Dreamer Journal

Update from China~!

2011-05-17T03:49:40Z

Hello, everyone~!

Berri is presently in China.
Deviantart and plurk don't work, which is sad. My internet at my dorm doesn't work either,so I can't get on IM. I have a bit of time here, so I was sorta hoping! If anyone from Mayfield sees this, can you call a hiatus for me? I had thought it would work. I feel a bit silly. I might not be able to get internet at all during this trip.

My characters are wontjustwait, bluefrompallet, badend_replay, beheadthe_truth, and fatedmagica. I really will try my hardes to be able to get online, but right now, I just wanna be safe! ;n; Thank you, anyone that can help me out...

My Sister is a Mary-Sue

2010-12-09T01:50:14Z

She's going to Africa for her summer vacation to do community service.

Because she wants to.

I'm already lonely.
Love sister love sister.
Missing missing missing missing missing.

...
But I'm proud of her. Even though I'll miss her.

sugarvoice @ 2010-11-30T10:11:00

2010-11-30T15:11:18Z

I took everyone's advice and I practiced! I told my friends I was nervous, so they all put time aside to practice with me there to cling to them if I got scared. It felt silly at first, and at first I was really really scared, but it got a lot easier really quick!

So Berri has conquered her fear of Left4Dead~!

I event shot 36 zombies~... and missed over 300 times but that's not what matters, the fact is that I can sorta shoot. I'm even feeling confident enough to start practicing on my own, so that I don't mess up!

And the semester is coming to a close! I'm really lucky, because most of my classes just require me to do some take home exams, like writing an essay in Japanese or reflecting on my Public Speaking in 5 pages, so I might even get to go home early. Lucky~.

NaNoWriMo is almost done. Too bad I got too busy to participate. But I got enough written for my Visual Novel project that my friend agreed to help me do proper character designs. Yay~.

Anyway, Berri is all set and ready to try hard until the semester ends ! Fight Fight! I hope everyone else can do their best too!

B-Berri might be weak...

2010-11-27T04:01:56Z

I appear to have a problem on my hands.

It is not my stalker. It is actually not something very serious. It is sort of dumb and not worth a second entry today, so do not worry, but Berri needs to get brave before tomorrow!

You see, a friend of Berri's that is very nice bought an online game subscription for her other friends and Berri was included. It is called "left4dead2". But she asked, she asked "Do you like zombies?".
And I said "Sure!" Because there is a cool not scary zombie character in Mayfield so zombies must be okay. THUMBS UP.
And then she bought it for me as a gift so I could play with her and our friends, because Berri's an old geezer and everyone counts on her with these sort of games. Like when we play Mitadake High!

But you see, Berri is a bad girl. I-I started up the game a bit early... I wanted to practice and be awesome so I could be useful! And this opening movie played and I realized that I'm a scaredy cat. C-cause there was this guy who got mauled with a shovel thing and this girl whose throat was "blegh" and she was "blegh" and then there was shooting and and

eep.

So I need to get brave fast! Because I am expected to play tomorrow! And help out!
um.
Does anyone have tips for how to play first person shooters?
Maybe even with your eyes closed.
I used to play them when my neighbors were into them and I had to show them why you don't make fun of Berri, but they sucked so I didn't have to do much to be better than them. that was mean to say, I'm sorry neighbors.
I don't want to disappoint everyone and I definitely don't wanna run away. I just need tips for these shooty games! So I can be an ace. Everyone is looking forward to playing with me! I don't want them to be sad because Berri is stupid.

I'm sorry to be so needy and awful and whiny again, but I really really don't want to have to say I'm too scared to play with everyone, when they're all looking forward to having me play with them...

New Phone Number!!!!!

2010-11-26T21:44:50Z

Because guess who called me for a Thanksgiving date!

And Berri thought "nnnnnnno" and she said "never call again please thnx" and then she marched to Verizon and she told her the problem and they changed her phone number!

Yaaaay!!!

So um. If anyone here had my number/has a non-creepy reason to want it and needs it updated then say so! Thanks!

sugarvoice @ 2010-11-10T15:49:00

2010-11-10T20:49:04Z

I sent the e-mail.
He'd e-mailed be asking me when my Thanksgiving break was, so I told him to please leave me be. I tried my best to be polite. That I appreciate that he cares but it's making me uncomfortable and to please leave me be. That I didn't give him that contact info for a reason. That I don't appreciate him taking it upon himself to find it. That I don't want to talk about where I am or what I'm doing or when I'm coming back and if he can take me places or anything like that because I only know him as someone from work and stuff.

