro for the train to Hel, 25 euro to go back, 40 euro for the ticket and than all the booz and food... Having that in mind, the programm is just not worth it. From the gigs the only ones I want to see is Moonsorrow and BFT, the rest I don't give crap about. Well, I'm not a metalgirl, so that's why. So I decided to just go to Hel on another time (Myrthe asked me to go with her on Vappu) so I also have more time to meet everybody, and to go to seperate gigs instead. Moonsorrow is coming to Turku soon ^^ WT will come to Helsinki in April and I have the strong feeling MCR will be having a gig too here somewhere in Spring. And apart from that: I really really really want to go to Ankkarock this year, so I should save a bit for a flightticket for August, so Suviviina we'll go hang out, drink and enjoy the music there okay?

Now... back to homework... *deep sigh* I still need to finish this presentation, read 30 freakin' pages of boring Finnish and translate this Estonian text... Why do I always feel other students have less to do than me?? I'm sure they have the same amount of stuff to do too.... they prolly just care less and aren't perfectionistic like moi. So that's why my msn is showing off-line, for prolly whole evening.

From the day my love began, I began to change
when I was just staring at you
You were always standing in that garden, looking lonely
as you stared at nothing but the scattering flowers.

Love these lyrics <3

Welcome to my dollhouse

2007-02-06T23:00:10Z

I've got tagged too... Damn, now I have to list 10 famous hot people..... but I do what I've got to do ;)

[1] - List your top 10 celebrity crushes.
[2] - Put all of them IN ORDER of your lust for them. (10-1, 1 being favorite)
[3] - Say which movie/show/thing it was that hooked you.
[4] - Supply photos for said people.
[5] - Tag five people!

10. - Mika Häkkinen
The last race of the 1997 season, his maiden win in Jerez. Me and my sisters were doing some kind of game called "the next guy you marry" When it was my turn Mika came on the screen, and I actually was happy with it. This guy is the reason I got interested in Suomi in the first place, so I owe him my life for giving me a reason to live. Therefor if I ever put a boy on this world, he'll bear the name off Mika in honour of him.

9. -Robert Smith
First video I saw of him was Lullaby, and I just loved his weird outlook.

8. - Brendon Lee R.I.P
The lost beauty. Fell for him after seeing The Crow for the first time, specially after the interview on the special edition where he quotes Lord Byron <3

7. - Johnny Depp
Errr.... probably after... ehm.... don't know which movie got me hooked on him... but isn't the love for JD something you're born with? Pic is probably from my favourite movie with him: Finding Neverland.

6. - Tuomas Holopainen
I noticed him for the first time somewhere in 1999/2000 when somebody gave me the Oceanborn CD. His eyes immediately behold my attention and I still love them. Musical genius. And my ex-husband.

5. - Gacchan
I think it was the video for Longing I first saw of him, thanks to the Dirge of Cerberus OGST ^^ Well, you all know what happened with Lizzie and me after that. My apologies *not* Just look at him!

4. - Gerard Way
Helena got me hooked on this guy. Sadly his black hairs have made way for white ones now.... but his insanity will never die, and you all know I've got a thing for insane guys XD

3. - Kaoru
I've got obsessed by him since I saw him with that purple hair... He is a Sama, but in my world he's the Devil for the glances he gives the public.

2. Yu~ki
Malice Mizer's vampire, do I need to say more? I've got hooked on him after seeing Bara no Konrei.

1. Klaha-sama (Masaki Haruna)
When searching for Gackt online I stumbled upon a page that had a pic from Malice Mizer from the Klaha-era as header... I was lost immediately. There's just something about him that makes me care for him. I hope he gets better and up and singing again...

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I tag:
Captain Laiho
Ville
Martyna
Mii-hime
Sab

That was part of my dollhouse, though ofcourse Mana-sama is there too, but that goes without mentioning. Had to make a selection :p

-20 today here... I know now what cold is.

And I know there's nothing I can say to change that part

2007-02-05T16:46:36Z

Sleeping in daytime only makes me more sleepy LOL Ah well, I'll just go to bed early tonight (already knows that that's never gonna happen) Gods I love Robert's voice.