I hope that gives him the hint.
And I told my sisters, since I think the e-mail address he's been contacting me on might be the one I put down on my application for my job. Please don't let him have gotten it off that. That would mean he could know more stuff about me. Aah, don't scare yourself anymore, Berri.

Now I just have to hope he gets the hint and stuff.

Thank you to everyone who helped me out. I'm sorry to have bothered you all. But it really helped Berri be brave and tell him to go away.
It feels kind of nice to have that done.
Now I can start answering my phone again. Yaay.

sugarvoice @ 2010-11-09T22:40:00

2010-11-10T03:41:00Z

First my phone number...

That wasn't creepy. Phone calls are okay. Random texts are okay. Asking when I'm coming back is okay.
I'll deal with it.
I just won't pick up to that phone number. In fact, I'll go ahead and block it.

Then new phone numbers.
Okay, maybe I blocked the wrong number?
It's not creepy. I'm being paranoid, right?
I can just never answer a number I don't recognize.
Easy.

But how did he get my e-mail address and IM screen name?! I never give those out! That e-mail isn't even for friends and stuff! It's for fandubs and stuff!
And my IM screen name? I don't use my real name anywhere! How'd he connect it to me?

Am I allowed to be scared now? I hope he doesn't watch my LJ... What if he does? I really don't want to make a big deal out of this, but it's starting to creep me out.
Maybe I'm being paranoid.

Candy is hard to earn, auu.

2010-10-17T17:46:54Z

你好！
请问，你贵性？
um... And then... Well, I went had a fun day with my friends yesterday! Fru小姐 and Kia小姐 and myself met up to watch Haruhi together! Ano, uh... Fru小姐是美国人。 Kia小姐也是美国人。Fru小姐叫Alice-san. Kia小姐叫Rebecca-san. um...
And then, um... Alice-san有妈妈，爸爸，和姐姐。 Rebecca-san有妈妈，爸爸，和两弟弟。

um um... I think that's it...

Um... 你好 is "Hello" and um.... 请问，你贵性 was "Please May I ask your honorable name?" and um... 小姐 is "Miss" and...Fru小姐是美国人 means" Miss Fru is an American" and then um... Kia小姐也是美国人 was "Miss Kia is also an American". Fru小姐叫Alice-san is "Miss Fru is called Alice-san" and...Alice-san有妈妈，爸爸，和姐姐 "Alice-san has a mother, father, and older sister" and... Rebecca-san有妈妈，爸爸，和两弟弟 "Rebecca-san has a mother, father, and two younger brothers"...

Yeah, that's about it. And um... I'm still giving away candies, if anyone wants my candy..! mm...
I'll edit this later with that recording...auauuu, so embarrassed...

I want to share CANDY too!

2010-10-16T17:30:18Z

1 ★ Create a graphic (200 x 200 max size) to represent your personal "candy". It should have your username on it, but otherwise can feature whatever you want. Make it something special since it's self-representative.

2 ★ Make a post with the subject "trick or treat?". Put your "candy" somewhere in it, and be sure to repost these instructions.

3 ★ Then, go around other people's LJs and reply to them with either "trick" or "treat". If you reply with "trick", they will give you an LJ dare that you have to perform before taking their candy. If you're too wimpy for that, simply say "treat" and take their candy.

4 ★ List all your collected candies in your original "trick or treat?" post to show off your collection!

Berri Berri Candy

Candy I've Collected
I need to get braver before I try... ^^;

It's Hufflepuff Day!

2010-10-09T16:12:54Z

By which I mean, our school's homecoming.

Seriously, our school colours are black and yellow. When the tailgating starts it looks like a Hufflepuff camp-out between a Quidditch match.

Unfortunately, our Football team is not nearly as amusing to watch as our Quidditch team (yay, Quidditch~). So, I am going to an amusement park thingy this afternoon. School spirit x 10000. I'm going with my BFF Kazi-san and Rebecca-san and Alice-san. Kazi-san will probably speak Chinese to me and make me cry, but I'm sure it'll be fun otherwise!