Because everybody was filling this in:
01. Color: Purple, black
02. Number: 23
03. Letter: K
04. Non-Alcoholic drink: Coke Light/Zero
05. Alcoholic drink: White wine
06. Food: Italian, Swedish meatballs and mashed potatoes (No Ville, I'll always call them Swedish no mather what you say :p)
07. Fruit: Apple, Pear
08. Vegetable: Carrot, kukkukaali (the white brocolli lol don't know the english name), maissi/corn
09. Artist/band: The Cure, Malice Mizer
10. TV show: CSI
11. Movie: Phantom of the Opera
12. Actor: Johnny Depp, Alan Rickman
13. Actress: Errr.... Liv Tyler
14. Other Celeb: Klaha, Kaoru, Vincent Valentine, Yu~ki
15. Season: All but summer
16. Candy: Salmiakki, minttu chocolate
17. Country other than your own: Finland, Japan
18. Name for a girl: Evora, Lillith
19. Name for a boy: Mika
20. Animal: Cat
21. Book: Radetsky March, Vampire Chronicles - Anne Rice, Vampire Stories (collection of short vampire stories)
22. Accent: Ville saying Rapture :p
23. Scent: Benzin!! And Hugo Boss is always good *wink*
24. City in your own country: errr.... Groningen or Maastricht
25. Website: LJ and YouTube

Damn I'm really starting to like The Kill from 30stm... O-O But than, I've never had any problems with EMO-music... Oh yeah, this reminds me, according to Ville they sounds like My Chemical Romance. Will you all please join me in declaring him crazy?

And now I'm gonna bore you about my Baltic Sea Regio Studies, just because I can and just because otherwise I'd be telling it to the wall and I already speak to it to often:
For our second assignment we'll have to compare Finland, Estonia and another post-communist country concerning economy, social factors and media. To show us what kind of information you can use, one of the professors gave us a print of the Human Development Indicators, mainly for European countries but Japan and the US were also in the table.
The table exists out of a few indicators: 1. Human development index, 2. GPD per Capita, 3. Life expectancy at birth, 4. School enrollment, 5. Populations below $4 a day, 6. Gini index.
Now guess which country comes out the best? In other words, the best country you could life? NORWAY!!! Yes, Liz it's true, at least according to the UNDP. Iceland is on 2nd place and Australia 3rd. Japan is 7, Finland is ranked 11th.
The country with the best lifeexpectancy is Japan with 82 years, worst on my list is Kazakhstan (the miracle! LOL). But now some things that really shocked me: Let me first start by saying that after this I totally understand in what a terrible country you life Tragi! The GPD (average year-wage) in Moldova was in 2004 only $1729! My dad makes more than that a month, holy fuck! But even in Estonia it's only $14555. But what shocked me most about Moldova's indexes was the % of people living under less that $4 a day... 82%!! That's fucking terrible! We need to get you out of there!
But let's look at those GDP's a little more. First place is hold by the US with $39 676, second place, yes there it is again, Norway with $38 454. But before the Americans get all 'you see it ain't all that bad in the US as you say', let's take the Gini index in account. Gini index is an inequality index. So poor part versus rich part. A Gini index of 25 is normal (Norway has 25,8 here, Sweden has exactly 25)... but guess what it is in the US? Their Gini-index is.... 40.8!!! To make clear how bad this is, I like to point out that no post-communist country even comes close to that number, apart from Russia with 39. So even Russia is better. And that freakin' Bush rather spends his money on a useless war, goddamnit, go to hell you moron!!!
LOL Australia has a schoolenrollment ratio of 113... how can you have more than 100? LOL
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suomigoth @ 2007-02-05T09:02:00

2007-02-05T07:04:50Z

Who invented guilt anyway?

Can't wait to get home and finally sleep a bit. See you all later online dears!

Once I had a Dream and this is it

2007-02-02T21:53:55Z

Why do I think finally getting my internet connection is very bad for me? Could it be cause I haven't been away from it since 16:00 apart from making diner, doing dishes and handwashing some clothes? Hehe well I blaim that I didn't had it for 2 weeks for it.

*giggle* Robert Smith is cute *giggle*

So maybe it's finally time for me to write a bit about my stay here so far. I really 'don't feel like telling precisely what happened every day so this will just be a short summary. Coming to Finland my plane had already 30 min delay in Schiphol cause it had been stuck in Vantaa cause of the snow. Entering Finland with the plane and seeing the small world down totally covered in the white blanket of snow was the most beautifull thing I'd ever seen. For a moment I had a hard time holding back my tears. Due to the delay I couldn't catch my train to Turku anymore so I had to take the bus. In the end that meant I didn't arrive in Turku untill a quarter to 3, but Ville was still waiting for me at the busstation to pick me up. It was so great to see him again! I had almost forgotten how damn beautifull he is, almost ;) The next day I met Jenni at 10 at the kauppatori so we could go and get all the official things arrange. I swear I never had to put my signature down on so many places! But it had to be done. And Jenni she's such a friendly girl. Couldn't have gotten a better tutor.
Than about classes: The Finnish grammar class is way below my level and I think really meant for people who'd only studied it for a year or studies it besides their major. I don't mind that much, since it's nice to have at least one easy class. And two german girls from the summercourse of 2005 were there too, and it was so great to see them again! There I was thinking I'd see none of them again and now I've already seen Megan, Myrthe and Denise again ^^ The Syntax class I have on thursdays from 8.30 -10.00 and the material is so theoritical it's really hard to keep my eyes open. Than Estonian class: I realised the grammar is still much in my head, but I forgot almost all the words. And it's quite difficult cause I have to translate from Estonian to Finnish (though on the test the teacher will let me do it from Estonian to English). That teacher is really great! Eve Mikone. She knows my home professor LOL But she really tries to get me to pass it. I also have Viron historia from her, but that's just a book exam. Now this week was the first week of my Baltic Sea Region Studies: Society and Media. 12 hours a week. The second class was all about statistics and I suddenly realised I like statistics. We have to make 2 papers for it, one has to be delivered next week. But I seem to be the only one in class who seems to understand what we have to do. All the others are all the time "but I don't understand what we exactly have to do with the tables". That's btw one thing I noticed: Here university feels much more like highschool. You go to a class and get homework for the next class. At home we have to do much more ourselves and our level is way more scientific. But maybe that's just my professor trying to make me a scientist XD Oh damn, that paper is due too next week!!! *sees a busy week ahead*
So besides doing my studies I've basically spend a lot of time with Villeni. Well, that isn't that weird, is it? We have been apart for almost 6 months. Now I think: How the hell did I manage to do that? It's really nice to be with him. Somehow this relationship feels really natural and not demanding. I hope you feel the same way too, Ville :)
I think that loosing that 5 kilos is a more difficult task than I thought..... Finnish food is just way to good!!!! And no, not only Hesburger :p I've only been there once yet. The Finns seem to like potatoes just as much as I do XD And Minttu chocolate is lethal for me... and korvapuusti... and mashed potatoes with meatballs.... and ranskalaiset je nakit.... and Nummi's pizza.... and lihapirakka (damn Ville now i like those too!!)... And I ate this dish once at the university cafeteria that was turkey in cheese sauce... that actually was really really tasty! But as you see, it's hard not to eat :p Still, normal diners aren't that bad... I should just try not to eat that much finnish chocolate. Oh and one funny thing: I first bought Coca Cola Light here, but it tasted funny for me. Than Ville suggested I should try Coca Cola Zero, and what'ya know, it tasted like our CC light! XD
Some random things:
-Tomorrow I'll be going to an icehockeymatch with Ville. My first one. I hope I can follow the puck lol But TPS GO! Beat those HPK-asses!
- The Cure covering Creep is just breathtaking
- The Cure playing Lullaby live at Lyon 2004 is just pure love/sex
- Katra sucks
- The guy I prefered during the semi-finals of idols got through
- My Finnish bankpass says 'VISA'.... oh oh
- Kaoru is now official member of my porcelin doll house. He's just da hotness! I need to go to Ankkarock!
- I want purple in my hair and probably gonna get it cause my hair tires me
- Manu and Minni are just too adorable! MEW!
- There are a lot of EMO guys walking around here.... WS you'd love it here!
- I made a new video. It's a alternation to the official video for Love Song from The Cure. I'd love some comments :)

- I wrote a fairytale-kinda fic. You can find it on my forum.
- I'm starting to like The Kill from 30stm O-o
- After school I went to the H&M because I wanted to buy some more panties. But ofcourse once on the lingery department I also ended up buying kneesocks and a bra. Ofcourse a black one with embroided roses. Strange thing is that it's a C, but now that I fit it on at home, I wonder if it's not to small.... yeah like I would need D *snorts*

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Hold me in my dreams, tranquil angel

2007-02-01T13:35:56Z

So as most of you already know: my internet finally works! But I'm at Ville's now cause his mom is going to celebrate her namesday today and asked us to come. So we will go there later. It's so great to have the net again. Yeah I'm a serious addict. And Eribasu was so nice to treat me with all this new Pride of Mind stuff XD
I was gonna write here about the new Within Temptation video/song, but as weirdsister_fis already posted it, I''ll just post my commentary here: IMO they only made that video with ugly troll Keith Caputo to try and get some feet on the ground in America. I think that's the only part of the world they haven't conquered yet. The song would be quite nice if that dwarf wasn't destroying it with his voice. Who ever told him he could sing? I also noticed that Sharon got back to her old figure quite fast after the birth of Luna. She's so beautifull *love* I just hope the rest of the new album will be better.
But it can be worse actually: Ville showed to me some days ago the new video of Sirenia. Now I'm a fan of Sirenia, well I used to be. They changed their female vocalist for this blonde gal. I knew this for a while but hadn't heard her yet. Well judge yourself, here's the video:

This is pure horror. For all of you who know the old Sirenia, know that they used to be very dark music, strong male grunting, operatic female singing and there was always a cello or a violin playing. (thus the name Sirenia) And than there's this.... That girl has the same vocal abilities as any preppy popsinger. Not operatic whatsoever. And frankly, I'm not beautifull, but compared to her I'm a beautyqueen. And the song and the music. What the hell did they think? ' Oh Nightwish is on hiatus now.... let's try to take over their place!' Well, I don't wanna say it is a typical nightwish song, but it has a high Nemo feel to it. That is, a song to lure new fans. But seriously, they can't be serious about this new style change can they??!!! I honestly detest this song. But I'm sure the 14-15 year old who consider themselves ' goths' like it. No real musiclover can like this. Damn, I don't like the lable something ' commercial' but this surely is....