So yeah! Looking forward to that! Then I get to come home and finish off my lines for TMM: Nutshell episode 9! Yay! Go Berri! Fight-o Fight-o!
And write the next bit of my Visual Novel. The writing is easy though. It's making those darned character sprites that's killing me. But I'll do my best! I'm getting a lot of support, so I sorta have to!

RP-wise:
o) Working on my Abby application. I think I might have to give up on canon reviewing all 7 seasons and just pick out the Abby-awesome episodes...
o) Considering new characters for Planeocracy and Mayfield. I was going to app Platina to Mayfield, but a friend saw my reserve and asked me to play somewhere else with her. So scratch Platina. ^^;;; Hopefully I'll be able to narrow down my potential muses soon... Trying to have some self-control here, at least.

sugarvoice @ 2010-10-05T01:28:00

2010-10-05T05:28:42Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZIYA!!!!

AND HAPPY ROKKEJIMA MASSACRE, EVERYONE!

Got a speech today~! Gonna do my best~ Go go I can do it, I know it!

sugarvoice @ 2010-10-03T00:55:00

2010-10-03T04:55:11Z

I feel quite accomplished!
I got a bit more work on my Visual Novel done, and feel like I'm moving at a good pace. It's been pretty fun to write, and even though Berri's art is crap, I think I'm doing okay there too. At least enough to get an idea across.

I caught a Shiny Ratatta in Pokemon while I took a writing break too, which made me very happy! And I traded with CC-san, which was fun. I need to find out which of my friends have the newer games and like trading, because it's really fun.

I should also think about going to bed soon, but I'm on a roll with writing and don't want to stop just yet, nope. Gotta do my best!

sugarvoice @ 2010-09-29T19:03:00

2010-09-29T23:03:25Z

I found a soy protein drink today! It tastes good! I hope it'll help make up for my lack of protein lately!

And I'm pretty far into my Visual Novel. fwah, it's a bit of a pain to write at times! I've got the characters figured out and I've mapped out the menus and stuff, so now I've got to focus on writing. I need to stop writing such creepy stories, though.

Fight fight, at least I'm having fun?

sugarvoice @ 2010-09-24T10:16:00

2010-09-24T14:16:50Z

Auuu! I forgot to do an assignment! Stupid stupid stupid Berri. He doesn't accept late work either! I guess that means I'll have to do so absolutely amazing on the next assignments that I just blow that zero right out of the water! WSSH.

I'm trying to be confident here.

I got a 100% on my Chinese quiz! I'm really happy that my hardwork actually paid off! I'm getting better at the tones too, which is nice. I couldn't get them to save my life before.

Aiming to have Chapter 10 of Card Captor Zanka drawn and ready for scanning by Monday. Hopefully by the end of next week I'll have two chapters stocked up, and then if I do a third I think I can safely start releasing again. And I'll try to get 20 Game of Fate pages in reserve and then... meh. I'm busy, I'll just try to be that.
Miku application shouldn't be too much longer either. Yaay!

Japanese test is today and I'm gonna do my very best! I sent CC-san and V-san's Pokemon games yesterday! I can't wait for them to arrive. And I threw in my Platnium for Ken! I hope that'll cheer him up. He's been going through too much lately.

Okay, off to study! Fight Fight, Berri, Fight!

sugarvoice @ 2010-09-19T02:37:00

2010-09-19T06:37:48Z

At first, I was sad about not going to Con. But today was actually really fun! There was a football game and since our school's colours are yellow and black the tailgating looked like a Hufflepuff party!

But I didn't tailgate or watch the game.I went and bought my friends some presents instead! Because they said they wanted these games and I thought I should buy them for them! Because it'll cheer them up and they really need something to smile about right now.

And then I got Rule of Rose! I'm so so so excited about finding this game! It's really fun so far! Of course, Haunting Ground pwns it, but Haunting Ground was just amazing like that. Jennifer isn't nearly as pretty as Fiona and she does these weak little punches instead of Fiona's kicking. Right now I have Jennifer armed with a dessert fork. Because scissors apparently aren't weapons.

After I played a bit, I sat down to work on my writing projects~. I was feeling very inspired. Though, so far, this story I'm writing is a bit creepy. I have this bad habit of writing creepy things.