Woman to cat to hare and back

2007-01-30T13:01:02Z

Please everybody help me hoping my internet will work when I come home tonight? It is connected to the university network , but when I try to enter the internet is says that my computer is not registered. Appearantly, as I discovered friday evening, the physical adress number I can them is one provided by my W-lan and that doesn't work in the network. So I turned the Wlan off and ta-dah a completely different number. I send that to them that same friday and the form said it would take one working day to change.... And did it come yesterday? Ofcourse not! Lazy fucking bastards! I swear if I don't have a net tonight I'll go there tomorrow are tell them exactly what I think of lazy bastards!
Apart from that I'm doing really great. I'm feeling so much at home and I'm so happy, it scares me. I have to say that most of that happiness is on account of Ville. Yes, my dear friends, I also belong to that camp now of terribly in love persons :P
The weather is lovely too. Nice and cold, though the snow is really starting to get slippery now....
Ah well, why I came here was to say that I prolly won't have the time or patient to read everything you wrote, so forgive me if i sometimes react like ' huh?' on something you say which i might have known from LJ...

Weehee an internet cafe!

2007-01-16T13:27:42Z

I won't be able to get a connection for the first 1,5. I found this internetcafe, but I should spend all my money here ofcourse :P
Untill now Turku has been nice. Tomorrow when I walked into my Finnish Grammar class I found 2 of the german girls from the summercourse in Savonlinna were there too!! I think this class might be too easy for me though *chuckles* Easy = Good.
So so far it has been nice. Had a little bit a homesick feeling yesterday but after I put my things on the right place, I turned my computer on to listen to some music and played around a bit with WMM, the room already felt like a home. And I'm sure that'll be better once I get my net.
One thing was fucked up though: I bought this buscard yesterday with which you can use the bus for 30 days, but this morning all of a sudden it wasn't working :S I think it was caused by my mobile, so Iäm keeping those apart now. Luckily the woman at the office just gave me a new one.

Now I'm going to the supermarket and than home to read. I bought a book called Vampire Stories yesterday with short stories by e.g. Bram Stoker, Anne Rice and D.Lawrence. I think I'm gonna read fromthat a little and than play with Yu-ki again...

Time to say goodbye

2007-01-14T00:26:40Z

As I'm writing this, Sunday has already begun. I'm scared, nervous and happy at the same time. I'm stepping into uncertainty... Still my adventerous mind loves this, how nervous I might be. A new part of my life will start now.
I hope it will bring me happiness. And once again I make the promise to myself that I won't let anybody get me from being happy. I can't see right now who would, but life has told me their are always people who do.

I will miss you all so much in the time I won't have internet!!! *sobs* Most of you are so incredibly dear to me. Without you, i wouldn't know where I'd be. Thanks. I hope I'll get the connection fast though, cause I just know that in my absence all these things will happen on the internet that I'll miss. Me and addict? Yes, I am.

Tragi don't give up trying to get to Finland! And I won't forget we're married ;)
Suvi, you and me + sauna + beer okay? :p
Martyna, never ever change! Our dreams keep us alive
DG, I'm surely gonna try and come to Estonia! Hopefully in March
Sarah, I hope you'll be fine and not homeless. If this ruined your plans of coming to Finland in April I understand.
Weird Sister, I'll miss you so much! Twin being apart :( I hope that during my absence some nice EMO boy will find his way to our room XD Oh and I'll still bug you with Jrockers through msn don't worry *chuckles*
Erisabesu, I hope that in my absence Gackt replies to you again. Shit I'm so gonna miss our MSN conversation in the next days! I just need my daily dose of drooling over crossdressers, Jrockers and yaoi. Don't forget Malice Mizer when you're becoming a GazettE fan *doesn't believe it herself*

And Ville: Finally we'll be together again! *kiss* I'm sure it'll be worth the waiting ^^

Goodnight my dears,
Suomi

* Still need to do some packing in the morning.
*squeel* Klaha with Mask is the hotness! Hmm I wonder if I could write a Klaha X Kaoru slash *giggles*

Cause Friday I'm in Love

2007-01-13T00:05:59Z

You know when the feeling when you're making an exam and thinking: if I had focussed better I knew this. There were 5 essay questions (I hate those) and I actually managed to write a decent essay to 3 off them, 1 I just didn't study that well (when you've got 13 chapters of each 20 pages to learn, you have to make choices) and 1 of them was about something I just do not get: institutional transfern and institutional isomorphism. I know it's about how the countries in transition transfer systems from the EU to their own so their match more up to EU standards, but than isomorphism... it's something about the connections between institutions, but I can't quite grasp what they mean with that....
So exam was over and I took the train to Leeuwarden to visit my best friend one last time before I'd be gone for 6 months. We drank coffee, she even had pie ^^ and I played with Meinrad. It's so amazing to see the little guy grow. Yeez, when I'll be back he'll already be walking... it seems just like yesterday I held him in my arms as a one week old. And he's such a bright boy! Yeah I know, me talking positive about a kid, but he just has a special place in my heart.
I went home on my bike through this storm, last time I'll ride my bike in 6 months.... Me mom had made lasagne, which I thought was very nice of her. At 8 Jantje came. She's such a nice girl! She bought me two goodbye-gifts: a baroque frame (i'm thinking of putting Yu~ki in it since I already have one with Ville and Klaha) and a little wooden Buddha. That meant so much to me to recieve a Buddha (as you all might know its bad luck to buy them for yourself, so getting one means good luck for both). He'll surely be in my suitcase. Last time we were at Jantje's we watched The Crow, since she hadn't seen it before, so this time we watched The Crow: City of Angels. I'm so jealous at all those clothings in it! This part is even more symbolic than the first, though ofcourse no Crow can beat Brandon Lee, may he rest in peace. I came online and saw Ville's reply that sweet Manu is okay again. Thank God. That tomcat has really stolen my heart XD

Wow only 2 nights to go... suddenly it's so close. Studying in Finland was always my dream, and like most dream, you don't expect them to come true. And now it's so close I can touch it. It's scary and exiting at the same time. I still have to pack my suitcase though. I hate it you can only bring 20 kilos! Now I have to make chooses in the clothing I want to bring *sighs* I already decided I'll only take black skirts with me, since they fit with everything. Maybe also one of my purple lolita skirts, but the other two purple ones are staying home. Well, I'll see about the other clothes tomorrow.
Monday's gonna be one busy day for me. First I'll meet Jenni somewhere around 9-10 at the kauppatori to go to my apartment, than I have to go to the mainbuilding to let the office know I'm there and get my student's number between 10 -14, I have to go to the starting package storage to pay for the starter's package between 11.30 and 13:00, I have to arrange getting an internet connection (please don't let that take 2 weeks! funny thing is that they'll inform you about the internet connection through email... ehm yeah, like how am I gonna read my mail?) and I want to go to the busstation to get a month-ticket. Oh and I prolly should do some groceries. Ah well, it's gonna be a good way to get to know the university buildings. Thankfully Jenni will show me the mainbuilding and Fennicum. And tuesday; my first class! Estonian grammar ^^ I still have to figure out one time for a class though, can't find it :S

Final note: Kaoru is HAWT!

Purple is my favourite colour after all *grins*

*squeels* This must be THE MOST SEXY PIC EVER! Toshiya and Kaoru *drool* Yaoi baby! Gods... I need to stop and cool down now...

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Before I forget: Martyna, the popmagazine came with a big poster of Tokio Hotel, consider that one coming your way ;)

So I... I will paint you in silver, I will wrap you in cold

2007-01-11T13:57:41Z

Hey, I finally slept! Untill 11.30 which wasn't exactly what I had planned... since I have that Transitology exam tomorrow. One of my classmates was so nice to send a summary around, but I just discovered 5 chapters are missing so I still have to summarise those *deep sigh* If I pass this exam it's just as much as a miracle as me ever seeing Klaha perform = impossible.

List your top 10 artists according to last.fm.

Malice Mizer
Klaha
Pride of Mind
Gackt
Moi Dix Mois
Inkubus Sukkubus
Within Temptation
浜渦正志 (Masashi Hamauzu)
Evanescence
The Cure

Answer the questions:

What was the first song you heard from number 6?
Paint it Black (Rolling Stones cover)

What is your favorite album from number 2?
Setsubou

How many times have you seen number 4 live?
I wish! But their are rumours of him and Gazette coming to Europe/Finland *fingers crossed*

What is your favorite song from number 7?
Our Farewell

Does number 3 have a song that makes you sad?
The Sky Was Blue

Which song of number 2 has the best lyrics?
All of them? Hizashi (Ray of Sunlight) perhaps

What is your favorite song from number 9?
Taking over Me

How did you find number 3?
Nosing around in Klaha’s past.

What is your favorite song from 4?
Lust for Blood or Dispar

How many times have you seen number 9 live?
Sadly never still, would like too since the music is quite good and Amy is just stunning.

Tell one good memory that is connected to number 2.
My dream in which he suddenly appeared singing Souten Hakugetsu… or Christmasday when he finally let us know he was still alive.