So I had a good day today! I hope tomorrow will be even better! Fight-o Fight-o!

sugarvoice @ 2010-09-17T23:55:00

2010-09-18T03:56:07Z

I had a fun day today ! I got to skype with my friend it made me so so happy! Thanks for inviting me!

This weekend I was going to a convention, but I passed out again and my friends decided I shouldn't go. I guess that's a good move. I just hope that this doesn't mean those annoying fainting spells are coming back.

sugarvoice @ 2010-09-09T22:54:00

2010-09-10T02:54:51Z

Yay! I got all of my homework done EARLY and I'm going to I DUNNO QUITE KNOW WHERE this weekend! It sounds fun though! And I get to be with my friends!

I think I've dealt with all of my problems. I'm such a troublesome person. But at least I'm feeling better. And I got my PS2 all hooked up in my dorm, so once I finish this chapter outline and draw the first few pages I can play a video game! Not sure which one yet, but probably Persona4 or Okami. Or maybe I'll watch some Magical Project S. No matter what I choose, it'll be fun!

Oh! And I've been extremely self-centered and terrible lately! So I hope everyone is doing okay! If there's any way I can repay you for putting up with me than let me know! Thanks a bunch!

sugarvoice @ 2010-09-07T22:15:00

2010-09-08T02:16:15Z

I hate it when I'm left in the dark.
I hate it when you try to sugar coat things.
I hate that you lied to me just to try to turn me against my real friends.
I hate that I thought I could trust you.
And I really hate that I feel so sorry for you and want to be your friend just the same.

Berri needs to stop hating things.

Another Good Day!

2010-09-03T03:14:55Z

Rewatching old shows always make me happy! I'm glad to be reviving some of my old muses. I need to work really hard to get them all up to 100%! I don't want to hold my castmates back.
Though, someone I really liked roleplaying with is dropping from my favorite/only game. That makes me really sad. I wish I could be awesome enough to keep up at the game they're going to focus their activity on. But I just had to drop at Mayfield, so Berri is going to be smart and just focus on her Japanese and Chinese for now.

Tomorrow I'm going to show off all of my hard work practicing to my Chinese teacher! I will be great! I will do my best! It will be okay! Don't cry in class, Berri! And don't choke up and nearly suffocate yourself again either. That was so embarrassing.

Oh oh! And I get to go home for the weekend tomorrow! I really want to stay on campus, truthfully, but my mom misses me and I don't want to make her feel like she needs to drive up here and fret over my future.

Today I fought hard, and tomorrow I'll fight even harder! GO~ Berri! Yay! I hope it's not bad to cheer for yourself.

Oh.

I'll cheer for everyone else too! Is that selfish of me too? I hope everyone has a great day tomorrow! It's Friday, so let's all do our super bests!

Note to Self

2010-09-02T13:12:56Z

If your friends watch Higurashi, don't send them a text asking if they think you should "transfer out". It has too much potential for misunderstanding, especially if they send their interpretation of this text to your mother, you would consider transferring to be as good as death anyways.

Also, pick up bigger trash bags and stop taking everyone's art requests. Sit down and beat up the printer later too. It's being a stupid bully again. And stop being a wimp.

Maybe I should buy myself a tart at the bakery. That'll make me feel better. But am I really the one who needs to be cheered up right now? Don't be selfish either, okay?

Stop talking to yourself, you have friends for a reason.

Worried Sick

2010-08-31T14:37:17Z

I need to stop being stupid. I worried myself sick last night and promptly displayed stomach flu symptoms upon waking up. I need to be more careful. I ended up missing class while cleaning up. I fail. I missed my logic class. Logic class is one of my favorites ;___;

But it's okay! Because I scolded myself, so I can try to go to Public Speaking! It's not far from my dorm so I can probably make it. Maybe I'll even pop in to lunch so my friends don't worry. It'll be okay. No more worrying. I don't wanna get sick again.

sugarvoice @ 2010-08-26T16:03:00

2010-08-26T20:03:28Z

My classes all seem super fun! I have a schedule full of things that I really really want to take! I can't wait for them to really get moving!

I made some new friends in Chinese too. I'm letting them borrow my Anime, because they've never seen it. I hope they can enjoy it~.
In Public Speaking today I had to give a speech! I think I even did okay! We were asked to do an speech with no planning on something that interested us, so I got to lecture everyone on how easy Japanese is to learn! Everyone really liked it, though my teacher gave me a hard time because my voice is so high. She said "you don't have to pretend you're a Japanese character for your speech". But it's okay! I'll just practice speaking low for her class. I'm good at pretending.