Does number 8 have a song that makes you sad?
Not really said, but melancholic every song that’s played under one of Vincent’s flashbacks (Masashi Hamauzu is the componist of the Dirge of Cerberus music)

What is your favorite album from number 5?
The album belonging to Dix Infernal, don’t remember the name.

Which song of number 3 has the best lyrics?
Love Light (I feel your breath)

What is your favorite song from 1?
Mayonaka ni kawashita yakusoku

What is your favorite song from 10?
Lullaby

How many times have you seen number 8 live?
He doesn’t give live shows.

What is your favorite album from number 1?
Bara no Seidu…. Though Merveilles is good to learn homework with.

Tell one good memory that is connected to number 9.

We used to sing it together on school when we're claiming the ground in the hallways.

Another one:

Gackt – Asrun Dream
Pride of Mind – The Sky was Blue
Klaha – Kamereon no Seppun
Gackt – Vanilla
Scissor Sisters – Land of a Thousand Words
Gackt – Dears
Klaha – Scape ~ with transparent wings
Fall Out Boy – This ain’t a scene, it a goddamn arms race *glares at WS*
Malice Mizer – Kyomo no Naka de no Yuugi (live)
Klaha – Sayonara
James Marsters – Poor Robyn
Nightwish – Away
Klaha – Stay in the Rain
Tommy February6 – Lonely in Gorgeous Tears
Masashi Hamauzu – Terminus
Nightwish – Two for Tragedy
Angel Sanctuary – Rosiel
Malice Mizer – Le Ciel
Klaha – Kaihou Prism
Masashi Hamauzu – Fragment of a Memory
Malice Mizer – Kioku no Sora
The Raconteurs – Broken Toy Soldier
Malice Mizer – Hakai no Hate
Klaha – Penguin
Klaha – Shokoreito
The Cure – A Forest
Dir en Grey – Obscure
Malice Mizer – Chimamirareta Kajitsu
Malice Mizer – Prologue Kaisou
Inkubus Sukkubus – Hecate Cerridwyn
Masashi Hamauzu – Memories with Lucretia
Malice Mizer – Gardenia
Pride of Mind – Dance with Moon
Moi Dix Mois – Lamentfull Miss (Instrumental)
Cradle of Filth – Rise of the Pentagram
Közi – Promenade
Közi – Honey Vanity
Eve of Destiny – Nervous and Innocence
Yoshiki – Without You
Eve of Destiny – Logos

01. Which song do you prefer, #01 or #40?
Difficult, but let’s say #40.

02. Have you ever listened to #21 continuously on repeat?

No

03. What album is #19 from?
Klaha – Kaihou prism is from Nostal Lab

04. What do you think about the artist who did #39?
Yoshiki? Errr…. I like it that he’s working with Gackt now and that he used to be part of Xjapan, but I don’t really know him.

05. Is #17 one of your favorite songs?
(Angel Sanctuary – Rosiel) No, though it refers to one of my favourite angels LOL

06. Who does #23 remind you of?
Kami

07. Does #20 have better lyrics or music?
It has no lyrics, so that’s easy: music

08. Do any of your friends like #07?
Not irl, but from internet friends Lizzie-chan and Mii-hime. Oh, and if I remember right Martyna finds him hot in the Malice Mizer era.

09. Is #12 from a movie soundtrack?
Not that I know.

10. Is #38 overplayed on the radio?
Eve of Destiny? *gets laughing fit* Yeah like they ever play good music on the radio…

11. What does #10 remind you of?
Klaha – Sayonara… the sole song that makes me cry. It reminds me of the death of Tijger.

12. Which song do you prefer, #35 or #34?
#34

13. What album is #9 from?
Bara No Seidou

14. When did you first hear #32?
Ehm september?

15. When did you first hear #25?
After Mii-hime send it to me.

16. What genre is #3?
Jpop with a little Jazz influences from the roaring 20s?

17. Do any of your friends like #14?
*looks at Liz* Hehe ParaKiss got this song stuck in our heads forever.

18. What color does #30 remind you of?
Black of the robes worn on sabbaths. Hecate Cerridwyn reminds me of incantation chants.

19. Have you ever blasted #11 on your stereo?
Only on my laptop

20. What genre is #37?
Közi’s eyeballfetish-poprock

21. Can you play #13 on any instrument?
Can’t play any instrument. I’d rather watch Klaha play it on the piano (preferably when we’re together in one room *fangirlmode*)

22. What is your favorite lyric from #38?
” the nights are so long for you. in the tender night, why do you fear?
the nights are so long for you. make a vow
the nights are so long for you. caught in the beautiful night
the end of the night, dance for the destiny, good night”

23. What is your favorite lyric from #6?
Don’t have a favourite part yet of that song.

24. Would you recommend #24 to your friends?
No, not because it’s a bad song; Klaha’s voice is lovely in Penguin, but because most of my friend’s wouldn’t appreciate it anyway.

25. Is #2 a good song to dance to?
Slowdance maybe, but the whole athmosphere of the song is so sad.

26. Have you ever heard #16 on the radio?
Hmm maybe in Finland.

27. Is #32 more of a "nighttime" or "daytime" song?
Daytime song, when you just woke up.

28. Does #36 have any special meaning to you?

No not really, though I do not know the text to Promenade, so that could be why.

29. Do any of your friends like #31?
Don’t think any of them knows Hamashi Hamauzu…

30. Is #25 a fast or slow song?
Slow

31. Is #35 a happy or sad song?
Rise of the true pentagram…. Well surely not happy, but not sad either. Satanic I’d say.

32. What is one of your favorite lyrics from #9?
” In my ruined and dissolute mind
I ridicule nihility, I dissipate in solitary
Cold blood flows
My faded mind is slipping through”

33. Is #34 better to listen to alone or with friends?
Lamentfull Miss, with friends for sure. Whole M10M reminds me of gathering in darkened cellars of clubs.

34. When did you first hear #27?
When Liz told me the video to it is just wicked and shocking.

35. Name 3 other songs by the artist who did #29:
Malice Mizer: No Pain No Gains, Gensou Rakuen, Garnet

36. Do you know all the words to #18?
Hehe, no.

37. Does #28 have better lyrics or music?

(Fucking Hell! Erisabesu I had the same song as you on this place! O-o)
I love both, but the orgasmic part of this song is when Klaha ‘whispers’ *shudders*

38. What album is #5 from?
Ta-Dah
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Damn I found this pic of Klaha yesterday from one of his gigs in 2003. I'm scared for him. He had become so thin! I hope he takes better care of his body these days.

You're in the arms of the angel, may you find some comfort there

2007-01-10T20:00:11Z

*moans painfully*
I wish I could relax my mind for a second.... can't remember the last time I slept normally. Oh wait, at Sanne's I slept a healthy 4,5 hours *snorts* Last night thanks to a storm going on and me worrying my head over basically everything concerning Turku and my exams (well mostly financial issues, cause I won't get the extra money till february 24th, so somehow I have to live of 700 euro the weeks before that... talking about a good way to loose weight...) I couldn't sleep untill 4, after which I awoke again at 5 cause I thought I had overslept. So I just went out of bed. Nothing could ease my mind: not thinking of Ville, meditation or imagining my beautifull porcelin dolls.... I think I slept 8 hours now since last saturday. Really healthy.

Funny thing is that I don't feel that tired. Only my eyes feel tired and looking in the mirror is even more horrible than always. Seriously, if you don't know how a Zombie looks like, take a look at me. Fuck, this ruins my skin, I just had it up and healthy *sighs*
The first exam was for my Minor about the cultural and political history of Middle and Easter Europe. I actually spend 2,5 hours of the 3 writing, cause the teachers had created answers which could be meant in different ways, so I'd just write everything about the subject of a question as I knew.
Than at 14:00 Norman and I were waiting for the class we'd have our Finnish exam, we waited and waited, together with the first years of Russian, but no one came. After waiting 45 minutes a bunch of the 'russians' finally grabbed hold of one of the Slavic teachers and asked where yadayadayada-kov was. It turned out the guy was at home, because he thought the exam was on the 31th! So there would be no surveillance = no exam = a big problem for me! Me and Norman hastily rushed to our teacher, Lili Ahonen, who was stunned, so we went with the 3 off us to the Student's Office to tell about it, try to get hold of the exams and get a free room so we could still make it. Luckily the exampapers where there and we could get a free room. The guy from the office kept on apologizing to me (yeah I was quite pissed), but that it was out of their hands, since the Slavic Department arranges everything without their consent, do not listen to any of the Universital Offices, kept on replacing exams and classes on their own. I WAS SPITTING FIRING WHEN HEARING THAT! Because of that stupid russian arrogant attitude, I'd almost didn't have an exam, which meant again 5 ECTS less. How the hell do they think they're ever gonna belong to the civilized west, if they still have that bureaucratic nomenclatura attitude??!! And I thought Norman was joking when he told me that in Russia it's quite normal that people arrive 2 hours late for an appointment.... I'd believe everything now... Goths, everytime I get some 'link' with that people something goes wrong *continues mumbling words of hatred* If they didn't have St. Petersburg with the Winterpalaces, the Faberge-eggs and Stalin, they'd be happily on top of my list of "countries-I-hate" And well, some of the students of Slavic aren't that bad either.
Okay, but I did get to do the exam, though with this delay I was only finished at 6 *sighs*

Oh and I could swear I saw the exact image of Gackt walking out of the museum of arts today, but since my mind isn't working, I was prolly halucinating.
Edit: Did I already mention I get very moody when I don't get enough sleep?