Busy busy already, but I'm so excited! This year's gonna be awesome, I just know it! I hope everyone else is having a good year too!

Awesome Year GO~!

2010-08-24T19:53:05Z

I'm signed up for all my classes except one is still up in the air but I'll figure it out! Moved in too and my new roomie is wonderful! Her name is Sarah! I like her a lot! I'm also spending a lot of time with my friends! *^^* It makes me so happy~!

Hopefully I can get a job too, because my friend Caitlyn-san invited me to a convention in Atlanta. It sounds fun and I can get a lot of FMA VA signatures so I'll probably go! The admission'll be cheap if I pay by the end of the month, but I've gotta keep an eye on my wallet for Youmacon.
Oh, and food and lolita stuff. Those are important for surviving.

Everyone at school likes the way I dress too, which makes me happy. I was nervous the first time I dressed up.

Anyway! Gonna be back at full activity as soon as I can! Doing my best! Fight-o Fight-o!

Brave Berri!

2010-08-21T12:25:48Z

I was super brave! I told my friend that it bothered me and asked to play the game with her!

.... So maybe that wasn't a total success. If I'd completely done my job right then I'd have gotten her unaddicted, but I was more concerned about keeping us friends at the moment. Does that make me bad? But after we played for a bit, she asked if she could talk, and we just chatted for a while! It made me happy that she threw the game-playing away on her own to just talk to me. It was fun too! I was very happy.

And now I'm moving into my college dorm! Yay! Fight Berri Fight! I dunno who my new room mate is, at least not like up close I've e-mailed her a bit and she has an XBOX which is gonna be AWESOME I love XBOX stopbeingsuchageekberri. Oh, and she's been engaged for a year and she's really nice and likes artsy stuff too and understands the making of artistic messes and stuff and she likes musicals and old Disney movies! I'm really excited to meet her today!

I'm gonna do my best to have only one room mate this year! And should Fate want to toss two or three my way, I have resolved not to be the one tricked into leaving and if the boyfriend/fiance activties scar me I will say something this time rather than getting a new room! And I'll do well in my classes too.

Thanks to everyone who supported me about the friend thing! I'm gonna be more daring and brave about friends too! Those are my goals for this year!
Not counting all of my msc goals that are fueled by my otaku-ness.

sugarvoice @ 2010-08-17T16:04:00

2010-08-17T20:04:32Z

I waited a really long time for her to call. I was scared stiff to hear that she was going through tough times and that she was so stressed out and upset. And then the one time she did get in contact with me, it was to yell at me about a computer game. I figured she was just stressed. That playing a game to calm herself hadn't helped and her everyday life troubles had mixed with the game or something. I tried to help out, but she just stopped talking after yelling at me. And now I've been waiting over a week to hear from her again. It sort of crossed my mind, but I didn't want to believe it.

I just worried so much and cried about being a bad friend who couldn't help you through the struggles that kept you from talking to me, only to find out that those troubles were VIDEO GAMES. A stupid MMORPG! You yelled at me and made me worry for a whole week so you could LEVEL UP?

Well, congrats on completing that quest. I'm really happy for you. Really. Now go ignore me for a bit longer and pretend I didn't check with them and find out that game is all you've been doing lately.

I'm just really glad you weren't really suffering. From anything but I guess my company, if you'd tell such a big lie as an excuse not to talk to me anymore. I'm sorry that I didn't trust you, so much that I had to check if maybe you were just playing your stupid game.
I'm even more sorry because I was right. And that I wish I could go back to thinking you were really were suffering and that you really did have a good reason for not calling me back.

I'm such a bad friend, ne?

It's pretty pathetic that I'm angsting to my LJ. I guess it's better than ruining her happiness? I bet she's glad to think her lying to me worked. I wonder if she's going to be happy that I worried?

Putting my pitiful angst aside.
I went to the library! I'm on a library manga binge! I read Ouran 1-5 and Bleach 1-15 and tomorrow I'll go find the rest of those series at the South Library. I move in to school next Saturday and my new room mate seems like a very nice person so far. Better still, my sister's room mate is someone she knows, so I don't need to worry much. I'm all packed up and just waiting for the green light so I can head back to school!