Theres always one reason
To feel not good enough
And its hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
Ill find some peace tonight

Lamentfull Miss

2007-01-08T14:07:58Z

I'm at least doing one of the things I promised myself for the New Year: Having more fun.
Yesterday at the beginning of the evening my friend Sanne called me and asked:"So are you gonna sleep here or?" That was quite funny, cause I didn't even know I was going there :p Appearantly due to some misunderstandings she thought I already knew she'd give her birthday-party on sunday. So than I had to decide wether I'd go or not, bothered both Liz and Tragi with that, cause I'm just really undescisive (sp?), especially when it's a last minute choice I have to make. My wise part said: "No you should stay at home and study for your exams" and "You should spare that 20 euro you now have to spend on going to Groningen". (I gave up my ov-card for free travelling with bus and train so I'll get money for it, since I won't be in Holland anyway, but because those paperwork always goes slow, i won't get my extra money untill 20 february. So than I'll all of a sudden have something like 1000 euro from studyfinance, but untill them I'll have to be extra carefull with my money.) Yet my rebellious part said: "You've been studying all day, let's go out!" "Fuck school!" "You don't need to buy food in Finland" "You will end up writing fanfics instead of studying anyway" etc. So in the end I did go. Also because Megan captain_laihowould be there. I hadn't seen her since Savonlinna 2005 and frankly none of us thought to ever see eachother again, so to meet eachother again was IMO just completely awesome!
It was a great evening. Passoa-orange juice should taste more like alcohol lol. Anne was also still in Holland, so I could see her too. It's so great they are all doing well there! More alcohol was being drunk; Sanne and Eelco (??) were discussing political mathers, which to Anne and me were a little to heavy at 3 in the night, so we went to get more Passoa and ended talking about corsets in the kitchen. Than I finally noticed Romke and Meg were standing on the balcony ~~with a joint. Last time for me to taste it in for 6 months~~. It's still way to warm weather in the evenings here. Fucking global warming. Eelco went home, Sanne passed out, Norman refused to speak anything else but Finnish, Romke put on music from the 30s, Anne gradually turned Finnish too and Meg and I were half sleeping on our seats. Than Romke suggested we took a piece of pie. Vittu there's nothing better than Apple-Crumble pie at 4.30! Damn that was great pie... I think we went to bed somewhere around 5.
This morning I realised how I'm already used to short nights, when I was awake already at 9.30. *chuckles* That has to go wrong sometime. I hardly ever sleep and when I do it's only 4-5 hours.... no wonder my health could be better.
Oh shit, I'm so gonna hate myself wednesday during the exams....
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BTW could someone help me? Some time ago I played around with my laptop and now whenever I double click on a folder, instead of opening it, it goes to the 'search'-function... Funny things I still remember fooling around with the options, but now I can't find anymore what I did XD

"Itoshii hito... gaadenia" sighs

2007-01-07T12:29:31Z

What is it, that always when you're not looking forward to something it turns out good and when you're really look forward to something you get disappointed? The birthday-party was quite nice yesterday (might be the combination of vodka-ice and white wine). Instead of previous years, Jitske had now invited friends from school and a few fellow young mothers, I already knew of few of them, so it was nice talking with them about studies or their little kids. Sorry, I like to be open minded but there were years she had invited people that were way to 'hiphoppy' for me. The guys were here this year too, but they were in the smokingshed outside. And as always Jitkse was the perfect host, trying to fill you with alcohol and thinking you never ate with all the kind of food she had prepared. So it was nice. It's always nice to meet people and see old friends. Since we were girls only ofcourse the mather of make-up and specially hair came to the topic. Since most of them have African boyfriends, they know places where you can get fake hair inserted in your hair quite cheap. For a while now I'm really considering to get fake hair or maybe even a wig, so I have more hair. In my imagination my hair used to be way thicker than it is now. All the hairdye kinda affects it. Hmmm I guess I just want something new with my hair, but since it took me this long to let it grow this long, I don't think I ever dare to let there be cut of more than 2 cms. Getting the same length as Sharon den Adel is still my goal, though sometimes I just think: "Fuck it! I want to do something wild with it. Like Mana in M10M or Klaha in his MM time."
Oh yeah we also divided the world, concerning guys from different nationalities: Dorina gets the Arabic countries, Lia get Africa, WS gets England and the US and I'll get Fennoscandia and Japan ^^ XD So Australia, the rest of Europe and Latin America are still on sale if someone wants :p Yeah, wine is fun... LOL at one point Lia and Jitske couldn't tell the difference anymore between white win and Martini ("Martini Baby!!!")....

Oh and Lizzie-chan: Arigatou for the videos! That solo of Yu~ki *kawaii* Suddenly I want to be a bassguitar.... And I just love his "crazy-French-pirate-captain-outfit" That guy really has the most scary and enticing eyes ever...